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Cheng Lang saw the old lady's trembling body under her thick clothes, and suddenly woke up like a dream, realizing that she was impulsive.

He opened his mouth, wanting to say something to relieve the atmosphere, but he didn't know how to speak, and finally closed his mouth without embarrassment, his eyes resisted not to dodge, but he felt a little uncomfortable in his heart.

He just didn't expect the old lady to see the whole thing that night.

He suddenly remembered her dodging eyes when he was leaving the next morning. At that time, he thought it was because he didn't sleep well, but he didn't expect that she would have noticed the unclear relationship between him and Jiang Xuan at that time.

Don't look at the old lady who looks optimistic and doesn't take things very seriously, but in fact she has a clear mind. If she can convince herself that she was wrong before, she will get bored in her heart. The expression is mostly clear at once.

She just couldn't accept it, so she asked him again uncertainly: "Don't lie to me, are you looking for a starlet?"

Cheng Lang was speechless.

There was a trace of clarity in her cloudy eyes, and sharpness was concealed in her usually peaceful gaze. Under that gaze that seemed to know every detail, Cheng Lang couldn't say yes or no.

After a long silence, he lowered his eyes and nodded with difficulty against such a gaze.

He didn't feel embarrassed or regretted, he just felt sorry for the old lady who had treated him so well.

I can't see the disappointment of the two old people.

The old lady stopped talking.

Then she walked away from Cheng Hong, Cheng Hong didn't look back, as if she had entered the house from the sound.

Her calm reaction caused Cheng Hong to be in a trance for a moment, almost unable to believe the current situation.

But later Cheng Lang thought it was okay, he thought that when they found out about his sexuality, they would break down and cry, or shake his shoulder and ask him if the disease could be cured, and if they could not like men.

The water dripping from Cheng Hong's hand had dried up at some point, and he squeezed it lightly, and the crevices of his fingers and the palm of his palm that had been soaked in the washing spirit were a little dry. He stood there quietly for a while, and went out of the kitchen.

It seems destined to stay soon.

After waking up again, Jiang Xuan sat up slowly and looked at the time to realize that he had slept for a long time in the cage. It is estimated that by this time Cheng Hong would have started to take a nap.

Cheng Lang doesn't have the habit of taking a nap, but old men and ladies are getting older, and taking a nap is common.Cheng Lang had nothing to do over there, so he would also take a nap for a while.

There was no message from Cheng Lang on the mobile phone, and there was no missed call. Jiang Xuan just pretended that he was already asleep, so he didn't bother him anymore, took the time to tidy himself up, and went out.

Yesterday, I came to the hospital in a hurry. After the operation, my mother woke up for a while and then fell asleep again. After he entered the ward, he only stood there for a while and then withdrew.

Looking back today, my mother happened to be awake, lying flat and staring at the ceiling.

The little girl next to her was also hospitalized with appendicitis. She lived several days earlier than her mother. Now she can sit up and even walk two steps out of bed. It is strange to see her mother like this.She was bored by herself, and after trying to strike up a conversation, it was fruitless, so she gave up the idea. When Jiang Xuan entered the door, there was a sound on her mobile phone, and she seemed to be checking Weibo.

My mother turned a deaf ear to his arrival and didn't even frown, as if she didn't know he was coming, she was still staring at the ceiling.Jiang Xuan looked up and looked at the approximate position she was looking at, which happened to be the hook roller hanging on the bed curtain.

The little girl had already seen him yesterday, but he had a serious expression at the time, so she didn't bother to bother her. Now that she was bored, she caught someone, so she greeted him with a smile while holding her mobile phone: "Hi, handsome guy .You're here."

Jiang Xuan glanced at her and nodded. His mother remained unchanged, and there was no one else in the ward at the moment, so he had to ask the little girl, "Has the doctor been here? How is my mother?"

"I just came here at noon," said the little girl, "She said that my aunt is too weak to recover, and then the uncle who accompanied the bed went out with her, and she hasn't come back yet."

The uncle who accompanied the bed?

Jiang Xuan frowned.

With a glance, I saw a folded canopy bed next to the wall next to my mother's bed.

It seemed self-evident which uncle would sleep here.

Jiang Xuan looked away, pointed at his mother and asked, "How long has she been like this?"

The little girl frowned and thought for a while: "It's been half an hour, it's been like this since I woke up, and I haven't seen her blink or anything—what's wrong with Auntie? Is it..."

"Don't pay attention to her." Jiang Xuan said, after thinking for a while, he said, "Thank you, please help me look at her when I'm not around, she's not in a good condition, I'm afraid she might have an accident."

"Hi, leave it to me..." the little girl blinked as she said, with a smile on her face again, two dimples looming, "Handsome, why don't you add me on WeChat, if you need anything, I can contact you immediately you."

Thinking about it, Jiang Xuan did not hesitate to scan the QR code presented by the little girl, and added her as a friend.

Just at this moment, there was a conversation outside the door, and Jiang Xuan looked back, and it was Jiang Jianguo and another girl with red hair who came in.

"Sweet!" The red-haired girl carried the millet porridge bought outside the hospital in her hand. After entering, she yelled first, and then her eyes fell on Jiang Xuan's face, her eyes were stunned, and she didn't move for a long time.

"Tiantian is here!" The little girl behind Jiang Xuan raised her hand, "Look at me, sister, I've been hungry for a long time."

Only then did the red-haired stare back in embarrassment, walked past Jiang Xuan, and sat on the chair beside Tiantian's bed.

"I bought millet porridge and pickles, you will eat this today...I will eat this."

"You are a devil, go, go, get out and eat your old wheat, and don't come in until you finish eating!"

"..."

Jiang Xuan looked at Jiang Jianguo, who stood there awkwardly and let him look at him for a long time without moving.

Until the person on the bed suddenly moved, the two of them looked over at the same time, and saw the mother's eyes lingering on the two of them, pursing her pale lips without saying a word.

Jiang Xuan moved his lips, remembering the way his mother fell down at that time, and now seeing her lying there lifeless is really uncomfortable.

My mother is not in good health. The operation was performed after the operation. Her condition is not much better at this time, her face is sallow, and the blue and black under her eyes seem to be smeared with black ash. down.

Noticing that Jiang Jianguo was also carrying a plastic bag with the same logo on the table as the red-haired girl, he stepped aside and leaned against the wall to let Jiang Jianguo in.

Jiang Jianguo Fang woke up like a dream, hurried to the bed, tucked his mother's quilt in a relatively skillful movement, then put the plastic bag in his hand on the cabinet, and sat down by himself.

Under the eyes of his mother and Jiang Xuan, he opened the plastic bag straight away, took out the packed lunch box, took out the disposable wooden chopsticks inside, opened it, and ate without saying a word.

It was only then that Jiang Xuan remembered that his mother had just finished the operation. Due to physical reasons, she could not eat for the past two days. She had nutrient solution to provide energy, but Jiang Jianguo could not.

Jiang Xuan looked at Jiang Jianguo eating. He was no longer a well-tailored suit. He was wearing a loose, slightly bloated body wrapped in a sweater and trousers. His face looked tired, as if he hadn't closed his eyes for several days and nights. up.

It was three or four o'clock now, and Jiang Xuan couldn't tell what kind of meal he was eating.

Judging by the wolfish posture, it should be lunch.

This was not the Jiang Jianguo he knew, as if he was a different person.

Here Jiang Xuan was still in a daze, but Jiang Jianguo had already finished his lunch in twos and twos, quickly cleaned up the table, and threw it out together with the garbage in the trash can. When he came back, he was more refreshed.At this time, my mother closed her eyes again, and she fell asleep when she heard the sound.

The two little girls in the next bed got together to discuss something, they kept looking at Jiang Xuan, and finally laughed together for a long time.

Jiang Jianguo poured the hot water from the thermos into a glass bottle, then stuffed it under the hand of his mother who was inserting the infusion needle, and covered it with a quilt. After doing all this, he turned to look at Jiang Xuan.

He said softly, "Little Thrush, shall we chat?"

Jiang Xuan couldn't refuse.

He gave Jiang Jianguo a suspicious look, and walked out first.

The two walked to the smoking area one after the other, and pushed open the glass door to enter. Coincidentally, there was no one there, and the smell of cigarettes was not strong. The last person who came here to smoke should have left for a long time.

Jiang Jianguo closed the door behind him, tiptoed over, and stood in front of Jiang Xuan.

Looking at him, Jiang Xuan suddenly thought that it would be great if he could smoke.

This atmosphere is too much to let a person want to dispel the depressed mood.

"Little thrush," Jiang Jianguo looked at him with no one around, and said sincerely, "You don't have to worry about your mother, I will take care of you, you should study hard, don't delay you..."

As soon as Jiang Xuan frowned, he fell silent.

He looked puzzled and snorted softly, not knowing what Jiang Jianguo meant.

Jiang Jianguo looked at him, hesitated to speak, "You should already know that Chen Linlin and I have divorced."

"It's none of my business." Jiang Xuan said without changing his expression.

He won't change because of Jiang Jianguo's every move he saw just now. It's still the same, he doesn't believe in Jiang Jianguo.

What sudden conscience realized that I was wrong and turned back to take care of their mother and child, tired of eating, drinking, and wanting to try porridge and millet, sending kindness to rescue women who have lost their way...

It's not the TV series at eight o'clock, Jiang Xuan is not a fool, Jiang Jianguo must be holding back some bad water again.

"I have regrets for you mother and son, but I was too weak before..."

Look, it's started.

"It's true that Chen Linlin and I are not suitable. It's just that we have Yifei, so I can't make a decision. Yifei looks delicate, but she is actually very sensible. I'm afraid she will feel uncomfortable. And Chen Linlin is also my wife after all, so I... dare not make a decision."

Why didn't you realize that Chen Linlin was your wife when you cheated?When you cheated, why didn't you remember that there was a sensible girl?

Jiang Xuan looked at him and sneered.

He was too lazy to listen to his words, and was about to leave immediately, "If you have nothing important to do, come here today, I don't want to hear about your misery."

"Little Thrush!"

Jiang Jianguo reached out to pull him, but he didn't know what to worry about and finally didn't dare to do it, so he stood there at a loss, took a step forward, swallowed his saliva, and was a little nervous: "I have nothing now, I'm old When I grow up, I will be a mediocre useless person. Now Yifei almost doesn't recognize me as a father. I have been sorry to too many people in my life. Now I want to take good care of Yuanyuan. I regret it a long time ago. I want to keep Follow Yuanyuan, okay?"

Jiang Xuan stared back at his complicated eyes, wondering if he had heard his words, and asked coldly for a long time, "Do you know she is sick?"

Jiang Jianguo choked for a moment, remained silent for a few seconds, and nodded in agreement: "I know."

"You don't know." Jiang Xuan raised his voice.

"She didn't go to the hospital, and the attending doctor didn't pull you to say, you didn't know at all."

He looked coldly at the man in front of him who seemed to have aged several years, and stated without emotion: "But you really couldn't see that she was abnormal before? You saw it, you just didn't want to admit it."

You don't want to admit that she's not normal.

The author has something to say:

Sorry, I admit that the content of this article about love is a bit short. I just reflected on it. A large part of this article is actually about Jiang Xuan’s family problems. Some friends may not like to read these , I prefer to watch two people fall in love, and it is very likely that they are just running for Cheng Hong and Jiang Xuan-only the love of the two of them. I am sorry that I cannot do what you want.In fact, when I first conceived the idea, the first thing that came to my mind was not Cheng Hong and Jiang Xuan, but Jiang Xuan's family.In this family, there is a mentally abnormal mother, a cowardly father, and a child like Jiang Xuan.It's not that I like to abuse the protagonist or something, I'm just happy to use this environment to write a character like Jiang Xuan, who is obviously disappointed but still refuses to follow the trend, that is, I am not reconciled.I wrote about his journey and changes in his heart. This is his growth. I let my protagonist grow up in this way. This is his bright spot and also the place Cheng Hong fell in love with.It is mentioned in the copy that this is a story of two people growing up together, fighting monsters, upgrading and supporting them to move forward. They are not perfect at all. I try to write them in a down-to-earth manner. It's bloody, but it's really within my power.As the author, I don’t know what you think of my writing. Is it possible that some friends are holding back their impatience and continuing to read, but I want to say that this paragraph will soon pass, and it will get better later, and it will be soon sweet.By the way, thank you for your favorites and comments!