that nice ex boyfriend

The air seems to be stagnant, not allowing people in it to breathe.

Looking at the person who appeared unexpectedly, Zheng Tianran almost lost his ability to think.He just opened his mouth to say something, but the pain in his stomach despicably took advantage of his restlessness, and suddenly swept over his brain, and the pain made his limbs stiff in an instant, unable to move at all.At the same time, a nausea rushed into his throat, causing him to bend over and retch.

After finally going through this period, Zheng Ziran almost exhausted his strength, and it was almost difficult to maintain the standing posture holding the sink.What he wanted to say, the fragmented explanations that he put together, was unable to express himself, and in the end, he was forced to shut his throat.

For a few seconds, in this space, except for the neglected faucet that was still gurgling, there was no other sound.

It wasn't until the calm that Zheng Ziran had managed to maintain collapsed, and his body shook a few times, that Song Xiyan finally regained some sober consciousness, forced his stiff limbs, and took a few steps forward to hug him.

The body was instantly attached, and Zheng was naturally able to relax, and the remaining strength was also able to spare a little for speech.Although Song Xiyan hadn't had any emotional reaction or uttered a word so far, Zheng Ziran could clearly feel Song Xiyan's trembling through the bodies of the two supporting each other, as if he had exhausted all his strength in holding his arm.

Naturally, Zheng thought inappropriately: Xi Yan exerted so much strength, even if he was not sick, he would be strangled with bruises all over his body.Obviously he was the one who was so ill that he was about to die, but Xiyan seemed to be in more pain than him.

So he had no choice but to continue enduring the pain, raised his hand to caress the back of Song Xiyan's head, and comforted him: "Don't be afraid, I called the emergency call, and the ambulance should be here soon. It's okay, Xiyan, don't be afraid."

Zheng Ziran's voice pulled Song Xiyan's consciousness back, and the word "first aid" suddenly woke him up.He trembled as if waking up from a dream, then helped Zheng Ziran stand up, and was about to walk to the door, "Let's go to the hospital."

But when they walked into the living room, Zheng Ziran reluctantly pulled them in the direction of the two, and led Song Xiyan to take him to the sofa and lie down, "Wait a while, the ambulance is coming soon. And you are not in good condition, you are not suitable ...not suitable for driving." Before he could finish speaking, another burst of pain struck, Zheng Ziran's face, which had been relieved just now, turned pale again, and a layer of cold sweat broke out on both sides of his cheeks for a moment.

Song Xiyan looked at his rapidly pale face, and couldn't help but panic in his heart.

It stands to reason that he is almost thirty, and as he grows older, he should be more mature and calm.Although there is no need to demand that you have the courage to remain unchanged before the collapse of Mount Tai, you should not panic like this under the circumstances.

He tried to force himself to calm down, but found it was futile.Although Zheng Ziran told him "don't be afraid" over and over again, the panic and fear deep in his heart still surged up wave after wave, and the calmness accumulated in the last second was shattered in the next second.

Song Xiyan looked at his mother when he was a child, and felt that this lady was spoiled too much by her family. Except for the two years when she met his father, she experienced some minor wind and rain, but the rest of the time was too smooth. Lord of the storm.So she probably has to rely on her relatives for the rest of her life, but she can't stand up to the sky herself.

It's been a while, but he suddenly felt, why doesn't he look like his mother?How many times has he lived through the storms in the world?In the first ten or twenty years, his elders stood up for him, accompanied by Zheng Ziran, and later he was escorted by the huge inheritance left by his father.For the rest of his life, he was actually not much different from his mother, with smooth sailing and a frank journey.

Counting it down, it's just a period of hard work, broken love, encounters with thieves, and disappointment with others a few times.In addition, I have seen birth, old age, illness and death several times, but I still can't overcome it.

Whether it was himself who was lucky enough to escape death, or his father who gradually lost his body temperature and heartbeat in front of him, or his grandmother who died suddenly on the other side of the world when he was not aware of it.One after another, Song Xiyan encountered the word life and death face to face for several rounds, and was terrified of it.

At this point, it was Zheng's turn.

Song Xiyan's composure accumulated from his not-so-heavy life experience, in the face of another life and death, he took the lead in throwing away his helmet and armor before he reached the point of stubborn resistance.

The brain seemed to have lost its original function. Song Xiyan only felt that the inside of the skull seemed to be stuffed with ice cubes, with waves of numbness and chills, and even the limbs seemed stiff and cold.He couldn't think, so he had to ask Zheng Ziran: "Then what can I do now?" Fortunately, after this question, he seemed to find a clue by following the voice, "Did the doctor on the phone...did he say anything to help himself?" measure?"

Zheng Ziran endured another burst of severe pain, the pain subsided slightly, and he was able to breathe for a while.With Song Xiyan's help, he moved his hands and feet and changed to a more comfortable position.Looking at Song Xiyan, who was squatting on the sofa and looking at him earnestly, still holding on to his arm, he stretched out his hand to grab the other person's head, pressing it against his own, and said, "The doctor told me to stay here and not move around."

As he said that, he suddenly remembered something. With a smile on his lips, he teased Song Xiyan: "Don't be so nervous, we didn't see you so nervous the first time. You still had the heart to scold me back then. "

"It's been a while, and you're still talking about such indecent things!" Song Xiyan said angrily.The strength of his grip on Zheng Ziran increased suddenly, which made Zheng Ziran feel that his wrist was bound to be bruised.After that, Song Xiyan's anger seemed to be short-lived, and he quickly returned to the previous state of panic.

Seeing that joking didn't work, Zheng naturally thought for a while, then slowly took out the phone from his pocket and handed it to Song Xiyan.

After the phone is unlocked, the interface is the conversation between Zheng Ziran and Dr. Chen.

In view of Song Xiyan's restlessness, Zheng naturally decided to find something for him to do, so he said, "You can continue talking with him, talk about the symptoms, and ask if there is any... Is there any way to reduce the bleeding or something."

Hearing this, Song Xiyan took over the phone and touched the slightly cool and hard body. His heart suddenly seemed to have a sense of substance, his mind quickly gathered, and his limbs and brain gradually warmed up in a trance.He clenched his phone tightly, as if holding on to a life-saving straw, absorbing the strength that would enable him to survive everything in front of him.

In the following time, Song Xiyan shook his fingers slightly to communicate with the old expert, while talking to Zheng Ziran.In this case, he didn't want Zheng Ziran to fall asleep, because he always felt that falling asleep was too similar to a certain frightening state, and he was afraid that he might not be able to tell the difference.

The wait for an ambulance can be long or short.When Song Xiyan recovered from the state of high mental tension, he was already sitting on the row chair in front of the operating room.Accompanied by unstoppable trembling and still lingering panic.

After that, the elders and friends rushed over one after another.Song Xiyan mechanically explained the situation to them, then sat back on the row of chairs, clasped his hands, and tried hard to suppress the trembling.

The relatives and friends wanted to ask again, but when they saw his condition, they all withdrew their stomachs full of questions. After a few questions, they left him alone, sat or stood by themselves, or paced back and forth waiting for the result.

Liang Xiaofei stepped forward and patted Song Xiyan on the shoulder, then stood aside silently, anxious alone.On the other side, Zhao Linlan supported Mama Zheng's shoulders and sat down, talking to her softly, hoping to alleviate some of her worries.

Zheng Yicheng signed the consent form for the operation after listening to the doctor's explanation of the current situation.He watched the back of the other party disappear in a hurry and the door of the operating room was closed again, stood there for a while, then turned and walked towards Song Xiyan's position.

His approach made Song Xiyan have to pull himself out of the previous state and forcibly pull himself together.He raised his head and glanced at Zheng Yicheng, then looked down again, "Uncle Zheng, I'm sorry. I... know that he has a bad stomach, but I... didn't take good care of him a while ago..."

"I don't blame you." Zheng Yicheng interrupted him before he finished apologizing, "He is no longer a kid in his teens or twenties, if you have to rely on you to take care of him even for this matter, then what's the use of him ?”

However, these words could not make Song Xiyan's self-blame and guilt fade away, he subconsciously clenched his hands, and his whole body was even more tense.

"The doctor said just now that part of the stomach needs to be removed. Fortunately, the location of the gastric perforation is not particularly dangerous." In comparison, Zheng Yicheng, who is his father, looks much calmer.He sat next to Song Xiyan, and looked up at the "in operation" indicator light above the door of the operating room.

Time passed quietly for a few seconds before Zheng Yicheng said: "When you were inside, he was outside, just like you, his legs were so weak that he couldn't stand up, so he could only sit against the wall."

"Then I..." Song Xiyan licked his dry lips, and replied with difficulty, "Then I really haven't made much progress in these years. I'm almost thirty, and I'm still the same as when he was 22 years old."

"There's nothing that doesn't make progress. In another ten or twenty years, it will still be the same." Zheng Yicheng said, "There will always be fear, and fear is normal."

Hearing this, Song Xiyan turned his head to look at Zheng Yicheng, only to find that although his face was calm and composed, his hands were subconsciously clenched into fists, tightly clenched, and the edges of his palms were turning white due to too much force.

In the current situation, it seems that no one can comfort anyone anymore.Song Xiyan had no intention of breaking the calmness that Zheng Yicheng was trying to maintain, he didn't say any more, he just looked up at the indicator lights above the operating room with Zheng Yicheng.

It seems to be God's will, this is also the place where he stayed in the past.When I went in, I didn't know whether I was alive or dead, but when I came out, I knew I had my life back.

After seven years, he and Zheng Ziran have switched roles, one is still inside and the other is outside.

He suddenly thought, what was Zheng Ziran who was waiting outside thinking in his heart?

Is it the same as him now?

Thinking: Why didn't I know that Xiyan was so seriously ill?Is it because I didn't take good care of him?Am I not caring enough for him?Am I simply not good enough as a lover?Will he just leave me?is it my faultWe are so close, why would I let him become like this?

Thinking: If we didn't have to be together, wouldn't Xiyan be like this?He didn't tell me when he was sick, did he think it was useless to tell me?Is it because I'm too incompetent?

So, did he just leave?Song Xiyan thought.Gone, got better and will definitely be back.

Thinking back now, why did I hide my illness from Zheng Ziran?

Because I know that he is already busy enough and tired, and I don't want to burden him any more.Because I was afraid that he would be worried, and that he would not be able to work with peace of mind every day.I'm also afraid that he will even run back regardless, which will affect the work that has finally improved.

And why don't you go to the hospital?Even after taking the medicine, there is no improvement, and even the disease is getting worse, why are you still relying on a few boxes of pills?

Because it costs more to go to the hospital, you have to ask for leave, and your salary will be deducted.He always thinks about saving and saving, always thinking about tomorrow.I don't know if the present is broken, where will tomorrow come from?

Zheng naturally thought of all those thoughts he had back then.That's why he blamed himself more and suffered more.

But at the bottom line, Song Xiyan knew that the first person who made a mistake was himself.

Zheng Ziran said sorry to him back then, sorry for not giving him enough sense of security, not allowing him to rely on without worry.But on the other hand, did he give Zheng Ziran enough sense of security?

No.The fact is that he made Zheng Ziran wait outside the operating room, separated by a door, in front of the interface between life and death, and fell into extreme anxiety and fear.

That's why later Zheng naturally wanted to become stronger so desperately and eagerly.He wants to be able to be relied on by his lover with peace of mind, and he wants the other party to confess all difficulties and troubles to him without hesitation, instead of struggling by himself because he is afraid of adding burden to him.He didn't want to face that anxiety and fear again, even if there was only a slight possibility.

I don't know how long it took, and while the people in the corridor waited anxiously, the operation was finally over.

"The operation was successful. The patient will be transferred to the intensive care unit. If there is no secondary bleeding within 48 hours, he can be transferred to the general ward." Fortunately, the doctor brought good news.

Song Xiyan's tense nerves suddenly relaxed, as if he had done a heavy physical labor, his whole body was weak and his shirt was already soaked in cold sweat.Leaning against the back of the chair, he saw Zheng Ziran lying on the hospital bed being pushed away. He didn't gather the strength to stand up and chase after him until he was only a phantom in sight.

Two weeks later, in a single room.

Zheng Ziran was half lying on the hospital bed, leaning on a soft pillow behind him, watching Song Xiyan sitting in front of the bed peeling apples.

Of course not for him to eat.

After Song Xiyan finished peeling the apple, he began to gnaw it with a "click click". He occasionally looked up to see Zheng Ranran's progress, and stingily gave Zheng Ranran himself little attention.

The day after the operation, Zheng naturally woke up.He was still in the intensive care unit at that time, and the visiting time was very short. He only remembered that Song Xiyan kept staring at him with red eyes, as if he was afraid that he would run away, until the visiting time ran out.

However, after that, it became like this, and suddenly loved him and didn't care about it.This attitude made Zheng Ziran very guilty.Concealing the disease, concealing the bleeding from gastric perforation and sending it to the rescue, and finally cutting off one-fifth of the stomach, this crime is not ordinary.He estimated that he was treated coldly and violently by Song Xiyan for half a year.

It's not that he didn't admit his mistakes. In fact, in the past two weeks, since he was able to speak, if his apology was recorded, it would almost be able to be bound into a book.But every time Song Xiyan finished listening, he would just nod his head, maybe give him an "um", and then gently and considerately tuck him in the quilt, and there would be no other reaction.

I don't know whether to be angry or not, and I don't know whether to forgive or not.

"Xiyan, I really didn't expect it to be so serious. I was too conceited and too careless. I did it a few times when I was abroad, but it didn't reach this level. I thought I could wait. I was going to be hospitalized in a week, and I was going to confess to you, and I really didn’t feel any pain during the half a month after I saw the doctor and took the medicine. I really didn’t expect it to perforate suddenly. But I was wrong Well, I shouldn't have frightened you by hiding it from you in the first place. I'm sorry, Xiyan..." Regardless of whether it was useful or not, Zheng Ziran pulled out the words of Che Jilu who had admitted his mistake again.

Song Xiyan was still eating "click, click". After hearing him finish speaking, he said "um", and opened his mouth again, as if planning to continue to say something.Zheng naturally looked at him expectantly, but heard him say: "The medicine is almost finished, ring the nurse's bell."

Zheng Ranran's suddenly high expectations fell through, and his whole body went down again.He stretched out his hand and weakly rang the nurse's bell, waiting for someone to pull out the needle.

During the waiting period, Zheng Ziran didn't expect Song Xiyan to take the initiative to talk to him because today's confession was ineffective, so when he really heard Song Xiyan's voice, he didn't react for a while, "Huh?"

Seeing his bewildered expression, Song Xiyan knew he didn't listen.Holding the half of the apple tightly in his hand, Song Xiyan took a deep breath and repeated: "Let me know if you get sick in the future. If I feel unwell, I will tell you as soon as possible."

Zheng Ziran continued to be dazed for a few seconds, and then his heart became elated, and even the expression on his face blossomed in an instant.If it weren't for the fear of pulling the knife, he would have laughed three hundred times on the spot.Hard work pays off, and it seems that this matter can be turned over smoothly.

Song Xiyan looked at his expression that could be called a smirk, and couldn't help curling the corners of his lips.In fact, Song Xiyan's state during this time was different from what Zheng Ziran thought.He didn't respond to it because he was angry-although it was true at first, but later he was struggling with how to end all the problems that had been going on for so long.

He deliberately followed the trend, so that the marriage planned by the elders for the two of them went smoothly.But I always feel that if I don't tell Zheng Ziming, something seems to be missing.He spent more than ten days phrasing his words for this, and overturned the version of his speech over and over again. He only felt that it was more difficult than when he confessed his love for the first time.

But no matter how entangled and hesitant, I will eventually speak.Just now, he was gnawing on an apple, and suddenly he felt blessed and had the urge to speak.This impulse was hard-won, so he hurriedly asked: "The marriage we talked about a while ago, mom and the others are picking a date for us, which day do you think is better?"

After the question was over, Song Xiyan finally breathed a sigh of relief as if he had accomplished an important life goal.I just waited for a long time, but I didn't wait for Zheng Ziran's reply.He couldn't help frowning, and asked a little cautiously, "You don't want to?"

Zheng Ziran: "..." Yes!He is so willing!It's just that I was too excited for a while, my body was weak, a certain system was dysfunctional, and I was a little speechless.

After opening his mouth several times but failing to make a sound, Zheng Ziran simply gave up the verbal answer, grabbed Song Xiyan's hand holding Apple and pulled it towards him, followed by a long-lost kiss. "Cold War" these days, he has thought about doing this for a long time, and now he finally has the best reason.

Song Xiyan was also very greedy for this long-lost intimacy for the rest of his life after the catastrophe. One hand was held obediently, and the other subconsciously climbed onto Zheng Ziran's shoulder.So far, since seeing the glaring blood in the bathroom that day, the hollow heart that has been somewhat empty has finally been filled, and it is no longer fluttering in panic.

In the ward, the two kissers kissed passionately.At the door of the ward, the little nurse who was called by the bell could only cover her mouth and scream silently—"Sisters, if you're serious, I'd say they must be a couple! Listen, they're about to get married!"

She tried her best to suppress the excitement in her heart, and stood quietly at the door, not wanting to go in abruptly at this moment and disturb the two who were discussing marriage.It's just that the door was not closed properly, and the voices of the two floated out sentence by sentence, and her excitement was stronger than wave after wave.

"So... on our birthday?"

"You are so stupid to lie down! When you lie down, our birthday will pass."

"Really? I'm thirty now? I thought I could marry you before I was thirty."

"It's a good idea, I'm the one who will marry you."

"Alright, you have the final say. As long as I'm still my husband when the two of us close the door..."

In the end, the little nurse heard a "boom" and guessed that the patient had been beaten, and the flirting ended.She knocked on the door with a satisfied smile, entered the door, and said kindly: "Family, I'm here to remove the patient's needle."

As soon as the words were finished, someone inside the door heard the word "family member", and his face blushed silently when he was old.

The little nurse pulled out the needle neatly to stop the bleeding, packed away the used equipment, and helped open the window before leaving.

The cold spring has passed, the warm wind is blowing slightly, and it is sunny outside the window.

The author has something to say:

This is the end.Marriage proposal and marriage will be placed in the fanwai (otherwise I don’t know what else to write in the fanwai, and it seems incomplete if I don’t write it)!

For the next book, I finally decided to write "I Thought I Was Reborn After Amnesia".

Little cuties can poke into the column to have a look, the pre-receipt copy has been released, if you are interested, please bookmark it~ Meh!