I really don't love you anymore [Entertainment]

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Liu Yue vomited blood.

As soon as Lin Sangyu came home from work and opened the door, she was so frightened by the large pool of blood on the sofa that she almost went into cardiac arrest. Liu Yue found a clean rag from the kitchen and wiped the blood splashed on the ground little by little. Seeing her coming back, Lin Sangyu smiled at her, Lin Sangyu walked over three steps at a time, and hugged Liu Yue in his arms.

Her violent heartbeat was almost out of control, and there was a white fog in front of her eyes, so that she even forgot to breathe, the pain like a bursting heart made Liu Yue almost out of breath.

Feeling the sound of her beating heart, Liu Yue gently pushed her, Lin Sangyu recovered, let her go, Liu Yue looked at her, reached out to wipe the tears from the corners of her eyes, and said with a smile: "I am the one who is sick." , it's not you, why are you crying?"

Lin Sangyu choked her neck and did not speak. She reached out to take the rag in her hand, squatted down and continued her work, Liu Yue hugged her from behind, and comforted her: "Okay, I'm fine, it's not that serious."

Lin Sangyu wiped the floor silently, and let Liu Yue hold her. After a while, she finally said: "...I will ask the company for leave tomorrow."

Liu Yue vomited blood at home, but she was not at home, this time she was sober enough to wipe the floor by herself, but what will happen in the future?

What if she... can't wake up again?

Lin Sangyu tightly clenched the rag in her hand, the blood red color was like a slap on her face, her hands trembled a little, she stood up reluctantly after a while, and said: "No, I'll take you to the hospital, you can't dragged here."

After Lin Sangyu finished speaking, she took the rag and walked towards the kitchen, but was gently grabbed by Liu Yue.

Liu Yue's face was pale, without any blood. Her hands were as cold and lifeless as before. She said, "I don't want to go to the hospital."

Now people outside are looking for her, Liu Qiao and Yu Jian will not let go of any large or small hospital in city B, even the hospital with perfect confidentiality regulations can be dug up by them, she said a few days ago It would be good for her to find a hospital that is a little more secluded, but not now, even T City and H City, which are the closest to City B, are about to be searched by outsiders, and now she can't go anywhere, if she doesn't want to be Discover.

Lin Sangyu whispered: "...you will die."

Liu Yue smiled and said, "I will die one day."

Liu Yue held her hand, and Lin Sangyu's arm was full of veins. She seemed to be enduring something, her emotions had exploded to the extreme, from anger to sadness, to a ball of boredom in her heart, and finally exploded. Only lonely embers are left.

Lin Sangyu said softly: "So, are you going to make me sad?"

You don't want to make them sad, so you have to make me sad?

Liu Yue, why are you so cruel.

Liu Yue was stunned, the hand she was holding Lin Sangyu finally couldn't hold on any longer, she withdrew her hand silently, unable to laugh anymore, many things were nakedly displayed under the light like this, she Biting her lower lip lightly, she didn't know what to say, a moment of silence spread, and she went around, only this sentence remained.

"……sorry."

"sorry."

At that time, when I was young, I thought that the lovesickness and secret love that I concealed very well, thought that the other party would never know, as long as all the thoughts were swallowed by myself, it would not cause any trouble to her, and even her wedding was only a matter of time. If you can just take a look at her from a distance and run away, you just want her to live a good life. What about you... It doesn't matter.

For so many years, I thought I could persevere, but once that person came to me, as long as I got a little closer to myself, all the psychological defenses would be broken in an instant.

You see, you can't let go, and you can never let go.

You think you can let go and bless freely, you can forget, you can forget, you can look at her with a smile and live your own life, but you just think that's all.

All the patience was shattered into powder in an instant. It turned out that the obsession had penetrated into the bone marrow and could not be released forever.

In this case, can I be a little more presumptuous?

Can you pamper me a little more?

I am sorry.

After Liu Yue let go, she hurried towards the bedroom as if she was escaping from something, but was grabbed by the expressionless Lin Sangyu, and with a movement of her arm, she pulled Liu Yue into her arms fiercely.

It was a drowning hug and kiss.

Lin Sangyu hugged her tightly and bit her lips, almost venting her bitterness and despair for so many years, but her heart became more and more desperate. She had planted herself on this person in her life, breathing the breath of Liu Yue, it was almost The whole body was trembling, she hugged Liu Yue tightly, almost wanting to strangle her to death.

Since you never loved me, never would love me, why did you appear in front of me?

Why do you have to appear in front of me again and again?

How cruel are you?

Lin Sangyu almost tore himself away from her, wiped his face, and pushed her lightly: "Go back to the bedroom first, get some sleep, and I'll make dinner...I won't take you there Hospital, I will invite a doctor I know to come over tomorrow... It's okay, I'm here."

"Just pretend that nothing happened just now. I was impulsive. I'm sorry."

After all, Liu Yue's critical illness could not be concealed.

The doctor Lin Sangyu invited was not too strict, and after leaving, he revealed Liu Yue's whereabouts. Liu Qiao and Yu Jian quickly found Lin Sangyu's apartment.

Liu Yue was still taken out by Liu Qiao and Yu Jian, and entered the best hospital in City B.

Lin Sangyu couldn't help it, even if Liu Yue disagreed, but the matter had reached this point, she acquiesced in all this happening. Fortunately, Liu Qiao and Yu Jian didn't blame her for concealing it, on the contrary, they thanked her very much. After all, Liu Yue ran away by herself, and Lin Sangyu had done her best to help her friend by taking her in.

Liu Qiao and Yu Jian knew Lin Sangyu before, although they hadn't seen each other for many years, knowing that Liu Yue had been staying at her house for a while, she felt very sorry, and said that if Lin Sangyu wanted, she could come to see her sick anytime.

Everyone knew that Liu Yue's illness was terminally ill and there was no cure for it, so she could only delay it with medicine, and it would take a day.

Liu Yue lives in the advanced intensive care unit. Liu Qiao and Yu Jian are isolated from everyone's visits. It is very quiet here. At most, you can only see a few nurses walking past in a hurry. In the thickened soundproof ward, there is almost no one sound.

Liu Yue didn't even have the strength to breathe.

She even needs to rely on the oxygen tube to breathe, her face is bloodless, her whole body is completely skinny, and her skin becomes dry and rough. Every day when he woke up in a groggy state, he would see Liu Qiao and Yu Jian's anxious but forced smiles, but he never saw Lin Sangyu again.

She woke up from the coma again, raised her arms with the last bit of strength, pulled Liu Qiao who was on the bed, and moved her lips: "..."

Seeing her sister like this, Liu Qiao felt sad. Liu Yue seemed to want to say something, but her voice was too low. Liu Qiao hurriedly leaned down and leaned against her ear, trying hard to hear what she was saying. What.

Liu Yue: "... Sang... Sang Yu..."

Liu Qiao couldn't help crying when she heard this, wiped her eyes, gritted her teeth and tried to smile: "Do you want to see Lin Sangyu?"

Liu Yue nodded. Just a few words and a few movements took almost all of her strength.

Lin Sangyu came here at night. As Liu Yue's best friend in high school, Liu Qiao and Yu Jian were very reassured of her, patted her on the shoulder, and told her to come over specially.

This hospital is also relatively remote. When she rushed over, she looked dusty, nodded, and sat on the edge of the bed.

She comes to bed tonight.

Liu Yue is actually very quiet, she falls asleep most of the time on weekdays, and rarely wakes up.

But no one knows when the god of death will come to take her away.

At night Lin Sangyu woke up from a light sleep, only to find that Liu Yue was staring at her with her eyes half open.

The curtain beside the bed was not closed, the moonlight was pouring down from the outside, her eyes were bright, as if there were thousands of stars shining, Liu Yue had even half sat up, her hands gained a little strength, and her fingers touched her face superior.

Lin Sangyu froze for a moment, but put her hands back under the quilt.

Liu Yue sat on the bed and looked at her quietly. There was a look of life in her eyes, and her spirit improved a lot.

It's almost like a flashback.

Lin Sangyu knew that she was about to fail.

There is a void in her heart, she is going to die, and soon she will be freed from this fate that she can't ask for, one day she will forget her, and it doesn't matter if she meets another woman, or a man, she doesn't care. Not completely gay, after all, she only loved Liu Yue in her life.

I've loved her for so long, and I don't even know what I'm obsessed with. After loving her for so many years, sometimes I feel that I hate her.

Why must it be her, why must it be me?

Why can't there be room for one self in so many happy reunions in this vast world?

I should have felt happy, but it hurt too much, like the old scar in my heart was torn apart abruptly, or like the thorn in my heart was suddenly pulled out , her heart was bleeding non-stop, the unstoppable bleeding spread from her heart to her throat, almost causing a bloody smell to linger in her throat.

So painful, so empty, and so sad.

Otherwise why would she cry?

Liu Yue smiled weakly, raised her hand to touch her eyelids: "Don't cry, it won't look good if you cry."

She was much more energetic, and even spoke a lot more smoothly.

But Lin Sangyu was in so much pain that even breathing involved the wound on her heart. She couldn't even speak. She didn't want Liu Yue to see her like this. In Liu Yue's eyes, she should always be that fearless Lin Sangyu, who is not afraid of the ground, dares to bet that she jumps to the second floor and doesn't take anything to heart, is not her current self.

Liu Yue touched her face: "But the way I am now...is it particularly ugly?"

Lin Sangyu shook her head and covered her lips.

You will not be unattractive, no matter what you look like, you are always the most beautiful in my heart, even if you are wrinkled and white-haired, you will never be young again, you will always be the most beautiful.

But she could never see her like that again.

Liu Yue smiled again: "That's good..." When she finished saying this, her eyelids sank, and she could almost feel the feeling of life being lost from her body, all bodily functions were slowly The decline stopped, and only a trace of obsession hung her life. She finally couldn't hold it anymore, and lay back under the quilt with her eyes closed.

"Actually, I know."

Liu Yue's voice was soft and slow: "When you were a sophomore in high school, I knew you kissed me secretly."

"I just can't figure it out, I don't understand it, and I can't believe it. I'm belatedly aware of many things. It's been so many years... We haven't seen each other for so many years."

"sorry."

Many feelings are too late to experience, time is like running water, but it can never go back.

How many years has passed by.

Lin Sangyu's voice was trembling, her throat was hoarse, swollen and uncomfortable, every word was bloody, she said tremblingly: "Have you ever liked me? Even just a little."

Liu Yue's voice was too soft and too low, she was silent for a long time, and then said softly: "...Yes."

some.

"After all these years, you still can't lie."

When Lin Sangyu heard these two words, she wanted to laugh out loud. She was silent for a while, looking at her tightly closed eyes, her hoarse voice spread in the quiet ward.

"If there is a next life, I will never meet you again."

Liu Yue paused for a moment, the corners of her eyes were red, and after a long while, she replied softly: "...OK."

When I was young, I was ignorant. I used to think that if one day, I could hear the person I love say that she likes me, it would be the greatest happiness in my life. Even if I died, I would have no regrets.

However, with the vicissitudes of life and the changes in the world, it is only at this age that a person realizes that whether she likes herself or not, whether she loves herself or not, is no longer such an important matter.

She has loved her for so many years, and she has loved her so hard, it is no longer such a simple matter.

Even if you get what you want, so what?

She is really too tired, too tired to fall in love with another person.

She is doomed to be alone all her life.

The author has something to say: At that time, when she was young, she thought that she had concealed her lovesickness and secret love carefully, thinking that the other party would never know, as long as all the thoughts were swallowed by one person, it would not cause her any trouble, even Even her wedding can only be seen from a distance before fleeing, as long as she wants to live a good life, it doesn't matter what happens to her...it doesn't matter.

In fact, I just want to write this paragraph about the relationship between this pair of CP...

The sub-CP is over, and the next chapter will return to the main line