The director is too flirtatious

It was unexpected that the director would bump into me and Lan Hui together.But amidst this suddenness, I felt a little relieved.I don't know how to mention my decision to the director, and I don't know how to introduce the existence of Lan Hui.

If there was no coming out of the closet at that time, no ambiguity since then, and no heartbeat, none of these would actually be a problem.

But after all, the director and I are not as simple as ordinary friends. I can't be sure what the director's feelings are for me, but I clearly know my feelings for the director.

After saying goodbye to Lan Hui, I stood at the gate of the community for a long time, and when I was tossing and turning on the bed, I didn't know what I was waiting for.Turned on the phone again and again, and then turned off the screen again and again in disappointment.I am eager for the director to send me a message, but I am afraid that the director will send me a message.

This kind of contradictory psychology made me feel like a pancake on the bed, full of unspeakable discomfort.

I opened WeChat to send a message to Wang Xiaoya, I wanted to tell her how much I was suffering, I wanted to tell her what happened today, and I wanted to ask her what the director thought.However, after editing a large paragraph of information, it was deleted, one sentence was deleted and one sentence was deleted, and the input box was still blank in the end, and I couldn’t even ask a sentence.

I asked, so what?You will only get more anxiety, and more vague and bitter expectations.

Just like that, I spent two days at home in a daze, and then received a message from the director on Sunday afternoon.

Director: 【Are you free tonight? 】

When I saw the director's name, I felt numb in my hands and feet for a moment, and I was very nervous.I opened WeChat almost tremblingly, and watched her words for a long time.

Do you have time?Yes, for sure.I have been staying at home for the past two days without going anywhere, so why am I expecting the director to ask me out?Just like when I rejected the director's invitation on Friday, why didn't I feel lost when I relaxed?

I don't know how much perseverance is needed to keep a distance from the person I like, but at this moment, my perseverance is crumbling, under a restless and longing heart, it's like melting an iceberg, and I can't stop it.

Director: [If you are free, come and have a meal with me, I didn't eat all day, so I just finished my work. 】

I managed to control my hands not to tremble, but the rationality that still existed suddenly collapsed when I saw her saying that she hadn't eaten for a day.

I don't know whether it is true or not what the director said about not eating for a day, but I know that this sentence brings me not only distress, but also a step to see her.It landed directly on the steps in front of me. As long as I lift my foot a little, I don't have to worry about meeting each other anymore.

I pretended that I was not impatient to see her, and I responded to her like an ordinary friend, pretending to care in my words, without the strong heartache in my words.

Me: [I haven’t eaten for a day, aren’t you hungry? 】

Director: [Fortunately. 】

How can you be okay if you don't eat for a day?I complained about the director's behavior, and couldn't help typing, [I think you are so hungry that you are unconscious. 】

I looked at the time, and it was past four o'clock, so I continued typing, [Where are you now? 】

Director: [at home. 】

Me: [I'm also at home, let's go, let's go eat. 】

Responding to going out to dinner with the director, I responded so naturally, so naturally that I didn't even realize that I was still struggling.After tidying up and closing the door, he suddenly realized that something was wrong.

My mood suddenly became complicated. I hesitated, but even the door was locked. Do I have to go back on what I have promised?

I went down with this complicated mood, and saw the director driving a car waiting for me at the gate of the community.The car window was open, and I saw the director sitting in the driver's seat with his eyes closed, feeling unspeakably tired.

As soon as I saw it, I felt so distressed, and those entanglements were instantly forgotten by me.I walked over and asked, "Why are you so haggard?"

The director opened her eyes when she heard the voice. Her eyes were a little bloodshot, and she looked even more tired.Seeing that it was me, she slightly raised the corners of her lips, "You are here."

Seeing that she was so tired, I didn't sit in the passenger seat, and opened her car door, "I'll drive today, you sit in the passenger seat."

The director seemed to be in a daze. Seeing her expression, I realized that I had gone too far. I was still holding on to the car door, and I didn't know what to do for a while.I bit the bullet and said, "Driving while fatigued is too dangerous. I don't want to risk my life on it."

The director took a deep look at me, and the corners of her lips were raised a little more. She unbuckled her seat belt, reached out from the car and put her arms around my waist for strength, and then got out of the car.

I felt the heat of her hands, and my body stiffened for a moment.She paused when she passed me, and whispered in my ear, "Thank you."

I pursed my lips, switched places with the director, and became the driver.

"I've made a reservation for a restaurant." After the director reported the address, he sat on the passenger seat and closed his eyes, looking really sleepy.

I couldn't help but said: "You should find a place to eat near the community, and go back to sleep after eating is the serious business."

The director didn't reply to me, and he didn't seem to know if he was asleep.I sighed secretly, so I could only concentrate on driving.

The restaurant ordered by the director is a music restaurant. Although there is a resident band, it is in the style of folk songs and does not appear to be noisy.We also came earlier, but seemed more comfortable.

We had our meal in peace, and the Director's complexion became better, not as pale as before.

She asked the waiter to remove everything from the table, leaving only two glasses of water. Seeing this scene, I knew that today's focus was coming.

The director rested his hands on the table casually. Under the dim light, she looked like a killer hidden in the darkness, indifferently preparing for a fatal blow.

She is the executioner who gave me a violent inner conflict.

I was waiting for her to speak, and I was also thinking about how I should answer her.

During the time of eating with her, seeing that she was finally not as haggard as I saw at the beginning, my sanity gradually came back.In the bottom of my heart, I kept telling myself that no matter what the director said, I must hold on.

I thought I was calm enough, but when the director spoke, I still felt my heart tremble.

"What happened the week of your mother's birthday?"

Sure enough, the director was keenly aware that everything unfolded from the week of my mother's birthday.From then on, I decided that I could no longer escape, and chose a path that seemed easier.

I paused for breath, and then slowly exhaled the suffocated breath, as if I also let out the flustered and sad emotions in my heart, "It's nothing... just... go home and have a meal."

The director looked at me blankly, "Did you have a meal?"

I stiffened my body, and nodded slowly, "Well, you know... my mother... always hoped that I would find a boyfriend..."

"So it was your boyfriend who picked you up from get off work that day?"

"Uh... no... um..."

I subconsciously wanted to deny it, but suddenly felt that it would be good to let her misunderstand.I was so afraid that as long as the director said a few more words, I would give up and surrender. I finally got to this point, so why would I want to let myself get stuck in it?

So the denial that I had already said, turned a corner again, and I said vaguely: "Well... well... let's go..."

The director didn't expect me to admit it, and his face was obviously a little shocked.I pursed my lips and suppressed the urge to explain. At this time, the resident band changed a song, and I felt very familiar with the prelude.

The director and I were silent like this, listening to the lead female singer play this familiar tune, and then she began to sing, it was Chen Li's wonderful ability song.

The female singer's voice is a little hoarse and not crisp, but it complements each other a bit when she sings this song.For a moment, I felt like I was back in the ancient town. At the end of the second floor of the B&B, on that big bed, I slept with the director for two nights.

"This song... is so familiar." The director said with a chuckle.

How can you not be familiar with it?What happened in the ancient town is still vivid in my mind.I didn't dare to share the same bed with her, accidentally ran into her changing clothes, she massaged me, I sang for her, and finally... the kiss that confirmed my heart.

How can you not be familiar with it?How can forget?

I nodded and didn't dare to speak, because I was afraid that if I spoke, my already vacillating heart would suddenly rush to the director regardless.

The two were silent again, the song was over, and another one was changed.I was a little restless and didn't dare to look directly into her eyes, so I asked dryly, "Why don't you go back earlier? I think you are not in good spirits, so go to bed early tonight."

The director was silent, and I didn't dare to move. I sat there at a loss, so I had to hold a water glass to cover up.After a while, I heard the director's voice. It was undisguised and cold, completely missing the gentleness of the past.

"Don't you have anything to tell me?"

Yes, there are many, for example, Lan Hui is not my boyfriend, for example, what happened on my mother’s birthday, for example...the person I like is you...

But these words finally made me swallow them back in my stomach.

I shook my head slowly but seemingly firmly. I suffocated my strength to make this movement, but I couldn't even say a word of denial.

The director lowered his head halfway, his long hair was pouring down in front of him, and he couldn't see her expression clearly.After hearing what I said, she suddenly reached out and stroked the loose hair, and smiled at me: "Let's go back."

At this moment, I was indescribably sad.

On the way back, the director was naturally driving. We were speechless all the way, and then we returned to the entrance of the community.

The car stopped, and the director put his hands on the steering wheel, looked ahead, and narrowed his eyes.

I looked at her secretly, and seeing her like this made me feel even more uncomfortable, and I didn't even dare to take off my seat belt.

I always feel that when I get off this car, the director and I are really over. All the collisions since the end of this period, those unconcealable joys and palpitations, will be written off the moment I get off.

I was pulling violently in my heart, reluctant to give up, but had to give up.

I don't know if the director has feelings for me, and if I have the courage to face it, just like breaking up with Wu Wen back then, if you don't have the courage to face it, then just don't.

At that time, Wu Wen and I were in love with each other, but this time, the director and I were still unclear, and I was deeply involved.

Eventually I unbuckled my seat belt and put my hands on the door.

"Then... I'll go back first..."

The director didn't speak, she still maintained this posture, looking forward, squinting her eyes.

I opened the door, and the director's disappointment flashed past me, but I didn't see it.

In other words, I saw it and pretended I didn't see it.

Every step I take, I feel my heart sinking more and more.After walking for a short distance like this, my phone rang suddenly. I took out my phone to check, and unexpectedly found that it was the director calling.

The director was right behind me, and I looked back at her.She didn't know when she got out of the car, and she was standing by the car door, calling me with a mobile phone in her hand.

The distance between me and her is not far, and it only takes more than ten seconds to walk to the director, but it feels like a world is separated.

I hesitated, looked at her like this, and connected the phone, "Hello?"

The director's voice came from the phone, and from my position, I could even see her slightly parted lips.

"One thought, that's it." The director said.

The author has something to say: These few chapters have received a lot of feedback from everyone in the past few days. Regarding the attitude of Yi Nian, some understand and some do not understand, some are impatient and some feel distressed.I have to admit that in terms of Yi Nian coming out of the closet, the route I took was more realistic.

In fact, there are many aspects involved in coming out of the closet, and the two most important points are your own personality and family environment.The little angels said they didn’t understand, but I’m actually quite happy. This proves that you have your own attitude towards coming out, and it also proves that your own personality is more independent and autonomous. A little help if you're coming out.

One thought will lead to coming out, that's for sure, but the process of coming out is not so easy, I will write this more realistically.The real world is like this. Some people can accept a word from their parents when they come out, while others don’t listen to their parents no matter what they say.

However, the thought of coming out is still to come 2333333333333 Tomorrow, believe me, it will not be abused.