Stargazing with You

We all let go of the matter that made each other unhappy by default. There are more and more question marks in my heart. Those who want to ask Bai Ying can't ask, and those who want to ask myself can't answer, but in the end they all fall to the most fundamental and bottom line The question is whether I still want to be buddies with him.The answer is self-explanatory.Don't know what to do with those weird emotions, but I don't want to lose him like this.

We have only been in high school for one year, and he graduated when I was in my second year of high school. I know he will have the best future, and he will go to the best university in China, which must be thousands of miles away from me, and maybe he will go there again Famous schools abroad are so far away on the other side of the world.I just want to cherish the last half a year with him.I don't know why he likes someone and didn't tell her directly, he is so good, no one should reject his confession, but his thinking has always been more mature than mine, maybe there are some far-reaching considerations, I don't want to think so far-reaching , I just want to be like when I was a child, as soon as he said "Go, go to the game hall" "Go, go play tennis" I followed him, I followed him wherever I went, and I was too lazy to think about anything else.

In fact, I was very afraid that he would go to a famous school abroad, and I would occasionally ask him about it. On Christmas Day, we went to see a movie together. It was a sci-fi masterpiece. The hero and heroine of the movie were graduates of MIT and Harvard respectively. I Taking this opportunity to ask him if he likes MIT or Harvard, Bai Ying threw a popcorn into his mouth and said, "Massachusetts Institute of Technology." Suddenly, I felt that he was far away from me, as if he had run into the giant screen.

When he was about to reach out to grab the popcorn, I took the popcorn away. Seeing him fumbling around on the armrest to find nothing, I couldn't help but hold back my laughter. Bai Ying turned around and saw me holding the popcorn in my arms alone. Eat, stared at me and pulled the carton, I squeezed it twice and then let go, he took it and grabbed it, grabbed out a ball of tissue paper that I threw inside, hahahaha I have eaten all the popcorn up!

My back was full of belly laughs, and I felt the popcorn box buckle on the back of my head. I suffered a heavy blow to my back, and my neck was pinched and I stuffed it under the chair!

It took me a long time to control my trembling laugh after he let go, and I looked up to see him watching a movie while curled up in a chair depressed.Serve it right, who told you to choose MIT!

Coming out of the movie theater, the cold wind blowing outside made me a little sad. He won't spend Christmas with me next year.

"What's the matter, you have a mournful look on your face?" Bai Ying stopped and looked back at me.

"No," I wrapped my clothes, "I just feel cold."

Bai Ying looked behind me and said, "People don't feel cold when they wear skirts, but you, a man, have the nerve to call it cold."

I looked back and saw those girls wearing short skirts and pantyhose: "How can I compare with other girls, these pantyhose can heat themselves..."

Bai Ying looked at me with wide eyes: "Who told you?"

"My mother," I said, "I saw her wearing a skirt to go out in the cold weather. I asked you if it was cold, but she said it was not. Their women's pantyhose can become hot, just like a warm baby."

After hearing this, Bai Ying clenched her fists and covered her mouth with a smile, looked at me back and forth, and said with emotion: "I really envy Auntie, who can tease you every day."

"What do you mean? Can't pantyhose be hot? Then they are frozen into popsicles when they wear it in such a cold day?!"

"Yes, yes, it can be hot. Do you want one, I'll give it to you." He looked back at my shivering legs, "It's much warmer than you wearing two long johns."

Nonsense! "I only wear one!"

I should have worn two more, and I started sneezing after a while.I glanced at Bai Ying who was wearing a cow horn button coat and a pair of black straight-leg pants, why should I compare with him, he is a person who can swim in cold weather... But I don't wear a little less because I hope to go with him When we are together, do you think we can get along well...

I was walking alone while staring at the bricks on the ground in a daze. When I looked up, Baiying disappeared. I was confused and looked in all directions. Where is the person?

"Bai Ying?!" shouted, and I almost crossed the road to find him before I heard him calling me from behind.

"Here!" He was at the door of a milk tea shop on the street, lying there and turning his head to greet me.

I ran over angrily: "Why did you run away without making a sound?"

Bai Ying ignored me and said to the clerk, "Try to make the milk tea as hot as possible."

I said I was asking you something, but he lay there and glanced at me, like a cat lying on the refrigerator, wagging his tail and just ignoring me, he was so pissed off!

I saw that he bought a cup of pearl milk tea, and wondered: "Don't you like drinking too sweet?"

Bai Ying actually looked up to the sky, talking to herself for some reason.

Although I didn't hear what he was muttering, I felt contempt!

At this time, the clerk brought the milk tea, and he just glanced at me, let me take it, and paid for it himself.

"Did you break your hand? Let me take this too!"

But the pearl milk tea was hot, and it was quite warm in my hand. I followed him and complained deliberately behind his back: "You didn't buy me a drink..."

"This is for you." Bai Ying said, and muttered, "Aren't you stupid..."

I was enlightened and stared at the milk tea in my hand with wide eyes.

"Sing," Bai Ying said, "Aren't you cold?"

Black pearl particles were deposited under the warm milk tea, and it was heavy in my hand. I was a little dazed: "...To be honest, I was a little shocked by you suddenly being so considerate."

"What kind of thoughtfulness is this?" Bai Ying smiled, put his hands in his coat pockets, and walked up the zebra crossing against the wind, "You can sign for me, hack your account, and make up your lessons, that's what you call being considerate."

Originally, I wasn't that sad, but when he said that, I really felt a sense of parting while drinking milk tea.From now on, no one will help me steal my account, no one will help me make up classes, no one will buy me pearl milk tea, no one will accompany me to school, no one will accompany me to play golf, no one will treat me as my gold medal to avoid death...

My life will become boring and boring in the future.

I watched him walk ahead, deliberately lagging behind, imagining that the person in front was not him, never had him, and I felt so lonely when I thought about it.

I really hope he has the best future, and I really hope he can stay with me for a while longer.

In the next semester of high school, according to my mother, I finally woke up a little longer, and I can arrange time to study and review without supervision. Although I also know that I am doing useless work, even if I burn myself to ashes, I will not Maybe I was admitted to MIT, but I couldn't even get into the worst major of the number one university in China.But only when I am working hard, I will feel better in my heart, maybe I still have a small hope in my heart, hoping that a miracle will happen, so that I can be like the protagonists in the novel, learning and learning and suddenly comprehending the universe The mystery is that everything you learn in the future will be beneficial... Hehe, it's just a dream.

A semester passed in a blink of an eye. At the graduation ceremony before the college entrance examination, Bai Ying spoke on behalf of the graduates. A 17-year-old boy, dressed in a white shirt and a red plaid tie, received the graduation certificate from the principal and spoke through the microphone. His voice came through differently than it usually did when he spoke to me, sonorous and impeccable.I skipped a class that day and ran outside the auditorium to listen to his graduation speech. The auditorium was closed and the windows were high. I found a chair and managed to get on it. I saw with my own eyes that he took the graduation certificate with both hands. Bow, walked behind the podium, so good that it was shining!The same is true for the graduation speech. His voice drove away the summer cicadas around me, and it was full of the smell of the proud son of heaven. The boy in the cloud does not belong to the ordinary me at all, but I am still very happy to meet him, and very lucky to grow up with him.

That day we made an appointment to celebrate his graduation on the roof of the school, and I had nothing to give him, so I secretly brought two cans of beer and two bags of duck necks. I opened the cans and said solemnly: "Zhu: Bai Ying Graduated from high school!"

He clinked glasses with me, sang and drank, and we started talking about our childhood, as if it was some kind of ritual before breaking up. We had quarreled, fought, and helped each other when we were children. The "Kan'er" that we thought the sky had fallen down.For example, when I was playing football at home in the sixth grade, I broke my mother’s bracelet. I was so scared that I couldn’t speak well on the phone. I said to Bai Ying as if the sky was about to fall: “Bai Ying, I It's over! My mother will kill me! What should I do, Bai Ying?!" Later, Bai Ying found an identical bargain for me, and my mother still doesn't know about it (I'm sorry, Mom).Thinking about it now, when I was desperate, the first thing I thought of was Bai Ying.

Another time, I remember it was in the second semester of junior high school. At that time, Bai Ying hadn't bought a bicycle yet. He went to the computer city to buy hardware by himself. 200 yuan, but he fell asleep on the bus after buying the accessories, and someone stole the rest of the tuition. I came back from the game hall after school and saw him sitting alone in the pavilion of the community and not going upstairs. He is also afraid, Bai Ying's mother has always been very strict with Bai Ying, so Bai Ying has always been very independent, and she is very afraid of letting his mother down.I pulled him up and said I had a solution.In fact, I had no choice. The only person I could find at that time was my grandfather. At that time, the tuition was either expensive or not cheap. Fortunately, my grandfather’s retirement salary was not bad, and he loved me the most. I said I would pay the tuition. Afraid of being scolded by my mother if I lost it, my grandfather helped me pay the tuition fee without saying a word, and even kept a hook with me to keep it a secret. I happily ran out and gave the money to Bai Ying. I will never forget Bai Ying's expression at that time.

He then collected the money from his own living expenses and returned it to me. My grandfather said there was no need to pay it back, so we bought him a tea set and a radio. I carefully carried the package containing the tea set, and Bai Ying carried it. Me, we rode to grandpa's house under the same sunset as today, and grandpa was so happy to receive the radio from ear to ear.

In the evening, Bai Ying suddenly said: "That bicycle is given to you, you can ride it to school from now on."

When he said this, he patted my arm, as if he was making a trust, the kind that was very reassuring, the kind that was very relaxed, but I suddenly became a little unhappy, and I said: "I saw you when I passed the auditorium today. I'm giving my graduation speech."

He asked me, "Oh, am I handsome?"

See, he only cares about whether he is handsome or not.I squeezed the beer can, and said wolfishly: "I don't think it's handsome at all, what you said is completely fake."

Bai Ying seemed to be stunned and didn't speak.

I looked at him with a playful smile: "It's a fake, I don't know what you look like, you are just a big, bad, person!"

I don't know what's wrong with me, I obviously don't want to say these things, I just can't stop that drunk Jiang Demon King He, I said no, no, shut up, such a good atmosphere has been ruined!I shook my head desperately, but I kept saying, I said you are not handsome at all, you are an ugly monster in my heart, I almost cried after saying this, I said please Jiang Mohe, Can you just stop talking? !Bai Ying, beat him up, beat him up quickly!

In the end, my forehead was so loud that it was about to explode, and I fell backwards on the ground.

When I was dizzy looking at the sunset, a figure appeared indistinctly above my field of vision. He squatted down, looked down at me, and then seemed to see something incredible, and his face was at a loss.

My eyes were hot, and I squinted and said the sun was so dazzling. He put his hands on my eyelids and closed them for me, but as soon as he took them away, I opened them again.The switch in my eyes seemed to be broken, and I could only look directly at the sun until a cold red line covered my eyes, filtering out the harsh light.

It's Bai Ying's tie.

He is going away from me, we grew up together, we used to be inseparable, but now we are farther and farther apart.Don't blame me, blame him, who told him to skip a grade, who told him to go so far away.I have worked hard, I have worked hard!

On the second day when I was drunk, I still vaguely remembered the nonsense I was talking about, and I also remembered that Bai Ying helped me back, he threw me downstairs, walked aside and made a phone call, and then carried me into the elevator, went up I found the key from my schoolbag at the back of the building and opened it. My mother went to play mahjong, thank God.I woke up in the morning and saw his message on the phone, reminding me to get up early and take a shower, so that my mother would not find out.

Thanks to him, I was not caught by my mother for singing about drinking, but I was even more afraid that Bai Ying would take what I said as the truth after drinking, and wanted to ask him to apologize, but was afraid of embarrassment when we met, so I carefully edited a WeChat message Send it to him, like a primary school student writing a composition, I wrote:

——Bai Ying, I'm sorry, no matter what I said yesterday, it wasn't my sincere words, please don't take it to your heart, if I said something that made you angry, it's only because I feel sorry for you that you are about to graduate I feel sad about this incident, and I also feel uncomfortable because I can't follow in your footsteps. Please believe that you are the friend I care about the most. Be a good buddy with you forever, a good brother. — Your forever brother Kang Hyuk

That afternoon, I locked myself in the room and revised the wording over and over again. My hair almost fell out. When I recalled this letter after a long time, I thought it was funny. It’s so stupid. How can people be so stupid? ah.

After I finished writing, I read it N times carefully, and when I was about to send it out, my mother turned away from my room and said, "Get up, Baiying is waiting for you outside."

I frantically put away my phone and complained to her while putting on my shoes: "Don't you know how to knock inside?! You don't respect your children's privacy at all!!"

After it was over, I walked out with a guilty conscience, and glanced inside and outside the university. Bai Ying was waiting for me leaning against the corridor, with a skateboard under her arm. I thought to myself that the college entrance examination would be in a few days, and he didn't even prepare for it!He turned to see me and said, "Go, go out and play."

I nodded and put on my shoes and walked behind him, not knowing what happened.There were only the two of us in the elevator, and it was very quiet, only the black skateboard was sliding back and forth under his feet, making a screeching sound, which was very piercing. I finally couldn't help coughing dryly: "Well, yesterday, I'm sorry..."

He looked over with a sneer: "If it's useful to say sorry, what do you need the police for?"

I saw that there was a cloud of black energy clearly exuding from his whole body, and I immediately wanted to get out of the elevator and escape for his life.

"If you want to make amends, you can do whatever I ask you to do today, understand." After he finished speaking, he walked out of the elevator, and I followed behind him like a dog-legged boy.

He tortured me enough that day, eating, singing and playing with me, he cheated me out of all the money in my pocket, and went to eat crayfish together, and when the lobster came up, I just took my chopsticks, but he blocked the pot with my chopsticks Side, said: "Today I eat you see."

Let's go! !Who told me to say something irreversible!as long as you are happy!I stretched out my hands and made a "please" gesture with a smile on my face.It took almost an hour to watch him eat and drink spicy food in front of me, and I had to buy water for him and call the waiter,

Later, when he went to the bathroom, he wiped his hands and raised his eyebrows to look at me before leaving. I smiled at him and tried to pretend to be honest.

As soon as he went to the bathroom, I took the opportunity to eat three crayfish in one go!Ha ha,

Cool!

Later, when Bai Ying came back, I was still a little nervous after sitting down, but he didn't seem to doubt me, he glanced at me, laughed inexplicably, said nothing, and still cooked the pot of crayfish with amazing efficiency.

On the way back, I fell asleep on the subway, probably because I was hungry. I fell asleep and heard something. I opened my eyes in a daze, and found myself sitting in the school auditorium, on the platform directly in front of me, Bai Ying was standing behind the podium. He was still in a white shirt and a red plaid tie. He was delivering his graduation speech. He was outstanding.

他 说:

"...I'm sorry, no matter what I said yesterday, it's not my truth, please don't take it to your heart, if I say something that makes you angry, it's just because I don't care about your graduation. I feel sad, and I feel bad that I can't follow in your footsteps, please believe that you are the friend I care about the most..."

Etc., etc!I opened my eyes suddenly, and saw the bright carriage. Bai Ying was beside me, hunched over, holding my mobile phone, and was reciting with relish:

"...As long as possible, in the ends of the earth, in the wind and rain, I will wait for you. As long as you don't dislike me, I will be a good buddy with you forever, a good brother." He leaned back on the back of the chair and read slowly. Signed the signature, "You are forever good brother Jiang Hyuk."

I wish I hadn't woken up...

He said: "I didn't peek on purpose. My phone is out of battery, so I borrowed your phone."

It was very quiet in the car, and he read my apology letter in the voice of a graduation speech. I have never felt so ashamed to write this letter.

Bai Ying raised her eyebrows and asked: "The ends of the earth, the wind and the rain, are you waiting for me?"

Although these words sound funny, they are also my sincere words. After all, I made a mistake...

I resigned myself to my fate and nodded, shame on you!

Bai Ying sat up, stuffed the phone into the pocket of my denim jacket, patted it, and said, "Go to sleep, I'm watching, I can't sit still."

That pat on my chest inexplicably brought my hanging heart back to its original position.He's not mad at me, he's not mad at me, I thought, how wonderful!