One Xu Qinxin for the rest of his life

"Mr. Qin, do you like me too?"

It was almost a conditioned reflex, after Xu Mu said this, Qin Ke pushed him, accompanied by the sound of a pile of experimental equipment falling on the ground, after a burst of crackling, it seemed to sink into the eternal In the distant space, there was a deadly silence between the two of them. Qin Ke looked at Xu Mu in front of him, his face was calm and composed, he never seemed to feel that his actions were inappropriate, full of courage and fearlessness.

Qin Ke frowned, hating Xu Mu's self-confidence and fearlessness for no reason, and asked him:

"you like me?"

The idea of ​​wanting to confess today is the result of a momentary brain fever, but the heart that likes him has been trapped for a long time, and has been cautious, like walking on thin ice, because his every move affects his heart and affects his heart. his nerves.

Like him, not because of a fever, but because of getting along and getting to know him overnight, and it is also a beautiful luxury that has been accumulated year after year.

"Yes, it's not the kind of admiration students have for their teachers, it's the kind of liking for loving someone, and the kind of liking for wanting to be with you forever." Xu Mu didn't know where the courage came from, although Teacher Qin's face was indifferent People with low air pressure can't breathe, he still said with certainty:

"It's because I don't belong to anyone in this life, it only belongs to you. This kind of love."

Qin Ke looked at Xu Mu who was speaking seriously and affirmatively in front of him. He thought he would say such a thing to someone again, and he felt an inexplicable anger in his heart:

"Xu Mu, I just found out today that you are mentally ill."

This was the first time that Qin Ke and Xu Mu had known each other for so long, and scolded Xu Mu so coldly.After he finished speaking, he squatted down to pick up the equipment that fell on the ground. There were broken glass shards all over the floor, big and small, glowing warmly under the projection of the setting sun.He didn't raise his head again, and knew that Xu Mu hadn't left.

"I'm not sick, I know you like men too."

When the hands that were picking up the pieces heard this sentence, they held half a piece of glass and stood there in the air. Qin Ke raised his head and saw that Xu Mu mustered up his courage: "I'm not sick, Mr. Qin, I'm not sick." Think it's a disease. I like you, it's not a disease."

Not knowing where the anger came from, Qin Ke put down the piece of glass, stood up from the ground, put him on the experimental table, and looked down at him:

"You have the ability to say it again!"

He knew that Qin Ke was good at putting on the identity of a teacher to oppress him, but this matter must not be compromised. He didn't understand why Qin Ke was so angry, but after seeing Teacher Qin's attitude changed from the past, he couldn't bear it anymore. , he raised the volume:

"I just like you, what's the matter? You have the ability to hit me?"

I don't know how long it has been since I saw this bastard looking arrogant and domineering. At this time, seeing Xu Mu raised his chin, looking like he was not afraid of anything, he felt even more annoyed for no reason, and raised his hand to push Xu Mu. :

"Go away immediately, do you hear me?"

"Qin Ke, you don't dare to admit that you like me, I know you must like me?" Xu Mu didn't leave, but because Qin Ke's abnormal behavior aroused the unfairness in his heart, he put his hand on the experimental table, biting Tooth, the appearance of seeing death as home.

Just when the two were at a stalemate, Yi Qian, who was thinking of coming to visit the experiment, had just entered the laboratory and found that the atmosphere between the two was not right. The textbook didn't say hello to Yi Qian, turned around and went downstairs.

Yi Qian watched Xu Mu's back go away, and turned his head to see that Qin Ke had already squatted on the ground to clean up the mess. The glass shards all over the floor were shining brightly, which was particularly dazzling.

"What's going on? Why did the little bastard mess with you?" Probably sensing that the atmosphere in the laboratory was not right, Yi Qian pretended to be relaxed and walked to Qin Ke, ready to clean it with him.

Qin Ke cleaned up the mess on the ground. He didn't have much patience to clean up the pieces one by one. He just grabbed them casually, regardless of the blood on his hand cut by the glass. He didn't shake his head until those clear pains spread all over his body. :

"He was right, and I was wrong."

What did Xu Mu do wrong?He got angry with him, but because he couldn't face a different self calmly and bravely, like him, he wrapped all the emotions about himself deep in his heart, Never thought to let this unacceptable sexuality face the sun, now uncovered by a little bastard, naked and bloody.

It was just because he couldn't accept himself like this that he became so angry with Xu Mu.

He knew from the very beginning that if someone liked something, it was doomed to die prematurely.

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From that day on, Xu Mu never showed up at Qin Ke's door again.Qin Ke didn't take the initiative to come to him to give him tutoring. He didn't want to face everything about that day, about Xu Mu. He even thought that it would be fine if he never saw each other for the rest of his life.

He asked Yi Qian to hand over Xu Mu's remaining living expenses to him, and never took the initiative to contact Xu Mu again.

He thought, probably they are like this, there will be no beginning, let alone an end.

Until the beginning of July, when the college entrance examination was about to take place, it was raining heavily that night. He had just picked up the child from the kindergarten, and the little girl fell asleep on his back. He had just walked downstairs with an umbrella, and saw Xu Mu stood at the door holding an umbrella. He was wearing a light gray baseball uniform and stood in the rain with an umbrella. When he saw him appear, he moved his steps, but in the end he didn't take another step forward.

"Teacher Qin."

Xu Mu still called him Teacher Qin all the time.

The psychology that had been calmed down, because of his appearance, was ups and downs again. Qin Ke clenched the handle of the umbrella and looked at the pair of eyes that were shining in the stormy night. Why did he come to him? His Rejection is harsh and obvious.

"Ms. Qin, I want to enter your university."

This was the first time Xu Mu said such a sentence without confidence. He just wanted to struggle and work harder, so he thought of coming to test him.

The man's face was as gloomy as an iceberg, and he slightly raised his eyes: "Haiquan University has always been famous for its liberal arts, you are talented in science, I don't want you to come in."

If the first half of the sentence is still what a teacher should say, the second half of the sentence has directly made the relationship between them very strange. I don't want him to come in, and I don't want him to disturb my life.

"Teacher Qin, I..."

"Xu Mu." Qin Ke interrupted Xu Mu's words: "Maybe you think we are people in the same world, rely on me, and feel that we cherish each other, but I don't think so. I don't want to enter your world, and I don't have time to be with you. Children play house."

Xu Mu didn't hold any hope in his heart, and it was a godsend not to be as aggressive as last time. Hearing his indifferent and decisive voice at this time, he raised his umbrella and forced a smile:

"Mr. Qin, thank you for tutoring me."

I wanted to say thank you for a long time, but I never thought that I would say it on such an occasion. Xu Mu sighed and passed Qin Ke.

Obviously already such a familiar old person, it is probably harder than going to heaven to be a stranger again.

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Since then, Qin Ke's life is still orderly. After the school's summer vacation, he didn't stay in school anymore, and took his children to his hometown to escape the summer heat. He went there for more than half a month.

In fact, it's not that they can't think of that person. Walking by the stream that they once went together, what came to mind was Xu Mu's face.

I dare not admit that I like it. He is obviously a little bastard who doesn't understand anything, but what he said is extraordinarily reasonable.

Sitting by the river, Qin Ke took out a cigarette from his pocket and lit it. He smoked for the first time because he wanted to see if he could really forget all his troubles as someone said.

How can I forget a familiar old person, apart from amnesia and death, I can't paralyze myself through these foreign things.

Until the end of August, when he returned from his hometown with his children, Yi Qian, who had been staying in school to prepare for the postgraduate exam, told him some bad news.

"Did you know your student's first choice is our school?"

Qin Ke was stunned for a while, and didn't know how to express his position for a while. Yi Qian probably knew what might happen between the two people, so he told Qin Ke without hesitation:

"Your student is very good and was admitted."

What does it mean to be admitted, Qin Ke naturally does not need Yi Qian to explain more, but when he heard the news, what came to his mind was the scene where Xu Mu came to ask him to fill in the application that night, not to ask for opinions, Could it be that he deliberately ran over to ask such a question, deliberately annoyed him?

He could probably guess what tone Xu Mu would use to talk to him.

The comeback and the lingering spirit are probably the two most terrifying advantages of Xu Mu.