Ango

"When you received this letter, I must have passed away. My death is an apology, and I have more than a guilty conscience, but I can't let you go, so I haven't left for a long time. I often think, is it because I didn't give birth to you? What's best for you? That way you won't be affected by my crimes.

But just think about it.

I don’t know if you have a good life alone? ... (A few words are crossed out here) I am not qualified to ask these questions, am I?I don't ask for forgiveness, but I still want to say sorry.

The main purpose of this letter is to ask you one thing: to save human beings from the suffering of the X virus.Presumably your uncle Li Rongxuan has already told you.From this point of view, I am indeed an irresponsible mother. The mess I couldn't clean up by myself made things difficult for you.

I wrote down everything I saw on the letter paper at the back, I hope you can take a look and be considered a witness.

Although you are my child, the sins only belong to me. After you read it, you can choose to complete my commission or refuse it. This is your freedom.

Finally, if you are not interested in this matter, I hope you will give the antibody to Mr. Wei. "

There was only a small piece of cardboard. Song Lin read it twice, and his eyes stayed on the two words "Love You" on the signature.

Old Wei and Zheng Xuan sat on the other side, both knowingly, waiting for his mood to gradually calm down.

Song Lin put the jammed paper into the envelope with downcast eyes, and picked up the stack of thick white paper.

"My mother, cough, she..."

He suddenly fell silent, another piece of paper in his hand turned out to be their family photo.

Song Lin inside looked about three or four years old, with a fat face, hugging his mother's neck, the two sat on a chair, his father was wearing a pair of glasses, standing behind them in a gentle manner, every time Everyone has a smile on their face.

There are so many people who have lost their parents, and there is only one person who suffers. Maybe there is still a heart of self-pity, but if you know it is normal, it becomes insignificant.

It's not that special anyway.

Song Lin was stunned for a while, then carefully put the photo into the envelope, and finally opened his mother's "crime".

Wartime No.11 At the end of the year, the enemy airdropped the source of X virus to the four major cities in our country. In the second year, my husband and I joined the Beiyu Research Institute and started researching X virus after signing an agreement. Song Lin had just turned five years old that year.

We didn't know at the time that there were more than ten variants of the X virus. Because their protein structures were very similar, the laboratory was unable to make a vaccine anyway.Thinking about it now, it should be because the antigen is only a protein of a certain virus, so it has no effect on other types, so it is useless.

This continued until the following year, when we started sequencing the genome of the virus, which was a hassle, but it wasn't until this point that we discovered that there wasn't just one virus X.

Type X virus is a racial weapon, which has a devastating blow to our people, but less damage to the enemy nation. Its transmission methods are diverse, such as water, droplets, blood, etc., and the transmission speed is extremely fast. It takes about a week after infection will die miserably.

Heads of state have signed an international agreement, one of which is "not to manufacture racially-targeted weapons." Now it is obvious that the enemy country is the first to tear up the agreement, and our country organizes scientists to start developing racially-targeted biological weapons.

This lab was also in our institute, but I didn't know it at the time.

In the 13th year of the war, our laboratory was still sequencing. Everyone was working hard. They almost ate and slept in the laboratory. The land has been occupied by the X virus.

At the end of the third year, after nearly two years, we finally determined the virus genome and began to isolate the antigen. At this time, the superior told us that the laboratory would be bombed by the enemy because of its geographical location. All of us accepted the instructions. transfer.

During the 14 years of the war, the research institute moved from the south to the east, during which time we moved to four cities, and our research progress did not stop at all along the way, and we have isolated six antigens and two antibodies.

Wherever the laboratory goes, it will be invaded by the X virus. The superior told us that it is because the X virus spread too widely, but after the seventh vaccine was developed, I realized something was wrong. At the same time, Teacher Wei Ming also started to investigate , Due to the agreement, we are not allowed to leave the institute casually, but he secretly injected the semi-finished vaccine and risked his life to go out of the institute for investigation. I, my husband, and my brother Li Rongxuan covered him.

Later, Yu Fangxu, a researcher who knows how to use computers, intercepted the confidential documents of his superiors and found that all the experimental data came from in vivo experiments. Our laboratory only did the work of deciphering and separating proteins, and the experimental data was distributed to another In a laboratory, the results of the experiment are only notified by someone from the superior, so the specific process is unknown.

There is a very detailed plan in the document: the whole city will be used as an experimental area. At the beginning, more than a dozen isolation belts will be drawn in the city in the name of isolation. They cannot communicate with each other. Each area will be injected with different vaccines, and then spread the virus separately. In order to test whether the vaccine is successful.But as long as existence fails, people in all quarantine areas will eventually be cross-infected, leaving only the city full of corpses.

In order to avoid the spread of the virus, in the end, the superiors will clear the surrounding cities, and then blow up the experimental area and its surroundings, which is the so-called "enemy attack" for us.But unfortunately, even so, the virus spread silently.

Wartime No. 15——This year was a nightmare. Most areas in the south have become the hardest-hit areas of the X virus. I think most of this is due to the credit of our research institute.We stayed in the fifth and last city to carry out the final protein purification. We had no way out. Even if we knew we would continue the research, we would continue the in vivo experiment. But we have selectively forgotten the process of this experiment, and we dare not think deeply about it. For the details, we have only one idea, and use it to paralyze ourselves: failure is absolutely not allowed!

The results are good, we have finally completed all the vaccine antibody development, we can finally save some people, I think.

But the superiors dismissed the document to put the vaccine on the market!

I had never been that angry, and most people in the lab were, so we submitted a joint application.The general idea is that if you don’t release the vaccine, you will leave the laboratory. At that time, we only thought that even if we were not in this laboratory, we still had the confidence to go to some private laboratories to manufacture vaccines.

But what I didn't expect was that the superiors responded that the vaccines also have a certain defensive effect on the ethnically targeted biochemical crisis produced in our country, and our country just put those viruses abroad, so we can't disclose this vaccine for the time being.

Later, we saw that our attitude was firm, and somehow we learned that we knew about the experiment, and began to purge our personnel on the grounds that there were spies in our laboratory.

There are a total of 36 people in our laboratory. Five people escaped with me, namely my wife, Li Rongxuan, Yu Fangxu, and Wei Ming. Most of the remaining colleagues were shot.

The above is all the incidents I know. In exile, I see innocent people dying of the virus one after another every day. Thinking that I am an accomplice, I only feel that the crime is serious, and I feel tormented if I live for a second. I can’t repent, and I can’t die. Apologies, I would like to leave the truth of the matter here.

During the war, October 16, [-].

Song Lin stared at the final date, feeling out of breath.

Black and white, like an obituary.

Looking up, he saw Zheng Xuan looking at him worriedly, Song Lin felt extremely uncomfortable, walked over silently, and put this material in front of them.

"Let's take a look." Song Lin's gaze stayed on Zheng Xuan. The sun was shining brightly, but he felt a little cold.

Zheng Xuan didn't look at the material, but stood up directly.

"I still understand that period of history. I think the first priority is to go to New Province, because the shelf life of the vaccine is only [-] days."

His words reminded Song Lin that time was indeed running short.

"It's been seven or eight years since the war, maybe the new province has already developed a vaccine..."

Song Lin sat on the side, as if talking to himself.

"Impossible," Old Wei shook his head immediately, "Even if they still have talent, they will never have such top-notch technology."

"The south was invaded by the X virus, coupled with the enemy's attack, the organizers could only take the people to the south and retreat again and again, until they reached the present new province, the laboratory remained in the east city, and most of the cutting-edge equipment remained in the There, this is also one of the reasons why Dongcheng and Xinxing are enemies."

"Besides..." Old Wei looked out of the window with deep sorrow, "The top researchers back then are almost gone now."

So the vaccine in their hands is the only one.

"Will you bring the vaccine to the new province?" Wei Ming has experienced various incidents in the past, so he will not force Song Lin.

"Yes, I will."

Song Lin closed his eyes tiredly, "That's why I came here."

His mother wants him to choose freely, but he doesn't know that until now, this has become his only goal. Speaking of it, he has to thank his mother. If he didn't even have this tiny persistence, maybe Song Lin would have followed his mother long ago. follow in the footsteps.

"Okay," Old Wei stood up and laughed, "I have prepared a car, food, and some necessities for you, but you have to wait a little longer, because I didn't think you were two people."

Ha, two people!Also, how can a person endure such a long period of loneliness.

"Old Wei," Song Lin called to stop him, "you won't commit suicide, will you?"

The old man's back visibly froze, and Song Lin and Zheng Xuan's hearts tightened.

"No," he burst into laughter suddenly, as if he had returned to the unconscious state of last night, "this day is so easy, ah ha ha ha ha..."

As he left, the laughter gradually disappeared, and only Song Lin and Zheng Xuan were left in the room. Song Lin stared at the sunshine outside the floor-to-ceiling windows, as if he was also called a member of the ruins. Sprinkled on his side face, even the eyelashes were dyed golden.

Zheng Xuan watched for a while, sat beside him, and carefully held his hand.

In fact, Song Lin himself didn't think too much, he was neither sad nor angry, if he had to say it, it was calm, a very strange calm, which made him not want to do anything, even speaking became a burden, so he started daze.

Some thoughts gradually came to the fore, but at the moment of shaking hands with Zheng Xuan, they quickly hid in the depths of my heart.

"Zheng Xuan," Song Lin turned his head and looked at Zheng Xuan in front of him after an unknown amount of time, "If we successfully bring the antibody into the new province and you find your mother and sister, then you won't be with me anymore Bar?"

Zheng Xuan was stunned for a moment, Song Lin laughed before he spoke, only to hear him add softly,

"Please don't leave me, just take it as it is, I beg you."