Tang riddles

At the end of November in the 18th year of Kaiyuan, winter had already entered the desert, the cold wind was howling, the days were short and the nights were long.The wind of crushed leaves, like a cold knife, hurts people's faces.

The road from Loulan to Suiye is not easy. It takes more than four months to travel, and the journey of thousands of miles is full of stars and moons.On the way, he passed Gaochang and asked where the old lady who raised Kutuo was.But sadly, this old nanny also passed away not long ago.After hearing this, Hu Tuo was not particularly sad. They went to visit the grave of the old nun together. Hu Tuo talked a lot before the grave, and told the old nun all his experiences over the years.In the end, what he said touched Shen Sui's heartstrings:

"Grandma, if I were Yixu, I would definitely not be like him."

Shen Sui patted his shoulder sideways, and Hutuo saw tears flickering in her eyes.

After coming out of the underground main altar, Shen Sui first led the scarred team back to the Loulan Mansion army camp to recuperate.Fortunately, no cultists were encountered along the way.The influence of the Great Pope seems to have withdrawn here.Not long after, Qianyumen's backup troops arrived, went deep underground again, and brought out all the dead.In the hot weather, the corpses could not be transported long distances, so they had to be incinerated on the spot.When those former relatives, friends, and brothers finally returned, they had turned into urns of ashes.

The underground main altar was taken over by the people from Qianyu Sect. Whether it should be completely sealed underground or reserved for other purposes, Shen Sui did not have a clear decision at the moment, but only planned to temporarily block it and wait for a later date.

Sima Chengzhen led Senior Brother Chen and four disciples of the Xuanzi generation who had been detoxified to leave the Western Regions and return to Taoism.The purpose of Sima Chengzhen's trip has been achieved, he has found Yin Yuyue's whereabouts, and it is time to take this mysterious Taoist disciple back.Shen Sui did not intend to bury this person in Yin's cemetery, so the bones were handed over to Sima Chengzhen for burial.Sima Chengzhen finally completed the task assigned to him by Pan Tianshi back then, and he was able to explain something.Sima Chengzhen and Shen Sui, the master and apprentice, made it easy to say goodbye outside the Loulan Mansion military camp.

After that, Shen Sui reorganized his team and set off west again.Suiye is still their destination. At first, they only planned to bury the ashes of Master Yi and Senior Sister Hong, but now, there are more people who need to be buried.

Shen Sui's feelings towards her mother-in-law are complicated, and her suicide act, in Shen Sui's view, is a kind of apology and escape.She killed the bluebird, and also provoked the relationship between herself and Qin Nu.It was she who planned Huang'er's birth and led Shen Sui's life step by step.What she did was unforgivable to Shen Sui.No matter what the reason is, it is impossible for her to forgive.But if the mother-in-law is still alive, she hasn't thought about how she should deal with the mother-in-law.Perhaps the mother-in-law had already thought of this, and she also knew that her plan failed and would definitely fall into Shen Sui's hands.Instead of facing it, it is better to escape.In this way, she committed suicide by taking poison, escaped from her guilt, and let go of her life and obsessions.

As she herself said, she lost the bet and was tired of working. She did everything she had to do and had no regrets.

After that, Shen Sui didn't dare to look in the mirror for a period of time. When she thought that the face in the mirror was brought to her by her mother-in-law, she felt so depressed.

As for Yixu, Shen Sui ordered people to escort him back to Chang'an and imprison him.She didn't know how to deal with this person, and she didn't want to take this person with her on the trip.Obviously not only her, whether it is the lotus maid, the qin slave, or the bride, they are not very willing to have him by his side.Yi Xu told Shen Sui everything he knew, and he hoped that Shen Sui could go to Qin Lian and protect Qin Lian.But Shen Sui was not ready yet. Although she sent someone to find Qin Lian's whereabouts, she didn't know what to do to find Qin Lian.She was a little afraid of seeing Qin Lian. If what happened back then was really what Yixu said, how would she face her mother.She didn't even know whether she should be sad or happy.She was afraid of knowing whether her father... no, it should be said that her mother, Yin Yu, had betrayed her mother, Qin Lian.She wishfully believed that Yin Yu had really betrayed her, and that she really had a little affection for Taiping, so...she might be able to face Qin Nu with more peace of mind.

But...if Qin Nu's birth was not according to Yin Yu's mother's wishes, then...it would be a complete tragedy.

On the way to Suiye, Shen Jin always avoided Shen Sui intentionally or unintentionally, and the conversation between the two sisters became less and less.Shen Sui couldn't even tell whether it was he who couldn't face Qin Nu, or Qin Nu who couldn't face himself.Fortunately, Qianhe woke up, and Qin Nu was at peace with her company.It's just that she is often in a daze, without saying a word for a long time, her eyes are dull and slack, it makes people feel very distressed.Every time at this time, Qianhe would silently wrap his arms around her shoulders, embrace her in his arms, and silently accompany her.Shen Sui has never been so grateful for Qianhe's appearance. Before Qianhe appeared, she thought that it was her life's responsibility to always love her little sister. She was willing and would never change.However, things are impermanent, and subtle changes eventually occurred between them.

For Qin Nu, Taiping is her biological mother after all.The love Taiping gave her was different from Shen Sui's.Taiping's treatment of Shen Sui was more of an elder's care, with an indescribable indifference, which was very different from family affection.And what Taiping gave to Qin Nu is the real maternal love.Although the two sisters depended on each other for life after the fire and were very close, they were no match for this difference.That is the enlightenment feeling given to me when I was a child, and it cannot be easily stripped and ignored.

Thinking back carefully, although Yin Yu treated the two sisters almost equally, there were still differences in the end.I don't know if it's because of the age difference between the two sisters or what, but Yin Yu is still closer to Chishi after all, and she only talks to Chishi when she talks a lot.It was a heart-to-heart talk, not like what parents would say to their children, but like an old friend.About some interesting things about her in the officialdom, about some things about Qianyumen, about making organs, training birds and martial arts and swordsmanship, there is almost everything to talk about.Yin Yu has always been loving and teaching Xiao Chishi as a teacher and friend, and imparting all the knowledge he has learned throughout his life. Sometimes he even spares time alone to accompany Xiao Chishi, and takes Xiao Chishi out alone.On the other hand, when Qin Nu was a child, Yin Yu hardly stayed at home, and rarely stayed in the princess mansion for a year. "Father's love", for Qin Nu, should be missing to a considerable extent.At this point, it is the opposite of myself.

Therefore, Qin Nu was looking forward to Yin Yu's return when she was a child. Whenever Yin Yu came home, she would be happy for a long time.But Akashi is not so strong in comparison, but is more curious about other things.Qin Nu is very attached to her sister Chishi, and it is also because Chishi has certain qualities of Yin Yu in her body, and she can feel it instinctively.

On the first night after arriving at Suiye, in the post house, Shen Sui lingered at Shen Jin's door for a long time, and finally knocked on the door.Before that, she had greeted Qian He, Lian Mai and others, hoping to give the two sisters some time to talk alone tonight.So at this moment, no one will bother you.

The door opened not long after, and Shen Jin was sitting in a wheelchair. After opening the door, he saw his sister standing at the door with a slightly flustered expression.Shen Sui smiled slightly and said:

"Qinnu, can I come in?"

Shen Jin nodded, rolled the wheelchair back, and welcomed Shen Sui in.

After Shen Sui entered the room, he found a pier to sit down on. Shen Jin was sitting behind the table in the room, continuing to flip through the book he was reading just now.It seemed that my sister didn't speak, and she didn't intend to speak first.

But Shen Sui didn't make her wait for a long time, only heard her sigh, and said slowly:

"Qin Nu, I brought that blood pill from... Master."

After she finished speaking, Shen Jin couldn't help but look up at her.Her hands holding the pages of the book were trembling, and she said after a while:

【You want me to swallow...】

"Qinnu, I think you are healthy and happy. I don't know if this blood pill will have any effect. However, Xiongniang has already taken a small part of it to do a comparative study with those blood-colored roots. She said that even if this blood pill won't It has too much effect, and it shouldn't have too many side effects. After all, this is the blood pill refined by Yin Yuyue himself, and the formula is completely different from those of those who came later. You won't... you won't be like my mother Suffering from side effects."

Shen Jin's lips slowly pursed into a straight line.

【Sister, we have known Master more than ten years ago.At that time, why he didn't give me the blood pill, have you thought about it? 】

Shen Sui was at a loss for words.

[Obviously he is more afraid of the side effects of the blood pill than the effect of the blood pill.He was essentially worried about the blood pill refined by Yin Yuyue. 】

"But now he decided to give me this blood pill, obviously because after comparing the crude blood pills in the cult's main altar, he still believes that this blood pill has a certain effect." Shen Sui said.

【yes. 】Shen Jin nodded, 【But I don't want to take it. 】

"Qin slave..." Shen Sui frowned.

[Sorry, sister, I can't get over that test in my heart for the time being. 】Shen Jin said.

"It's okay, I came here just to tell you about this, not to force you to take it, you have to think it over before you say it, don't rush to refuse me. This blood pill, put it here, if you want it, I will give it to you." I can give it to you anytime." Shen Sui said.

【Um. 】 Shen Jin nodded.

Shen Sui looked at her silently for a while, and saw that she seemed unwilling to talk to him any more.She pursed her lips and stood up:

"You should rest earlier. You have been running around with me these days, and you are exhausted. I plan to stay in Suiye for a few more days, and return after I have rested."

【Sister, what are you going to do next.Should we continue to investigate the cult, or... go find Sister Mao Mao. ] Shen Jin asked her.

"Let's talk about it. I have asked the people below to investigate the matter of the Great Pope. If there is any news, they will report it to me. The Great Pope is a man in the court, and his status is extraordinary. He cannot be easily shaken. We don't know how many forces there are, and it's useless to worry. As for Maomao...it's beyond my control. She accumulates strength in Youzhou, and it's not a matter of one day. When she can leave Youzhou, it depends. The internal situation. I'm afraid there won't be any big changes in the next two years. During this time, I plan to take a good rest and stop running around. Huang'er is still young, and she needs a stable environment for her growth in the next few years .When this matter is over, we will go back to the Jinling old house."

[You... Mother's matter, do you really just let it go like this...] Shen Jin asked in a murmur.

Shen Sui hesitated for a moment, then slowly replied:

"It's not that I don't want to take care of it, but... I'm not ready yet. She is my mother, but she also has her choice. If she really doesn't want to see me that much, then I shouldn't go against it." Her will. All her life, everyone around her has been doing selfish things in the name of her good, and no one has considered her thoughts. I think, at least I don’t want to be such a person. I have already I sent someone to look for her, but even if I find her, I will not go to see her in a short time, unless it is time to meet."

Shen Jin nodded to express his understanding.

"Go to sleep, I'm leaving." Shen Sui smiled again, and slowly approached Shen Jin's side, raising his hand, wanting to caress the top of her hair like in childhood.

But at that moment, she saw the dodge in Shen Jin's eyes.Her hand froze in mid-air, and finally dropped slowly.The smile on her face did not change, she turned and opened the door.

The moment she left the room, she didn't see Shen Jin's silent lips: [I'm sorry, sister. 】

Tears had already wet her cheeks.

The author has something to say: I saw that some people in the comments said that they did not understand the behavior of the mother-in-law of the tribe, so I gave an explanation in this chapter.

The mother-in-law's obsession is to heal Qin Lian and retire with her.But in order to accomplish this, she has done too many things that violated her original wish and Qin Lian's original wish, and she actually regrets it deep in her heart.On the eighth floor of the nine-story building, the choice test she gave Shen Sui was actually a multiple-choice question with a given answer.She knew that she was bound to lose, and she had already had the will to die.The reason why Shen Sui was still made to make this choice was to complete the bet and complete a ceremony for her to let go of her obsessions.Ten or 20 years of obsession does not mean that you can let go of it.There was also a final struggle in her heart.In addition, this gamble is also to give Qin Lian a reason to leave, Qin Lian is actually reluctant to part with her.But she wanted Qin Lian to leave, so she created a situation where you win and I lose, forcing her to leave.The final struggle of Clan's mother-in-law was that she used her disguise and traps to sneak attack Shen Sui on the ninth floor.She didn't do it with the attitude that she must succeed in the sneak attack and take the blood marrow. She just wanted to complete her plan. Regardless of whether she succeeded or not, at least she did it, so she could leave with peace of mind.

As I said in the article, whether it is the clan mother-in-law or Yixu, they are all doing selfish things under the banner of being good for Qin Lian.In fact, they were just trying to fulfill their obsessions, and never considered Qin Lian's thoughts.Planning step by step, but ultimately failed.The only consolation is that they all let go.