After marriage with actress

In the second year after marrying Shi Nanbei, Shu Yu still tried to meet Zhao Xunyin. If I remember correctly, is this the 7th or 8th time that the other party asked her to meet?

Zhao Xunyin didn't care too much about this, but later Shi Nanbei found out and said she should go see her.

"Huh? Wouldn't you be jealous if you let me meet my ex?" Zhao Xunyin asked.

Shi Nanbei rolled his eyes, read the book in his hand and said, "I just think that according to her personality, she is not the kind of person who likes to pester endlessly. She wants to see you and she just wants to draw a complete picture with the past. Full stop."

It sounds reasonable.

It's just that Zhao Xunyin couldn't help asking, "When did you know her so well?" Why didn't she know that the relationship between Shi Nanbei and Shu Yu was so good?Can you do it to say good things to your rival in love?

Yes, Shi Nanbei, how can you be so generous?Zhao Xunyin was inexplicably sour again.

But her wife didn't notice that she was sour again. It wasn't that her wife didn't care about her anymore. The main reason was that her wife was already in her fifth year of college and was getting busier. She used to be able to travel with her during the holidays. After vacation, I can only stay at home and read books and do quizzes, so what else is there to think about other things.

"How could I know her." Shi Nanbei looked at the book in his hand and replied without raising his head, "I just know you very well. From your point of view, all the people you have dated with should be very good. Excellent is right."

After hearing this, Zhao Xunyin didn't know what she thought of, she couldn't help laughing, and asked her, "Do you think so highly of me?"

Finally, her wife was willing to shift her gaze from the book in her hand to her face, and said calmly, "That's one reason."

"Is there another reason?" Zhao Xunyin asked strangely.

Shi Nanbei nodded, earnestly: "The other reason is that your past is too colorful..."

Before finishing the rest of the sentence, Zhao Xunyin hurriedly called out "Stop" and said, "Okay, I understand, you don't need to say any more."

Although the child looks very generous, she actually still cares a little about her past events. In order to avoid some unwarranted disasters, Zhao Xunyin stopped the topic very cleverly.

"Let's have a look, see you next time if you have time." Speaking of this, Zhao Xunyin asked again, "Do you want to go with me?"

"I won't go." Shi Nanbei refused, "After I go, you two won't be able to let go."

Zhao Xunyin: "..."

Why does this sound a bit strange.

"But speaking of it, don't you have an ex? Since you were a child, no one has liked anyone and no one has liked you?" Zhao Xunyin has always been very proud and proud of being her wife's first love, but at the same time she still There is a little doubt in it.

After all, from the conscience of heaven and earth, her wife's appearance is very high, and her personality is also very likable. With this face, character, figure, and IQ, she has never been in love since she was a child. No matter how you look at it Do you think it is unreasonable? ? ?

She may believe that Shi Nanbei has never liked anyone else, but if no one else likes Shi Nanbei, even if Zhao Xunyin is killed, Zhao Xunyin will not believe it.

No matter how her wife looked at her, she had the face of a first love and a popular lover, so it was impossible that she had never provoked a relationship.

"Does it count if I like you?" her wife asked her, "I don't seem to have any special thoughts about anyone other than you."

Hearing this really makes me feel happy.

Zhao Xunyin smiled, but still asked: "At that time, you should be just a fan to an idol, right? I'm talking about the feeling of being moved during adolescence. After all the years of studying, children have never met someone who is very compatible and very chatting. , someone who really wants to stay with her?"

When she said this, Shi Nanbei thought about it seriously, and she really let her think of someone, "Then it should only be senior sister."

Although the person who brought up this topic was Zhao Xunyin, when she really heard another person's name from her wife's mouth, Zhao Xunyin's eyelids still twitched, "...Sister???"

"Yes." Shi Nanbei said honestly, "Just a senior I met when I was in my sophomore year. She is a nice person. She often took me to participate in club activities. I even took her to play games."

This was the first time Zhao Xunyin heard Shi Nanbei mention people outside her dormitory, but just listening to what the other said, it seemed that there was no other development.

"That's it? Did you guys do anything else?"

"Yes, my sister used to invite me to run in the playground every night, go shopping on weekends, and watch movies." Shi Nanbei said.

Zhao Xunyin: "..."

It sounded like the senior was chasing after Shi Nanbei, or she was a straight daughter.

Straight can tease, straight can tease, the straighter the person, the more able to tease.

The chatterbox was opened. Shi Nanbei spoke highly of that senior. When talking about the time when they met, her wife was as happy as a child. She danced with her hands and feet and told her how good the senior was and participated in club activities. When she was bullied, how did the senior sister help her get back in the game?

At the beginning, Zhao Xunyin could maintain a calm mind, but the more she listened to it, the more she felt uncomfortable. From this description, these two people had an affair...!

Zhao Xunyin stopped shouting, and couldn't help asking her: "...You really haven't dated your senior sister?"

"No, why do you ask that?" Her wife asked strangely.

Zhao Xunyin: "...Because a woman's sixth sense tells me that she wants to fuck you."

Shi Nanbei seemed to hear this statement for the first time, his eyes widened suddenly, and his face turned red strangely, "What are you talking about... How can a sister who is so beautiful and outstanding like me?"

Zhao Xunyin: "..."

Hearing this meaning, you seem to feel a little unbelievable, with a vague sense of expectation? ? ?

Zhao Xun's voice was sour, "Why is it impossible? Maybe your senior sister has a crush on you, and it doesn't have to be."

Shi Nanbei was stunned, "Senior sister secretly... has a crush on me??"

"Yes." Zhao Xunyin said expressionlessly, "I know this little girl's way too well. Just from your description, I know that she is absolutely in love with you and wants to pick you up."

"But she didn't confess her love?" Shi Nanbei said regretfully, "That's the school belle! Am I so good?!"

Zhao Xunyin never thought that Shi Nanbei's focus was on this: "..."

She seemed to understand why the senior didn't confess her love to Shi Nanbei at that time.

Her wife's heartless virtue may not be tolerated by the other party.

***

But I don't know if it was because the two of them talked too much about their ex that night, Zhao Xunyin suddenly had an unreal dream that night.

In the dream, she went back to the autumn when she was 24 years old, when she met Shu Yu for the first time. In the dream, it seemed that they were not meeting for the first time, but they were very familiar people. With a sense of strangeness, Zhao Xunyin clearly knew who she was, because at the age of 24, she would not be as mature and elegant as in her dream.

At that time, she was worried about gains and losses, sensitive and fragile, and needed the full trust and support of the other party.

In the dream, Shu Yu was still the same as before, calm, calm, and unflappable. They took a leisurely walk on the school playground, chatting about everything that happened between them in reality.

She said that she actually understood why Shu Yu left in the first place.

"I really don't seem to be a very good lover..." She sighed softly.

Although at that time she really loved each other, but at the same time she wanted too much, she wanted the companionship of her lover, the support of her career, and a peaceful life, but she was selfish. But she doesn't want to give up everything she has.

The world is fair, if you get something, you will lose it, and all gains need to be paid at the same price.

She hadn't paid the price at that time, but she had already marked the price secretly, so in the end everything was settled on her lover Shu Yu.

Shu Yu left her.

In the dream, she remembered that Shu Yu asked her after a long time if she would like to take a break from the screen?At that time, she thought for a long time but did not give the other party an accurate answer.

At that time, she wanted fame, wealth, and love... She wanted everything, and she was unwilling to give up anything.

Maybe Shu Yu understood, that's why she chose to leave when she was at her best. It's too difficult to make a decision in life.

"I'm not much better either." Shu Yu in the dream said coldly.

"We don't seem to be doing well," she said with a smile.

Shu Yu turned her head to look at her steadily, and after a while, she said, "...Maybe so."

She couldn't do it back then, but Shi Nanbei could.

Although Shi Nanbei is a little short-sighted, she is always so sunny. Regarding whether love can last for a long time, Shi Nanbei has a better understanding than her. He said that after she married her, she was still Shi Nanbei and Dr. Shi .

"Do you know? In fact, I don't know my wife very often." After forgetting how long it was after that dream, Zhao Xunyin finally let go of her heart and was willing to meet Shu Yu, and talked about what she had missed. those years.

"Many times I think young people should be like this, but she is like that. When I thought she would be so unexpected, she is very ordinary and doing ordinary things."

Shu Yu's gaze was the same as before, looking at her quietly, exactly the same as the one in that dream.

"Over the years, I have slowly retreated behind the scenes, learning to shoot and direct, and occasionally going to her school to see how she looks when she is on the operating table with a scalpel."

"Before you asked me if I would marry you? I think I would." Zhao Xunyin said softly, "But at that time, I couldn't give up what I had, so I couldn't go with you regardless."

Shu Yu lowered her eyebrows and smiled. She is a smart person and can understand, "Then now you will be willing to risk everything for her?"

"I don't want to." Zhao Xunyin shook her head slowly, and said calmly, "No matter who that person is, I don't think I will be desperate for him... It's hard to say it, but after so many years, I finally accepted this Selfish me.

Shu Yu, do you accept it? "

Shu Yu just looked at her and listened to her finish.

"What you want is a passionate and lingering, desperate relationship. I can't give it to you. I'm sorry."

"...You don't have to be sorry." Shu Yu said slowly, "You don't have to be sorry."

Zhao Xunyin looked at her, "Actually, I have been wanting to let go of you all these years. I have really tried hard, but I can't do it. Even though I am married to Shi Nanbei, at a certain moment, I still suddenly think of you. You. I thought about it for a long time, and finally I couldn't help but tell her frankly, but do you know what she said?"

"what?"

Zhao Xunyin laughed, after marrying Shi Nanbei, her smile became brighter and brighter, she was no longer the tall and cold Zhao Xunyin back then, "She said, 'This is normal, because I will often miss Other female stars'."

Even Shu Yu, who has always been cold-faced, couldn't help but twitch the corners of her mouth when she heard this. She had indeed inquired about it from many sources, and Zhao Xunyin's wife was indeed a very good lady.

In fact, she has always wanted to see Zhao Xunyin again. Of course, she didn't want to reconnect with him. Anyway, Zhao Xunyin is married, and she should bless her.

She wanted to meet, but in fact, she just wanted to seriously talk about their past with each other. Regarding that relationship, they had both made serious contributions, but they separated too hastily. She has always regretted that she did not explain clearly to Zhao Xunyin.

She knows Zhao Xunyin's character, and she knows that she will cherish that farewell, and the person who unties the bell will eventually tie the bell. That encounter was her arrangement, and the final parting should also be completed by her.

"You can see that she always confesses like this. With her, all my past is a necessary condition for forming the current me. She accepts it completely without any burden in her heart. In front of her, I have become a The simplest and most complicated Zhao Xunyin." Zhao Xunyin said.

After listening for a while, Shu Yu finally understood.

In the final analysis, they were all too proud at that time, Zhao Xunyin was so proud that she didn't want to have any scars in front of her, and she didn't want to see Zhao Xunyin's scars because of hard work.

Zhao Xunyin couldn't face her imperfect self at that time, and she couldn't accept her powerless self at that time.

If there is no way to face yourself calmly in front of the one you love, then this relationship will eventually be let down.

"...I understand." Shu Yu said slowly, "Maybe it's late, but... I wish you happiness."

"... wish me happiness too."

"Yes, we will all have a good life." Zhao Xunyin looked into Shu Yu's eyes and said.

Then stood up and put on the bag.

She turned her back to Shu Yu, to the person she once loved the most, and walked towards her light step by step.

The get out of class bell rings.

Many students walked out of the teaching building, as if they had returned to that year. She was in her 20s, and she had a glimpse of someone in the corridor of the classroom when she was in college.

Then she remembered for ten years.

Now finally let go.

In the scorching summer, she was standing under a shady tree, and when she raised her eyes, she saw the surgeon-to-be in the crowd walking towards her slowly, holding a parasol and wearing a white trigram.

What a sunshine, what a lover.

"You are here." The man came to her, held her hand, and smiled, "I found you."

She smiled: "I found you too."

This was an unexpected encounter, just like when she got her photo and went to the coffee shop for an appointment in the early summer of that year.

"Hello Shi Nanbei, I'm Zhao Xunyin." She said.

Then the girl laughed, her face filled with eyes.

Hello, Zhao Xunyin.