Rabbit's Murder Memories

Pei Ye answered a phone call and suddenly panicked.

I asked him what was wrong, but he didn't speak, just busy getting dressed.By the time he finished packing, I had already put on my high heels hastily.

Finally he put on his windbreaker, and I picked up my umbrella and went out one after the other.

I feel like he and I have been swept up by an invisible thing, he is like a whoring client in a hurry, and I am like a lady who is caught without a fight.

After going downstairs, he went straight to the opposite cafe, and I stood in the hazy night with an umbrella, looking at the rain in front of me in a trance.

There has been a lot of rain this year, as if the rain god in the sky has also lost his love.

I like rain, and then because of rain, I fell in love with umbrellas, all kinds of umbrellas, and because of umbrellas, I fell in love with Younha, a Korean singer. The feeling on the body comes.

Finally, because of "Umbrella" and Younha, I may have fallen in love with a man.

The man came out of the cafe a short time later, still holding a girl in his hand.

I've seen that girl before, at the entrance of the Sifang Hotel. She was naked and held in Pei Ye's arms that time, like a dying cat.

As for her name, Pei Ye said, it should be "Wanwan".

What Pei Ye was talking about, Wan Wan was carefully rebutting, through the rain and fog, I couldn't hear their voices clearly.Suddenly, Pei Ye knelt down, kneeling on one knee, and then took out a white box from the pocket of the windbreaker.

Wanwan suddenly covered her mouth, and crystal tears splashed from the corners of her eyes.

I saw that Pei Ye was trying to explain something, his lips were twitching and chattering, which suddenly became annoying.

Finally, Wan Wan nodded and stretched out his hand. He took out a shiny object from the box and put it on her hand gently.

It's not like a marriage proposal, it's almost like a knight's oath of fealty.

Subconsciously, I took out my phone from my bag and took a look. It's not April, and it's not April Fool's Day.

But this man's behavior is much more ridiculous than April Fool's Day.

Looking at the figure who threw himself into his arms every night, I held up my umbrella alone, shrugged my shoulders, and walked slowly towards the parking lot.

·

Driving on the way home, the cold September wind rolled in through the gap of the car window, my hands holding the steering wheel suddenly trembled involuntarily, and I thought I might be wrong.

I love wrong, think wrong, at least, not all right.

First of all, maybe I don't just like this man, otherwise, the pain of not being able to hold my hand can't be explained.

Secondly, love is blind!No matter whether the writer falls in love with the peripheral, or the peripheral falls in love with the writer, this kind of asymmetrical love is always blind, and because of blindness, it is correct.

But for me, love has never been blind from beginning to end.

I like Chu Han, but because Chu Han likes me; I marry Ji Ran, but because Ji Ran proposed to me, and this marriage, my mother is very satisfied.Since everyone is satisfied, is there any reason not to marry?

For a long time, my mother tried to instill in me a social concept-you can marry wealth, power, and everything, but you can't marry love.Because in marriage, only love is the most unreliable.It's a pure, fully conscious thing, and without it, it's gone, and you end up with nothing.

This idea cannot be said to be wrong, but is it really all right?

I suddenly felt sad for myself, and I remembered that April Fool's Day many years ago.

In fact, I have not been completely blind myself, at least once for someone who did not exist.

If that person really appeared that day, maybe everything will be different now.

·

Back at the villa, Ji Ran was not there. I took off my clothes and lay on the bed tiredly. When I was about to fall asleep in a daze, my phone rang suddenly. It was Chu Han’s call. I hesitated, and finally The answer key was pressed.

"Come to me, a friend's bar opened today, I will send you the address on WeChat later."

"However, Ji Ran may come back soon..." I declined.

"Don't worry, he's gone to Beijing. He just left from me and said he won't be back until a week or so."

"But I'm sleepy..."

"What are you pretending to be?" he said, "Why did he go to Beijing, don't you know? Anyway, we have been abandoned by him now, what kind of chaste and martyr are you pretending to be with me?"

Hang up the phone, I touch up my makeup.Because of hesitation, I even applied the lipstick a little crookedly, and finally had to wipe it off and start over.

From the bottom of my heart, I long for excitement and fall, but I also hope that the place, height, and even the angle of the fall are all controlled by myself, rather than being kicked down by someone suddenly.

This is the difference in thinking between me and Chu Han.

Probably because of this, before leaving the house, I called my mother.

"Miyuki?" After a long wait, a female voice suddenly asked.

The voice was familiar yet unfamiliar, but it was my mother's voice.

My eyes suddenly turned red, and I begged like a spoiled child:

"Mom, I want a divorce."

"Why?" she asked in surprise.

"He's... gay." I murmured the last three words for a long time, and after I said them, I was sweating profusely, feeling extremely happy.

Mother didn't make a sound for a long time, as if she was frightened.

"Mom, I want a divorce." I continued to beg.

"Did he hit you, Miyuki?"

"No." I said.

"What about the money, won't I give it to you?"

"That's not it."

"You are not allowed to find a man?"

"He didn't say it, and he didn't stop it." I told the truth.

"Then why do you want a divorce?" Mother asked coldly.

"Is it enough to have money and a man?"

"Then what else do you want?"

"I……"

"Miyuki, don't be stupid, if you get divorced, there will be a lot of girls waiting to marry him."

"mom……"

"I thought you were no longer a child. I thought I had already told you that you can dream of everything in love, but never of happiness."

"I thought it was the other way around..."

"I used to think so too, that's why I married your father, but in the end I found that the more unique you are, the less likely you are to be caught."

"mom……"

"Because of Ji's support, our family's business has developed very well recently, and it is very likely that your brother will take over in the future."

I suddenly smiled sadly, "Actually, this is the reason why you don't agree to my divorce, right?"

"Miyuki, this world is just a pool of cold water, don't waste your enthusiasm."

I sneered disdainfully, raised my hand and hung up the phone.

·

I went downstairs and drove the car. When I got out of the garage, I found that the rain was heavier than before. The accumulation on the road, Martha was walking on it, looked like a red boat instead of a car.

"The world is like a river, Martha is like a boat, I swim alone, hehe, it's perfect!"

It was already late at night when I arrived at the bar that Chu Han mentioned. I opened the door of the box, and there was a lot of smoke inside, and men and women sat in a row.

I was taken aback. I didn't expect it to be so lively. I was about to close the door and exit when a hand stretched out and pulled me back.

"It's already here, why are you running?" A strange man put his hands on my waist and sprayed smoke on my face.

The smoke didn't smell like tobacco, but it made me dizzy and nauseated. I pushed him away reflexively, but he was lean and grinning, and he came up again, revealing a row of black and yellow teeth.

Just when I was trembling with fright and was about to rush out the door, Chu Han's voice suddenly sounded from behind:

"Okay, Monkey, I called her."

The man named "Monkey" seemed to be a little jealous of Chu Han, and suddenly stopped, saluted him in a funny way, winked and said:

"Alright, Brother Han."

After finishing speaking, she sat back on the sofa and lifted the skirt of another girl with her hand. The girl was lying on the sofa, sucking a plastic bottle with a straw in a dazed way. adapt.

Chu Han pointed to the bottle in the girl's hand and asked me:

"in or out?"

Although I don't know what it is, it doesn't feel like a good thing, almost like opium.

"Not playing." I shook my head decisively, "I want to go home."

"Go home?" His eyes suddenly became fierce, "You can come and leave whenever you want?"

"What do you mean?" I asked.

He didn't speak, turned around and picked up a brass lock, passed through the deadbolt, locked the door directly from the inside, and then threw the key to the man named "monkey" just now.

"If you want to leave, you ask him..." He tilted his head, looked at me, and said with a weird smile.

I looked at the huge brass lock and stood there stunned. Fear spread throughout my body like a poison. I trembled, and finally I couldn't help begging:

"Chu Han, let me out, please..."

He suddenly laughed, cleared his throat, and clapped his hands vigorously twice. The men and women in the room fell silent instantly, and he asked teasingly:

"The lady said she wanted to leave, do you agree?"

A few seconds later, the entire room burst into laughter.

"Monkey" suddenly gave a sharp laugh, and said fawningly: "Brother Han invited me to eat today, of course Brother Han has the final say."

Others joined in.

Standing in front of the door, I feel like a lump of fresh meat waiting to be sold in a supermarket butcher shop.

Chu Han nodded in satisfaction, picked up a red tablet from the table, broke it in half, and handed it to me, "Eat it, and I'll let you go."

The others laughed again, and a middle-aged bald man with a pot belly sarcastically said:

"Ahan, you really know how to be compassionate and cherish jade."

Chu Han didn't reply to him, but just looked at me intently.

I glanced at the red pills scattered all over the table, thought about it, and thought that it was only half a pill, and there would be no major problems if I took it.

I said, "You open the door first..."

Chu Han played tricks on "Monkey", and "Monkey" lived up to his trust, and his hands and feet were nimble. Within a few seconds, I heard the crisp sound of the lock spring springing behind me.

"Eat!" Chu Han twitched the corners of his lips, and urged with a look of contempt, "Ten years ago, you had the guts to beat me up, so why don't you eat half a pill now?"

I forced a calm smile at him, then put the pill in my mouth and swallowed it shut.

"Okay, let's go." Chu Han smiled warmly.

I looked at him hesitantly, and before I could turn around, I heard the crisp sound of the lock spring closing from behind me.

"Monkey" was leaning against the door, shaking the key in his hand towards me with a proud expression.

"What are you doing?" I said to Chu Han angrily, "Why don't you count what you say?"

A wicked smile suddenly flashed across Chu Han's lips, "I want you to go, but they won't let you go, what can I do?"

"Rogue, I want to call the police."

As soon as I finished speaking, the bag was suddenly snatched away by him. I suddenly panicked and grabbed it with my hands in disorderly steps, but Chu Han acted like he was deliberately playing me. Every time when I was about to meet, He will take the bag away in due course.

After going back and forth, the whole box was filled with chirping laughter, and I don't know when it started, but my tears have already flowed down.

The man named "Monkey" suddenly put his arms around my waist and touched my chest with his hands. I looked at Chu Han, who acted as if he hadn't seen him. He grabbed a red pill and put it in it. mouth.

At this time, "Monkey" suddenly asked:

"Brother Han, how do you play today? You are still the first, and then I punch a few times and arrange the order?"

Chu Han took a step closer and raised my chin with his fingers, "No, you guys come together, I don't think she will refuse." After speaking, he picked up another red pill and put it in his mouth , and asked with a smile: "Right, Miyuki?"

I widened my eyes and looked at the handsome face in front of me in disbelief.

"Really? You're not the first one today?" Monkey still seemed a little unconvinced.

"I'm tired of ignoring her, so I'll give it to you to try something new, okay?" Chu Han replied expressionlessly.

"That's a good relationship. To be honest, Brother Han, I have never seen such a white girl since I was a child. Your great kindness will never be forgotten by my brother." Monkey flattered in a sweet tone, The scent he exhaled made me retch.

The middle-aged man with a beer belly suddenly put down the bottle, and asked tentatively with a Hokkien accent:

"Ahan, is this little girl on the right track? Don't let the brothers go out of this room tomorrow morning and be sent directly to the bitter kiln by her."

I opened my mouth, and just about to speak out, I suddenly felt dizzy, and then felt hot all over, with a feeling of being drunk, and suddenly wanted to speak, wanted to shout loudly, and wanted everyone to hear my voice.

"I'm not here to sell, I have a family." I tried my best to restrain myself, and retorted loudly.

As soon as I finished speaking, I felt a heavy blow on the right side of my cheek. A girl wearing a sky-high and miniskirt suddenly stood in front of me and cursed:

"Smelly bitch, who do you think is out to sell? Which person in this house is out to sell?"

After she finished speaking, she began to take off my clothes. After being hit on the right cheek, I felt light all over, as if my whole body had no bones. I let her strip me naked one by one.

Seeing my subconsciously huddled body, she suddenly smiled smugly, and whispered in my ear:

"Do you know what the food you ate just now is called? It's called Ma Gu. You thought it was a health product, silly..."

As soon as she stood up, she was kicked by Chu Han and fell to the ground. Chu Han pulled off her tube top with his hands, and said with a sinister smile:

"Qin Yu, what you said is wrong. Who did you call a bitch just now? As long as you women eat Ma Gu, which one is not a bitch? If you scold her, what about you?"

The girl who was kicked to the ground was not annoyed at all, and directly hooked Chu Han with a pair of slender legs.

She said, "Brother Han, I am what you say I am."

As soon as Chu Han took off his pants, the girl obediently took the initiative to hug his penis.

·

In that box, I understood Ma Gu's horror for the first time.

After everyone swallowed Ma Gu, the whole box immediately fell into an endless loop.The girl named "Qin Yu" spoke for Chu Han, and kept talking, repeating, repeating, and repeating, for two or three hours, both of them maintained the same posture.

After that, it was in groups of two and two, the man lying on top of the woman, or the woman sitting on the man, repeating, repeating, and repeating, I felt my lower body was always hot and wet, as if it was like a body that could never be filled. I feel like I lost the concept of time for the first time, and I just think about doing, loving, filling, and being filled repeatedly.

It was only a few hours. I resisted strongly at the beginning, then I half pushed and gave up in the middle. Finally, I simply spread my legs and closed my eyes.Chu Han suddenly came over at this moment, and while biting my earlobe lightly, he asked:

"Miyuki, do you know where the most magical part of that thing is?"

I didn't make a sound because I was too lazy to answer.

"When you were in college, so many people liked you, but you almost didn't like anyone. You protected yourself very well, just like the goddess who never fell in Greek mythology, but now, now you take the initiative Open your legs, close your eyes, and enjoy yourself to the fullest, you don't even bother to take a look at who is the man lying on top of you."

"Miyuki, I like you like this, you like this make me feel that we are finally equal, we are finally the same."

"The most miraculous thing about this pill is that it can destroy people's morality. Tell me who invented this thing, why don't you give him a Nobel Prize?"

"Let's fall, Miyuki, let's fall... If morality makes us feel pain, it's better to have fun in time!"

……

After eating "Ma Gu", he became chattering.

In the end, even I don't know how long he whispered in my ear, I just remember that he opened his mouth suddenly and bit my upper arm hard, I felt the pain, but the pain was not obvious, What is obvious is just pleasure, wave after wave of pleasure, and finally those pleasures are magnified and merged into a vast ocean.

"Perhaps my mother is not wrong, it is good to have money, money can buy Martha, Chanel, a man, pleasure, and everything except a happy marriage. I don't want this kind of life, there is a row of little girls waiting behind me, so what's wrong with this kind of life?"

·

At noon, when I woke up in the box, I found myself lying naked on the ground. The bustling crowd last night, when the sun was high, fell silent, like underground people who couldn’t see the light, sleeping in the dark. corner of.

I braced myself, found my clothes in the mess, put on my high heels, and walked crookedly to the parking lot alone.

I was sitting in the car, and found that my vision was blurry, and everything I saw was a double image. I barely started the car, leaned my head on the seat, and turned on the air conditioner for a while. After ten minutes, I still got out of the car , walked to the side of the road and waved for a taxi.

After returning to the villa, I didn’t go out for three days, and I was always dizzy and nauseous. I only ate one meal in three days and slept for one hour. , I'm having some withdrawal reactions right now.

I only took half a tablet, saying that the reaction shouldn’t be so strong. After I slept for an hour, I suddenly remembered that someone had given me this tablet. As for who that person was and how much I took, I can’t remember. It's clear, the only thing I vaguely remember is the mouth that I voluntarily opened and the scent that seemed to be there when I swallowed.

When I walked into the bathroom at night to take a bath, I looked at myself in the mirror covered with tooth marks all over my body, and suddenly couldn't help crying. I picked up the phone next to the bathtub, and the moment I dialed [-], I had to Put the phone down.

"When you gaze into the abyss, the abyss gazes into you."

It wasn't Nietzsche's words that made me put down the phone call, but I found that when I thought about that night, my bottom was wet again.

It turns out that after one lie, there is another even bigger lie; it turns out that after one thought of hell, there is no mountain, but a deeper hell.

It turned out that he didn't want me to die, he wanted me to live, to live like him.

He just wanted to prove that when a person standing on a high place is dragged down by him and trampled in the mud by him, he will become as depraved as he is.

We are, after all, mere mortals.

·

After soaking in the bath, I tightened my bathrobe, sat on the sofa in the living room and stared at a corner of the room.

Suddenly, I heard a wind blowing outside, and soon after, the rain fell.

I thought about it, put on my slippers, and walked to the cloakroom deep in the villa. I activated the button, and the huge cabinet door opened slowly. In the T-shaped space of nearly 20 square meters, there are nearly [-] years of treasures that I have treasured. Thousands of umbrellas.

I turned the corner and looked around, and finally picked up a blue umbrella with a silver angel welded on the head.

That is my favorite umbrella. The angel on the head of the umbrella is called "Rainbow", which is the work of a famous Chinese sculptor.

After that, I changed my clothes, started the car, and drove to "Heaven".

The author has something to say: I told myself that I should write vernacular that everyone can understand. Damn it, the taste changed again as I wrote it.

I hate myself for being rejected ten times in a row.

What the hell is the depth of writing?

What the hell art is writing?

What kind of fucking literature are you writing?

Can't you honestly write about rebirth, time travel, and routines in the entertainment industry?

Second Battalion Commander, bring the knife, I want to chop off my cheap hands...