carol

"You go to work." Ke Kailuo said to her calmly.

Tian Ruixin didn't accept it at all, "I don't want it! I want to be with you!" She was very worried that Kailuo would leave her.

"I missed your work..." Kai Luo said, Rui Xin felt that she looked very gentle, so she was even more reluctant to bear her,

"Work is not as important as you!" Rui Xin announced loudly, watching Kai Luo turn over and lie down.She must not have slept for a long time just now, she felt that Kai Luo must be as alive as she was under the quilt... She recalled the lingering just now.

Rui Xin turned over quickly, and instead she supported her head, leaning against Kai Luo and staring at her,

"I want you to make it clear, what happened?"

Kai Luo looked at her, and finally didn't avoid it. Her expression seemed to be thinking about how to explain a difficult problem to a child, which made Rui Xin feel ominous.

"Okay." Kai Luo suddenly gave her a positive answer, which surprised Rui Xin.

"But you go to work first," Kailuo stretched out her hand, and she gently stroked Ruixin's face, "Your colleagues must be very troubled, aren't they?" Kailuo also touched Ruixin's head with her hand .Rui Xin stared at her seriously, trying to discern her sincerity from her expression.

"You mean when I come back from get off work, just tell me... right?" Rui Xin suddenly sat up on her knees, the air outside the quilt was a little cold, she hugged herself, her eyes didn't leave Kai Luo's face, but she couldn't see Through her, she has never been able to do anything.

Kai Luo also sat up, seeming to mutter: You will be cold like this, she stood up, picked up her blouse, and put it on.When she walked out of the room, Rui Xin couldn't help staring at her beautiful buttocks and swallowed.

Rui Xin was stunned.Carol is still there, and will talk to her when she gets back from get off work, this bad situation is finally coming to an end... huh?The cold air suddenly made her sneeze. When she rubbed her nose, she still smelled Kailo on her hands. She suddenly lay down on Kailo's pillow, greedy for her to smell her.She wanted more Carol, wanted to hold her all the time.

Feeling Carol enter the room, she turned over and saw Carol had put on her pants and came in with clothes.

She gave Rui Xin a set of clean underwear, picked up Rui Xin's clothes beside the bed, and spread out the clothes she was supposed to wear to work on the bed.Carol sat on the edge of the bed, took Rui Xin's hand,

"You change your clothes, and I'll cook something for you. After you're full, you can go to work and go to work, okay?" She said softly.

Rui Xin sat up, checked the time, it was just after 11 o'clock, and indeed she could still pick up some afternoon work.Whenever someone asks for sick leave suddenly, the work will always be more difficult to allocate, and it will indeed cause trouble for colleagues.Kailuo looked at her quietly, and took the time to brush the hair on her forehead. Her expression was the same as when Kailuo would help her wipe her face or dry her hair sometimes. There was a kind of magic power and a kind of warmth in it The tenderness is like the last cup of hot milk smoking in front of your eyes, the aroma and temperature, even if you drink it, you will fall asleep and die, and everyone will drink it obediently as if hypnotized.

Rui Xin nodded, but she still held Kailo's hand tightly, and with a smile she pulled Rui Xin to stand up, and Rui Xin immediately hugged her tightly.

Buried in Kailuo's warm bosom, feeling Kailuo stroking her back,

"You're going to catch a cold..." Her deep and beautiful voice came through her skull, yes, Kailo was holding her tightly.Rui Xin sighed reassuringly, she loves me, it's fine.

The food at home can only be simple noodles and blanched broccoli. Kailuo dug out the frozen ham from the bottom of the refrigerator, jokingly knocked the piece of meat that was frozen like a rock on the counter, and told Rui Xin about the meal with regret Just no meat.Rui Xin also helped to wash the vegetables side by side with her.

After cooking, Kailuo ate as before and asked Ruixin about her recent work, as if all problems had never happened.She didn't take a drink, and she didn't even stop at the liquor cabinet.She finally came back... Rui Xin couldn't help feeling secretly moved, although she was still uneasy, but her confidence in Kai Luo was increasing little by little.

"Ah! Don't forget that you are on sick leave in the morning, you have to remember to pretend!" When Rui Xin washed the dishes with her, Kai Luo suddenly thought of it, and winked at her playfully.Rui Xin was amused, remembering that in the morning, she was careful not to let the foam on her hands get on Kai Luo, she hugged Kai Luo in a strange posture, and wanted to kiss her on tiptoe,

The water was still flowing, Kai Luo immediately pecked her, Rui Xin closed her eyes and shook her head until Kai Luo kissed her seriously.She opened her eyes and confirmed that Carol was just as serious as she was.

Rui Xin took a deep breath, "Then... see you at home tonight?" Carol blinked slowly and nodded with a smile, as if telling her to rest assured to go to work.

Putting on her backpack and before going out, she saw Kailuo open the refrigerator, probably thinking that she should get some vegetables and meat back, Ruixin thought that maybe she could help buy it before going home, ah, or they could go shopping together , Let Carol choose, she will help carry things.Kai Luo saw from behind the refrigerator door that she hadn't gone out yet, so she smiled at her specially, and Rui Xin also smiled happily at her.

At 07:30 in the evening, when she came home, the lights in the dining room were turned on, and Rui Xin felt relieved.When she approached her to put down her backpack, she saw a letter on the dining table. The envelope was in Kailo's handwriting and only said To: Ruixin.

"Carol? Carol! Are you there?" Rui Xin yelled into the room.No reply.

Suppressing overwhelming fear, she hastily opened the envelope. She only read the first two lines of the letter. Trembling, she took out her cell phone and dialed Carol.

"There is no response to the number you dialed, and I will transfer you to the voicemail..." Rui Xin hung up and made two more calls, tears were already rolling in her eyes.

She took a breath, but was so anxious that she could barely breathe, she found Abby's phone and dialed it immediately.

"Sister Aiming!"

"Rui Xin? What's the matter?" Ai Ming must have heard the eagerness in her voice,

"Is Carol with you? Where is she? Where did she go?" Rui asked anxiously. Before a tsunami of despair was about to swallow her, she also found a door to get out.

"What? She's not here...I don't know. What happened? What happened to Carol?" Amin replied immediately, and her tone became anxious.

"...I...she...she suddenly left a letter saying that she has gone abroad," Rui Xin said, she was in a panic, "I'll look for her first," Rui Xin almost hung up the phone immediately,

"Ai Ming! Ai Ming?" She quickly clung to the phone again and shouted,

"Yes"

"If she contacts you...if you know where she is, tell me right away, okay?" Rui Xin begged, and sister Ai Ming on the other end of the phone kept saying yes.A tear accidentally rolled down her cheek.

Carol's cell phone still doesn't work.Rui Xin wanted to send her a text message so she would get it as soon as she turned on the phone, but maybe she should read the letter first?Rui Xin's hands trembling while holding the letter, she read the letter carefully:

Rui Xin:

Sorry, I have to go abroad to work.But I do want us to be apart for a while too.

My own pain these days must have made you miserable.Drinking, avoiding, unwilling to be sober, I despise such an irresponsible self, and it keeps causing you trouble.This ugly and terrible me is not good enough for you.You are a wonderful person, I really hope you have a better partner who can take care of you, share interests and topics with you, instead of carrying a lot of problems like me, which will only drag you down.

Rui Xin, you are so perfect, attracting me all the time, I can't extricate myself just by looking at you, so I dare not look at you, I avoid you, I know I have to leave you.If I don't, I'm going to pester you, I'm going to get in your way.This morning is the best example, I will always want you, want you, I will never be able to control the desire for you.

You are still young, you deserve better than me, there will be someone who loves you more and is more suitable for you.As long as you let go of me, you will find the fact that I have many problems and always make wrong decisions, you don't have to be affected by my messy life, you can live better.I will be abroad for a while, please forget about me, please pursue a better life.I strongly believe that your talent, your courage, will allow you to develop a great future. You don't need a middle-aged woman with problems. You will be better without me.

I know it will be difficult for you to accept this in a short time, and it is the last thing I want to make you miserable.But long-term pain is worse than short-term pain. I, who is so bad, should stay away from your life. One day earlier, so that you can start again earlier.I think you will understand this matter.Please take care of yourself and start your new life well. This is what I hope most.

When Rui Xin saw the end of the letter, Carol's pen stopped at what might have been the beginning of the next paragraph, because the ink had smudged a little there.But she didn't write any more, and only signed Carol on the far right of the new line, instead of the simple C in each note.She could imagine that Carol might still have a lot of things to say, but she was too used to being depressed, too used to shutting down her emotions and turning away, she must have gritted her teeth and wrote this letter, and then she never looked back. Pull the suitcase and walk away.

She read the letter two, three times, and called several times.Carol must have been turned off, most likely on the plane.

Voicemail beeped, "Call me, Carol, let's talk, okay?" she said to the machine, but she fancied that Carol would hear her.After hanging up the phone, Tian Ruixin wiped away the tears on his face.

The house was empty, Ruixin inspected every room meaninglessly.She sat under the lamp on the dining table, staring at the refrigerator.

She jumped up and went to open the refrigerator. It was cold, and it was almost empty as before.Did Carol really want to stay and talk to her?Or is she just lying to her and coaxing her out at noon?

No, I don't accept it, there must be something else I can do, where did she go?Can I go, I gotta find her, I won't give up.

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to be continued.

Can you understand Carol? (But I seem to have asked...)