A love that burns

I can say a little bit, it is God's will if I can't finish talking.

I also chose to live on campus in high school. I was in a different class from Wang Yi but on the same floor.High school studies are heavy, and my parents have high expectations of me. I also hope that there are things that can be used to divert my attention, so I "only read sage books and keep my ears shut."

I gradually began to feel that I didn't think of Wang Yi very much, and my liking for him seemed to have faded a lot. On this basis, I turned a deaf ear to his blatant love affair at school.For a while, he became an ordinary brother to me, nothing special at all.

I couldn't see such superficial emotional changes at the time. At that time, it was too late to avoid him, and I even repelled myself from thinking about him.I dare not think about it, for fear that the feelings that were so easily dispersed will come back.In short, how much I wanted to stay away from him when I was young, and how much I wanted to be close to him when I grew up.

When I was in the second year of high school, one day, my mother came to the school to find me. I thought it was because of something. It turned out that Wang Yi was called by the teacher to have a talk because of a relationship problem. After the talk, the teacher went to the parents again.Parents are thinking about how to educate him at home, but whether he behaves well at school is another matter.

So my mother came to me and asked me to help her take care of Wang Yi at school and perform my brother's duties.I promised to be good with my mouth, and went to Wang Yi to tell him that he was also full of good.

After a while, it was true that he was no longer in love with girls, but when this road was blocked, he impatiently opened another road.When he was adolescence, he was like a devil in sheep's clothing. Others were willing to make friends with him seeing how innocent he was on the surface. When he had many friends, it was inevitable that he would form cliques and become a gangster that no one in school would dare to mess with.

But he's okay, rather than being called a punk, it's more appropriate to call him "a kid who's been at ease for too long and wants to do some damage".He bullied his classmates, and sometimes he would help those classmates when they were bullied by others; he often asked people for protection money, and then returned it after asking; so as far as I know, the classmates are actually not very afraid of him.

This is a relatively warm memory, carefree.He often told me before that the happiest time of his life was when he was a student, if everything was not built on a false high platform.

People in the third year of high school were out of breath, and even Wang Yi stopped, and went to study hard with his textbooks all day long.However, a misfortune happened to me for no reason, which indirectly caused me to tell Wang Yi that he was an adopted son.

I remember that it was early spring, a rainy day, I was sitting in the classroom reading a book in the morning, but found that the students who came in one after another were looking at me with strange eyes.Until the class teacher came to call me when the class bell rang, she looked at me inexplicably, as if she found out that I had done something shameful.

When I arrived at the office, the teacher slapped a piece of paper in front of me. I looked down, and my limbs were frozen instantly.There were a few large characters printed on the paper, which read: Wang Yu is a disgusting homosexual.

A photo was pasted under the words: two men face each other under the school streetlights and seem to be kissing.Although the face cannot be seen from the back, the shorter one has the same clothes as I wore yesterday, and more obviously, the schoolbag in his hand is exactly the same.

I was there yesterday but I was talking to my roommate who is taller and keeps his head down when he talks, I only reach his shoulders so I have to look up and we are not as far apart as in the photo so close.It's such an ordinary thing, being photographed with a camera by others with ulterior motives, it turns out that we are kissing...

I was shocked, angry and scared, and my voice was trembling when I explained it. Fortunately, the teacher believed me, and after calling my roommate to confirm, he said that he would help us find out who did it.

I still don't know who did it. Surveillance was not popular in those days, and it was in school.

Although I was very angry with the rumor-monger, I was actually even more afraid. At that time, I thought that if it was revenge on me, what method would not work? Why did you say that I was gay?Did that person see my feelings for Wang Yi, but I obviously don't have any feelings? Could that person see something that I didn't even notice?

I was thinking wildly, but instead I hoped not to find out who the culprit was, so as to avoid an embarrassing confrontation.

After more than a month, I felt that there was no chance of finding it, so I relaxed my mind and tried my best to forget about it.

As for the roommate and I who were dragged into the water, although embarrassment was unavoidable, they returned to their original state after the storm subsided, and we are still the best buddies.So that day, he went to the school's small supermarket to buy things, and after he had to turn off the lights in the dormitory and didn't come back, the task of finding him fell on me.

At night, I looked along the road to the supermarket to see if he was passed out in some corner. He was not in good health, and then I saw him and Wang Yi fighting at the corner of the teaching building.

I was startled and ran over quickly. The two of them on the ground were inextricably punched. It took me a long time to pull them apart, and then I heard my roommate scold Wang Yi: "You are so crazy."

I asked what was wrong, but before my roommate could open his mouth, Wang Yi sneered and said, "Wang Yu, you treat him as a good friend, but he doesn't take you seriously. Otherwise, why wouldn't he say anything if he knew it clearly?"

I asked: "Know what? Why refuse to say?"

The roommate yelled angrily, and his face changed: "I know a ghost, he just deliberately picked on me!"

"Do you dare to touch your conscience and say that you don't know who took that photo?"

When I heard that Wang Yi was talking about photos, I was immediately embarrassed.He never mentioned this to me for more than a month. I thought he didn't see it, but now he said it from his mouth.I just feel goosebumps popping up all over my body, I just want to leave them and run away, of course I can only think about it.I suppressed my embarrassment, and I couldn't explain to him that I didn't want to find out who the culprit was at all, so I wanted to make it a trivial matter, and said to him: "It's been so long, forget it."

Hearing what I said, his expression became surprised and angry, and he said angrily: "Forget it? How can it be counted! This is a matter of reputation, how can it be counted if you don't figure it out!"

"It's okay, the teacher explained everything."

"Hmph, hearing is believing. Seeing is believing. So many people have only seen the photos, and they don't care who explained what. In their eyes, you are just a roommate with you (Wang Yu's original words are like this, and they don't want to reveal the name of the roommate. ) Kissing! Sex! Love!"

He said the last three words very strongly, as if reminding me that the more I want to stay away from this word, the closer it will be to me. The more I deceive myself, the more reality makes me see myself clearly.But I didn't want to see it. At that time, the only thing I did was to cover my eyes and pretend I didn't see it.

So, that night, I said to Wang Yi in a stiff tone, "Don't care about your business."

He was stunned for a long time and didn't speak. When I was about to leave with my roommate, I heard him sneer and say, "I really don't understand why my parents adopted such a weird person like you."

I looked back at him, and said without thinking: "I don't know who is the adopted son."

His expression changed, and he asked me, "What do you mean?"

Wang Yi later told me that before I told the truth, he actually had doubts, because I, an "adopted son", can see the similarities with my parents in appearance, but he himself, no matter how he looks in the mirror , I just can't see the shadow of my parents.

But he didn't think much about it, there are too many children in the world who don't look like their parents, and there are also many coincidences that the two look alike.It never occurred to him that it turned out that he was adopted, and everything was reversed.

Confronting my parents that night was peaceful.And no matter how much my parents emphasized to Wang Yi, that he was their son and he was no different from me, he never said a word.

Life continues as usual, but things are different and people are different.

Although I felt that I was too reckless at that time, I refused to apologize. Instead, I quarreled with him once and told him: I knew the truth the first time we met, but I didn’t say it, and I deliberately put the cart before the horse. In order to see your pain now.

I regretted provoking him so much at the time, but what I said was like an arrow from a bow, and I could never turn back.

He finally said to me: "Then you made it."

After graduating from high school, he chose to do a summer job, and he came back very late every day, looking very tired every day.He went abroad to study in university, and I also went to the other side of China to go to school.He seldom came back during those four years. Sometimes the living expenses sent by his parents would be returned intact. He was striving for self-reliance and wanted to leave the family.

Time flies, four years of university, one year of work, when we meet again after a long absence, we are both 24 years old.

At that time, as the scope of communication expanded, the people I came into contact with were generally mature. Although I was still reticent, my thoughts were also subtly changing.

In the beginning, people often asked me if I had a lover and when I planned to get married. I answered truthfully no, I didn't plan, but Wang Yi always appeared in my heart.

When I was in high school, I thought I didn't like him anymore, but I realized when I grew up that it was just a flat period of emotion. In fact, the love has not diminished at all. When I meet every day, I don't feel it. After several years of separation, the feeling is like the stars. The fire, blown by the wind of parting, began to burn like a prairie fire.

I want to see him so badly, I don't have to say anything, just look at him.But what qualifications do I have to say that, today's situation is like this, I have something to do with it.