tell me

Long-legged Corgi: "Hello, are you there? I'm Du Yu's friend. I recommended modeling tutorials to you in the bookstore last time. I don't know if you remember."

The other party was probably busy, but there was no response for 3 minutes, which also made Lu Yinke's heart flutter.

Is it really good to do it yourself?Really right?Is it too hasty?Is it too casual again?

In fact, if you think about it carefully, for the person you like, everyone will naturally move closer to the person who is familiar with him.He always beat around the bush and pretended not to care about it, asking a few questions, seeming to be concerned about the overall situation, but in fact it was nothing more than one or two light words about him from other people's mouths.

But now that you've opened your mouth, let's keep asking.The key is this person, why didn't he come back?

Lu Yinke was anxious, but it was useless to be anxious, so he had to open QQ and start looking up @全部members one by one.

Registration for the Prize Contest on Literary and Cultural General Knowledge.

Boring, don't go.

Group day activities.

Boring, don't go.

The schedule of the [-]th N University Men's Basketball Tournament.

Lu Yinke clicked in and took a look.

N University has a total of more than 32 departments, such as the Faculty of Liberal Arts, where there are few boys, often a few departments come together to form a team, and there are exactly [-] teams.

This game has been going on since last month, and the next game is the semi-finals.The computer department played against the chemical engineering department, and the astronomy department played against the physics department, from which they advanced to the championship and second place, and the rest played the third place.

Seeing that the object of the competition was the Department of Chemical Engineering, Lu Yinke frowned even more out of boredom.

It's troublesome, it's really Murphy's law to be afraid of anything.The other two teams can pick any one they can handle with ease, only the chemical engineering department they don't want to run into.

It's not that he's afraid of not being as good as others, it's just that the opponent's hands are dirty.Their center forwards have a top-notch level of fouls, and they also specifically get stuck in the referee's blind spot.

Lu Yinke played as a small forward, and it was inevitable to fight the opponent, and he happened to be stuck at this critical juncture, so it was hard not to worry about it.

The phone vibrated twice suddenly, and a small WeChat pop-up window jumped out from above, and Lu Yinke quickly clicked in.

Cui Nanzhe "Oh Brother Lu, I remember"

Cui Nanzhe "I still remember the fact that Du Ge accepted your gift"

Cui Nanzhe: "Ah! And the tutorial you recommended to me last time is very useful and easy to understand. I even got an A for that big homework. Thank you very much."

Cui Nanzhe: "So... uh, do you have anything to do with me bro?"

Long-legged Corgi "is indeed a bit"

Long-legged Corgi: "That's right, although it's presumptuous, but I want to ask you a little bit, Du Yu... what kind of person is he?"

Cui Nanzhe "..."

Cui Nanzhe "He has already accepted your presents and you still don't know what kind of person he is? Is it not good to ask me about this?"

Long-legged Corgi "Actually, I haven't known you Du Ge for long, maybe less than half a year"

Long-legged Corgi "Although I get along with him often, he rarely tells me about himself. Although he doesn't know everything about him, I don't really feel much about him except that his personality is more real and colder."

Long-legged Corgi "I saw that he was quite intimate when he called you last time, and I was wondering if you would know better"

Cui Nanzhe "No, no, it's really not close! In fact, my dad asked him to call me that, and everyone around me calls me that."

Cui Nanzhe: "Cough brother Lu, I feel a little strange, what did you do to offend him or something? You know, if Brother Du knows what I said, I will die a miserable death."

Long-legged Corgi "Haha... a bit."

Long-legged Corgi "He has been ignoring me for half a month, and he doesn't reply to his messages. He would rather skip class than see me"

Cui Nanzhe "Skipping class!"

Cui Nanzhe "The second unbelievable behavior after receiving gifts!"

Cui Nanzhe "You are such an amazing person, Brother Lu! Just because of this, you are definitely different from him!"

Long-legged Corgi "...Really?"

Long-legged Corgi "Then why did he ignore me for half a month? There must be a time limit for anger, right?"

Choi Nam Cheol "Uh, what are you doing brother?"

Cui Nanzhe "He has lived with us for so long and has never been angry. It is a routine operation not to speak, but it is impossible to ignore people"

Cui Nanzhe "I don't live here, I mean I've been a neighbor for so long, it's easy now"

Long-legged Corgi "...do I have to say it?"

Cui Nanzhe "Then I must say it. If you don't say it, how can I give you advice? I haven't encountered it before."

Cui Nanzhe: "By the way, if you want to ask Brother Du, why don't you ask Du You? She must know better."

Long-legged Corgi "Isn't she in class? And with her carefree personality, I don't think it's good to ask her"

Cui Nanzhe "That's right, I can understand it too well! Well, she is a self-satisfied personality, and she is quite complementary with Du Ge."

Cui Nanzhe "So what did you do? I will try to help if I can."

Long-legged Corgi "I like him"

Cui Nanzhe "...?"

Cui Nanzhe "???????"

Cui Nanzhe "?????? What?"

Cui Nanzhe "Brother, are you serious??? Which one you like or that one?"

Long-legged Corgi "It's the one you think you like. Are you so shocked?"

Cui Nanzhe: "Fuck, fuck, of course! If you are a sister, I will rush up and call you immediately. The key point is that you are not only a man, but you also like me, Brother Du? As far as I know, his personality is among boys. Isn't that very unwelcome here?!"

Long-legged Corgi "Really? Why?"

Cui Nanzhe "No, don't you think he is withdrawn? He doesn't like anything that normal boys like to play, and he doesn't want to mix in circles at all. He is handsome and has good grades. Not only does he attract girls, but he is also very arrogant. , it’s a proper beating type, it’s meaningless at all.”

Long-legged Corgi "If you want to say that, it's a little bit, but I think it's pretty cute"

Long-legged Corgi "And I think he actually wanted to fit in, but he just gave up for some reason I don't know"

Long-legged Corgi "Actually, for so long, I feel that he is more like a machine, as if he has never lived for himself"

Long-legged Corgi "What's even more strange is that it's not that he can't, but he doesn't want to. It's like drawing a circle for ants, and they will never take half a step."

Cui Nanzhe "Brother Lu, you... really think so?"

Choi Nam Chul "But if you just like him, why would he be angry? Instead, he should value you more?"

Cui Nanzhe: "Ah, didn't you tell him that?"

Long-legged Corgi "I think I should probably be clear about it"

Cui Nanzhe "? What do you mean?"

Long-legged Corgi "I say it quite often"

Cui Nanzhe "...Ah. Then you guys... talked about it?"

Long-legged corgi "no"

Cui Nanzhe "Then what are you talking about...?"

Long-legged Corgi "It's more...casual?"

Cui Nanzhe "Ah?! So does he know that you like him?!"

Choi Nam Cheol "I'm so anxious!!"

Long-legged Corgi "I think he should, guess what?"

Cui Nanzhe "Don't let him guess!! If you really like him, tell him!!! Otherwise, with his overly cautious character, he would rather avoid than confront you!! No wonder he ignores you!!"

Long-legged Corgi "...so what kind of person is he?"

Cui Nanzhe "Do you really like him?"

Long-legged corgi "I am"

Cui Nanzhe "How can I believe that you really like him? How can you prove it?"

Long-legged Corgi "He was the first person who made me want to change myself"

Cui Nanzhe "Aren't you gay?"

Long-legged Corgi "I'm not, but if it's for him, I can be"

Long-legged corgi "I can be anyone"

Cui Nanzhe "Then don't tell him what I'm going to say next. I believe you really like him for now, and I hope you don't use my trust to hurt him."

Cui Nanzhe "The most important thing! Don't tell him that I told you! Just say that Du You told you!"

Long-legged Corgi "Okay, tell me"

Cui Nanzhe "Hey, where do I start... Brother Du is actually not my neighbor, he is my tenant"

Cui Nanzhe "About ten years ago, my dad brought them back and said that he would rent out the storage room to them in the future. I thought he was a specially adopted child. The first time I saw them, I was so angry that I almost didn't cry. come out"

Cui Nanzhe "Later I found out that it was not, the custody of the two of them is not in my father's hands, but in their second uncle's"

Cui Nanzhe "But his second uncle didn't care about them at all. Not only did he not fulfill his responsibilities, he also coveted his parents' insurance money. It was for that insurance money that they shyly accepted this hot potato."

Cui Nanzhe: "The money is with Du Ge. Du Ge knew that his second uncle was uneasy and kind, so he hid them all. His second uncle couldn't find the money, so he not only refused to feed them, refused to let them go to school, but also threatened Du Ge with a belt. If you don't pay the money, you will beat Du You to death in front of him. Luckily, Brother Du is smart and divided up several accounts to save money, and told him that one of the second uncles took Du You and ran away quickly."

Cui Nanzhe: "I don't know much about the other situations. I only know that they had no place to live after they escaped. Brother Du wanted to work with my dad. My dad didn't agree and felt sorry for them, so he brought them back. That's about it."

Cui Nanzhe "He never talked about it. I heard it from my dad. Don't tell him I said it."

Cui Nanzhe "Oh, you don't know that the first time I saw him, he was covered in bruises and his skin was white. The bruises and bruises looked scary. His eyes were stubborn, and he looked at me for more than a minute." Zhong didn’t make any waves, and I’ve been a little afraid of him ever since.”

Long-legged Corgi "...so his parents died?"

Cui Nanzhe "What? You don't even know this? He didn't tell you anything?! Then shouldn't I tell you so much?!"

Cui Nanzhe: "Yeah...it seems to be a car accident. The rescue failed. I heard that I was quite happy before."

Cui Nanzhe "That's why he doesn't believe in anyone except himself and his sister"

Cui Nanzhe "But I'm just an outsider. I don't know what he thinks in his heart. It's just that this matter is too cruel for any child."

Cui Nanzhe: "Actually, you know, I really hope that he can find someone to talk to. Du You always complains to me, but it has never been the same, because her brother will not open his heart to outsiders."

Cui Nanzhe "That's why I think you are too special to him, maybe Du You thinks so too"

Long-legged corgi "..."

Long-legged Corgi "I didn't know this before...I don't know anything...Although I thought he had a family problem, I didn't expect it to be this serious"

Long-legged Corgi "Thank you for telling me so much, I have to go back and think about it"

Cui Nanzhe "Wait a minute? What are you thinking? You won't give up on me because of this, brother Du, right? He is really good!! Look at him, he is handsome and has good grades! He is also very gentle to his sister! Parents Don’t let him take the blame!! He’s so pitiful!!”

Long-legged Corgi "Don't worry, no"

Long-legged Corgi "I just feel sorry for him, and I have to think about how to give him a future with a sense of security"

Long-legged Corgi "He's so good, it's been so hard for him all these years. I don't want him to live like this again."

Cui Nanzhe: "Stop! Brother Lu, I know you really like him, but can you not tell me? Can you express this disgusting feeling to Brother Du? Well, you don't have to be like this. We will support him in the next few years. Well, they are like family to me, and they are not as miserable as you think."

Lu Yinke said thank you, and finally ended the chat slowly.He leaned his head on the back of the chair with a livid face, but his fingers trembled slightly.

He thought of his mouth that he often couldn't control. He had played life-and-death jokes with Du Yu before, and he always easily uttered so many words that were either hurtful or extravagant to Du Yu.

Can he trust himself?

He believes that he has ghosts.

They are like two levels of a magnet, one that takes feelings too seriously, and one that takes them too lightly.

The serious ones are heavy because they have been lost, so heavy that they can’t speak out, for fear of being betrayed if they speak out;

The light people don't understand why the heavy people are clearly tempted but keep silent, and the heavy people don't understand why it's so easy for the light people to express their love frankly.

But what they have in common is that they all keep their doubts in their hearts.

They're all alone, and everything's been around for so long that it's become a hard-to-change habit.

##

Outside the window was a silent darkness, like a broken ink bottle.

Lu Yinke fell asleep in a daze with his pillow on his arm, the dim yellow desk lamp reflected the shadow of the thick stack of papers in his hand into the wall.

It wasn't until his roommate woke him up that he rubbed his eyes and got up, took a final look at the letter paper in his hand, and finally folded it neatly and put it in the drawer.

This is an unfinished love letter, roughly like this:

Du Yu, I like you.

I mean it, I like you.

In order to make sure you don’t misunderstand on purpose, let me explain it again completely. I like you, the kind of liking that I want to fall in love with you, and the kind of liking that I want to protect you.

I don't know when it started, my thinking can no longer leave you, just like the earth can only revolve around the star of the sun forever.Even though it has been relentlessly rotating, it will never be able to escape the huge gravitational pull of the sun.

But you can be the sun, but I don't want to be the earth.

Because if you are the sun, then I will not be able to get close to you in my whole life. I can only stop at a place 4000 million kilometers away from you and watch how you go from prosperity to death little by little.

I can only watch helplessly, turning into dust together with you, and helpless.

I do not like this.

I still want to be with you as a quantum that will never be annihilated in the universe, and as a pair of quantum that can be entangled no matter how far away after experiencing interaction.

I will know when you are sad, I will know when you are happy, and I will know when you miss me.Of course, you'll also know that I'm thinking of you, and the weight may take up all your thoughts.

But you know, I'm thinking of you.

I don't even have to say it, but you just know it.Just like a fish cries in water, the water will know.

I once thought why I like you, is it because of your handsome appearance or your sharp mind, even if it is neither, it should always be an advantage, right?

Then I found out, neither.

I like you just because that person is you.

I like your arrogant sharpness, your indifferent sternness, and your never-forgiving sarcasm; but I also like your true gentleness, occasional jokes, and even the fragility and sadness that you hate.

You always like someone alone, and you are alone in everything you do.Some things are obviously very difficult for you to do, why don't you come to me?

How I wish I could be bothered by you.

In fact, I am not as strong as you, far behind.I am cowardly, cowardly, cowardly, and dull in soul.

But do you remember the conversation under the stars that day?If I'm not good enough to protect you, can you teach me?I'm not a good student, but I'm a quick learner.

I hate talking about myself, but maybe from the day I fell in love with you, I want to tell you all the things I have experienced, some or not.

I want to talk, and I want to hear you and me talk.

So can you forgive and respond to me?

In two days, our department will play basketball with the chemical engineering department in the semi-finals, in the gymnasium at 02:30 pm.

If you can come and see, I will definitely win.