tell me

——I recently fell in love with someone, but he is the same gender as me, what should I do?

——Is this very important?

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Du Yu felt that something was wrong, he could meet Lu Yinke wherever he went recently.

in the cafeteria.

"Hey, come and have breakfast too."

library.

"Hey, you are also studying here."

Even public electives.

"Hey, what a coincidence, we both chose the same class."

...you also learn postpartum care of sows?

No.

Isn't Lu Yinke not interested in novels? What kind of brief history of Chinese novels should he choose?

I don't understand.

"You appear frequently in front of me recently." Du Yu finally said to Lu Yinke who insisted on sitting next to him and kept leaning on him, "I don't like people next to me in class, I hope you can keep a seat distance from me .”

"Pretentious." Lu Yinke criticized him, "You didn't attend the class at all. I saw the teacher qualification examination materials on your desk, so I didn't say anything."

"Why, don't you study finance? Why do you still want to take the teaching qualification test? Do you want to be a teacher in the future?" Lu Yinke mocked him, "You will be scared to death as a teacher and a classmate."

"The financial risk is too great, I want to find a more stable job first." Seeing that he was not fooled, Du Yu stopped hiding, "It doesn't matter, anyway, I can only take the financial analyst certificate next year."

"Oh, Teacher Du." Lu Yinke leaned on his arm and raised his eyes to look at him, muttering softly, "That's fine, then I'll make a lot of money to support you, you just need to be responsible for the years to be quiet."

"It's started again?" Du Yu looked down at the lesson plan without even giving him an extra look.

"What did you start, didn't you start?" Lu Yinke muttered dissatisfiedly, "Hey Du Yu, do you like me or not?"

"I don't like it." The answer was fluent.

"Oh." The expected answer, "Then when are you going to start liking me?"

"not prepare."

"Don't be so decisive, why don't you like me and give it a try? It's definitely not a loss." Lu Yinke propped his head with a lazy face, and even his voice was full of banter, "Look at my face and figure. Okay, the most important thing is that IQ is quite enough, and the future is boundless.”

"You don't have a heart." Du Yu turned over a page of the book, and rubbed his fingers lightly on the page.

Lu Yinke just stared at him silently, and didn't talk to him for a while.

This silence lasted until the end of get out of class. Du Yu didn't wait for anyone, packed his bag and went out. When he got to the back door of the classroom, he looked back as if there was nothing, and his pace slowed down a little.

Of course, Lu Yinke, who followed closely behind, noticed his small movements, so he forgot about the unhappiness just now, and strolled up to him with a bumpy footstep.

"Wait for me?" cheerfully.

"Thinking too much." Du Yu walked past him and walked straight forward, "I wonder if I lost something."

"Okay," Lu Yinke was used to the daily life of not receiving any response to his flirtatious words, turned around and walked side by side with him with his pockets in his pocket, "Then did you lose it?"

"I want to lose it," Du Yu's lips curled up, looking even a little nasty, "But isn't it still here?"

Lu Yinke almost sprained his feet, stared at his rare smile for two seconds, and then exclaimed: "I fucked Du Yu? Did I hear you right? What the hell are you kidding me about?"

"Don't put your name and my name together, it sounds very unpleasant." He squinted at him, his eyes were bright and aggressive, "Why, only state officials are allowed to set fires, but ordinary people are not allowed to light lamps?"

"No? It's not Du Yu, it's too fucking sudden, I can't bear it." Lu Yinke patted his chest artificially, "Oh my god, my little heart is throbbing."

"I beg you to turn on more lights in the future. If you think it's not bright enough, you can set it on fire, as long as I can withstand it." He thought for a while, "That won't work, how can I just want it? If you let it go as much as you want, I will definitely be able to withstand it."

"Then go ahead and see you later." Du Yu shrugged and stepped up the steps of the mountain road without even waving his hands.

"Wait, what's the hurry? I'll go with you." Lu Yinke hastily turned the corner and stepped on the stone road.

Du Yu sighed, "It's not necessary, Lu Yinke, you and I don't live in the same building, so take this road and take a long way."

"Why don't I think that? Is there a greater distance in this world than between me and you?" Lu Yinke climbed up more than a dozen steps without panting, his figure was as vigorous as walking, "Anyway, I don't think there is."

Du Yu followed him, and the two walked side by side again.

Beside the mountain road is a small forest, in which there is a long corridor covered with dreamy wisteria flowers.Normally, one only needs to cross this flower corridor to reach the door of the dormitory, but today Du Yu stopped when he was about to arrive.

Very offended, he saw a couple kissing while sitting on a stone chair.Their figures were half blocked by a stone pillar, and they could only vaguely see two very close faces, and the back of the man's hand holding the top of the other's head.

He couldn't bear to be disturbed, so he took two steps back quietly but bumped into the chest of the person behind him, so he could clearly see the side face of the woman - a side face with a crew cut.

It's actually a man.

The boy whose head was held down seemed to have heard the movement, and stopped in a hurry.He should have wanted to turn around, but he was pushed back to the side of his neck with a stronger force—obviously, the boy who kissed him didn't want others to see his baby.

Miyoshi student Du Yu had never seen such a scene before, he didn't recover until the person behind him grabbed his arm and apologized with a smile.

He turned his head very consciously and stepped on another road, but his thumb buckled in very stiffly.

"...It's a bit of a surprise," Lu Yinke spoke first, perhaps to relieve the awkward atmosphere, "It's too immoral! I don't know how to find a place where no one is around to kiss. What's the difference between this and a field battle."

Du Yu lowered his head and didn't look at him, but he just retorted blankly: "You're talking like you can't see lovers hugging at the dormitory corridor at night, you're making a fuss."

"How could I!" He raised his hand wrongly, "You are the one who was too scared to move, but you still stared at him for a long time. Why, is that person as handsome as me?"

"I'm just." Du Yu's voice became smaller and smaller, "It's the first time I saw two boys..."

"What's the matter with the two men? When I was in high school, it was common for boys to sit on boys' laps. It's not that weird to kiss them. It's obviously because you rarely see them."

"That's different," Du Yu argued for himself, "The couple just now must be a couple."

"Oh," Lu Yinke's voice was suddenly so harsh, "You discriminate against homosexuals?"

"No... I'm just seeing you for the first time." Du Yu's voice was suddenly as dry as an unwaxed bowstring, as if it was about to break if pulled, "I'm here, let's go in first, you go slowly, don't see off." He waved his hand absently, turned around and entered the corridor in three steps and two steps as if fleeing.

Lu Yinke didn't answer, but watched his clear back disappear around the corner, and frowned heavily.

Sitting on the chair in the dormitory, Du Yu spread out the book.He seems to have been concentrating on looking at it for a long time, but the fountain pen that he can't hold shows his uneasiness.

He kept thinking about the scene just now, the boy stared at him so fiercely and full of warning, like a wolf protecting food.But even though he stared at others with such a fierce expression, he clasped the hands of the people around him but was so gentle, and even stroked them soothingly twice.

Are they gay?

How courageous.

But what Lu Yinke said was right, it was someone else's business after all, why should he care so much about it?

Is it because... I've been thinking about these things a lot lately?

Think about Lu Yinke.

It's not complete, to be precise, it's something Lu Yinke always joked about himself.

It's nothing more than once or twice, but recently it has become more and more rampant, as if there is really something beyond ordinary friendship between the two of them.

But really not.

That person just kept saying some ambiguous words in a flirtatious tone, just like a cat would play with a sparrow that was restrained by it.Apart from torturing it by holding it back and forth, it won't give up easily even when it's over.

It's really annoying, how can there be such a person who is not sincere to the bone but is consistent.

He can't understand.

Stop thinking about it, he forced himself to look at the book.

"In the activities of teachers in fulfilling their educational obligations, the most important thing is..."

Can't see it.

"Teacher's professional ethics are different from other professional ethics..."

Can't see it.

"Teachers' moral cultivation can only be achieved in practice..."

Look, no, in, go.

Du Yu pushed the book forward irritably, and a pile of fountain pens scattered out of the inverted pencil case.

He buried his face in the crook of his arms, opened his eyes and looked into the darkness of nothingness, and he seemed to be able to faintly smell a few strands of sandalwood in his nose.

He followed the sporadic scent, and finally found the source on his elbow, probably Lu Yinke accidentally rubbed it on him when pinching him.

Damn it, no matter what perfume a big man wears, he can't gain spiritual freedom when he is alone.

damn it.

damn it.

He raised his head and rubbed the skin irritably, as if that would erase the existence of that person from his heart.But after rubbing for a while, it didn't decrease but increased, and even the originally clean fingers were stained with an invisible smell, which lingered more vividly, as if that person had indeed appeared beside him.

Hold!he!mom!

Du Yu lowered his arms weakly, and leaned back into the back of the seat, but suddenly thought of the fiery touch that he stepped back today.

The hot and humid breeze in late summer blew in from the screen window, licking his delicate skin obsessively, and also blowing an open thin book on the table.The pages of the book were rattled by the wind, and finally stopped on a page marked with black pen.

On the black horizontal line is the following line:

"I'll be able to recognize a footstep that's different. Others' footsteps will make me hide underground. And your footsteps, like music, will make me come out of the cave. And, look. Look. To that wheat field? I don't eat bread. Wheat is useless to me. Wheat fields don't remind me of anything. It's very sad! But your hair is golden. So it's good that you tamed me Thing! The wheat is golden too, and it will remind me of you then. I love the sound of the wind blowing the ears of wheat..."

Du Yu wanted to close it casually, but when he saw the words, he propped his forehead up helplessly.

In an instant, there was nothing left in his mind, only the echo rang in his ears, it was an echo that he tried hard to suppress but was on the verge of collapse.

He was aware, he was so aware, he was so damned aware.

He, it's over.