he was cheated

Due to the heavy snow that was delayed for a while, and Shang Yibai had to deal with some other matters on the way, by the time their team arrived in Lanyang, it was already spring.

The night before Shen Mo entered the city, he tossed and turned and couldn't sleep, and he couldn't suppress the complicated thoughts that seemed to be intertwined.

He didn't hide his behavior at all during this time, and he was more indulgent and casual than when he was in Fengming Mountain, but Fang Yibai still didn't change his expression when facing him lying on the bed with Erlang's legs crossed and his feet scratched. When he was sitting on the threshold in a daze, he would say that the ground was cold, and then he would be dragged up.His reaction was so natural that Shen Mo couldn't believe it.

After thinking about it, he still propped himself up, and carefully asked the people around him a question, "Yibai...do you think I've changed a bit compared to before?"

For him, returning to Fang's house in another day will have a different meaning.He wanted to figure things out before going back.

Fang Yibai glanced at him with his arm pillowed, and said, "It has changed."

Shen Mo's eyes dimmed, his whole body stiffened, and he held his breath.Sure enough, even if he didn't say it, he must have noticed it in his heart.

Fang Yibai smiled coldly, and said: "You have changed. You used to lie to me and pretended to love me. Now, you don't even bother to lie."

Shen Mo sat cross-legged on the bed, staring at him blankly, unable to react for a while.

Fang Yibai's eyes were fixed, seeing that he seemed to have something to say, he also sat up, "What exactly do you want to say?"

Shen Mo clenched his hands, paused for a long time, and then slightly lowered his eyes to Yibai's confession: "Yibai, actually... I'm not a ranger. Relying on cheating and abducting to make a living, I am not the Ah Mo in your eyes, I used to pretend a lot in front of you, I am not as good as you think, I am really... just a very vulgar and ordinary person, and You are so good, I don't deserve you at all..."

After Jun Qing's incident, Shen Mo often thought of the phrase "the right family is right" that sister said when she taught him a lesson.

In fact, he didn't know that he wasn't good enough for Jun Qing at the time, so much so that he didn't dare to express his heart after liking him for so many years.It's just that later Junqing approached him proactively, and he was dazzled by his burning passion, so he fell into it desperately, willing to do anything for that person.

He thought that Junqing liked him, and he thought that as long as there was love between the two, as long as he worked hard to improve and change himself, and worked hard, nothing would be an obstacle, nothing would be a difficulty.

However, the cruel reality soon hit him head-on.

He gradually calmed down and could figure it out. Although Jun Qing said that he liked him, in fact, he never took him seriously. That's why he felt from the bottom of his heart that he would be satisfied if he was given the position of male favourite. I'm touched.

The liking in Junqing's mouth probably refers to the liking that ordinary people say they like animals like flowers and plants.He just wants to own and appreciate, but he won't give the same affection.

He really learned a bloody lesson in that short one-sided relationship, and he was completely exhausted physically and mentally.

He thought about it all the way back to Lanyang. Fang Yibai really treated him well and loved him deeply. Back then, he couldn't accept it, and he didn't want to accept it.

But now, he is willing to try to face it, but finds that he dare not accept it.

Because Shen Mo always feels that Fang Yibai has always loved the Ah Mo in his heart, not the real "Shen Mo" - an ordinary man with a good skin.

Fang Yibai's love for him is illusory, deceived and deceived.The deeper Fang Yibai's feelings were expressed, the more he couldn't believe it, and wanted to avoid it in panic, he was afraid that he was just a body that carried Fang Yibai's feelings, and he was also afraid that Fang Yibai's heart would be wronged.

Moreover, he knew very well that there was really nothing worthy of Fang Yibai's liking for him.

Shen Mo thinks that he has acted clearly enough during this period of time. He uses this method to hope that Fang Yibai can get a clear understanding. If Fang Yibai wakes up one day, he will take Xiaochan and leave quietly. At least at that time, he could justifiably take the child with him.This is also the escape route he left for himself.He has also been waiting for this day in agony.

But already in Lanyang, Fang Yibai still didn't notice it, as if he felt that he should be like this in his heart.

Shen Mo became more and more unpredictable, and felt extremely uneasy. He always felt that he was still deceiving Fang Yibai, so he decided to muster up the courage to take the initiative to explain clearly to Fang Yibai.

After Fang Yibai heard his words, his expression was not very good. There seemed to be dark clouds rolling in his black eyes, and he stared at him for a long time. After a long time, he seemed to sneer sincerely, "In my eyes you are I'm afraid I know better than you what it looks like. I know a lot more than you can imagine."

Shen Mo didn't expect to get such an answer, and was stunned for a while, his eyes were uncontrollably moist.

is it?

In other words... Fang Yibai actually knew when he was pretending before?

No wonder Yibai used to always like to tilt his head and cover his lips with a gentle snigger when he was acting coquettishly.

Fang Yibai knew it all, but because he liked it so much, he saw through it but didn't reveal it.

Shen Mo also suddenly felt that he was really incomprehensible, how could he think Fang Yibai was so stupid?

Not only is he not stupid, but he is also smart and transparent. Perhaps he had already faintly noticed that he didn't love him back then, but he still chose to believe it.

But in the end, his trust was ruthlessly betrayed.

Shen Mo only felt a puff of air go straight to his throat, he looked at Fang Yibai with foggy eyes, his lips moved slowly, but he only took a breath of hot air, and didn't make any sound.

He knew that his questioning would definitely hurt people, he was really an asshole, but he couldn't figure it out, he didn't want this knot to exist forever.

"Why are you asking this?" Fang Yibai suddenly became vigilant, approached him, pinched his chin with his hand, looked into his eyes and asked coldly: "We are almost in Lanyang now, are you still looking for him? Do you want me to let you go for various reasons? You just want to leave me so much?! Is it so tortured for you to stay by my side???!"

Seeing that he was really angry, Shen Mo hurriedly said: "No, no, I didn't want to leave you, and I didn't feel tortured, I just wanted to ask clearly, and then, then..."

Fang Yibai's eyes were filled with anger, and he forced to ask: "Then what?!"

"Then..." Shen Mo's black and wet eyes looked straight at him, his voice was low but he spoke clearly, "I'll spend a good time with you."

More than three years ago, he had just escaped from an embarrassing relationship. He really didn't know what mood to face Fang Yibai. In addition, he always felt that Fang Yibai didn't like the real him. In the end, he could only Make such a hasty and self-righteous decision.

But now, he has recognized the status quo, he can't escape, and he doesn't want to escape anymore.He was truly sorry for Fang Yibai from the bottom of his heart, even if he took his life to pay for it, he still wouldn't be able to clear it up.

This time when he returns to Fang's house in Lanyang, he will definitely spend the rest of his life with Fang Yibai. Fang Yibai's attitude undoubtedly shows that he loves the real him. Tangled.

At that moment just now, he also gradually developed some rare courage.

Since they were going to get along together in the future, he didn't want the relationship between the two of them to be too cold.

He has to start working hard to adapt to this kind of life, and...to accept and try to respond to Fang Yibai's feelings.

Shen Mo really mustered up a lot of courage to take this difficult step, but in the end he didn't get any response from Fang Yibai.

Fang Yibai looked at him with suspicion in his eyes, as if he was so submissive all of a sudden, he was going to play tricks again when he said these words.

Shen Mo was helpless and sad, with bitterness in his heart.He knew that this was all self-inflicted, and it was absolutely reasonable for Fang Yibai not to believe it.

It will be a long time in the future... It will only be later, Fang Yibai will always let go of his guard against him one day.

Shen Mo finally told Fang Yibai what was on his mind for a long time that night, the heavy mountain on his chest was gone, and his whole body seemed to be relaxed a lot, he rubbed With sour eyes, "Go to sleep."

Seeing Fang Yibai's gloomy face without moving, Shen Mo pulled him to lie down, then stuffed himself into his arms, covered the quilt, put his hand on his shoulder and patted him twice, with a low voice, Pleading and assuring, "Don't be angry with me, I really won't think about leaving in the future. Go to sleep."

He actually fell asleep, because thinking of going back to Fang's mansion the next day, his heart began to feel uneasy from now on, what face would he have to meet Fang's family...

After he actually went back, he realized that his worries were superfluous, because Fang Xianyun, who frightened him the most, was not at home at all, and Fang Zhixue still had the same attitude as before, neither indifferent nor eager to him, nor did he show any hatred for him. Gritting his teeth.

Moreover, when Fang Zhixue saw Xiaochan, her eyes flickered, as if she was very interested in Shen Bing's arms.Xiaochan is not afraid of strangers, she looks at her with big clear eyes.

When she learned that Xiaochan was Shen Mo's daughter, she twitched her brows, her gaze shifted from Fang Yibai to Shen Mo, then she held Xiaochan's soft hand and asked with a faint smile, "How old is the child?"

"Not yet three years old." Shen Mo replied.he

Originally, she had already given all her savings to Shen Bing, and planned to rent a house in Lanyang, and let them live there temporarily.But unexpectedly, Fang Yibai brought them back without further ado.

Fang Zhixue gently squeezed Xiaochan's hand again, smiled and said nothing.Then his eyes fell on Yi Jiayan who was standing behind. Yi Jiayan was caught off guard and stunned for a moment. He avoided it abruptly and with some embarrassment, and then walked in first.

Shen Mo saw it in his eyes, he had been thinking for three years, and the relationship between the two became more and more unclear.

Fang Yibai took Shen Mo to visit the old lady first to say hello to her. Shen Mo stood there with his head so ashamed that he couldn't lift his head.

But what was surprising was that the old lady recognized him as a "daughter-in-law", and happily pulled him to talk a lot.Then Fang Yibai pretended to be angry and said: "Xiaobai, why didn't you bring my granddaughter to me to see? Why! Are you still hiding it? I've heard people say it, and you still want to hide it from me?"

Fang Yibai tightened his hands, glanced at the silent Shen Mo, and then smiled and said to the old lady: "Mother, don't be angry, I will bring her to you tomorrow."

The old lady looked a little dissatisfied, and her tone even showed a bit of grievance, "Can't you bring it here at this time? I want to see my granddaughter."

Fang Yibai said: "Mother, she has been driving with us for several months. The child is not tired and is resting now. Let's bring her here tomorrow. Let you see enough."

The old lady gave up after hearing what he said, and after she said a few more words, she began to doze off uncontrollably. Watching the nanny put her to sleep, Fang Yibai took Shen Mo away.

On the way back to the room, Shen Mo couldn't help but secretly wondered, whether it was the servants who reported indiscriminately, or the old lady's clever calculations, how did she know that Xiao Chan was her own granddaughter?

Just like back then, the old lady patted his ass and said that he could give birth, he could give birth—and in the end, he really could give birth!

This old lady is not a fairy descended to earth, she is just pretending to be confused because of unavoidable reasons? ? ?

When he suddenly came back to his senses, he found that he had returned to Fang Yibai's room. Looking at the familiar furnishings in the room, overwhelming memories instantly flooded into his mind, and every bit of him that was pressed in the corner immediately became active.

I don't know if I don't come back. It turns out that his memory of this place is so deep.

By the time both of them had bathed, changed their clothes and packed up, it was already dark.Shen Mo thought for a while, leaned over and asked Fang Yibai casually, where Xiaochan was arranged.

Fang Yibai raised his eyes and looked at him before saying, "It's at my sister's place."

"...???" Shen Mo was stunned, he had thought about all kinds of possibilities, but he never expected to be with Fang Zhixue.

"She said she had a crush on your sister and Xiao Chan, so she took them over."

Shen Mo hesitated to speak for a long time, but still didn't know what to say.Why is Fang Zhixue so friendly to Xiao Chan?Could it be...she saw the relationship between Xiaochan and Fang Yibai?Impossible, Xiao Chan's appearance is more like him, it's hard to see Fang Yibai's shadow.

Otherwise, he wouldn't have the courage to confess Xiao Chan's life experience to Fang Yibai.

Shen Mo was still thinking about it when he was sleeping, but he felt that Fang Zhixue was a very upright person, and he would definitely not take the opportunity to do anything to Xiao Chan, which he felt relieved.

As he was thinking, a pair of powerful arms wrapped around him, pecking and kissing his neck and shoulders with steam.Shen Mo knew what the representative was going to do, he took the initiative to turn sideways slowly, his lips were blocked, he hugged Fang Yibai back, accepting his lingering and passionate kiss.

The first night back at Fang's house was a sleepless and restless night. When Fang Yibai was finally released in his body, Shen Mo was covered in sweat, his mouth was open and he couldn't make a sound, feeling like his soul was about to come out of his body .

Shen Mo used to struggle to clean it every time he finished it. This time, he moved his fingers tiredly, lying on the bed without moving, his eyes were straight, his mind was chaotic, he didn't know what he was doing. what to think.

Fang Yibai knew his habit, lay down with his arms around him for a while, and was about to order hot water to be brought in, but Shen Mo pulled him back to lie down, his tone was a bit erratic, and he didn't feel like he was falling, "...forget it, I I'm too lazy to move. Let's wash it tomorrow morning."

After giving birth to Xiao Chan, he felt that he would definitely not have a second one. It wasn't because he was afraid of pain or because he didn't like children, it was just...he was pregnant as a man, but he still felt that it was too strange and weird. .

But now that they have returned to Fang's house, he mustered up the courage to face it. Naturally, he wanted to tell Fang Yibai about Xiao Chan's life experience.

Shen Mo is really afraid now that Fang Yibai will get angry at him, he is completely lacking in confidence, and he doesn't want to quarrel with Fang Yibai, and he is afraid that it will make him sick.So after talking to Fang Yibai that day, he struggled and thought about it for a long time, gritted his teeth and stamped his feet, and made up his mind to get another one.

Although he didn't want to admit it, but now, for him, the strongest evidence is just another one in his stomach.

In this way, even if Fang Yibai doesn't have the slightest sense of trust in him, but when the iron-like facts are presented in front of him, he will have to believe it if he doesn't believe it.This is also the most secure.

He only hoped that Fang Yibai would not think he was a monster by then.

Shen Mo was quiet for a long time, then said to the people around him with a hoarse voice and thoughtlessly: "Fang Yibai, I'm really not a monster."

Fang Yibai: "...I know, go to sleep."

Shen Mo sighed lightly, and fell asleep in his arms.