pretend to be poor

"I'll go grocery shopping later" is like a flag with a delicate body and a soft body, and it will fall down as soon as it is pushed.

Tong Huai was so sleepy after eating, he yelled and dragged Xue Ting to catch up on sleep.

This child is very annoying when sleeping, and if he has nothing to hold, he will get angry and wake himself up. Xue Ting waited for him to fall asleep, and tried twice to sneak a pillow into his arms and go out by himself, but all failed.

I haven't seen him for half a month, and he is really reluctant to let go. After thinking about it for a while, he simply let nature take its course, put his arms around Tong Huai and closed his eyes, and let it go for a while.

When I woke up, it was already dark.

The cold wind howled outside, and the sky shook and fell large hexagonal snowflakes, flying and falling under the backdrop of street lamps and neon lights.

The room was warm and cozy, and the body temperature of the two of them was retained in the quilt, which was so comfortable that people didn't want to move.

Tong Huai stretched his neck to look at the snow outside the window, then lazily rubbed into Xue Ting's arms, not wanting to go out: "Tingting, why don't you eat takeaway at night?"

He thought about it carefully, Xue Ting's birthday, it seems inappropriate for him to cook by himself, but he also doesn't know how to cook, maybe he will burn the kitchen down.

It's better than eating takeaway.

Xue Ting woke up earlier than him. The feeling of sinking in a cold pool some time ago has faded, and his expression is a little lazy. He brushed the hair on the back of his head and hummed.

I ate cake with takeaway, and it was getting late.

Tong Huai didn't want to do homework, and couldn't fall asleep shortly after waking up, rolling on the carpet boredly.Xue Ting lifted him up amusedly, and pulled out the game controller: "Playing games?"

Tong Huai's eyes lit up, and he sat down immediately: "Do you know how to play games?"

"No," Xue Ting turned off a light to create an atmosphere, and said lightly, "It was specially prepared to tempt you to stay."

Tong Huai smiled: "You are very attractive here. Come, come, I will teach you how to play games, top student."

Facts have proved that top students are top students, even if they haven't played games much, their comprehension is better than ordinary people.

Tong Huai taught Xue Ting to play games for two hours. In the first hour, he happily beat Xue Ting violently. In the second hour, Xue Ting started to counterattack.

Tong Huai said slowly: "...I rely on you."

Then he quit.

It was rare for Xue Ting to relax, but he was quite interested. Seeing him slumped to the ground in pain, with rejection written all over his face, he pinched the back of the child's neck and raised his eyebrows: "Aren't you too tired to play?"

Tong Huai curled up all over the ground to avoid his hand, and said confidently, "Yes!"

After saying this, he made a fuss, but he got up again and continued to play with Xue Ting.

Today is Xue Ting's birthday, he should make his boyfriend happy.

Playing too late, Tong Huai didn't know what time he fell asleep.

When he woke up from the dream, the sky was bright, and Xue Ting stayed in bed with him, watching the news.

Tong Huai rubbed his eyes in a daze, leaned over and yawned, and was stunned for a while: "What time is it?"

"Nine o'clock."

"Let's go shopping later," Tong Huai rolled his eyes, "I want to eat your sweet and sour pork ribs."

That being said, Tong Huai got up procrastinatingly, changed his clothes in a hurry, and it was almost ten o'clock when he went out.

The heavy snow last night turned into fine snow, and the sky was gloomy.

There is a supermarket in the community, but it is relatively small. There is a big supermarket not far from the community, and it only takes a few steps to walk.

Tong Huai followed Xue Ting around the supermarket to buy vegetables, and threw whatever he wanted into the shopping cart. He originally planned to buy vegetables for only one or two days, but he added three or four days' worth of them.

Coming out of the supermarket, he held hands with Xue Ting, carrying a shopping bag on the left and one on the right. He wanted to buy ice cream, but felt that Xue Ting would reprimand him. He was thinking about how to act like a spoiled child. The person froze suddenly.

A familiar car was parked on the side of the road at the entrance of the supermarket.

Standing beside the car was Tong Jingyuan, his eyes were fixed on their holding hands, his expression was difficult to understand.

In an instant, Tong Huai's brain went blank, his heart was beating like a pounding, and there was a layer of cold sweat slowly dripping from the back of his head.

At that moment, he thought he would let go.

When he reacted, he found that instead of letting go, he held Xue Ting tightly.

Xue Ting also held him tightly.

Of course Tong Jingyuan noticed this, he sighed silently, walked forward slowly, and looked at the two green young men.

Xue Ting took a step forward to block Tong Huai, and pursed the corners of his lips: "Uncle Tong."

Tong Jingyuan obviously didn't want to talk to him.

When the father and son deliberately didn't want to talk to people, their expressions were almost exactly the same.With an incomprehensible gaze, he looked at his son who hurriedly stepped forward for fear that he would attack Xue Ting. He was dumb for a moment, and called him by his nickname: "Zai Zai."

Tong Huai's eyelashes trembled: "I..."

He was flustered, but he held onto Xue Ting even harder, and whispered, "Xue Ting and I..."

Xue Ting shook his hand, looked at Tong Jingyuan who was expressionless, and said bluntly: "I'm sorry, Uncle Tong, I kept it from you for a long time. I'm with Huai Zai."

Adults are more calm and hide their emotions than they are.

They couldn't see what Tong Jingyuan was thinking.

With Xue Ting by his side, Tong Huai was not so flustered anymore, and gritted his teeth: "Father, I like Xue Ting."

Tong Jingyuan was silent for a long time, and stretched out his hand to Tong Huai without hesitation: "Go home with Dad first."

Tong Huai's heart skipped a beat, and he looked at him anxiously, refusing to let go of Xue Ting's hand, and murmured, "Dad..."

The son's flustered eyes were pierced like needles, and Tong Jingyuan was also very uncomfortable.

He is not a good father, he is always in a hurry and can't take care of Tong Huai well, so he is even more afraid of his son's tearful eyes.

He turned his eyes back to Xue Ting.

He admired this young man very much, even though his mood fluctuated now, that appreciation remained unchanged.

"... Xue Ting also come together," Tong Jingyuan paused, "I want to talk to you."

When I got home, the sky was even more groggy, with a layer of gray clouds accumulated, which seemed to be pouring down in the next moment.Aunt Chen also went back to her hometown for the New Year, and she didn't come back until Tong Huai started school. The house was empty, and it was indescribably deserted.

When pushing open the door, Tong Jingyuan thought, is this what Tong Huai faced when he went home when he was a child?

He sat the two of them down, poured hot water, and sat opposite the two half-grown children on the opposite side of the sofa.

"Are you serious?"

After a good time, Tong Jingyuan finally opened his mouth and said "you", but his eyes were on Xue Ting.

Xue Ting did not evade, and looked at him: "Yes."

Tong Huai also nodded quickly, for fear that Tong Jingyuan would think he was not serious if he was slower.

Tong Jingyuan is also the first time to be a father, the first time to face this situation.

He once thought that Tong Huai would walk up to him holding the hand of a certain girl one day in the future.

With countless messy thoughts running through his mind, Tong Jingyuan closed his eyes: "Zai Zai, I want to talk to you alone."

Tong Huai looked at him hesitantly, then at Xue Ting, unable to make up his mind.

Tong Jingyuan's attitude was very peaceful, Xue Ting's gaze met his, and he patted his shoulder lightly, saying in a calm voice, "Go."

Tong Huai said nothing, followed Tong Jingyuan upstairs, and returned to the familiar room.

Stitch, who fell out of favor, stood upside down on the bed stupidly, staring blankly at the father and son who had an unusual atmosphere.

Tong Jingyuan patted the bed and motioned Tong Huai to sit down, as if telling a bedtime story to Tong Huai when he was a child, with a gentle attitude: "Zai Zai, is this what you have been hiding from me?"

Even if Tong Jingyuan was furious, Tong Huai would not feel so guilty.

Most of his panic came from guilt, his eyes turned red when he heard the sound, and he whispered: "I want to tell you after the college entrance examination, I didn't deliberately hide it from you..."

Tong Jingyuan nodded and stroked his son's hairy head.

Even when Tong Huai was most mischievous and troubled himself, he couldn't bear to reprimand him loudly, let alone now.He thought a lot, hesitantly asked in a low voice: "Zai Zai, is it because... because Dad is always not by your side?"

Tong Huai froze for a moment, shook his head quickly, and retorted seriously: "No, Dad, I like Xue Ting, not because of you, nor because of others."

He thought for a while, and under Tong Jingyuan's gentle gaze, he summoned up his courage: "Maybe if I hadn't met him, I might have fallen in love with a certain girl. That liking is the same as this liking...I'm not naughty, It's not novelty either. Dad, I just fell in love with someone of the same gender as me."

I just fell in love with someone of the same gender as me.

Hearing this sentence, Tong Jingyuan was relieved instead.

In fact, he already had a premonition in his heart, like a taut string, to see whether he cut it directly or let the string relax slowly.

Young people's love can't be hidden, they are young and straightforward, they always think that they hide it well, but in fact, it is obvious when they raise their eyes.

From the moment he heard the phone call, he held back himself, unconsciously read a lot of homosexual psychology research books and reports, and consulted friends who majored in psychology.

He also knows some friends in this area, and knows that this is not a disease, but another choice.

But when his only son had such a choice, he still couldn't accept it for a while.

But what if it is difficult to accept?

Would he beat the mandarin duck with a club, make his beloved son cry, and even hate him as a father?

What is the reason for not accepting it? Is it just self-assertion that you should take the so-called correct path?

If Tong Huai and Xue Ting's first reaction when they suddenly saw him at the entrance of the supermarket was to separate and distance themselves when they realized they were exposed, or if they wavered or gave in at all, he might have a reason Prevent.

Tong Jingyuan couldn't help recalling that many years ago, the little Tong Huai looked up at him with big smiling eyes, his shadow was reflected in his eyes, and he yelled out "Dad" for the first time immaturely, under the support of him and his wife Take the first step in life.

He can protect him to grow up safely, and there will be no worries in his life from now on.

But he couldn't control Tong Huai's emotion and spirit.

This is his child, but not his property.

Tong Jingyuan sighed deeply again, and rubbed Tong Huai's hair: "Are you frightened? You take a nap, and Dad goes to talk to Xue Ting."

Tong Huai blinked blankly, lay obediently on the bed, grabbed his sleeve, and looked up at him: "Father, Xue Ting is very good, that's why I like him, don't attack him."

Tong Jingyuan was helpless: "When did Dad become so fierce?"

In fact, Tong Huai didn't feel sleepy at all, and whispered to Tong Jingyuan how nice Xue Ting was, how they got along, tried to impress Xue Ting, and showed him the ring that Xue Ting gave him.

Tong Jingyuan was slightly taken aback, twisting the ring in thought for a long time.

If he was still a bit skeptical at first, worried that this silly kid would be cheated and bullied, seeing this ring, that skepticism almost disappeared.

Xue Ting is really serious.

The father and son hadn't talked and talked together for a long time, and Tong Jingyuan was not in a hurry to go down. He occasionally responded, patted the quilt lightly, and waited for Tong Huai to fall asleep like a child.

The tense spirit relaxed, and Tong Huai's eyelids gradually became sore, and they were covered heavily. Before his consciousness fell into darkness, he said vaguely: "I'm sorry, Dad."

Tong Jingyuan shook his head at him, saw that he was breathing slowly and closed his eyes, then left lightly and went back downstairs.

Xue Ting sat on the sofa and did not leave. Hearing the movement, he raised his head and asked, "Did you cry?"

Tong Jingyuan stared at him with a complicated expression, and shook his head: "I didn't cry. My child is very delicate, will it be tiring to stay with him?"

"No," Xue Ting said, "I'm happy every minute of being with Tong Huai."

It was the happiness and satisfaction that he had never dreamed of.

Tong Jingyuan smiled and shook his head: "You are still young, when you first got together, you would feel that way, and after a long time, you will always get bored."

Xue Ting raised his eyebrows slightly, but did not refute.

Tong Jingyuan would not believe his personality, experience and ideas were different, even if he refuted it.

"When I was studying abroad, I was dragged by my classmates to participate in the LGBT affirmative movement." Tong Jingyuan sat down and glanced at the boy who was about to be as tall as himself. will be a part of it.”

Xue Ting asked: "What's your opinion?"

Tong Jingyuan didn't answer, but instead asked: "I believe you like Huai Zai very much now, but what about your family?"

"Grandpa already knows. As for my parents..." Xue Ting straightened his back and paused, "Their attitude has nothing to do with me, and it won't have any influence. If you want, I can do it now Inform them."

Tong Jingyuan rubbed the green glaze cup in his hand, staring at him for a moment, trying to find a trace of lying, but all ended in failure.

After a long while, his tense shoulders loosened slightly, and his whole body seemed to be pulled out of his strength. He leaned back on the back of the sofa, squeezed the space between his brows, and said, "No need."

Both are still children.

He said, "I'll give you five years."

Xue Ting sat upright and listened carefully.

"If five years from now you can still hold each other's hands tightly when things happen suddenly like today, I will support you unconditionally." Tong Jingyuan said in a deep voice, "But if my son is hurt, I will not let it go you."

In this matter, he can't do anything else, but he can always be Tong Huai's safe haven.

Besides, who can predict what will happen in the future?

Even if Tong Huai chooses to be with the girl, he may not be able to go smoothly into the future.

Why not let Tong Huai choose the one he likes.

Xue Ting nodded solemnly.

Once the tense atmosphere disappeared, the two of them surrounded Tong Huai and chatted for a while. Tong Jingyuan looked at the time and stood up tiredly: "The child is about to wake up. If you don't see anyone when you open your eyes, you will panic. You Go and stay with him."

There is a reason for Tong Huai to develop such a cheerful, transparent and gentle character.

Xue Ting was thinking, before going upstairs, he suddenly said: "Uncle Tong, you are a good father."

Tong Jingyuan smiled wryly and shook his head.

He has never given Tong Huai enough company, and it is because Tong Huai has a big and soft heart that he tolerates a terrible father like him time and time again.

Tong Huai was coaxed to sleep by Tong Jingyuan, and he didn't sleep for long. He opened his eyes vaguely, and a familiar face appeared in his eyes.

He stretched out his hand, held Xue Ting's slightly cold fingers, and called hoarsely: "Tingting... What did you say?"

Xue Ting stroked his messy sleeping hair, and the corners of his mouth slightly bent: "Your father handed you over to me for the time being."

Tong Huai just woke up, still a little dazed, and it took a while before he said: "I want to talk to him."

Xue Ting nodded: "Go."

Tong Huai jumped off the bed, got out of the room, looked left and right, and found that the door of the study room was ajar, and approached cautiously, and saw Tong Jingyuan's back through the slit.

Tong Jingyuan turned his back to him, not knowing what he was doing, sitting there alone, looking very lonely.

Holding his breath, he slowly opened the door and approached silently.

Tong Jingyuan was flipping through his childhood photo albums.

When he was a child, Tong Huai's eyes were big and round, and when he smiled, he looked like a crescent moon. His hands and feet were short, and he was as soft as a cloud of snow. He was so delicate that people worried about how to raise him. to keep him from getting hurt.

But he didn't seem so delicate, he grew up smoothly, like a warm and dazzling little sun.

Sensing the slight movement behind him, Tong Jingyuan didn't put down the photo album, and didn't turn his head: "Are you hungry? I'll take you out for dinner later."

Tong Huai was sensitive to the tremor in his voice.

Adults are sometimes more stubborn than children, refusing to show weakness but love to be brave.

Tong Huai rubbed his reddish eye sockets, leaned over and hugged the old boy's neck, and called softly, "Dad."

"Ah."

"You are the best dad ever."

"……Um."