Turning point

Gin was silent for a long time when he received Rum's order.

This was obviously a life-threatening mission, but he had to go, because not going would mean betrayal.According to his usual loyalty to the organization, it is impossible to refuse.Although he understands that the boss has never really trusted him, but in order to prevent the plan from falling short, he must continue to exist as an organization cadre, even if he dies.Therefore, Gin simply rejected Vodka's suggestion of direct mutiny, and boarded the helicopter sent by the organization alone.

If he knew what happened later, Qin Jiu was not sure if he could still make up his mind so simply.

After arriving at the destination, Gin skillfully disguised himself to spy on information, obtained topographical maps, and made plans.He has done all these well, but he is not complacent, because the most difficult thing is yet to come.

He retrieved the secret as planned, sniped Ramzak, and the task was well completed.But the reason why the plan is called a plan is because there are too many uncertainties in it.When he was attacked from both sides and lost most of his ability to fight back and walk, although Qin Jiu kept hinting that he must go back alive and that he needed to preside over many things, he almost believed in his heart that he would die here.

That's why the unexpected appearance of Mu Beidou made him lose his composure, accidentally revealing the love buried deep in his heart.Although it was quickly hidden again, Qin Jiu was not sure whether Mu Beidou had noticed his little thought, and his heart was pounding violently, looking forward to but not hoping.Of course, judging from the subsequent reaction, it did not.

Mu Beidou was dressed in a black windbreaker, with an expressionless face, he looked handsome and cold.His white hair and cheeks were stained with blood, as if he had fought violently before.The black clothes covered the wounds on his body, and the smell of blood was so strong that Gin didn't notice that he was injured in the first place.

Mu Beidou ran to such a dangerous place because of him.He should have stayed in Japan safely and lived a peaceful life, but now he has been implicated to such an extent.

Qin Jiu felt a dull pain in his heart, and felt that all this was his fault.

Mu Beidou's attitude towards him was really not good, and he was probably still angry about what happened that day.But the movements were very gentle, carefully avoiding all the wounds on the body, and being very careful not to bump into any sharp objects during the walk.Qin Jiu knew in his heart how rough he was to Mu Beidou that day, and how hurtful his words were, but Mu Beidou still ran to help him regardless of past suspicions and safety.Although the attitude was a bit off, it can be seen from the action that it was just a little awkwardness of the young man.Qin Jiu didn't understand what he was thinking, and at the same time, there was a slight hope in his heart.

Does Mu Beidou also have a little... like himself?

No, better not.

Getting involved with him will not lead to any good results, and what happened before and now has proved this point.

Qin Jiu put part of his weight on Mu Beidou, and lowered his head to feel his breath.

It's comfortable, reassuring, but not addictive.

That was definitely a consequence he couldn't bear.

Mu Beidou saw Qin Jiu hanging his head, thinking that he was seriously injured, although his face was extremely cold, but he silently shifted the weight to his side.

Although he should have been very tired.

Qin Jiu felt that this was one of the reasons why Mu Beidou moved his heart. On the surface, he remained calm, but he always tried his best to give him the best.

The two stumbled and came to the agreed place without any risk, and then tacitly killed the two off-road vehicles that came to chase them, and finally arrived at a hotel they had found in advance.When Qin Jiu got out of the car, Mu Beidou didn't intend to step forward to help, probably because he was angry at the sniper off-road vehicle that he had just recklessly ignored his own wounds.Since he didn't help, Gin could only support himself—he wasn't really hurt to the point where he couldn't walk, although the scene looked a little tragic.

Mu Beidou followed behind, Qin Jiu could feel the deep worry and anger emanating from him without looking, but he didn't intend to appease him.Now that he has made up his mind to cut off this relationship, it doesn't matter to let him down even more.

Sure enough, after entering the room, Mu Beidou's anger finally burst out, accompanied by the worry and distress hidden under the cold tone.Qin Jiu really felt that he might never meet someone who cared about him in this way, but he still had to do what he had to do.He suppressed the sadness and pain gushing out of his heart, and said coldly and impatiently:

"none of your business."

"Did I let you come?"

"have a finger in the pie."

Every time he uttered a sentence, Mu Beidou's face turned pale.After the three sentences were finished, Mu Beidou seemed to be unable to bear it anymore, and rushed in front of him, raised his fist, and stared firmly into his eyes.Gin tried his best to show his coldness and mockery, but his heart was also cold and self-deprecating.

See, he is such a cold and heartless person.You have done so much for him, and not only is he not grateful at all, he even speaks ill at you.

Mu Beidou didn't find the answer he wanted, his face tensed up, his eyes full of disbelief.His fists stopped in mid-air were shaking all the time.Just when Qin Jiu was ready to take a punch, he smashed him against the wall.

After all this, Mu Beidou still refuses to hit him hard?

Qin Jiu thought inconceivably, even his expression was slightly moved, but Mu Beidou couldn't care less about it.Looking at the irrepressible hurt expression on his face, Qin Jiu tried almost all of his self-control to control his body, and did not go forward to hug and comfort the slightly trembling body.

His lover was standing in front of him dejectedly, but he couldn't give him even the tiniest consolation, not to mention that this injury was bestowed by him himself.

He, Gin, personally pierced his lover's warm heart with a cold and hard awl.

How cruel and ruthless is he to do such a thing?

Gin's lips were tightly pursed, and his injured hand was tightly gripped until it convulsed slightly, only then did he slightly suppress the overwhelming pain and powerlessness in his heart.

In the end he forced Mu Beidou away.

Use fluffy language and a demeanor that doesn't seem fake.

When Qin Jiu knew that Mu Beidou had left so resolutely, and even said that he would never see each other again, he knew that his goal had been achieved.

But he wasn't happy at all.

Is there anything more painful in the world than forcing your lover away with your own hands?

Gin got his answer three days later.

When he saw Mu Beidou covered in blood, he couldn't even breathe.Qin Jiu hoped that he was dreaming, even the hallucinations before he died, it was better than Mu Beidou really suffered all this.

His face looked pale to the extreme, his originally bright and neat white hair was covered with blood and dust, and was twisted into a mess.His physical condition seemed to be very bad, and even these simple steps were dragged by someone rudely.

Gin felt that his body was stiff like a statue, he couldn't even move, and his breathing stopped.

Big Dipper... His Big Dipper, his Big Dipper!Being tortured like this! ! !

His breathing trembled, his eyes were red, and he gritted his teeth so hard that the muscles of his teeth ached.But none of this could compare to the pain and regret and pity that flooded my heart and flooded my body.He got out of the car at Baryev's request, and then watched Mu Beidou being pushed to the ground weakly, and was shot through his arm when he struggled to get up.The bright red blood gradually soaked the sand under his body. It seemed that he was in so much pain that he could no longer support his body, so he could only look up at him.

Qin Jiu didn't know if Mu Beidou wanted to ask him for help or what, but Baryev was right at him, and Mu Beidou was still in his hand.In order to protect Gin, he could not reveal the slightest anxiety.

Mu Beidou's pale face stained with air-dried blood and dirty sand was full of proof, and Qin Jiu instantly understood what he was thinking.

He wondered if he really didn't care about him.

No way, Beidou.Now, at least for now, don't look at me.

Because I can't.

Mu Beidou couldn't hear the desperate screams and pleadings in his heart.He just stared blankly, his expression changed from anticipation to disbelief, and then to dead silence.He silently lowered his head, and after a while his whole body trembled.

he is crying.Gin made such a judgment almost instantly.

Not because of the pain, but... He completely broke his heart.

Mu Beidou must have despaired of him.

Gin doesn't know what's in his heart now.

Powerless?powerless.

pain?pain.

But there was nothing he could do, nothing at all.

When Mu Beidou was fed poison/medicine without the slightest resistance, Qin Jiu couldn't hold back his face for a moment.

No, it must not be drugs... that would ruin his life!

When he got a negative answer, Qin Jiu heaved a sigh of relief, but the next scene made his face completely pale.

A mouthful of blood spurted out from Mu Beidou's mouth, and he lay on the ground coughing heart-rendingly, as if he wanted to squeeze out his lungs piece by piece before he would stop.The string of gin named reason broke suddenly, and he no longer wanted to care about the safety of the future, and did not think about the consequences of doing so. He called Mu Beidou's name loudly, and his voice wailed until it became hoarse.

If you want to hug him and stop his pain, it doesn't matter if you transfer all of this to yourself.Who... who will save him! ! !

When he learned that there was no antidote, Qin Jiu was really desperate. He hugged Mu Beidou in his arms. The scene he had thought about many times was finally realized in reality, but Qin Jiu was not at all happy. It didn't happen.He looked at Mu Beidou who was trembling less and less, and the despair in his heart finally broke out of his body.Gin put his head on his neck, choking uncontrollably.Even if Mu Beidou hates him, at least he can still live in this world and breathe the same air.

Qin Jiu finally suppressed the bitterness, never dared to express his feelings to the outside, in such a painful situation, he said it in such a fierce way: "Beidou... I like you."

So please, even if it's for me, don't die, okay?

Mu Beidou seemed to be surprised and slightly opened his eyes. He no longer coughed up blood, but this was not a good sign.He reached out to touch his cheek, and then dropped it without warning.

Qin Jiu was stunned, in disbelief and wanted to reach out to confirm, but he didn't dare to confirm, so he could only call his name softly, as if this could really wake him up.

"Big Dipper..."

"Open your eyes and see if I'm alright?"

"Give me another look."

I don't expect you to like me, I don't expect you to hate me, even if I treat a stranger the same, as long as I look at him, just one look... just one look is enough!

"Please, take one more look at me..."

"Please, please, please..."

"Big Dipper..."

But this is no longer possible.He will never open those dark and beautiful eyes again, and there will never be any expression of joy or sadness there.

Qin Jiu stared blankly at Mu Beidou's ashen face that looked like a withered flower, unable to shed a single tear.

They are right, when the heart hurts to the extreme, there are no tears.

Because of mourning, there is nothing greater than heart death.

The author has something to say: I finally finished writing QAQ

Then Master Qin found out that he was cheated XDDD

Continue to sprinkle sugar tomorrow~~