princess's sorrow

My title is Shouning. In this palace, no one calls me by my name. The servants who serve me call me "Seventh Princess", "Princess Shouning" or "Princess", and my father and mother call me "Shou Ning" or "Ning'er", Shou Ning Shou Ning, Fu Shou Kang Ning, unfortunately, I think this name is very ironic, I am imprisoned in this palace, in this cage with red walls and green tiles, how can I get Fushou?How can Kangning?

After the eldest sister got married, I would occasionally go back to the palace to see my mother. At that time, it was my happiest day. The relationship between my mother, Zheng Guifei, and my eldest sister's mother, the queen, was extremely disharmonious. It can even be said that The fight was very fierce, and except for the fact that my mother and concubine could not surpass the status of the queen, she was always the one who won. Fortunately, these did not damage the sisterhood between my elder sisters.

Elder Sister looks very good, she caressed my hair with her soft fingers, and said to me: "Ning'er should grow up quickly, when she grows up, she will be like your concubine mother, yes She is a beautiful woman with many charms." At this time, her son-in-law Captain Yang Chunyuan will stand quietly waiting to go back with her, while I will wait reluctantly until I can no longer see the big sister's car. Only when the chariot is gone, will he return to the palace unhappy.

My palace "Anle Hall", named Anle, is actually neither disturbing nor happy. Here, there is the mother Liang who I fear, the eunuch Zhao Jinchao who is attached to her and whom I hate, and a group of people watching her The maids and eunuchs who were winking between them, and Pingjuan and Xia Shuang, who were the only ones who could speak a few words to me, were also afraid of her like a tiger like me.

The emperor dotes on me because of my concubine mother, but what about concubine mother?She obviously put all her thoughts on my third brother, and she was a little indifferent to me. After I realized this, I was very sad for a long time, but, What's the use of being sad?I am a noble princess, and I enjoy the offerings of the people of the world, why should I be sad?

Both the father and the concubine intended to make the third elder brother the crown prince, but the ministers in the court followed the words left by their ancestors and said that "there should be a son if there is a son, and no son if there is no son". The queen has no children, and the eldest son is me Zhu Changluo, the eldest brother of the emperor, was born to Concubine Gong, and he was extremely disliked by his father. Ease and enjoyment, I really don't know what kind of impact he will have on this country if he becomes the king.

I grow up day by day, but I am afraid of Nanny Liang day by day. As a teaching nun, she can restrict my actions and punish me at any time, but my father and mother think that a gentle This is how the noble, noble, and magnanimous princesses are made, but it is me and other princesses who are suffering. At this time, I am very glad that my father and emperor are the only two princesses who never died. , and the big sister, she, fortunately, has escaped from this sea of ​​suffering forever, and I am the only one left, still struggling in this sea of ​​suffering.

I am afraid of Nanny Liang, and I don't trust anyone around me, that is her shadow left deep in my heart, and I finally grow up day by day, becoming the kind of gentle mother in my concubine's cognition. She looks like a peaceful princess.

In May of the 27th year of Wanli, I was married by my father. The princess was married, and my name was descended. My son-in-law was called Ran Xingrang. It is said that he was a handsome man, but I had never seen him, and I couldn’t talk about it. What a favor, I just hope that I can be as happy as my big sister.

I am happy to be able to escape from the luxurious prison of the royal family, but there is a famous saying that goes, "Fortune comes with misfortune, and misfortune rests with blessings." What about people?

Since the day I was bestowed with the marriage, my father chose a site in Kyoto to build a huge and luxurious "Princess Mansion", which fully demonstrated his love for me. She is the housekeeper, and unfortunately, this person is none other than my teaching nun, Liang Yingnv.

Getting married made me think that my bad dreams could end, but, I never knew that my bad dreams had just begun.

October 26th was my big wedding day, and my father's love for me was really different. My dowry was several times richer than that of my eldest sister, and my father also specially ordered me to do it every five days. I have to go back to the palace to visit him, so as not to miss him.

I am very afraid of getting married, especially when I imagine my son-in-law Duwei as the eunuch Zhao Jinchao, I often wake up in a dream, oh, I hate his mean, sometimes With a flattering smile on his face, if my son-in-law is like that, how should I live?

In the entire harem, apart from my father and a few brothers, the only man I can see is Yang Chunyuan, the eldest sister's son-in-law. I wish my son-in-law could be like my father. She dotes on me deeply, and there are far more women than men in the harem. There are those concubines who flatter and laugh at me because of the status of me and my concubine, and some who are afraid of my identity and can't say a word in front of me. Qing court ladies, but all of them don't know that I am only as noble and lofty as they see on the surface. I am just the princess they want to see, but not the real me. I am humble and cowardly, a weak woman who is powerless to resist under the oppression of Madam Liang.

The royal wedding ceremony is very cumbersome and grand. I was manipulated by everyone like a puppet, and I did what I had to do. However, the fear in my heart made me almost want to cry, but I dare not. Leaving this imperial palace, the road ahead is boundless, but what is waiting for me?

People say that "the night of the bridal chamber, when the gold medal is signed", that is the proudest thing in life, but, but I want to marry a strange man, I don't even know what he looks like, and I feel a sense of fear At this moment, Madam Liang's shrill voice came from next to her ear: "Princess, you have a noble status, so you must not lose your manners and lose the dignity of the royal family."

I shivered suddenly, why?Did she see my body trembling?When I was thinking this way, my hands were tightly folded into my sleeves, I was already twisted into a ball, and my face turned blue, but fortunately, I was still wearing a hipa on my head. Otherwise, I'm afraid I'll be lectured by her again.

Finally, all the ceremonies were completed, and I sat on the marriage bed. Although I couldn't move at all, it was much more comfortable than standing or walking. At least my mind could regain clarity.

There was a sound of footsteps approaching from far away, and a maid opened the way ahead, only to hear that small voice say: "My son-in-law, please come this way."

The door was pushed open with a "squeak", "My son-in-law, please", came the maid's voice again.

Here it comes, here he comes, and my mood became more and more tense. According to the usual practice, these servants should all step aside at this time, I thought to myself.

With my head down, the footsteps gradually approached me. From under the hijab, I could see a pair of feet with red boots, and they were stopping not far from me. He was about to uncover my cover. Hijab, I thought to myself.

However, at this moment, a figure came over and stopped in front of me, it was Mother Liang, but, what is she going to do?I was still surprised, but I heard Liang Mama say: "The servant congratulated the son-in-law."

"Thank you Mama." Said the captain consort, this was the first time I heard his voice, it sounded pretty good, maybe, maybe he's not that bad, I thought to myself.

Then there was a rustling sound, I covered my head with a veil, I didn't know what they were doing, but Mammy Liang gave a cold "hum".

Then, there was another rustling sound, and I was a little curious about what they were doing, but after all, I couldn't lift the hijab to see by myself, so I could only endure it.

However, this time, Nanny Liang seemed to be satisfied, she slightly bowed her knees and said in a salute: "Your servant will leave."