famine

Cheng Hong drove all the way to the hospital, his face was burning with anxiety. After parking the car, he moved quickly and ran into the hospital lobby. He was about to run to the consultation desk, but when he turned his gaze, he was caught by the door of the emergency department in the distance. A figure caught his gaze, and his whole body trembled again.

My heart was beating fast, there was a loud bang bang bang in my ears, the veins on my forehead were almost protruding, and I felt a burst of needle pricks in front of my eyes, and I almost fell down.

He gasped for breath for a long time, without taking his eyes off the young man sitting on the chair by the wall for a moment. After finally calming down a bit, he dragged his heavy steps over impatiently.

Every step was like walking on a sword, and Cheng Lang felt that he had walked a century for the distance he could have covered in seven or eight steps. His mind was in chaos, and patterns flashed before him. The person sitting with his head up against the wall seems to be in a class of his own, and all the troubles around him have nothing to do with him. The lights in the hospital are bright and pale, and he sits there, like dripping on a colorful canvas. The dots of ink are not only a variegated color, but also a sad landscape that touches Cheng Hong's mind.

The distance between Cheng Lang and Jiang Xuan was not far, but he could only see him now, so that when he walked over, sat down, and held him in his arms desperately, there was a hot red The curly-haired woman looked up, the surprise in her eyes flashed, and then was covered up by ridicule.

Cheng Lang only glanced at her and then withdrew his gaze, because no one else was more important than the person he was holding at this moment.

Facing Jiang Xuan, who was at the mercy of others without saying a word or moving, Cheng Hong's heart tugged.

He drove all the way here, and because he was too anxious, he almost ran through several red lights behind him. He couldn't hear the whistle or the wind, and the only two words that Jiang Xuan said on the phone repeatedly appeared in his ears.

"Cheng Lang!!!"

"Cheng Lang!!!"

"Cheng Lang!!!"

"Dudududu..."

He understood what Jiang Xuan meant.

He also understood Jiang Xuan's unspoken words that seemed to be stifled.

Cheng Hong, come quickly, come and give me a hand.

I can't take it anymore, come on, please come on.

He had never been so moved by another person.

Hearing Jiang Xuan's cry that could almost become his nightmare in the future, Cheng Hong wished he could fly over with his wings, and then cover his eyes and ears so that the outside world would never affect him again.

This bird was supposed to soar in the free sky.

Cheng Lang couldn't take a look at Jiang Xuan's gloomy and quiet look.

But he couldn't say words such as "Jiang Xuan, say something" or "Jiang Xuan, look at me" that are not awakening or even comforting.

Cheng Lang finally started to panic.

He tightened his arms nervously, bent over in an awkward posture, and kept pressing Jiang Xuan into his arms. The force was so strong that he could almost hear the bones on Jiang Xuan's body, but he couldn't hear the man's muffled sound. snort.

Jiang Xuan looked dazed, his eyes staring straight at the shining floor, as if he was inaudible to his surroundings, and he was at the mercy of others like a marionette, without giving Cheng Hong any response.

But Cheng Lang just knew that he could hear and see.

He saw me, and he knew I was coming, but he didn't respond.

In the end, this frustration gradually escalated into "I can't hold him back" and "I can't do anything".

This feeling of falling off a cliff almost crushed his whole body, he was suffering, but it was only as Cheng Hong.

Jiang Xuan's pain is his own. Cheng Lang desperately wants to empathize with him, but he is pulled by reality. There is no gap between him and Jiang Xuan, but he feels that his heart is getting farther and farther away.

Feeling weightless, Cheng Hong hastily lowered his head and kissed Jiang Xuan's forehead several times, but it still seemed that it was not enough. He wanted to hear what Jiang Xuan had to say.

Just don't stay in dead silence.

Jiang Thrush, let me know what you think.

I want to share with you.

He hugged Jiang thrush tightly, as if he could protect him.

"...What are you guys doing?"

The sound of high-heeled shoes sounded from behind, accompanied by a sudden proud female voice. When she approached, the smell of perfume on her body quickly permeated the small space at the door of the emergency room. Although the smell was not unpleasant, it made Cheng Hong frowned, thinking " Hum" and it started to hurt.

But immediately after, Cheng Hong froze, and his expression became a little dazed.

Because there is a hand on the back waist.

Jiang Xuan seemed to wake up from a dream, and gave him an unexpected response.

"Jiang Xuan?!" Cheng Hong immediately forgot about the girl who had just arrived, and looked down at him in disbelief, his voice was trembling because he was too surprised.

"..."

After a long silence, when Cheng Lang suddenly heard the low-pitched "um" that almost sounded like a muffled hum, he thought it was an auditory hallucination.

The owner of the hand then patted him on the waist, signaling him to get up, and then stood up with downcast eyes to go out.

He didn't even look at the other three present.

"Hello." Jiang Yifei struggled to withdraw her surprised expression, frowning tightly, her face was neither embarrassed nor awkward, more of an uneasy avoidance.She took two steps forward and then stopped, as if she felt more comfortable this way, she said to the back of Jiang Xuan's head, "You don't have to go, I've already paid the money."

As soon as she finished speaking, the delicate woman who was leaning against the wall with her arms folded snorted disdainfully. Cheng Yan followed Jiang Xuan's gaze closely for a moment, but then she looked over and understood.

Chen Linlin.

This young girl... is Jiang Yifei?

At this moment, Jiang Xuan's figure moved. Cheng Hong saw that he tilted his head slightly, and when he looked at Jiang Yifei with gloomy eyes, the gloom on his face had not completely disappeared. When the cold light shone on his head, Jiang Xuan's face was frighteningly white .

"How much is it, I don't have any cash with me, please forward it to you on WeChat."

Jiang Yifei was taken aback for a moment, her complexion suddenly became ugly, she said in a cold voice, "No need."

"..."

Jiang Xuan didn't insist, turned around, and just took two steps forward, as if he suddenly remembered Cheng Hong, and stopped.

After Cheng Yan followed, he left with light steps, leaving the mother and daughter behind.

Rest chairs were placed in the corridor outside the operating room. When Cheng Lang walked over with two cans of hot coffee, he saw Jiang Xuan sitting on one of the chairs with his head down. Yes, Jiang Yuan just pushed in when Cheng Lang came.

Calculate the time, it will be launched in a while.

Jiang Xuan took the coffee that was handed to him, but he didn't drink it, so he covered his hands with both hands.

It wasn't cold in the hospital, but his hands seemed to have just been taken out from being buried in the snow for a long time, and the ice shards in them hurt him a lot when he moved a little.

Cheng Lang sat down beside him.

He stretched out his hands, held the coffee and Jiang Xuan's cold hands together, looked at him with concern and pretended to be relaxed, and said, "Don't be afraid, it's just a small operation, appendicitis, the old man also had it the year before last, and he's still alive and kicking." of."

Jiang Xuan raised his eyelids to look at him, but there was no expression on his face, his lips moved, as if he wanted to say something, but he didn't know how to say it.

Of course that wasn't what he was worried about.

His mother was pushed in because of acute appendicitis, and he wasn't afraid—it wasn't a disease to put it bluntly, and it wouldn't be surprising if it appeared on my mother or anyone else.

But what he was afraid of, he couldn't tell.

Is it because I am afraid that my mother will not be able to come out, or is I afraid that my mother will come out after a while but will not be the same person?

Jiang Xuan turned his head to look at the closed door, and he could always feel that he could see the black breath of death spreading from inside. They floated towards him, maliciously trying to infect him, and pulled him down together.

There is Cheng Hong beside him.

Jiang Xuan suddenly began to question himself - why did he bring Cheng Hong here?

He can't put on a white coat and go in for surgery, and he can't be afraid for him.

He insisted on dragging Cheng Hong not to let him go, is it really necessary?

Sensing the tendency of those hands to draw back, Cheng Yan fixed his eyes, and immediately clenched them tightly. He quickly looked into Jiang Xuan's eyes, and his tone changed a little: "What are you going to do?"

Jiang Xuan frowned and did not answer.

Again.

Cheng Lang looked at him sullenly for a long time.

It's so silent again, so indifferent, so repulsive.

He couldn't understand Jiang Thrush's timid and useless appearance, and even hated it.

Why can't you just open your eyes and look at me, why do you have to shut yourself back?

"It's hard to come out, do you still want to be like before?"

"..."

"Aren't you reconciled? Can't you help it?" Cheng Hong just felt the blood rushing to his head, and the more he spoke, the louder he forgot that this was in the hospital, he just wanted this person to let him see A little bit of the old look, so he said very seriously, "Do you want to go on like this forever? Jiang Xuan? You are suppressed and bound, you give up, right???"

"Then what do you want me to do?!"

Jiang Tong stood up with a groan, raised his head suddenly, stared at Cheng Hong's face with wide eyes, "What else can I do?!"

He pointed to the operating room behind him.

"Pain for her? Pain for her? Pain for her?! Can you do it later? I couldn't bear it and didn't go back, she died!! The mother and daughter ran over and said a few words just like dropping several pills from her heart Tim.Time.Bomb.Bomb!! I don’t know when it will explode! I don’t know if it will blow me up!! You are free and unrestrained, you can leave as soon as you say, but what about me?!”

But what about me? !

I can't get out, I can never get out! ! !

I can only grind off the protruding feathers, and wear off some when they grow, because if I let it grow wildly, the cage will not be able to put me in the end, and I will be covered with blood marks from the cage, etc. The bigger I get, the bigger I get strangled! !

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The two people at the door of the operating room ignored her, but they didn't quarrel anymore.

They still faced each other tit for tat, staring at each other silently, secretly competing to win or lose.

Seeing that the two of them had calmed down, the little nurse didn't say anything, walked away angrily, and turned her head to stare at them from time to time.

Just at this time, the cell phone in Cheng Hong's coat pocket rang again.

After a long stalemate, the ringing didn't stop, and he had to take out his phone.

Jiang Xuan watched him walk away without saying a word, then looked away sadly and painfully, and slowly squatted down.

When Cheng Yan was walking out, he met a middle-aged man who hurriedly walked towards him. He felt a little familiar, but he didn't think much about it. He quickly turned his gaze to the phone screen and connected the call.

"Hello? Grandma."

"Oh, Xiaolang," the old lady's voice was gentle and kind, "Is it almost here? I'm waiting to cook."

"..."

Cheng Lang frowned slightly.

He looked back at the hospital behind him, and after a while he clenched his phone tightly and said guiltily, "I'm sorry, grandma, I... won't go back for now."

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