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Jingzhao Du's "How are you getting along with your father today? Let me show you the couplet written by Du You"

Jingzhao Du's [picture]

Lu Gou "It's strange, you would send me a message on your own initiative"

Lu Gou "It's so beautiful"

Lu Gou "However, I may not be able to reply in time today, please forgive me."

Jingzhao Dushi "...what's wrong?"

Jingzhao Dushi "Are you okay? Are you okay?"

Lu Gou "It's okay, I'm just a little busy, don't worry about it"

Du Yu frowned.

20:00

Cui Nanzhe: "Oh, let me go, why don't I know any hosts this year?"

Du You: "It's not just the host, I read the program list, and there are not many old acquaintances of the sketch actors, even I miss you all."

Mother Cui: "Looks like I'm really old, it's all your young people's world now. But who is this handsome guy in the red dress? He's so handsome."

Father Cui: "Aren't I more handsome than him when I was young?"

At this moment, the air conditioner is blowing warmly, the lamps on the wall are glowing with ink luster, the crystal lamp in the living room is brightly lit, and each piece of glass hides colorful rays of light.

The family watched the Spring Festival Gala while peeling oranges. In the fresh orange fragrance, Du Yu smiled and listened to their jokes, and the TV was full of joy.

Jingzhao Du's "The Spring Festival Gala has begun, but this year everyone is so new, will you watch it?"

Lugou "maybe"

00:00

"Ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two, one!"

"Happy New Year!"

Jingzhao Du's "Happy New Year"

Jingzhao Dushi [Cat and cat New Year's greetings.gif]

Lu Gou "Happy New Year Baby"

Lugou [Red Envelope]

You received Lugou's red envelope

Jingzhao Du's "Too much! It's enough if you want to"

Jingzhao Du's [Red Envelope]

Lu Yinke didn't come back.

Du Yu was a little absent-minded.

In other words, as early as he sent the first message to Lu Yinke, and even since Lu Yinke stopped sending him messages on his own initiative, he had no intention of celebrating the new year.

It's not like him.

Not like Lu Yinke, nor like himself.

He was indeed a little worried.

Because he didn't sleep well at night, Du Yu was also groggy when he woke up early in the morning, as if someone locked him in a metal bell jar and knocked him straight.

He turned his head and looked at Du You, who was still sleeping comfortably in the bed, struggled again and again, and slowly took out his phone from beside the pillow.

Jingzhao Du's "Happy Chinese New Year, when will you come to pay New Year's greetings?"

Lifting his head and letting out a long sigh, his mind is now full of the impromptu decision made last night.

However, according to Lu Yinke's temper, he is probably still asleep at this time, even if he...

Lugou [voice]

"Wait for two days, what's the rush... No hurry."

strangeness.

Jing Zhao Du Shi "Why did you get up so early today?"

Lugou [voice]

"Hey, what are you talking about. Go to bed early and get up early... How about your health, I will get up early every day from now on!"

After hearing this, Du Yu smiled at first, but then became more worried. He simply turned over and got out of bed, and hurried to take a taxi there without even bothering to eat breakfast.

He has been taken back by Lu Yinke too many times, and he is already familiar with his home.It's just that the security here is strict, and he didn't tell Lu Yinke that he came here, so he could only enter the building with someone else's door card.

Standing in front of the door, he raised his hand hesitantly, and put it down before knocking on it.

Does that mean he came here uninvited?Whether it was a surprise or a fright, he couldn't tell.

But he was really worried...

Forget it, at most Lu Yinke will talk nonsense.

He didn't care about Sanqi 21 any more, he lowered his head and slammed it hard.

The sound of footsteps came faintly from the door.

"Who the hell! You beat your mother early in the morning!"

The door was pushed open with force.

"Knock what! There is a doorbell next to you, don't you know how to ring?! An orphan, your mother must...!"

The stench of alcohol and the mist of second-hand smoke came to the face, and there were endless curses that could be called vicious.

Du Yu looked at the people in the room with a pale face.

The person in front of him is Lu Yinke.

This scruffy man with unshaven beard, black eyes, matted hair, and dark water stains on his clothes is actually the usual delicate and coquettish Lu Yinke!

Du Yu took a deep breath, desperately resisting the urge to slam the door and leave, and finally squeezed out a few difficult words from between his teeth angrily.

"Is this what you said about getting up early?"

"...It's you." Lu Yinke's expression turned from astonishment to calmness, "Why are you here?"

This sentence smacked of refusal, Du Yu tugged at the corner of his mouth, and forced a very stiff smile, "What? I can't come?"

"It's not... Forget it, come in first, it's cold outside." The other party reluctantly gave way to the aisle, "It's just that you shouldn't come now."

"I shouldn't? Then when do you think I should come? When you are fully prepared and can pretend to be a gentleman with a smiling face no matter who knocks on the door?" Du Yu sneered, "Look at your current appearance , I'm afraid this is your nature?"

Hearing this, Lu Yinke inadvertently clenched his fists, his thumb was congested with blood, and his joints creaked.

"Then why did you come? Didn't I tell you to wait? Why did you come? Are you here to quarrel with me, or to see my jokes?" His voice was hoarse with a hangover, " Yes, that’s right, I’m really that kind of person. If you’re used to it, go in, if you don’t like it, get out, I don’t want to see you now.”

Du Yu sneered again, turned his head slightly, his eyelashes were half-drawn down tiredly, and bit the thin skin on his lips impatiently.

The first active concern was exchanged for the words "I don't want to see you", and I was so embarrassed.

"Okay, I'm leaving now." He said lightly.

But as soon as he turned around, before he had time to take a step, he was dragged into the room with great force by the people behind him, and the anti-theft door that he took behind him let out deafening weeping.

"Don't leave." The man tightly locked Du Yu's waist and abdomen with his hands, pressing his ribs so hard, "You are mine, even the belt and bones are mine. I won't let you leave, so you can't leave. "

"If you run one more time, I will find a hemp rope to tie you up and circle you by the bed every day to see if you dare to run."

"You said you liked me. How could you leave so easily if you liked me? You are also the chairman of the student union. Pooh, I'm so irresponsible to my boyfriend. I'll write a letter to impeach you right away."

Du Yu grinned from being strangled, grabbed his hand and confronted him.

"You let me go, you don't want to see me." He retorted not to be outdone.

"I told you to leave and you left? When did you become so obedient? Didn't you come back when I didn't let you come?" Lu Yinke muttered and rubbed his neck.

"Stay away from me, it's full of alcohol and cigarettes, and I don't know what's on my body, it's so dirty." Du Yu turned his head in disgust, "Let me go."

"I don't, I'm playing drunk. If you let go, you will run away. I have to break your legs to drag you back. What a trouble."

Du Yu frowned slightly, and the worry when he came couldn't help flooding his heart again.

"What happened to you?"

Lu Yinke groaned twice, "Mm... uncomfortable."

"Drinking so much wine is uncomfortable, how many times have you vomited?" Du Yu finally struggled to get away, "I'm not capable at all, and I'm still drinking blindly, not treating myself as a human being."

"Why are you going? Don't leave." Lu Yinke grabbed his wrist, stunned and took out a hammer from the drawer, "Did you see this? If you leave again, I'll, bam!"

Du Yu looked at him with a complicated expression. This kind of Lu Yinke was really unfamiliar, and he even suspected that this person really wanted to do this.

"I won't go, I'll go and see what can sober you up, and cook a bowl of porridge." He slowly took the real hammer from Lu Yinke's hand and closed the drawer, "Drinking hurts your stomach, are you hungry? "

"I don't want, I don't want to let you go, I miss you..." Lu Yinke's hand was empty, and it was sticky again, "I miss you so much, I don't want you to leave me, I don't want you to go..."

Du Yu had no choice but to walk into the kitchen with an oil bottle hanging on.

"Don't you want to see me?" He asked again.

"I'm too ugly, and I'm not in a good condition." Lu Yinke hummed in a low voice like a mosquito, "I even scolded your family."

"Well, I almost punched you." Du Yu plugged the rice cooker, "You know I hate that word."

"I was wrong, I'm sorry, I will definitely include it in the prohibited vocabulary in the future." Lu Yinke hugged Du Yu like a koala, as if it was his last refuge, "I was really wrong."

Du Yu sighed vaguely, "Is it useful for you to act coquettish and pretend to be pitiful to me? How can you say something so ugly, I will correct it later."

Lu Yinke nodded seriously: "Okay, it's all up to you baby, but you have to supervise me every step of the way so that I can change it."

Du Yu didn't want to talk to him anymore, so he just put the hangover tea on the table.

"Tell me, what happened today."

"What?" Lu Yinke sat down with him, but suddenly shrank his neck, "Well, I really didn't sleep."

Du Yu nodded: "What's the reason for ruining yourself?"

"Reason? Is there a reason? I did it because I thought about it." He paused, "All right, all right. I'll answer seriously, but to be honest, I don't know. It's probably because I'm upset."

"Is it related to your father?"

"Is it related...Is it related? I can't tell." He took Du Yu's palm and pressed it to his face. "Even if it is really related, it has been too long, and nothing can be changed. It's just a simple worry."

"Actually, if I have to say it, I thought about you the most last night, but I don't want to look for you, and I don't want to talk to you. I just think about it, because I feel tired."

"It's very tiring, you can just find a place to lie down, and it doesn't matter if you sleep forever."

"I was too lazy to do anything, and I didn't want to think, so I paralyzed my brain with alcohol and nicotine, and I thought it was okay to live so casually."

"Listen to other people's arrangements, wandering in reality like a walking dead, don't need to worry about it, just do it, simple and boring."

"To me, this world is meaningless. Humans and machines are actually the same. I don't know what I want to do, but I only know how to do it without making mistakes. It's humble and ridiculous."

Before he finished speaking, he suddenly squeezed Du Yu's palm.

"... At least until last year, I always thought so."

Du Yu was so overwhelmed by the negativity in his voice, he could only stretch out his hands to comb his messy hair in distress.

"Then how is your relationship with your father? Do you want to talk to me?"

Lu Yinke nodded, shook his head again, and finally showed some fatigue under Du Yu's gentle movements, and closed his eyes sleepily.

"My dad was the youngest of his generation. At that time, patriarchy was serious. Before him, my grandmother gave birth to girls, so I loved him in every possible way."

"My grandfather is a very traditional cultural person. He has no power, but he is very concerned about the succession of the family. He has a genealogy in his hand, and he claims to be the sixth-generation grandson of Lu Yun, a writer in the Western Jin Dynasty. He must continue his Lu family."

"But my dad, he just wants to start a career and not a family. Career is the most important thing to him, and everything else is optional."

"But he still couldn't beat my grandfather. When he was in his thirties, he was forced to have a few kisses. He randomly picked someone who was good-looking and could do some housework, and got married in a hurry, and then I was born."

"The one who looks okay and can do some housework is my mother."

"Don't talk, I know what you want to ask. You must want to ask me, since my father doesn't love my mother, why did my mother agree to marry him?"

"Because my dad is rich." He smiled bleakly, "Since I can remember, there is nothing on her that is not a luxury, just like the rich ladies in Shanghai."

"But that's just the appearance. No one knows how many bruises my dad has punched on her body wrapped in extravagant skin."

"However, the most ridiculous thing is, do you know what she said when I begged her to divorce my father?"

"She said she couldn't live without those things. She couldn't live without money, cosmetics, bags, cars, and houses."

"I was still young at that time, in the kindergarten grade. I naively thought that the child's persuasion could make the parents change their minds, so I insisted on begging her for several days."

"But one day, she finally got bored of me, so she slapped me with her hand, which was set with a Sri Lankan sapphire ring. The ring was very hard, so hard that if I remember correctly, I was scratched at the time." A bloody mouth."

"After that, I knew that she is a woman who can't live without luxury and face. She only lives for herself."

"Oh, of course, I'm also an important part of her comparison. Fortunately, I was pretty good before high school."

"later……"

"Lately, I'vebeen, I'vebeen losing sleep

Dreaming about the things that we could be..."

The melodious melody rang inappropriately, and Du Yu suspiciously took out the mobile phone with the same ringtone but not vibrating from his pocket and glanced at it.

"It's not yours, it's mine." Lu Yinke interrupted the topic, took a sip of sober tea, "Fuck, it's really bad."

"Hello?" He answered the phone casually.

"Oh, um, good."

"Okay, let's go in the afternoon."

"OK, bye."

He indifferently slapped his phone on the table, but the slightly furrowed eyebrows still exposed the anxiety he tried to hide.

"What's wrong?" Du Yu hesitated for a moment, then asked softly.

"It's nothing." Lu Yinke leaned back lazily, looking at the ceiling with blank eyes, "It was the nurse in the nursing home who called me. She said that my mother wanted to see me."

"nursing home?"

"Ah... oh, I haven't told you about that part yet, have I?" Lu Yinke smiled slightly, and then stated calmly, "When I was in high school, my mother suffered from schizophrenia."

"That's what's called schizophrenia."