Tomorrow future

What is love?

King Zhou You smiled for Bo Baosi, and lit the beacon fire to play with the princes.

Li Longji fell in love with Yang Yuhuan, and built a plank road called Litchi.

Modern love cannot be turned into a pair of butterflies, nor can it cry down the Great Wall, neither can it lift itself to the Qingchi, nor can it hang on the southeast branch.But love is passionate and impulsive, so when a boy is willing to fight for you, can you not be moved?

Wang Yixin was moved.

Regardless of the process and the ending, she wishfully felt that because she and Lan Danzhi got closer, Shen Duo became jealous, and that's why the two fought.

What does being jealous mean?It means he cares about you, he likes you, he loves you!

In her eyes, Shen Duo's lukewarm treatment of her has turned into black-bellied and restrained, which is the deepest expression of love.When vanity is greatly satisfied, it becomes a capital to show off.So she became more caring and gentle towards Shen Duo.

Shen Duo is not having a good time, the weather is gradually getting hotter, but his heart is full of wind and snow.

When he saw Lan Danzhi and Wang Yixin standing together that day, he felt a slight ache in his heart, aching from jealousy, jealous of what Wang Yixin got but he couldn't.Whether it's the admiration in the young man's eyes, the worry-free smile on the corner of his mouth, or the unconscious care, they are all what he desires but cannot ask for. Standing there by himself is so superfluous, he even wants to run away!

When Lan Danzhi was enraged by everyone, he didn't think about how to retaliate but just wanted to hold him in his arms. He did the same thing. The fulfillment of that moment was so happy and exciting, and now I think about it. shudder.

Shen Duo knew that he didn't need to try again, he couldn't like Wang Yixin at all, no matter how good the girl was.In other words, for a period of time, it is impossible for him to like others, regardless of gender.

When did this feeling start?Shen Duo asked himself.

Was it the messy-dressed non-mainstream when we first met?

Was it the little grump who dropped his mug indiscriminately?

Or the little samurai who beat people down with one step?

Or this little warrior who fights for the girl in love?

It seems to be neither, and it seems to be both.Shen Duo didn't ask any more, he knew that he had become the one-tenth.

Shen Duo also found sadly that this is a road of no return, his own road of no return.

He is crazy jealous and wants to replace the promise that he can have unbridled madness with Lan Danzhi. He is jealous of Wang Yixin who is loved and cared by Lan Danzhi, and he is jealous of anyone who can get in touch with Lan Danzhi.

In the dead of night, he used his heart to describe Lan Danzhi's appearance, imagining thousands of futures and possibilities for him and Lan Danzhi, and even fabricated him and his past and future tomorrow.He imagined eating the same bowl of rice, drinking the same glass of water, and dreaming the same dream with Lan Danzhi.

He missed the temperature in the pool that night, the boy's momentary trance, and the smell left on the blanket.

Shen Duo sat on the bed and stared at the empty bed opposite him without desire or desire.

"Shen Duo, let's go for a walk." Han Fusheng secretly observed Shen Duo from behind for a few days, and he felt that it was necessary for him to talk to him.Han Fusheng is a person who cares about the group very much, just like he doesn't like to call people by their names, he thinks this is very strange.In the dormitory, the old and the old were basically calling, but now, he directly called Shen Duo's name.

Shen Duo glanced at it, jumped off the bed, and followed Han Fusheng out.

The two bought a few cans of beer and wandered aimlessly around the campus, chatting about idle topics such as the weather is fine today and we don’t have classes in the afternoon. In the end, they couldn’t continue talking. The two found a remote corner in the playground sit down.

Han Fusheng opened the ring of the soda can and handed Shen Duo a can. He also opened a can and took a sip. The beer was quite bitter.Han Fusheng didn't know how to speak, he was thinking about his words.

Shen Duo didn't ask what Han Fusheng wanted him to do, he took it, raised his neck, and poured the wine into his mouth.

After taking a few sips of wine, Han Fusheng also finished his draft, "Fourth, what's going on with you and Sixth."

"It's nothing, just a misunderstanding." Liquor is a knife that pierces the intestines, and love is a steel knife that scrapes the bones.Shen Duo didn't remember where he heard this sentence, and now he felt that these things were life-threatening, and if he touched them, he would die.

"Misunderstanding? What misunderstanding?" Han Fusheng asked. He felt that he needed to continue to participate. At least Shen Duo and Wang Yixin were also contributed by him. He didn't want to be the object of their complaints.

"It's nothing, it's a trivial matter." Shen Duo continued to drink beer.

"As for the fight? I wasn't there that day, so I don't know who started it first between you two. Lan Danzhi has a bad temper and is self-willed, but it's not unreasonable. Is there anything you can't explain? You have to You have to do it. I live in a dormitory, and there are still more than three years left, what should I do? Do I have to collapse?"

"Lan Danzhi likes Wang Yixin." It's not difficult to say something, but it's rare that you can't tell what's in your heart, just like I like you, but I can't tell you.

"But Wang Yixin likes you!" Han Fusheng wanted to make the last effort, "Do you like Wang Yixin?"

"What do you mean!" Shen Duo raised his head and looked at Han Fusheng, his heart stopped secretly for a moment.

"Fourth, I won't play around anymore. You and Wang Yixin give me the wrong feeling."

"No? Why is it wrong? Isn't it good? We have class together, eat together, hold little hands, and kiss little mouths." Shen Duo drank a can of beer, squeezed the can hard, and gently raised his hand. Draw an arc in the air and fall accurately into the opposite trash can.

"Shen Duo, you, you like Lan Danzhi!" Han Fusheng felt that he was troubled, but as the boss of the dormitory, he was really afraid of accidents.

Shen Duo paused when he went to open the second can, turned his head and looked at the boss in shock, he wanted to refute, he wanted to say Han Fusheng, you are sick, we are both boys, how do you like it.I also want to say naturally, yes, the one in the dormitory, it’s not that the enemy doesn’t like it. I still like you, promises, and other people in the dormitory.However, Shen Duo knew that his hands were shaking again, so he hurriedly took the can of beer and pulled it away, his hands were shaking so badly that the pull ring scratched his fingertips.

"Stop drinking, fourth..." Han Fusheng reached out his hand to stop Shen Duo, but he didn't know how to continue.

"When did you find it out?" Shen Duo smiled, he thought he was hiding it well, but he was discovered by others a long time ago, "Who else knows." It's not a question, but just wants to confirm if he can keep this secret.

"Promise!" Han Fusheng patted Shen Duo on the back, "However, Xu Nuo should not understand, besides, he is not a talkative person."

Shen Duo nodded, "Boss, do you think I'm sick!"

Han Fusheng shook his head, "I don't know, I'm only in my early twenties, and I've never been in a relationship."

Shen Duo suddenly felt a sigh of relief in his chest, and his heartbeat that couldn't find the frequency gradually returned to normal. You didn't say yes, and you didn't say no, you gave me the best answer very calmly, and it was the answer I was most willing to listen to. to the answer.

"However, I know that liking is nothing more than impulsiveness. After a long time, you may not like it anymore." Shen Duo lowered his head and said softly, not knowing whether to tell Han Fusheng or himself.

Liking is indeed an impulse, it is our stubbornness and attachment to one thing.

When Shen Duo was young, he liked to eat sweets, big white rabbit toffee, his grandparents, parents, and mothers spoiled him, and bought him a lot, and put them in his small backpack. Shen Duo couldn't control himself, and took them out one by one. No one would give it to anyone, and I put one in my mouth when I went to sleep at night, and soon my small white tooth was rotted all over the place, and the pain made me cry.After suffering and suffering, I no longer like sugar.

This example may not be appropriate.

When he was just in primary school, Shen Duo liked to eat crispy noodles, not because of their taste, but because of the Water Margin Cards inside, many children liked this thing when they were young.Shen Duo spent all his pocket money on this and bought a lot, but he still couldn't buy the two cards with Song Jiang and Lu Junyi.On weekends, Shen Duo went to all the small shops around his home, bought a lot of crispy noodles, and ran out of money, but there was still nothing.Shen Duo stole his parents' money, went to the town to buy it, sat on the side of the road and opened the bags one by one, but still nothing, and was found by his father and carried to the yard with a broom bump and beat him up.But this still didn't dispel Shen Duo's obsession.Then one day he suddenly found these two cards with his classmates in another class. In order to get these two cards, he helped the child with his duty, homework, and even gave him his breakfast milk. In the end, he got this two.Then, Shen Duo carefully put this set of cards in a biscuit box and hid it under the bed.I don't know how long after I came here, Shen Duo forgot about this set of cards. It wasn't until one day that the school's canteen began to sell the Water Margin cards in sets. The Water Margin card that came has already been eaten by rats.

Therefore, Shen Duo understands that liking is actually the most hypocritical, and he will disappear into mottled and incomplete fragments in time.

Therefore, when Han Fusheng revealed the secret in his heart, Shen Duo was only annoyed at being found out, but not afraid at all.At that time, the young Shen Duo was too young to think that he would persist in a relationship that was not accepted by the world.

Maybe it won't be long, maybe it's just a few days, or a few years, and when he looks back, he will find that his little thoughts will be gnawed by the mouse of time, and he will never be able to spell out what he was like at that time.

"Don't worry, I won't do anything. It's fine now. After a long time, this energy will disappear." Shen Duo raised his head and looked at Han Fusheng with a smile.

The authorities were confused by the onlookers, Han Fusheng watched Shen Duo drinking cans of beer in style, but felt faintly uneasy in his heart.He is also too young, he does not have more experience to share, to guide.

One thought to become a Buddha also becomes a demon.

If God gives another chance, Han Fusheng will definitely say to Shen Duo, "Yes! You are sick! You are still very sick!"