Turning point

Mu Beidou kept looking in the direction of Qin Jiu, as if he was persistently wanting an answer.

Gin said dryly, "That's because...Barayev is standing behind you. If I show that I care about you, your situation will be even more dangerous."

"Is that so..." Mu Beidou sighed, and asked again: "So Yuan...do I know?"

"You know." Gin said dryly.He couldn't look directly into Mu Beidou's eyes, and even though he couldn't see him now, Qin Jiu still felt guilty and didn't dare to look at him.

If it wasn't for his cynicism, Mu Beidou wouldn't have suffered those things.

This time too, if it wasn't for his mistake, Mu Beidou would not have been in a car accident, let alone lose his memory.The people he thought of deeply in his heart were always implicated by him, intentionally or unintentionally, which made him feel very distressed.

Mu Beidou nodded, and fell silent again.

The original owner knew that Kurosawa was thinking about his safety, so he wouldn't be so sad and desperate later on.The pain in the dream where the heart was numb and I wanted to dig it out and throw it away was really unbearable.

Mu Beidou could almost imagine how the original owner mustered up the courage to hand over a warm and beating heart to Heisawa Zhen like a treasure, and was thrown into the dust after being bloodied and fragmented by the other party, and then retrieved in despair. Come on, I carefully repaired it as if it hadn't been hurt at all, and sent it out again.

If it wasn't for love to the extreme...

How could that outstanding young man be willing to do this in a low voice?

As he thought about it, his eye circles were a little red again.

Qin Jiu saw that Mu Beidou stopped talking again, and he was a little worried about the young man's state, after all, the other party didn't look so good.Qin Jiu hesitated for a moment, but still leaned close to Mu Beidou, stretched out his hand carefully to catch the hand hanging by his side, and asked softly, "Beidou?"

Mu Beidou suddenly withdrew his hand, and couldn't help asking angrily, "Didn't you consider his feelings when you were doing these things?!"

But why!Just because the original owner loved him, did he deserve to be so wronged? !

Mu Beidou became more and more angry: "Do you know that at that time he was desperate to die, just to see you again so he could not let himself go crazy, but what about you?! You looked at him so coldly, you know How does he feel in his heart!"

"He would rather die than see you treat him like this!"

The first time Qin Jiu heard Mu Beidou's analysis of his experience in the Middle East, he was stunned, and his heart shrank in pain.

He never thought, never put himself in the shoes of Mu Beidou and thought about Mu Beidou's mood.

He thought that if Mu Beidou didn't say anything, the matter would be over, so why would he open his wound again and make him feel pain again?

But now it seems that although Mu Beidou seems to be fine on the surface, in fact, those bad memories still have a profound impact on him.The wound will not heal automatically because it is neglected to cover up, but it will be festered and sore under the deep burial, becoming a major hidden danger inside.

This can be seen from the fact that this is the first thing that comes to mind after Mu Beidou lost his memory.

Once again, Qin Jiu deeply realized what kind of pain and shadows were hidden in the heart of this young man who had always been indifferent and loved him so much.

Maybe even he didn't realize it, but it was even more terrifying.

Gin felt distressed and blamed himself for not knowing what to do.

All along, Mu Beidou has been tolerant and accommodating to him, and he enjoys all this with peace of mind, never thinking for him from the other party's point of view.

He knew he would be in pain, but he didn't know how much it would hurt.I don't know that he might wake up suddenly in the middle of the night, but there is no one to rely on around him, so he can only shrink himself into a ball, giving himself a little temperature of shallow self-deception.

He doesn't know anything.

Qin Jiu suddenly opened his arms and hugged Mu Beidou tightly in his arms, buried his head on the side of his neck, and took a deep breath with trembling.

This is the person who hides his softness and gentleness with calmness and indifference. He keeps all grievances in his heart and is unwilling to talk to him about any grievances.

But in fact, I am also willing to share your pain.

You are no longer alone, I have given all my heart to you, so...

"Don't torment yourself like this anymore." Qin Jiu's deep and hoarse voice sounded in Mu Beidou's ears. He was not good at expressing emotions, but this time he forced himself to express the countless emotions:

"If you are unhappy, just say it. I will feel bad if I keep it all in my heart."

"It will be very distressing."

The author has something to say: Thank you Long Wish and Xiaoqi for mine~~Thank you~~

I feel that Xiao Beidou after amnesia has spoken out the voices of all of us 23333

I feel that this chapter is quite warm, it shouldn't be too cruel... right?