The director is too flirtatious

"I never thought I would love someone so much."

When I said this, I clearly saw Hua Nan's surprised expression.She was leaning on the armrest on one side of the sofa, half of her clothes were exposed, and half of her white and smooth shoulders were looming.Holding a red wine glass and shaking it slowly, this posture is elegant and beautiful, just like the hot and charming sensuality she gives people.

After hearing what I said, her charming and lazy smile faded, and the shaking of the red wine glass also stopped.She looked straight at me with those peach blossom eyes that seemed to be drunk, with some hidden complexities, "How much do you like it?"

"How much do you like?" I thought for a while, then chuckled, and picked up my cup to touch her lightly.The crisp sound of the glass, jingling like bells, is melodious and charming, just like my mood when I think of Xu Yinian, "Just, when I think of her, I want to laugh."

Some of my childish remarks made Hua Nan snort. She looked me up and down, "Dating a relationship made you return to a minor?"

"That's better than you not even talking about a relationship." I raised my eyebrows and retorted.

Hua Nan was slightly stunned, a desolate confusion gradually appeared in her bright peach eyes, and I could clearly feel her depression.She has always been used to being flamboyant and beautiful, and her peach blossom eyes often sparkle with intoxication, but she has never seen her like this.

She said she was broken in love, I knew that, but I didn't expect that she would care so much.I have a strange feeling in my heart. Will she like someone she has never mentioned before?

Hua Nan drank all the wine in the glass in one breath, then raised her red lips and laughed, "You said, when you think of Xu Yinian, you want to laugh. But when I think of the person I like, I just want to laugh." want to cry."

I was startled, and then I saw Hua Nan narrowed his eyes.Her peach blossom eyes are so beautiful, no matter laughing or crying, as long as the eyes are bent, people can't help but want to obey what she says. "Have you ever tried the feeling of wanting to cry? It's just a feeling of wanting to laugh and cry at the same time."

When Hua Nan said this, she looked straight at me.Her eyes were full of tears or her original radiance, which made people's hearts stop when they saw it.Her expression was a little serious, but more of a kind of impenetrable confusion. The corners of her lips were slightly raised, and she smiled with sadness.

This feeling of desolation is too strong, and it is even more trembling when it is reflected in her who has always been as hot as fire.Obviously she is such a free and easy person, how could she show such a hurt look?

I feel a little distressed.

"When I think of her, think of her smile, think of getting along with her, I am so happy, hey, how wonderful, how wonderful. But when I think about it in a blink of an eye, so what? She doesn't belong to me, It will never belong to me. I thought she was single, but it turns out she is not, she just hasn't met anyone she likes."

Hua Nan suddenly threw the cup aside, directly on the coffee table, making a few "ding bells".She leaned towards me, put her arms around my neck, and pulled me close to her, their noses touching.

The distance is too close, her breathing is so hot, her eyes are so blurred, it seems like she will kiss her in the next second.I have a strange feeling in my heart, because of the person she said, and because of her behavior.

"You said, she can accept her lover, why can't she accept me?" Hua Nan looked into my eyes and asked foolishly.

My heart skipped a beat, and I looked at the complex and confused eyes in her eyes, and began to wonder who she was talking about.

"Yi Er, do you know that feeling? It's bitter and astringent, but it's still a little sweet. I can't let it go, and I can't bear it. I can't stop myself from thinking about her, and I can't let myself go out, but I Desperate, really desperate."

After Hua Nan finished speaking, his whole body showed a kind of gray-white obsession.She took another deep look at me, that look was too complex, I was very uncomfortable looking at it.Then she let go of her hand, picked up the cup that was poured on the coffee table, and continued to pour the wine.

I think Hua Nan is really sad, so I'll... drink with her.

At the end of the drink, both of them were drunk. After Hua Nan drank the last drink, he suddenly stood up.I was lying on the sofa in a half-drunk state, half-closed my eyes, and suddenly saw Hua Nan tilting his head and laughed, "Hehe...why...why are you so cruel...tell me yourself how much you like that Man, have you...considered my feelings?"

She pointed in the direction of the TV, as if the TV was the one she liked.I think Hua Nan was drunk, really drunk.And I was also drunk, otherwise why at that moment, I would suddenly feel that the person Hua Nan likes...is me?

Then on my birthday, I saw Hua Nan and Yi Nian walk out of the bar with my own eyes, and I followed them out with some anxiety.I saw the two of them sitting on the side of the road chatting, and saw Hua Nan weeping at Yi Nian.

What is Hua Nan saying to Yi Nian?And why does Yi Nian have such an expression?

I thought about it for a long time, but I still couldn't help asking, what exactly did she say to Hua Nan.As soon as I read the answer given to me, I remembered that drunk night, Hua Nan told the cruel things about that person to the TV.

I think there is nothing wrong with my feelings.

Yi Nian's complex expression, and her somewhat different behavior, coupled with slowly recalling the past when she and I got along, I suddenly felt that I was really cruel. I haven't noticed it for more than ten years, but I'm already After having a girlfriend, I suddenly understood.

However, I can only pretend not to know, this way, it is good for everyone.I feel guilty, but there is nothing I can do.

It's just that I sincerely hope that Hua Nan can let go of these things and come out.

After that, Hua Nan and I will keep in touch as before, and we will joke around in our circle of girlfriends, nothing unusual.She stopped showing her vulnerable side and treated me differently.

I sometimes think of her desolate expression that night, the despair of not being able to love.

I'm lucky, I'm lucky that I'm with the person I like.As long as we are together well, then I won't taste Hua Nan's bitter feeling, right?

After all, I like her so much, and she likes me so much.

But, why does liking become a kind of bondage instead?

Yi Nian's coming out was planned, and I also knew that according to our situation, she must come out.And we are also mentally prepared, and we also know that coming out in China is to see who can survive.

However, no one told me that coming out would be such a pain.

I look at my beloved and wash my face with tears every day.I watched her have a big fight with her always loving mother and it ended in tears.I can feel that she really likes me, because in such a difficult environment, she can still insist on not giving in.

But, I also like her very much, because I like her, so seeing her like this makes me feel pain.

That kind of feeling is really uncomfortable, watching her finish crying, but this side wipes away her tears and smiles at you, telling you to work hard, everything will pass.Seeing that she is obviously suffering so badly that she is about to die, but she is still working hard, working hard for the future we envisioned.

How can there be such a stupid person in the world?Why can't she be more selfish?I'd rather she cry and vent at me than she smiles because she doesn't want me to worry.

This smile is really not good-looking, the smile I love is not like this.Her smile was obviously very bright, and her eyes were bent into bridges, and the smile in her eyes shone like starlight.This kind of smile is what I love.

But since coming out of the closet, she has never shown such a smile again.She can also laugh, as long as I am around, she will laugh, her eyes are also curved, but what about starlight?Where have all the stars gone?

The way she tried to smile made my heart ache, as if a knife had been pierced into my heart.

what can i doWhen she was tormented by nightmares in the middle of the night, while comforting her, I kept asking myself, what can I do?

Can I bear it with her?Can I go with her to face her parents?

However, it seems useless, the biggest mistake in this matter, isn't it me?If I really stood in front of her mother, what if her mother fainted from anger, what should I do in one thought?

I selfishly hoped that Yi Nian's struggle with her mother would persist, but all I saw was Yi Nian's increasingly severe insomnia and torture.I watched Yi Nian's face become haggard, I watched her suffer from insomnia every night, and I watched her try to smile despite being exhausted.

I thought, I'm so selfish.In order to get her to be with me, I knew it was exhausting, but I still encouraged her to persevere.

How long will this fight about coming out of the closet last?I really want to know, I sometimes complain, why are the parents who complain about it so stubborn, isn't the happiness of their children the most important thing?And why do you have to stick to the old rules and regulations?

But what right do I have to complain?Although they are pedantic, they are good in nature, aren't they?

Just one thought, my one thought, can I persist in it?

I have to admit that when I saw Yi Nian in such pain, I thought about breaking up many times.

This thought flashed by, and I thought I wouldn't really say this, but when I saw Yi Nian crying in my arms and telling me that her mother begged her to change after the car accident.I found that there was really no way for me to remain indifferent.

In fact, I know that if I say we broke up, then the previous efforts will be in vain.But I really have no way to face such a thought. I pushed her onto this road step by step, didn't I?I know that I'm suspected of hurting Yi Nian by breaking up at this time, but if this continues, will Yi Nian be caught in the middle and be driven crazy?

Yi Nian's parents could not bear to see her become like this, but as her pillow, how could I be willing?She is me, the one who hurts in the palm of my hand, how can she become like this?

I'm struggling, not willing, but what else can I do?I really have no way to watch Yi Nian go on like this, she may really be able to persevere, but she will definitely suffer severe psychological torture, won't she?

Yi Nian loves her parents so much, really loves them, doesn't she?

I thought, what else can I do?Is it not the only thing I can do to take the initiative to break up and don't let Yi Nian get caught in it?

Forgive me, I really have no way to calmly face Yi Nian who is on the verge of collapse.Forgive me, I really have no way to harden my heart and let Yi Nian persist.Forgive me and let me end this.

One thought, I really love you, but because I love you, I can't walk with you.

For you and for me, this period of torture is over.

So one thought, let's break up.

forget me, please.

Hua Nan can't love her, but why not me?It turned out that these were all retribution. I made Hua Nan feel like laughing and crying when thinking of the other party.And I experienced the feeling of pain in my heart when I think of each other.

But I thought, I'm sorry, we still have to break up, this deadlock must be broken.

"One thought, let's break up."