city ​​of angels

??A Chong catch up.

?? Chase what, chasing that little girl, or chasing your past?

?? Running and running, Chong began to have hallucinations.He felt that his body had shrunk, that he had become a child.Did he also run across such a street?Has he been chased so hard by others?

??Running down one street, two streets, three streets, crowded with pedestrians, bustling with people, he ran through it all and ran into an alley.

??The little girl couldn't run fast, and she burst into tears when she saw Ah Chong catching up.After all, he was a child, and he didn't have enough strength to run through a few streets and alleys before he overtook him.

?? Ah Chong panted.He grabbed the child's arm and waited until he was calm, then said in Thai amidst her crying: "Don't be afraid."

??The little girl saw that she was caught, she was so frightened that she kept crying, shaking all over, and kept pushing him.

?? Achong felt sore in his heart, and held the child's hand tightly.He asked again, only to frighten the child even more, and to cry louder and louder.

?? Cry, what's the use of crying.

?? But it's good to be able to cry.

?? Ah Chong squatted down, he probably didn't know that his expression was terrifying.

?? He asked: "How long has it been like this?"

??The little girl pushed him and said, "I don't dare anymore." Her voice was very small, as if she was whimpering.

??Ah Chong closed his eyes, he wanted to see if the child was hurt on the back, but this is a girl, so think about it or forget it.

??The child kept pushing him, and touched Ah Chong's injured hand during the pushing, but he forgot whether it hurt or not, and he forgot all about his body's feelings.He only remembered that he... seemed to be very calm, but at the same time seemed to be not very calm, and he was in an unclear state.

?? he asked incessantly.

?? "—Do you have any family?"

?? "—Is someone forcing you?"

?? "—Take me to them."

?? When Ning Yu ran to catch up, this was what he saw.

?? He saw Ah Chong half-kneeling, firmly holding the child's hand, and while talking, he took out Thai baht from his bag and stuffed it into the child's hand, speaking in a hurry.But the girl was so frightened that she pushed and beat Ah Chong while crying... Both of them seemed to be in a state of being unable to communicate.

?? This is the first time for Ning Yu to see Ah Chong, who is usually sloppy, lose his composure.

?? Ah Chong's expression is too serious, not serious like Ah Chong.

?? He heard Ah Chong loudly say to the child: "I asked you to take me to find them!! Don't cry!!"

??The girl was so frightened that she cried louder and said, sobbing, "I'm sorry...I was wrong...don't hit me! Just let me go! I dare not!"

?? They talk about each other, unable to communicate at all.

?? Ning Yu was stunned for a moment. He stepped forward, but before he could figure out how to persuade him, he saw three boys who were about the same age as the girl came running from the end of the alley.

??These three children are all dressed in shabby clothes, and one of them has no shoes.Ning Yu was still in a daze, when he saw the three children rushing up, they pushed and pushed Achong in a disorderly manner, punched and kicked, looking desperate, and seemed to want to take the little girl away.

?? The money in Ah Chong's hand was scattered all over the floor, and one of them went to pick it up, and said, "Hurry up! Hurry up!"

??Ning Yu saw one of the children pulling Ah Chong's hand.

??He was so frightened that he rushed over and pulled people away. The strange thing was that the children were small in stature but had great strength. They spoke Thai vaguely with a strong accent and spoke quickly. Ning Yu listened I don't know, I just feel that these children hurt quickly after kicking them a few times, I don't know why they are so hard.

?? During the chaos, the girl cried and bit Achong's hand. Ning Yu reflexively wanted to push the child's head, but Achong stopped him sharply: "Don't touch her!"

??Ning Yu saw that the girl was merciless, bleeding came from biting her, her eyes suddenly turned red, and she started to shout anxiously: "Let her go!!"

?? Ah Chong also yelled at Ning Yu: "Let go of me! I'm fucking going to take her back!"

?? This is also the first time Ah Chong speaks to Ning Yu with this volume.

?? But before he let go, the child had already flung himself free from Ah Chong's hand.

??They didn't look back, they ran extremely fast, and Ah Chong wanted to chase after him. Ning Yu intuitively thought that he should stop it, otherwise the consequences might be... So he hugged Ah Chong's waist tightly, and repeatedly persuaded: "Brother Chong— —Forget it...we won't chase, forget it..."

?? "You let me go."

?? "Brother Chong, stop chasing." Ning Yu gasped, "Let's go and see your hand, it's bleeding!"

?? Ning Yu is not weak, and he won't let anyone else. Ah Chong closed his eyes.

?? "I told you to let me go!!"

?? "I said stop chasing!" Ning Yu turned up the volume, "They won't believe you, what are you doing chasing?!"

?? After that sentence fell, time seemed to stand still for a long time.

?? During the long silence, Ning Yu was completely dumbfounded. Everything he said and did was driven by intuition and taught by instinct.

??He didn't know what he wanted to protect, but he felt that he should hold Ah Chong.

?? After a long time, Ah Chong turned around.He turned his head slowly and looked at Ning Yu.

??This is also the first time that Ning Yu saw such direct and fierce emotions in Ah Chong's eyes.

?? Ah Chong did not laugh, he looked at himself.

?? There seems to be something similar to hatred and sternness fermenting inside, gushing out, and evacuating the moisture in the hot air little by little, making you feel cold.

?? This is Chong he has never seen.But Ning Yu felt that this seemed to be the real Ah Chong.

??When I'm not laughing, when I'm serious...it turns out to be like this.Just looking at you, you will feel that gaze is like a blade.

?? Ning Yu's hand trembled unconsciously.

??He was a little panicked, and his speech began to tremble: "Brother Chong...you, you...don't be sad, I'm here, I..."

??He didn't know why, but his first reaction was to feel that Ah Chong was sad.

?? A Chong interrupted him: "You close your eyes."

??"……What?"

?? "I asked you to close your eyes."

?? Don't look at this me.

?? Ning Yu was taken aback by Ah Chong's tone.

?? At that moment, Ning Yu was actually and directly hit by a pain called heartache.It was the same as the time I saw Ah Chong get hurt...self-blame, uncomfortable, powerless.

?? At this time, Ning Yu was only 23 years old, and he didn't understand many truths related to life. He was very young, and many things were experienced for the first time. So he didn't understand why this moment was so uncomfortable. Thought I was going to die loving this person.

?? Pompous and abrupt.But it seems that this is the only way to describe it, and nothing else is enough.

??It is clear that the sky is bright and the sun is scorching, which makes people feel cold.

?? Ning Yu obediently closed his eyes.The one in front of him may be real or fake A Chong disappeared from sight.

?? But he hugged Chong.

??Seeing that he closed his eyes, Ah Chong tried to break away from the other party's arm around him, but he failed the first time and the second time. Ning Yu hugged himself stubbornly.

?? Ah Chong sighed, gave up, and simply buried his head on Ning Yu's shoulder, relaxed, and handed over all the weight of his body to Ning Yu.

"Come on." Ah Chong's voice sounded very quiet, "Shut up too, don't talk."

?? Ning Yu nodded.

?? Then Chong began to dig his pocket.

??At first Ning Yu thought that Ah Chong was touching candy, but when he heard the sound of the lighter being pressed, he realized that Ah Chong was looking for cigarettes to smoke.

?? Ah Chong found his hands uncomfortable when he was smoking.

?? The smoke smoked his eyes, and he was so stung that he squinted.

?? He thought of the girl in the sting.

?? That girl... Ah Chong didn't understand why she wanted to cry and run away.

?? He even started to bring himself to think.If the little Ah Chong from back then met his current self, and time and space crossed once, then... would the story change in any way?

?? Thinking about this kind of 'what if' is really mindless.

?? Ah Chong took a puff of smoke and laughed at himself for being bored.It seems that there is no need to bother the child to push him away. If he is annoyed, it seems that he is also annoyed by his own mirror image.The mirror is so clear that you can directly see your own imperfections, which is too ugly.

?? Ning Yu is slowly patting his back.I can feel that the movement is hesitant and careful, very light, very light.One shot, two shots, rhythmically, perhaps to comfort him, but it made Ah Chong more sober.

?? sober.

?? This time, Ah Chong seemed to see the center of his body... there was such a dark, quiet and heavy thing.He saw it, very clearly.

?? It has been growing, buried in the body.In the past, he would hate the shadow in this body, it always came out from time to time to disturb his life, regardless of the occasion, didn't know what was good and what was wrong, and was entangled.

?? is unwelcome it, but also indivisible it.

?? But today, on the contrary, Ah Chong hugged it and felt that it was as kind, amiable and huggable as Ning Yu.Ah Chong hugged it, Ning Yu's ribs pressed against it, and they embraced this heavy heart full of secrets together.

?? A Chong calmed down in the vague heartbeat.

??The cigarette was half smoked, and no one said a word. Ning Yu hugged Ah Chong and let him smoke lazily on his shoulder.

?? Ning Yu didn't speak anymore. He knew that he shouldn't bother at this time.

?? Later heard someone approaching them.Ning Yu closed his eyes and heard a few words in Thai, saying that smoking is not allowed here and they are required to pay a fine.

?? The words were spoken to Ah Chong, but Ning Yu heard them.Ah Chong didn't raise his eyes, he smoked on his own.

??The man thought they didn't understand, so he said it once in bad Chinese, but seeing that no one paid attention to him, he said it again in English.

??Ning Yu opened his eyes and took out his wallet, took out two pieces of money and handed them to the man.

??The man picked it up, but seeing that Ah Chong was still smoking without any response, he seemed to have something to say, so Ning Yu took out several more denominated cards and gave them to the man, asking, "Never mind, are these enough?"

??The man probably didn't expect to run into such a money thrower, so he took the money and left.

?? Ah Chong was amused by this, pinched Ning Yu's waist, and laughed at him: "The rich second generation is so good at prodigal."

?? Ning Yu shook his head, "You smoke it, it's okay."

?? Then the weight on his shoulders disappeared, Ah Chong stood up straight and looked over.

?? He started laughing, the same as before.

?? "Don't ask me anything."

?? Ning Yu was stunned for a while, and then said slowly: "...don't ask."

?? Don't ask.

??You are so uncomfortable, I dare not listen.

?? Ah Chong seemed to laugh.

?? He pinched his cigarette and asked, "Did it scare you?"

?? After a pause, Ah Chong added: "I'm sorry."

?? Ning Yu shook his head.

??He exhaled, lowered his head to check Ah Chong's hand, his expression was very serious.

?? When Ning Yu frowned and looked at the wound, Ah Chong rubbed his hair with the other hand a few times and said, "I'm fine."

?? Yes, it's all right.

??It only takes one cigarette to digest everything. This is Ah Chong.

?? Ning Yu's face froze, and he took a breath of inexplicable anger, "I have something to do, and I'm not willing to bite you, so you just let others bite you like this."

?? Ah Chong lowered his head slightly, pressed Ning Yu's head and rubbed it, "Then let you have a bite tonight, okay?"

?? Ning Yu remained silent, Ah Chong nodded twice while pressing his head, and held him again, "Let's go."

?? As if nothing happened, they walked the way they came and went.

?? Ning Yu insisted on taking Achong to see and disinfect him, but Achong said no.So Ning Yu started nagging, telling the news that someone he had heard died of tetanus after being bitten, and it was just a fabrication.Ah Chong listened carefully, saying "Oh, really."

?? In the end, he was still worried, and Ning Yu passed by 711 and quickly went to buy a pack of alcohol pads and band-aids. His face would look better after the bite marks were dealt with.

?? Ah Chong was annoyed by his reading, and perfunctorily dragged him back.

?? The atmosphere on the road was weird. Ning Yu felt flustered and had no topic to talk about. He racked his brains to find an experience that he thought was barely interesting—a competition he had done in college. What kind of solar watch is it, and it won an award.

?? Ah Chong is different from the past now. He is very patient and keeps nodding if he doesn't understand.

??They seem to be deliberately avoiding something, probably wanting to politely and gently withdraw from the experience they just suppressed.

The solar watch was talking, but Ning Yu suddenly couldn't speak, and the conversation was cut off.

??He always subconsciously looks at Ah Chong's hand, feeling restless, and then gets distracted, forgetting what to say next.

??Ning Yu knew that he was bored and a failure, so he didn't know how to make Ah Chong happy at this time.He is not good at this kind of thing, and the only topics he can think of are solar-powered watches that are out of reach.

??He is not Ah Chong, there is no way to get out of a certain situation quickly, he is still blaming himself and feeling uncomfortable.

?? Seeing his distraught look, Ah Chong could only stop, and said slowly, "I want candy, boyfriend."

??Ning Yu didn't look at him either.He lowered his head and touched it, only to find that there was no candy in his pocket.He was upset and muffled, "It's gone."

?? Ah Chong pressed his face down, still smiling, and asked: "Then can you kiss me, I want to eat something sweet now."

?? Logically speaking, it’s okay to say that. He usually likes to tease Ning Yu like this.

??But Ning Yu actually replied forcefully this time: "If you don't want to laugh, don't laugh, if you want to cry, cry, if you want to lose your temper, lose your temper. Whatever you pretend, I will be angry if you do this."

?? Oh, he knows I'm pretending again.

?? Achong looked at him quietly for a while, and then slowly laughed.

?? "Well, I just pretended, but now I really want to laugh, because you are handsome when you are angry." Ah Chong said sincerely, "Please kiss me, I will eat sweets."

?? Ning Yu said, politely and modestly: "...I'm not sweet, you may be very disappointed."

?? Having said that, I still rushed forward after speaking.

?? When kissing, he subconsciously grabs Ah Chong's neck, and the other party wraps around his waist.Ning Yu is very ticklish, especially the side of his waist, but when Ah Chong rubs it, he will feel that he is being slowly ignited by that hand, it is not itchy, but it is very numb.

?? They are standing in the vent where the hot air is blowing.Ning Yu squeezed Ah Chong's palm when he felt he could hardly breathe, and parted his face, "...What do you want if you kiss me again."

?? Ah Chong didn't care: "It's a normal reaction, and I will too. Thank you, my mood has improved, and your mouth is sweet."

?? They continued to move forward, tacitly no longer speak.

??Everything that happened just now seemed important and unimportant, and the two pretended to pass by tacitly, and ended with a kiss.

??After walking for a while, Achong suddenly mentioned what happened just now in a calm tone.

?? "Actually, I just want to give her some money and ask her if someone asked her to come out and steal it."

??Achong paused, "I know she didn't do it voluntarily. I wanted to help her...but it seemed to scare her."

??You scared me too, okay, Ning Yu thought.

"Anyway, they took the money away." He said with a comforting tone, "I'm afraid it's normal, maybe I thought you were going to send her to the police station."

?? Ah Chong was silent for a while, and then said: "Stealing things is not good, I hope they... can change it."

?? Ning Yu glanced at him sideways.

?? Ah Chong added another sentence: "Actually... Even if it is changed, this kind of thing is still a scar. It may be left on a person for a lifetime, and it is difficult to disappear."

?? Ning Yu looked away.

??The memory clues of the past relationship are connected together, and Ning Yu feels that he seems to understand something vaguely.

?? "If you give her money, she won't understand this."

??Achong: "I didn't want her to understand, I just wanted her to buy something to eat."

?? They walked around the corner, back to the main street.

?? Ning Yu suddenly said: "Actually, it's nothing. I also stole my mother's money when I was young."

?? Ah Chong was stunned, and looked sideways at Ning Yu.

?? Ning Yu could hear a little embarrassment in his tone, "Why do you look at me like that... just... I had a summer vacation in the first year of junior high school, and my dad was busy, so I went to live with my mother for two months, and I had to help take care of me. My brother. At that time, DNF was just a game. It was very popular. Everyone played it. If you don’t play it, you and your classmates have nothing to talk about. For those two months, my mother always forgot to give me pocket money, and I was fine when I was idle. I really want to play, but my mother forgot to give me pocket money for a few days, but that day the game happened to have a task, so I quietly took the money my mother put in the shoe cabinet..."

I really couldn't believe that this was something Ning Yu would do, and asked him: "...how much did you take?"

?? "...three yuan." Ning Yu added in a low voice, "RMB. Later, my mother gave me pocket money and I returned it, and I paid it back the next day."

"..." Ah Chong was speechless for two seconds, "What can you do with three yuan?"

"... At that time, the Internet cafe can be charged for more than an hour." Ning Yu blushed, "The point is that my brother saw it that time. My brother is a thief. He will take it when he sees me. It’s still big, and I took a lot. Later, my mother found out, and my brother bit back and said that I taught him to take it, and that I taught him how to play games... I am too lazy to talk about him. Anyway, my mother beat me badly that time She told my dad when she went back, and she was beaten again by my dad. Because of this, I didn’t go to an Internet cafe to play online games before I went to college, and my dad beat me..."

?? Ah Chong twitched the corner of his mouth, "You... this is not stealing money."

??Children are just ignorant, and puberty also always has some strange persistence and stink problems, which is understandable.

?? "Forget it, what is wrong is wrong." Ning Yu said, "Although I was young and ignorant at that time...but I will not deny it, and I also admit that it is wrong. If you take it, you take it, and if it is wrong, it is wrong. , nothing to be embarrassed about. Uh...but I told you, don't laugh!"

?? Ah Chong laughed when he really felt happy.

??The reason for laughing is probably because when Ning Yu talked about the past, he was very calm, with a little embarrassment, a little shame, mixed with a kind of youthful vitality, very energetic.

??Ning Yu's voice was sweet, powerful, and clear, and seemed to drive away some of the haze in his heart.

"I didn't laugh, I didn't laugh." Ah Chong squeezed his palm, "Our Ning Yu is so brave and a good boy."

?? "... It's strange for you to say that."

?? After Ning Yu finished speaking, he added carefully, "So I think that past experiences cannot be used to define who you are. The role of the past should be to guide and make us better."

??Yeah.

??Who guides whom and where?

?? Seeing that Ah Chong didn't react much, Ning Yu frowned and thought about it, and then started another topic: "Also, a person I knew told me about it. A friend of mine was a left-behind child when he was young. Grandma is getting old, and the family is very difficult. He was in that kind of thief organization when he was a child... Then he was admitted to my alma mater, with better grades than me, and finally went abroad to California..."

?? A Chong lowered his head and smiled, interrupting Ning Yu lightly:

?? "I guess I guessed it, but I still have to beat around the bush and talk about other things to make me happy. I don't know who is better at pretending."

?? Ning Yu was shocked, and his expression froze for a second.

"Brother Chong, I..."

?? Ah Chong suddenly changed the topic: "Have you noticed that there is something missing from your body?"

??He always seems to be able to easily avoid embarrassing himself and escape from the context he hates.

?? Ning Yu was indeed distracted. He thought for a while, touched his pocket, was suspicious for a second, and then his eyelids twitched, and then realized: "...I forgot my hat in the coffee shop."

?? He seldom loses things, forgets that it is because he wants to find Ah Chong, and now the obsessive-compulsive disorder comes up, and he starts to be upset and says he wants to go back to look for him.

?? Ah Chong seemed very satisfied with Ning Yu's reaction, and said with a smile: "Just stay there, we will go again next time and see if he is still there."

?? After finishing speaking, Ah Chong turned around with a smile, lowered his head slightly, and looked closely into Ning Yu's eyes.

?? Ning Yu paused, subconsciously slowing down his breathing.

??He smelled Ah Chong's pressure, this time it was a strong aggression, and he didn't hide it.

??Gradual smell, strong top note, slightly boozy middle note, soft back note.This is Ah Chong's usual tone and demeanor, which can make people drunk and dizzy.

?? Ning Yu thought, they seem to have never been so close.Even though we have done so many times and kissed so many times before, it seems that today we are really close to each other.

?? Ah Chong whispered: "Thank you."

?? Ning Yu replied in a daze: "...you're welcome, you should."

??But what Ning Yu thinks in his heart is... can I kiss him now?It should be ok?

?? A Chong did not give him a chance.

?Because Ah Chong said: "Now, the head of the No. [-] family wants to elope with you, boyfriend, would you like to go with me?