carol

So Zhai He asked her to tell her about his remarriage.It will happen quickly, just like they did back then.During her ten-year marriage, Ke Kailuo often regretted trying to prevent the 26-year-old from agreeing to the marriage.During the eight years of studying art in the United States, you lived freely, but didn't you learn to let yourself be free?Is it to finally win the favor of parents?Is it because of Zhai He's tenderness and familiarity?She foolishly agreed to the marriage within three months, meeting everyone's expectations.

Except for her own, she regretted it before she even took the red "囍" from the door.

Apart from the intimidation of her mother-in-law and the various discomforts of entering another family, the more she gets along with Harge, the more she realizes that her feelings for him are not love, and she can't lie to herself even if she wants to.

She knew that Zhai He loved her, at least in his world.Between them, the emotional balance is too unfair, so she always feels guilty towards him.At the beginning, she tried to convince herself that it was just that she was not used to it, and she could adjust; but with the problems between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law, and all kinds of absurdities in Zhai's mansion, this married life soon became unbearable.They were still living here at that time, every day when she opened her eyes, she was only afraid of having to face her mother-in-law alone during the day, but in the evening, she didn't know whether she should expect Zhai He to come back, if she didn't come back, the dinner with her mother-in-law felt like sitting on pins and needles, and she came back , the atmosphere of the dinner is not necessarily good, and at the same time, there is a long night with him.

Her only respite is those Tuesdays, Thursdays, and weekend days when her mother-in-law is out. After Abby gets off work in the United States, they will use MSN and sometimes talk on the phone. She can talk to her about all her fears and dissatisfaction.If it wasn't for Aiming, she would never have survived those days.

"Mommy! Help me write my name!" Hearing her daughter Lingling say coquettishly, Carol's thoughts returned to the present.

"Don't you know how to write?" She looked at her daughter lovingly, her big smart eyes resembled her father's, and the rest of her body was like a miniature of herself.

"It's more beautiful if you help me write! This is for a competition!" The daughter insisted, and climbed up to sit in her arms as she spoke. She picked out a purple colored pen and stuffed it into Kailuo's hand. He broke her hand and helped her hold the pen, just like she did for her when she was a child.

"Okay, where do you want to write it? Here? Okay,...Zhai...Ling...Tian...Okay!" She smiled and watched her daughter pretending to look at her name on the painting, and looked up at her with a satisfied smile.

Six years ago, when she knew she was pregnant, she and Ai Ming had almost actually started preparing for the art gallery they wanted to open, and they were also starting to ask lawyers about the divorce. Not giving up, she went to the hospital to confirm and looked at the printed ultrasound. Figure, she really almost collapsed.Originally, with the support of Ai Ming, she finally had the courage to think clearly about the problem, and she finally had the courage to do it. Her efforts to break away from everything, everything, will collapse in this instant.

Amy helped her trembling to sit down in the hospital corridor, tears of reluctance swirled in her eyes, she didn't even know what to say, just stared at Abby, tears dripped on the small black and white piece of paper, and Abby's eyes... oh!Her eyes!Carol shook her head heartbroken, trying to stay away from that scene.The little white dot on the paper has grown into the beloved treasure in front of me, and that is all over.

When she was pregnant, Zhai He finally settled their new home in Xinyi District. In the relatively peaceful small family, Ke Kailuo spent several months calming down, re-accepting the roles of wife and child, and determined to face her new life. responsibility.After the successful birth of her daughter, being a mother is strong. In the first two years, all her life focused on the baby. Her parents, mother-in-law, Zhai He, and several other families were immersed in the freshness and joy of the newborn. Although there are thousands of anxious things about being a first-time mother, at least the family atmosphere has been eased by the baby, and she once thought she could live like this.

"Ling, would you like to play the song 'Little Squirrel' you practiced recently for your mother?" Harge suddenly suggested,

The daughter who was admiring the painting immediately turned to look at her mother with bright eyes, and Kai Luo immediately gave her the most encouraging look,

"Okay!" The little girl slid off her lap and dragged her mother to her room.

"That's that?!" As soon as Kailuo entered Lingling's room, she found two beautiful orange and red balloons on the wall. The hanging line was a height that even children could pull. She was very familiar with it. It was a designer brand. glass lamps.

Zhai He scratched his head in embarrassment, "Well, I went to your store last week to shop around and made an order. I think Lingling's room is not bright enough, do I have a good eye?" Zhai He raised his eyebrows and said to her with a smile ,

"Ha! 'You' have a good eye?" Kai Luo could understand his joke, and Zhai He bought a piece of furniture from her selection, which also praised her for having a good eye. "Well...it's quite a match. Thank you for your patronage..." Carol nodded, and looked around the daughter's room that was converted from a sister-in-law's room with a professional eye. This new set of lamps indeed matched the existing And the furniture that was changed before the kids moved in.

Carol immediately blamed herself, how long has she not been here?Half a month?Why didn't she know that Lingling's room wasn't bright enough?Now that the daytime is sunny enough, Kailo opened the shutters and fastened them, seeing that her daughter had already turned on the piano, climbed onto the high chair, and flipped through the sheet music in a dignified manner.

"Mommy? Shall I start?" Lingling turned her head to make sure she was paying attention to her, and then wriggled uncomfortably on the piano chair. Carol gently patted her small shoulders with both hands to encourage her, and the child took a deep breath He took a breath and started playing.

The immature timbre flows out of the classical piano, but the melody is indeed carried out smoothly and slowly. You can probably feel the lively appearance of a little squirrel in the three-beat rhythm. For the left hand, there are even a few chord co-sounds. Rindy has practiced really well and has already played the tune.Carol was a little moved, but more sad that she had never participated in her daughter's practice process, but the child had already mastered this piece of music she had never heard before.She saw Harge nodding, tapping his hands unconsciously as he stomped towards the new lamp, admiring it triumphantly.

Looking around at several pieces of furniture in her daughter's room that she had asked Zhai He to replace, she remembered that she had just come into contact with high-quality furniture, because on the one hand, it was for the baby to buy, and on the other hand, it was also to pass the time; the more she studied, the more interested she was, and the more she learned, related, they began to rearrange their new home on Xinyi Road.However, as the furniture, furnishings, and appearance of the home get closer to her ideal, she only finds that the home is farther away from her ideal.Sometimes when you try your best to make up for it, you will find what is really missing.In the perfect home environment, she only finds that she has lost her self and lives more and more closed off.She was startled to realize that she was taking Zhai He's world as the world, living "his" ideal life, and, most importantly...she didn't love him, she couldn't fall in love with him.

Apart from her daughter, there is no element of joy in her life.Once she found the crux, day after day, she only fell into depression.Ai Ming often took the initiative to look for her, watching her getting depressed and losing her brilliance, her words woke Kai Luo up:

"A depressed mother cannot be a good mother."

Ke Kailuo still figured it out, and decided again that she should divorce and fight for custody of her daughter.Zhai He strongly objected. After many disputes, he repeatedly delayed and exhausted methods, but with Abby's support, Carol persisted. She knew that as long as she persisted, there would always be a day of success.Carol was also worried that if she was alone with her daughter, how would she maintain her life? She has been out of work for so long, and if her natal family does not support her, will she be able to take her daughter to live a life of shrinking clothes and dieting?

She still remembers how Amin listened to her concerns with disapproval. "It's a big deal, I'll just keep you!" She said it as a matter of course, without hesitation.

Amidst the sound of the piano, the daughter played a few lively jumps earnestly, and Carol smiled and appreciated it.But Lingling suddenly stopped playing, raised her hand and rubbed her eyes, Kailuo hurried forward and gently grabbed her hand,

"Look, mom, what's the matter..." He said while supporting her little face,

"Hair stabbing hurts..." Xiao Baobei closed her eyes tightly, her face wrinkled into a ball,

"The bangs are too long, piercing her eyes." Carol raised her head and said to Zhai He while combing Lingling's bangs with her hands.

"Well... I just want to take advantage of the morning vacation to get my hair done... Otherwise, I'll take Ling directly?" He brushed his hair unconsciously, and asked Kai Luo with his eyes.

She sighed softly, "Okay." As she said, she turned around and found the hairpin in her daughter's drawer, fastened it properly for her daughter, and hugged her lovingly.

"Mysweetbabe, you play really well! Did you know that?" She kissed her daughter's cheeks several times.

"Mommy! Daddy is going to take me to get my hair cut, will you come with us too?" The daughter put her arms around her neck again,

"Mommy will help you change your clothes first, and then you and Daddy can get a nice haircut, I have to go to work..." The moment Carol fears the most is when she actually doesn't want to leave her daughter at all, how should she talk to her? she said goodbye.Her soul seemed to be ripped away and died a little in the tugging every time.On the twitching section, there is the indifference imposed by myself, the indifference to this inseparable mother-daughter relationship.

After leaving Zhai's house, she called Ai Ming as soon as she got in the car.

"I miss you. How about having lunch together?" Carol just felt that it had been too long since she had seen her.

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to be continued,

These two rounds are relatively short, and of course there will be a section later on, dear Abby.