Traveling through memoirs

"Cough..." Qing Luo cleared her throat, but didn't know what to say.

Too many things happened during this period, Qing Luo was overwhelmed by various situations, and finally everything was settled.Qing Luo felt a strange feeling of being alive again, seeing Chen Ling, she also felt a little strange.

"Long time no see." Qing Luo raised the corners of her mouth, revealing an impeccable smile.

But he didn't want Chen Ling to take a few steps forward, clasping Qing Luo's shoulders and stuffing the person into his arms.

Burying half of his face on Qing Luo's neck and shoulders, taking a deep breath of the familiar scent of incense on Qing Luo's clothes, Chen Ling kept holding that breath and finally let it out: "I miss you so much."

Blinking her eyes slowly twice, Qing Luo put her hand on Chen Ling's waist lightly, but didn't say anything.

Qing Luo, whose height had increased significantly after the growth period, was about the same height as Chen Ling now. The two of them hugged each other, with their heads lowered, their chins could just rest on each other's shoulders;

After wrapping his arms tightly around Qing Luo for a while, Chen Ling slowly let go of his arms, stepped back half a body, and happened to face Qing Luo face to face.

Qing Luo noticed that the corners of Chen Ling's eyes were flushed like rouge, and there was a layer of water film on the eyeballs, which made the whole person much softer.

Taking two deep breaths, Chen Ling plucked up his courage and said, "Qing Luo, I heard from Qing Ke that you have lost your temper. It's because of that set of internal strength, right?"

"You have cultivated to the ninth level of Dao!" Chen Ling said firmly, with a posture that did not allow anyone to refute.

'Yechunpin' was discovered by Qing Luo and Chen Ling together. Qing Ziyan's message on the stone wall was written clearly. Chen Ling naturally understood this internal skill clearly, so Qing Luo didn't refute anything.

People don't know that you refute, that's a self-reliant and self-reliant young man; people know that you still refute, that's hypocritical pretending to be a white lotus.

"Hmm~" Qing Luo raised her eyebrows, and looked at Chen Ling with a pair of peach blossom eyes, "So?"

"You are very right. I became obsessed because I practiced 'Yechunpin' to the ninth floor but did not have dual/cultivation. So... what do you want to express?"

"I am practicing with you!" Five words came out of Chen Ling's mouth extremely fast.It seems that I have been waiting for a long time, and I can't wait for this moment.

Unconcealable surprise made Qing Luo's eyes slightly widen, but soon, Qing Luo showed a faint smile: "Are you serious?"

"Do you know how to double cultivate between a man and a man?" Qing Luo said, grabbing Chen Ling's skirt and pulling him in front of her.

Turning her head slightly, Qing Luo was within an inch of Chen Ling's profile.The breath was hot and humid on Chen Ling's cheeks, Qing Luo looked at Chen Ling whose hairs were all stiff due to his actions, the corners of his mouth curled up, and he approached Chen Ling's ears: "I will pass through the little girl behind you." Small entrance, hard C into your body..."

Qing Luo lowered her voice extremely low, and her voice became hot and hoarse. With the tremor of the vocal cords, the airflow turned around in Qing Luo's mouth, and then fell on Chen Ling's ear.Chen Ling's ears also became red with the spread of the airflow, from the ears to the naked/exposed neck.

Chen Ling's heartbeat became very fast, and Qing Luo could not only hear the sound of that little thing pounding in Chen Ling's chest, but also clearly see the throbbing of the blood vessels on his slender neck.

The clenched fist was tight and tight, tight and tight, and the bone made a sound. Chen Ling pursed his mouth and put his arms around Qing Luo: "I...know..."

The vocal cords were like rotten wood, stagnant and hard to speak. It took Chen Ling a lot of effort to successfully spit out these three words.Every time he uttered a word, his vocal cords tightened, and at the last word, Chen Ling almost only made a soft front sound.

Pushing Chen Ling away, Qing Luo's face turned cold, and she turned and sat back on the wicker chair: "You go."

"Qing Luo, I..."

"I said, let's go." Qing Luo closed her eyes, squeezed her index finger and thumb on the root of the mountain, and locked a stitch between her eyebrows tightly.

"Chen Ling..." Qing Luo's voice was weary, with a gentle sigh: "We have already settled the relationship, have you forgotten?"

Her lips were dry and her lower lip was ravaged by Chen Ling's teeth: "I don't want to settle with you..."

"I like you..." After being silent for a long time, Chen Ling closed his eyes, and shouted out with the momentum of death: "I love you!"

Three simple words, but it is not so easy to export them.But once he really said it, it seemed that the pressure that weighed heavily on his body disappeared, and he felt light and free.What I want to say and what I want to do are no longer difficult to say, and they all start to be taken for granted.

"I love you, Qing Luo." There was a sore and swollen feeling in his chest, as if he had eaten a handful of unripe grapes, which were astringent but sweet.

The most difficult thing to confide in has already come out, Chen Ling is no longer stuttering, his voice becomes more comfortable and more organized: "I want to be with you, not because of a debt, or any other thing you want. I love you, it has nothing to do Anyone, nothing. Because I love you, I want to be with you; because I love you, I don't want you to suffer."

"You need dual cultivation, I hope that person is me." Clenched his fists, Chen Ling calmly but decisively said: "It can only be me. Because I know that I will not betray you, only I can protect you, so that you will never be harmed again."

"Can you give me a chance?"

Qing Luo raised her eyes and looked at Chen Ling: "Protect me?"

With a sneer, Qing Luo said word by word: "The [Jian Yuanfeng] people want to kill me? How do you protect me? Are you going to kill them? Will Jiewu and Jieyueying be against me? You want to fight with them? Turn your face?"

"Chen Ling, tell me, will you become an enemy of the entire righteous way for me?"

"Anyone who wants to kill you must first step over my corpse." Chen Ling looked at Qing Luo without any hesitation.

The two looked at each other for a while, then Qing Luo suddenly smiled.

"Then what if I want to kill them? I want revenge, what will you do? Help me kill them and disrupt the martial arts world, are you willing?"

"I won't stop you." The implication was that Chen Ling would stay out of the matter.

This is already the limit that Chen Ling, who received righteous education since childhood, can do.

Picking up the teacup, Qing Luo took a few sips: "Chen Ling, you can talk a lot. If you had been so sweet back then, we wouldn't be where we are today. You said you, earlier you were willing to lie You can lie to me."

"I am a person who is very soft-hearted towards the people I care about. If you were willing to tell me so and deceive me like this at that time, I might obediently listen to you." Put the teacup back to its original place , Qing Luo stared blankly at the pattern on the teacup: "Actually, I don't understand until now. Why did you pretend to be unfamiliar with me? Or, do you not know me at all?"

Qing Luo raised her head and looked at Chen Ling: "Why? How could you leave me there and follow Jie Wu without looking back?"

"I tried to think about you from your point of view, but I found that if it was me, I would not say that I don't know you, let alone throw you there. During the three years lurking in Misty City, I have been Thinking about this question, I told myself, maybe you didn’t think about it that much at the time? You were just slow to respond and didn’t have time to say anything? I made a lot of excuses for you. I really want to accept you again, because, you are so good to me ,so good……"

"But then you met Jie Yueying again. You were afraid that she would get hurt, so you kept your hands everywhere. You could have imagined that she would be in pain, but you couldn't imagine that if my plan was exposed, I would die."

"Chen Ling, at that time I suddenly realized a problem. It's not that you couldn't think of some things, you just didn't think about it. You can't say that I am not important to you. Rather, compared with me, you have many more important things. People. Now you say to me who doesn’t know where in the row, you love me?”

Opening his mouth, Chen Ling could only say palely: "I'm just...Qing Luo, I..."

"I don't want to listen to your explanation anymore." Qing Luo shook her head and smiled, then shrugged: "Chen Ling, I've never been a person who listens to love with my ears."

"Sorry, we are not suitable, you have no chance."

Qing Luo asked himself, did he really not care about Chen Ling at all?No matter what kind of emotion he has towards Chen Ling, has he really let go of it all?

No.

If Qing Luo let it go, he wouldn't have talked so much with Chen Ling at [Jianyuan Peak], let alone take Chen Ling away.He didn't talk so much to Chen Ling just now, but just turned around and left.

Qing Luo was persuading Chen Ling to retreat in spite of difficulties, so why not remind himself not to make the same mistakes again.

Feelings can never be as simple as eating and drinking. If you are hungry, you will eat and if you are not hungry, you will not eat.Feelings are easy to pick up, but it takes twice as long to put them down.

Even sometimes, you know that this relationship is meaningless and you are entrusting inhumanity, but you still can't let it go easily.You will be reluctant, you will be nostalgic, but you yourself don't know what you are reluctant to part with and what you are nostalgic for.

Clearly knowing that after getting out of this relationship completely, looking back at the current self, I will only feel that my behavior of making myself cheap is very stupid.But at this moment, you still feel pain.

Letting go of this relationship made Qing Luo feel uncomfortable, like cutting off the most tender piece of meat with the dullest knife alive.It hurts but wakes me up.

Qing Luo would rather let go of the pain than completely, because he is very timid and cannot afford to be hurt again.

In his previous life, it was the first time for Qing Luo to trust and have a friendship, but he failed completely, even costing his life; in this life, it was the second time for him to trust someone and develop a relationship.Qing Luo cautiously devoted himself to his poor feelings little by little, not daring to make a wrong step, but still got hurt.But the hurt Qing Luo still didn't give up, and cautiously stretched out her tentacles to absorb the poor warmth.However, in the end, Qing Luo found that she was the same as before, still not that important.

Qing Luo was really scared. He would rather be a cold-blooded person forever than try things like feelings again.

"I won't give up, Qing Luo."

Even though Qing Luo had traveled a long way, relying on his profound internal strength, he could still hear Chen Ling's words.

"Not because I want to make up for you, but because I love you."