gentle and affectionate

Chapter 49.

What is self-inflicted can't live?

"Shangshu Taijia" said: "'If you do evil in the sky, you can still violate it; if you do evil yourself, you can't live'. This is what it means."

It's good, very vivid, but it's all on paper after all.So, how can we truly grasp the essence of a mantra?

A great man once said that practice is the only criterion for testing truth.

……

To put it simply, if you try it yourself, you will know what it means to be dead.

And the reason why I remembered this sentence is because I almost tried it this time, and because it was "almost", it directly led to my insufficient understanding of this sentence, and I failed to fully realize the true meaning of this sentence , So it indirectly led to the long, long time later, I often practiced this sentence voluntarily or involuntarily, and it was all later.

When I left the room today, I almost ran away.

The rainy season has not yet finished, and the cool wind is blowing straight into the collar.I pulled off my loose coat, looked around awkwardly, and confirmed that no one was around, then stood still facing the rain curtain, and slowly took a deep breath.

Calm, calm, calm...

The wheat-colored chest exudes a seductive masculine scent, the muscles are well-proportioned and well-shaped, the slender arms circle a small space in front of the chest, and the big hands rub lightly on the waist, and then slowly move down...

"what--"

I squatted down suddenly, covering my head with my hands as if I was giving up on myself, and a small scream came out of my throat.

Shame.

They are all men, how can they be so tempting.

The strangeness coming from my lower abdomen made me want to dig a hole in the ground and get in. Everything that happened just now kept replaying in my mind like it was stuck. When the skin is on the skin, it's like a flame burns through the paper... The problem that I have been avoiding is finally revealed, and people can't help but blush when they think about it; They always take care of each other personally, and each other's bodies are by no means unfamiliar.

But... somehow it's a shame.

I thought it was all to blame for that black wolf, and when I thought about what might happen in the near future, I couldn't help feeling a little bit of anticipation in my heart. I've grown up for a long time, of course I won't be ignorant of those things, but the relationship between men and men ...never thought of that before.

In short, it took a lot of effort to suppress the impulse.I stood on the promenade outside the house and let out a long sigh as if relaxing. The place separated from the living room by a certain distance was extraordinarily quiet in the drizzling rain, which set off the whispers in the corner extraordinarily clearly.

"Hey, what do you think of this? I just found it yesterday!"

"I haven't seen it..."

"Hey, please keep your voice down, it will be bad if you are discovered..."

The voice sounded like a teenager, probably some of Heigang's young generals.Speaking of this, it was a coincidence that the children who begged Heigang for the new year's money in the Night Demon Kingdom were also Heigang's old acquaintances in Japan!Although they are just different people of the same soul, the sense of familiarity is always the same, so Heigang will let them make trouble with me at that time, and because I have known them from Night Demon Kingdom, I can't help but like them here Get close to them.

I don't know what they are looking at?

Nothing to do, I followed the curiosity, followed the sound and walked over, thinking at least to say hello to them.

……

"What are you hiding, Xiao Mo? Are you afraid that I will eat you?"

I made a rotten smile, and the young general on the other side was trembling with fright, and kept backing away, shrinking to the corner of the wall in three or two steps; while I walked slowly towards him, I somehow felt that this scene was very familiar.

"Lord Fay, just let me go."

Let you go, let you go, why do you kid keep everything from me in every world you go to?A little frustration arose in my heart. I thought it was fun to see the three of them sneaking together, so I frightened them. Curiosity prompted me to ask a few more questions, but I actually asked something that I couldn't tell me!But I have already chased here, and there are two young generals watching, so I just let him go, it seems a bit embarrassing.

When I was riding a tiger, I stretched out my right hand to support the wall, which perfectly reproduced the "interrogation" scene on New Year's Eve in the Yemo Kingdom.

"Do not say?"

I asked with a smile on my face, and his little friends were the same as they were in the Night Demon Kingdom, lying on the side to watch the excitement, but the window frames of the Demon Kingdom were replaced by railings, and the kimonos worn for New Year greetings were also replaced by generals But what should I say about the soul, Xiao Mo's crying face with a face that is full of thunder and rain is almost exactly the same as the one in memory, which made me suddenly have an illusion of returning to that time.

"What's the matter, I kept it secret as soon as I asked, what are you hiding?"

"Master Fa, Fayi, have you seen...??!"

"Nonsense, I'm not blind, what are you hiding, hand it over!"

"I……"

"If you don't pay, you will die."

"If you hand it over, you're really going to die..."

Like, like, more and more like it, it almost coincides with the memory of Night Demon Kingdom, I quickly shook my head, trying to get rid of those disordered memories.

"Pay or not?"

Xiao Mo made a bitter face.

"This one……"

silence.

I shook my head again, according to the script... No, it seems that someone should appear at this time... No, no, no!Stop cheating!

Pulling back the brain hole that ran to the Night Demon Kingdom, I deliberately showed a vicious expression, and prepared to continue to press Xiao Mo.

"What's the matter, Xiao Mo, if you don't pay it again, we have to talk about it."

I am bound to win. If I hadn't been interrupted by Heigan last time, I would have asked it out a long time ago. Besides, there is no language barrier this time.The things Xiao Mo carried behind his back looked like a volume of books, perhaps because too many people had handled them, and all of them were torn to pieces.I thought it was just a book and there was nothing I couldn't read, so I stared at him in the most vicious way I thought possible. As expected, he was stunned, but in the next second, two suspicious spots appeared on his cheeks. flush.

"Fa, Mr. Fai...don't do this...Master Heigang..."

"Little Mo, just wait to be repaired by Mr. Heigang!"

"Hahaha!"

Brothers are for sale.The two friends didn't help, but gloated instead, as if the sneak peek just now had nothing to do with them. Xiao Mo was so depressed when he was so obviously ridiculed, but suddenly remembered something in the next second, his eyes dripped Turning around, he said:

"Mr. Fay, actually... It's not that I can't show you this."

I froze.The child suddenly calmed down, which made me a little unable to keep up with his rhythm. Looking at the smirk on his face, it didn't seem like he had no back tricks, so I understood:

"Conditional?"

"Hmm! As long as Mr. Fay promises not to tell Mr. Heigang!"

With Heigang's temperament as the boss, it will probably be very strict, but it should not be so strict that even idle books are not allowed to read, so I became more curious about this thing, so I nodded.I saw Xiao Mo breathed a sigh of relief, looked around for a while, then quietly took out a book that was not too thick from behind him, rolled it into a thin roll, and then whispered to my ear:

"Mr. Fay, can you go back and look at it?"

There must be something tricky in it, I readily agree.

"Then sir, let's take our leave first!"

Xiao Mo quickly handed the book to me, then ran away with his two brothers, and disappeared in a blink of an eye, leaving me alone in meditation on the book with a blank cover.

Is it possible that something should not be seen?

Then, what does it mean to be self-inflicted and unable to live?

No, what should I say about curiosity killed the cat?

Some of the characters written on some yellowed rice paper are not unfamiliar. Although I can’t fully recognize them, I still know a little bit under Heigang’s previous teachings, but now I feel that I don’t know them well; Larger-area illustrations, in terms of size ratio, it can even be said that this is originally a picture book.

And what is drawn...

The appearance of two naked limbs intertwined...

Unpredictable various poses...

Even painted facial expressions vividly...

……

"This, this can still be like this?"

I muttered.The whole person was overwhelmed by the various postures above, but what was the picture that kept flashing in his mind?Even the body almost reacted.Finally realizing that something was wrong, I hurriedly closed the book, but the scene I just saw was repeated in front of my eyes like a rewind, and after a while, the two faces on it were replaced by me and Heigang...

ahhh-

I pulled my hair in despair, who will tell me why a teenager would get this kind of book!

No... It seems that I watched it when I was that age...

That being the case, why are there two men on the painting——

"Hey……"

The door of the study room was opened, and my whole body trembled as if I had been scalded by a branding iron. Subconsciously, I kicked the book on the mat to the corner under the table, calmed down quickly, and gave Heigan a big smile.

Hei Gang was stunned for a moment, then said lightly:

"Tomoshi said that he made two new clothes for you to try on."

"Huh? ... Oh oh ok, I'll go right away."

He looked at me with some doubts, but fortunately he didn't ask any more questions, so he turned and went back to the living room, while I pressed my beating heart, breathed a sigh of relief, quickly closed the book and stuffed it into the bottom of the bookshelf Press it, and then go to Zhishi.

Of course, Hei Gang didn't lie to me. Zhishi asked someone to make two new coats, one light blue and the other light blue. Although I said that there is no need to keep so many clothes for only a few days, she still insisted on letting me accept them; The two pieces looked really good, and they fit me well, so I didn't refuse anymore, and took back the two pieces from Heigang.

So going back and forth made me forget who the original owner of the study was, and I also forgot how powerful a ninja with insight was beside me, let alone who walked into the room silently after I went out. In the study room, I silently found such a little discordant thing, silently pulled it out, and then silently thought——

Um, is that hinting at him?

It is said that human beings are creatures with very strong vitality, so it is no problem for the strongest ninja in Japan. With the help of Princess Tomoyo's healing magic, the most difficult period of granulation growth soon passed. The wound that would take at least three months to heal was almost healed within a month; and the huge blood scab finally came to leave.

Today, no doubt everyone is happy.

It is natural and relaxing to step down as the imperial physician; Princess Zhishi can finally breathe a sigh of relief, and then start to prepare for the return of the emperor Amaterasu; Heigan's recovery is a great thing for me and Xiaolang around me, but For Heigang himself, the most gratifying thing is of course...

"Hey, hurry up and boil the water!"

A group of boys are busy preparing for it.Taking a bath in such an antique country is always inconvenient, but it is not difficult for a person of status like Hei Gang. It can be said that the room itself has its own independent bathroom. If you boil the water, you want to take a bath every day. It is not impossible.

The well-trained servants quickly got ready, and retreated one after another, because Hei Gang was not used to being served by too many people, so they only stayed with Xiao Ji who was dedicated to serving Hei Gang on weekdays, but he didn't drag me to help him wash his hair hair.

So the servant should go out, and the servant should follow Heigan into the bathroom, while I sat silently in the room, the surrounding was extremely quiet, and I suddenly felt a little unaccustomed to it.

Holding your chin, looking at the moon, thinking about how you lived before?

Mingming has been alone for more than 100 springs and autumns. After separating from Fayi, he has never really lived with anyone. Even though the king has always taken care of me, the people of Thrace have accepted me sincerely. There is even Xiaoji's company, but the loneliness never fades away. Every time in the dead of night, when you put down your smiling mask, it's like becoming another person.

Maybe it's too insecure, maybe it's just that I want too much, and there are many people who are sadder than me, and I have so much, but I'm still so dissatisfied.

I am well aware of my temperament, and I know that such a mentality is [-]% wrong, but I can't figure out how to be correct.

I know it's wrong, but I don't know how to change it.

"What are you thinking about?"

Was attacked from behind again.The scent of soap locust after the bath invaded the nostrils, and the man's hair was not completely dry, so he hugged me from behind and wet my shoulder carelessly.

"Heipu didn't wipe my hair well, it made my clothes wet."

"It just so happens that you go wash up too."

I stared at him sideways, saw his calm face, and suddenly became quiet too.

"Master Black."

"Ok?"

"Do you think I'm annoying? Everyday... always thinking about it like this."

"Well, you still know yourself."

"Well what does that mean!"

"If you know it's just nonsense, don't think about it," he leaned into my ear and said, "However, I don't find it annoying."

"Hmm... isn't that talking too much?"

"Just so I don't have to say it."

For the first time, I was choked speechless by his miraculous theory.

……

This shower was very procrastinating.Different from Heigang's quick fight, I spent almost half an hour before coming out, and it was almost Haishi when I came out.

In a modern city, nine o'clock in the evening is probably still very early, but for Japan, where the sun is basically still resting, this is already the time when most people are ready to go to bed. As a ninja, Black Steel may be later , but not too much.

When I came out, the bedding had already been laid.Hei Gang sat in front of the open door and watched the moon as usual, with an empty medicine bowl and a small bowl of untouched sugar water beside him.This guy is also true, such a bitter medicine can always be swallowed in one gulp, he doesn't even bother to drink sugar water, and his usual meals are either sour or salty, I really can't understand his sense of taste.

But now I am not in the mood to complain about the taste of black steel, because just standing like this makes my heart beat faster.

Obviously I have slept together for so many days, and even joked and laughed in the quilt room, but today, I feel more nervous than ever; maybe I have expected something, or maybe it is because his sentence before taking a bath is a little bit "Quickly go" in a sensual way.

It's a very common and common sentence, but it's so ambiguous, I can't blame me for thinking too much, although... I'm not unwilling, but I'm still nervous.

But now, Heigan was sitting in front of the door, the door was open, and after the rainy season, the clear moonlight seemed extremely precious.

"finished Wash?"

"……Um."

"Come and sit."

Today this guy seemed to be talking too much, which made me more uneasy, but I could only bite the bullet and walk over, sit down next to him, and then he took him into his arms.

I froze.

The hand around his waist was uncharacteristically very calm, but it somehow made me more nervous.The palm of my hand was extremely hot, as if it was about to burn the skin on my waist, which made me subconsciously want to pull it away.

"What's the matter, are you not feeling well?"

"Well... a little..."

He changed his posture graciously, and put his hand on my shoulder, and the two of them got closer unconsciously.

"Faye."

"Ah... ah?"

"Don't be so nervous."

"I won't really eat you."

"..."

I'm speechless, do you have to emphasize "really"?

"So what were you thinking just now?"

"It's nothing..." I thought about my words, "Maybe...it feels a little unreal."

"Not true?"

"Well, remembering that I have experienced so many things before, but now I live like this...quietly every day, I always feel a little...like a dream."

"Dream..."

"A little bit... Don't Master Hei think it? A month ago we were... still like that, but now..."

"How about now?" He raised an eyebrow.

"..."

"Stupid." He concluded.

"Where is the stupidity? I..."

He sighed.

"Are you afraid that you will wake up from the dream?"

I look at him with wide eyes.

"You, you just keep thinking about these things, and you know it's 'crazy thinking'," he said helplessly, "It's impossible to predict what will happen in the future, so it's useless to think about it."

"I know that too, but..."

As long as I think that I might be separated from Mr. Hei when I wake up from the dream, I...

"I don't want to be separated from Master Hei..."

He froze.

But I lowered my head, but I could still feel his more intense eyes.I was silent with him, and after a while, I heard his hoarse voice say:

"I didn't plan to go so soon..."

"Feel sorry……"

His sudden apology made me stunned for a second, and the next second, my body fell into the soft bedding, and he pushed himself up to block the wind and moonlight.

Messy gasps and heartbeats have given away what's to come.I stared obsessively at this tall, god-like man. I was already familiar with his tough face, but today I saw many details that I never knew, from every tiny and subtle arc of the muscles to being held Desire 0 burning red eyes.

"Fay, I can't help it."

Before I could answer, my lips were sealed.This kiss was hotter than ever, full of aggression, and the hands kept moving around, kneading vigorously, as if wanting to rub me into his body.

But the empty sleeve under his left shoulder still can't be ignored, it's always difficult to do these things with one hand... I avoid looking at his swollen veins, but I can't ignore the fact that he has clearly endured It's hard work, but they still protect me very carefully.

I took two deep breaths as if making up my mind, then propped up my somewhat weak body, and hugged his neck.

He seemed to be taken aback, so I took advantage of the opportunity and fell down with inertia; while I sat on his waist in a wide-open kimono, with my hair loose, looking down at him.

Under the moonlight, with messy clothes and entangled limbs, he and I looked at each other deeply, as if we had decided to bind our soul and body completely.

Then the body was suddenly pulled down, and a deeper kiss came, and we took off each other's clothes until the two of us were honest with each other.

A cool breeze leaked in from the small open window, which made me shiver suddenly, but I didn't hesitate to stick to his hand stretched behind me.

Regardless of whether I want to wake up from the dream or whether I want to separate, let me give myself to you.

All to you, all and all.

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