exploded

Sadness suddenly hit Shang Yu Shengwei's heart.

In this silent night, thousands of emotions emerged, intertwined into a web in his flesh and blood, bound his heart, and strangled him almost out of breath.

Most people are like this. When no one loves, they don't care about anything, and they are so strong that people are afraid; but once they are loved, they become concerned about everything, and they are so fragile that people are afraid.

Brother Yi Jian was right.

If I have any dissatisfaction or concerns, I can ask him.

He will tell me.

But Yu Shengwei's lips seemed to be firmly glued together, and he couldn't open them no matter what.

Filament let go of his heart, but fear turned into tide again, washing away his reason one after another.

He is so scared.

The softer Bo Yijian spoke, the more frightened he became.

He was afraid that Bo Yijian would reveal his deep affection for his first love, he was afraid of knowing that he was not as good as his first love in Bo Yijian's heart, he was afraid that Bo Yijian had something more important and more important in his heart.

In the final analysis, what he is really afraid of is not Bo Yijian's ten-year girlfriend.

What he was afraid of was the distance between himself and Yijian, the gloomy, pitiful person who stayed in the corner in the past, was picked up by others, and was left behind again, standing on tiptoe and stretching his hands, exhausting all his strength. A child who is still farther and farther away from what he wants.

The child wants to have the sun all to himself.

And the sun shone evenly on him and his companions.

The sun is his only one.

He is just one of the suns.

Then, the sun left.

Under the watery light, Bo Yijian noticed that Yu Shengwei's eyelids trembled suddenly.

He thought he would see the other party's tears, but he didn't, the thin and soft eyelids trembled twice, then raised again, and the other party's bright eyes stared at him, just staring.

Silence spread between the two.

Under the silence, something as heavy as a mountain was vaguely hidden.

Bo Yijian touched this heaviness, and his heart dropped suddenly, but his hand didn't follow, he lifted it up and put it on Yu Shengwei's shoulder.

His voice broke the unbridled silence:

"Can't you tell me?"

no answer.

"why?"

Still no answer.

"Is it because I'm not qualified to know the secret in your heart?"

Yu Shengwei finally spoke, his voice was broken and messy: "No, that's not the case, brother Yijian—"

Bo Yijian: "What is that?"

Yu Shengwei: "I..."

Bo Yijian waited patiently for a while, but there was no follow-up, he said: "Xiao Yu, this relationship was initiated by you. I discovered your strengths in getting along with you, and I accepted you, not only physically , and heart. But now I find that you, who have been taking the initiative, have not completely opened your heart to me, and you have always kept a place to keep me out. Do you think this is fair to me?"

Bo Yijian wasn't angry, didn't get angry, and didn't even ask urgently.

But those calm words were more effective than any angry questioning, they easily pushed Yu Shengwei into a corner.

Yu Shengwei could no longer escape.

His mouth was pried open a little: "It's not like that, I'm just... just scared."

Bo Yijian: "Afraid of what?"

Yu Shengwei: "I'm afraid that Brother Yijian has someone who cares more...I'm afraid that I'm not the number one in your heart, not the only one in your heart."

Bo Yijian was a little confused.

If I remember correctly, he told Yu Shengwei yesterday that love is the only one.

Why does Yu Shengwei feel that he is not his number one and only one today?

He felt that there were too many things he needed to communicate with Yu Shengwei.

He rationalized his thoughts: "When you say the first and only, do you mean love? Or does it include all other feelings, including my father?"

Yu Shengwei was also confused: "Brother Yijian, why do you ask such a question? Of course I mean love, only love."

Bo Yijian said concisely: "Then you are my number one, you are my only one."

Yu Sheng blurted out slightly: "But your first girlfriend—"

Bo Yijian: "What?"

The words have already been spoken, and it seems that there is no point in concealing them.

The annoyance that came from nowhere spread all over Yu Shengwei's body, Yu Shengwei said: "Your first love girlfriend...you said you couldn't forget her..."

My first girlfriend?

Why didn't I know when I had a first love girlfriend?

and many more……

day.

My [-]-year crush on the media, the unswerving and affectionate character set!

Bo Yijian was dumbfounded on the spot, he never thought that he was the one who really dug a deep hole for himself!

What is it all about...

Bo Yijian hurriedly explained, but before he could speak, Yu Shengwei spoke again.

The other party clenched his fists, lowered his head, and apologized as if he had done something wrong: "Brother Yijian, I'm sorry, I shouldn't be too much..." He stammered, "Too much interfere with your relationship...your communication... That, that is just a symbol in your heart...it's just the past...I shouldn't ask...not qualified to ask..."

Bo Yijian who was about to speak at first shut up again.

Seeing Yu Shengwei like this, he began to realize that the problem between himself and the other party was far more than just this dumbfounding misunderstanding.

He pondered briefly, then asked, "Why do you apologize?"

Yu Shengwei: "Huh?"

Bo Yijian: "I remember I told you yesterday that in love, a heart can only be given to one person. Since I gave my heart to you, of course you have the right to ask me any questions about love. So, why do I apologize? ?”

Yu Shengwei: "I..."

Bo Yijian asked again: "Why didn't you ask?"

Yu Shengwei: "I..."

Bo Yijian found out.

The misunderstanding of this "girlfriend of ten years" is a superficial problem between him and Yu Shengwei.

Yu Shengwei was afraid of deeper problems.

What is Yu Shengwei afraid of?

Bo Yijian thought for a moment, and said frankly, "Are you afraid of being hurt in this relationship?"

Yu Shengwei denied: "I am not!"

Bo Yijian looked at Yu Shengwei.

Yu Shengwei's resistance gradually became weaker, and he once again realized that he could not escape... Even in the deepest part of his heart, he was eager to expose all the pain and contradictions in his heart.

He looks forward to help and rescue.

"I...scared. Brother Yijian, you are so good, you are the best, so I am very scared... I am afraid that one day, you will find someone better than me, and you will find that I am not that good... There will be someone like me who will find you and snatch you away..."

"I... I'm afraid of losing you again."

once again?

Bo Yijian noticed this strange word.

But he refrained from mentioning it.

He had something more important to say to Yu Shengwei, and he finally discovered the biggest problem Yu Shengwei had in this relationship.

Bo Yijian: "Xiao Yu, do you find that in this relationship, you place yourself too low?"

Yu Shengwei kept denying, but his denial became weaker and weaker: "I...I didn't...I just..."

Bo Yijian said sharply: "What are you? You think you fell in love with me first, and you think you love a little more, but I just agreed to this relationship under your pursuit, and I can leave at any time. So you can't help being humble and humble, worrying about gain and loss—then, patiently, please me?"

Yu Sheng murmured slightly: "Brother Yijian..."

Bo Yijian looked at Yu Shengwei quietly for a while, then he suddenly said: "Xiao Yu, your love is very hot, there is nothing wrong with that. You fell in love with me first, and you loved me very deeply...but you fell in love first. A person doesn’t have to be humble, he can be warm and sincere; a person who loves deeply doesn’t have to worry about gains and losses, he can be tolerant.”

Bo Yijian smiled.

He continued:

"Xiao Yu, I don't need you to look up to me, worship me, and yearn for me."

"You should come close to me, hug me, love me, feel my ups and downs, and share yours with me.

"I'm not your idol, I'm your lover.

"What I need is not a fan, what I need is my family who sleeps under the same room as me."

"and also."

Bo Yijian took a deep breath and confessed.

"I don't have a ten-year girlfriend. That's what I used to shape my character when I first debuted. My first love is you."

"what?"

Yu Sheng, who was still engrossed in the long conversation with Bo Yijian, blurted out:

"I do not believe--"

Bo Yijian squeezed Yu Shengwei's shoulder at the right time, and reminded him friendly: "Xiao Yu, think about it before you talk. Although you love me, I love you very much."

Yu Shengwei: "Brother Yijian...really?"

He slowly came back to his senses and realized what Bo Yijian was talking about.

He was still uttering questioning sentences, but the corners of his mouth were raised high, as if vitality had suddenly injected into this body, and he had been wiped clean and radiant.

Bo Yijian: "Really."

Yu Shengwei: "Thank you, I—I'm so happy—"

Bo Yijian's tone was indifferent, dissatisfied: "Just glad I don't have a first love girlfriend?"

Yu Shengwei's desire to survive suddenly awakened, and he quickly added: "I am also very happy with what you said just now, brother Yijian!"

Bo Yijian questioned the three couplets: "Did you listen carefully? Accepted? Decided to correct it?" Then, without waiting for Yu Shengwei to reply one by one, he suddenly turned up old accounts. He remembered the questions during the conversation just now clearly. "Then you come and tell me what it means to leave you 'again'?"

Yu Sheng was slightly speechless.

Bo Yijian shook Yu Shengwei: "Huh?"

Yu Sheng spat slightly: "Actually...just...yes, Brother Yijian, do you still remember that you used to sponsor a child named Xiaoyu in the 'Huici Orphanage'?"

Bo Yijian: "Of course I remember, I don't have amnesia."

After he finished speaking, he suddenly froze: "Wait, who is Xiaoyu?"

Yu Shengwei: "The little fish is me."

A series of garbled characters flashed across Bo Yijian's mind.

He didn't panic, he continued to ask: "Okay, I see, what else is there besides this?"

Yu Shengwei said honestly, "There's not much else."

Bo Yijian shook Yu Shengwei again: "Huh?"

Yu Shengwei spat again: "That's right... my mother abandoned me in the orphanage at the time, and now something happened to her and she ran to my house to hide. The creditor met me and recognized me."

A series of garbled characters flashed across Bo Yijian's heart for the second time.

He stabilized: "What else?"

Yu Shengwei: "Not anymore."

Bo Yijian didn't believe it, he continued to shake things off.

Shake it once, and the other party spits out something; shake it again, and the other party spits out something more.

It's kind of fun...