The director is too flirtatious

On the second day of the company's holiday, the director and I were temporarily separated.Although I was reluctant, I still packed some luggage and moved back to my parents.

I bought new year’s goods with my parents and came back. The family of three sat on the sofa and chatted. My mother said: “Oh, time flies so fast. In the blink of an eye, it will be a year for Chinese New Year. It feels like you are still a child, and now you are 28 years old.”

As soon as I heard it, I was in a bad mood. "Mom, you must have failed this math. No matter how you do the calculations, I won't be 28 all of a sudden? I'm only 26 years old."

"It's the Chinese New Year and you're still 26 years old? Do you think you can really stay young and never grow old?" Mom said helplessly. She patted the back of my hand and said earnestly: "Mom is getting old too, and she's going to retire in two years. .”

"You're not old or old. If you want to retire, the school probably won't like it." I smiled and hugged my mother's arm coquettishly. .”

My mother was amused by me, and patted my head cheerfully, "What are you talking about? The boss is not young, so speak seriously."

"Why am I not serious?" I pouted my lips in dissatisfaction and acted like a baby, "It's serious, Dad, isn't it right?"

Dad was watching the TV with the remote control. After hearing what I said, he smiled and said to his mother: "You, don't you want your daughter to be considerate?"

"If she is caring, she should bring her boyfriend back sooner." As soon as Mom said, she came to this side again.

I felt a headache when I heard it, and then I heard my mother say: "No matter how caring you are, you still have to get married. Finding a boyfriend as soon as possible is the real thing. You are 28 years old. Old Xu, are you not in a hurry?"

Dad shook his head not too concerned, "Young people nowadays have their own ideas, and many of the students I bring out are unmarried, isn't it normal?"

"Don't let your students spoil the idea." Mom patted Dad dissatisfied.

I quickly joined forces with my dad, "Mom, I think Dad is right. There are so many choices now, and marriage is obviously not the only choice. Mom, after all, times have changed. This is no longer an era where you can't live without a man." .”

"It's not that you can't live without a man, but it's more convenient to have a man." Mom glared at me, "Like your dad, would a home still be like a home without your dad?"

"It may not be defined in this way. What do you do to those single-parent families like this?" I was a little angry at my mother's attitude, and I couldn't help but increase my tone, "You can't deny that there is happiness in single-parent families, right? It’s better to live in a different family, each with its own style.”

My mother seemed to be so angry with me, she paused for breath, and was about to quarrel with me.When Dad saw it, he quickly said, "Okay, okay, let's not talk about this, let's watch a movie together."

Dad opened the TV box and found the movie resources. With a thought, I said to my dad: "Dad, you can find out if there is any Farewell My Concubine. Let's review this movie."

"That's it, good." Dad didn't object, and said while searching for the movie: "Speaking of which, Leslie Cheung has been there for many years."

"Depression, depression is terrible." I naturally took the topic of my father, then peeked at my mother from the corner of the eye, and said tentatively: "Leslie Cheung was under a lot of pressure back then, probably because he couldn't bear the pressure. Plus depression, that's why I chose to end my life."

"Everyone is more or less under pressure, Leslie Cheung is also a pity." Mom also sighed a little.

I was about to say something, then fell silent again.So the family of three watched this classic movie, and later Cheng Dieyi's feelings for Duan Xiaolou became more and more obvious, and the plot began to collide fiercely with the changes of the times.

Even if it's not the first time I've watched this film, it's still depressing and uncomfortable after watching it.

Mom wiped her tears and said: "People in that era were too miserable."

My parents said a few words about the changes of that era. I secretly wiped my tears and said, "Cheng Dieyi is too infatuated with Duan Xiaolou. Duan Xiaolou has no interest in him at all."

That's why I want to see this film, I want to bring up the gay topic.

When it came to the homosexual scene in the play, her mother’s expression became a little cold, “Because Cheng Dieyi played girls since she was a child, her psychology changed, so she fell in love with Shang Duan Xiaolou, which should not have been done in the first place. "

"How can there be so many shouldn'ts in the world? Feelings can't be controlled by human beings. Where are the shouldn'ts?" I asked a little dissatisfied.

"Homosexuality shouldn't happen in the first place. It's a psychopath. Cheng Dieyi has done so many things and suffered so much. Isn't it because he fell in love with Duan Xiaolou?" Mom said indifferently.

I never thought that my mother would describe homosexuality as a pervert. My eyes widened and my body trembled, "How can homosexuality be a pervert? Mom, you are a teacher of the people. You should be responsible for your own words. This should not be the case." Yes!"

"Is there something wrong with what I said?" Mom didn't expect me to choke back, and was obviously a little surprised.

"Homosexuality is not a pervert. It was not considered a mental illness as early as the 90s. How can it be considered a pervert? Emotions are inherently uncontrollable. People just like the same sex and have not committed any crimes. How can they be considered perverted?" ?”

"Homosexuality is indeed not perverted, you, it's time to change your mouth." Dad patted the palm of mother's hand, and mother's face softened a little, and said: "Even if this is not perverted, it should not be. If you become gay, how can you be gay?" How many are not problematic?"

I felt more and more cold about my mother's remarks, and then I was a little scared and angry. I couldn't help but said again: "What is a problem? Mom, you can't have such a big prejudice against homosexuals. You are a teacher of the people. Your Every speech and behavior affects the students, and if your words are heard by your gay student, it may destroy him!"

"My students are not gay, just think about it, what's wrong with you?" Mom was also a little angry, "Do you know how terrible homosexuality is? Two years ago, a student in my school jumped off a building. Do you know why? It's because he is gay , he fell in love with another boy shamelessly, but when he was found out, he felt humiliated and jumped off the building. Homosexuality is wrong, it is wrong."

I really didn't know there was such a thing, my mother didn't tell me before.I almost held my breath in my chest, opened my lips, and couldn't help but say, "What's wrong with him liking another boy? I told you, it's uncontrollable. Why did he jump off the building? It's not because the public gave him The pressure from him made him think that what he did was wrong, it was you who were wrong in this matter, and it was you who did not let him correctly understand his behavior, which caused such a tragedy."

"If he didn't like the same sex, how could such a thing happen? Why did Leslie Cheung jump off the building and why did he suffer from depression? Could it have nothing to do with him being gay? If he was a normal person, would such a thing happen?"

"That's because public opinion drove him to a desperate situation. If it wasn't for the intolerance of the society, would he have ended up like this?" Although I knew that my mother was prejudiced against homosexuality, I didn't know that she was so prejudiced.I was arguing, almost lost my mind, and my body trembled slightly, "It is the society that should reflect, not himself. Take that student as an example, what is wrong with him? What is wrong with him being gay? ! It’s not that you forced him to have no choice but to choose death and end his young life.”

Mom seemed to be a little noisy but I couldn't help it. Seeing that the two of them were arguing, Dad quickly smoothed things over, "Okay, okay, what's the fuss about it? It's other people's business that other people are gay, so let's not worry about it so much. "

The point is, I'm gay too...

When I heard my father's words, not only was I not comforted, but I felt even more wronged.And accompanied by the grievance, there was also a chill that pierced my heart.My eye sockets turned red all of a sudden, my lips trembled a few times, but I couldn't say a word.

My mother calmed down her anger a bit, and then she seemed to think of something incredible, her eyes widened, and she looked at me with a terrified expression, "Yinian, you wouldn't do such a wrong thing, would you?"

My heart was cold again, and I couldn't get up to admit it at all. The current situation is really too unsuitable to come out of the closet.According to the mother's situation, there is no possibility of acceptance at all.I suppressed my anxiety and fear, and retorted: "I said, it's not wrong, it's just a different sexual orientation."

"Are you gay?!" Mom's voice suddenly raised several pitches.Her entire expression became panicked, she couldn't even control my arm, "Tell me!"

"Calm down!" Dad was also taken aback, and quickly hugged Mom.My mother stared at me with shortness of breath, as if she was about to faint in the next second.

I felt cold all over, and looked at my mother in horror. Seeing her like this, my heart pulled violently at this moment, as if it was about to be split in two. This pain made my lips tremble and my face turned pale.

"No! No!" I cried out.

No, it's not like this, it shouldn't be like this...Mom, how can you look at me with such a frightened expression...

I can't bear that my always kind mother has become like this, that kind of panic and uneasiness has occupied all my mind.I can't say a word to admit it, even if it's something I bring up, but at this point I can't do anything but deny it.

After hearing my denial, my mother's mood stabilized a little bit. Although she still had some doubts, she at least calmed down.Her face was a little dull, and there were some panic-stricken deep meanings in her eyes.She took one look at me and said, "This is the wrong way, isn't it?"

No, it's not, it's not wrong.

I opened my lips, and my hands were trembling under the pillow. I didn't dare to look into my mother's eyes, but I still firmly expressed my opinion, "It's not wrong, it's just one of the paths in life."

Mom suddenly gasped, and her breathing suddenly became thicker.When the father saw it, he hugged his mother tightly, "Daughter is right, this is just a choice. What happened to you mother and daughter tonight? It's just a matter that has nothing to do with me, why bother to blush?" Woolen cloth?"

It's not something inconsequential, it's very relevant to me.

But I dare not say these words. I have exhausted my strength to maintain my point of view.I no longer have the slightest strength to overthrow my mother's words, and then bravely stand out of the cabinet.

Mom was still looking at me, she was waiting for me to give in.I was extremely bitter in my heart, I lowered my head to hide my tears, took a deep breath, and said calmly, "I just... want to speak for them."

"I don't care what other people do, but you are my daughter, and I will never watch you go the wrong way." After the mother finished speaking, she broke free from her father's arms and went back to the room.

Dad sat on the sofa and looked at me, sighed and said, "You're not gay anyway, so why are you so serious with your mother? Don't think about it, I'll go see your mother."

After all, my father followed my mother back to the room, and I sat on the sofa with my pillow in my arms for a long, long time.