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The smell of medicine and disinfectant mixed with urine, which has never changed for thousands of years in the hospital, can be felt as soon as you enter the automatic opening and closing glass door. Su Shen has hated this smell since she was a child. Of course, compared to this smell , what annoys him even more should be the hospital itself.

The hospital is barely gratifying, probably because the setting of the elevator is still humanized.

Since coming to Pearl City, Su Shen hasn't been to too many places, basically wandering around the university town, but every time he goes to a place, the first thing he notices is the elevator.For so long, except for the hospital, among the elevators he has experienced, there is only one with a button specially designed for the disabled, but what makes people ironic is that the normal button position of that elevator is also very low, which is a height that he can fully reach .

He was thinking wildly in the elevator, and slowly rose to the top floor.

In the corridor on the top floor, the smell is much better, it is clear and light, probably because there are only single rooms on this floor, and no one comes to live there.

The little nurse in the corridor recognized him, walked over quickly, pushed the wheelchair from behind, and led him to the ward on the north side of the corridor.

"Mr. Su, are you here again?"

"It's a bit late today." Su Shen said softly, "There is a traffic jam on the road."

The little nurse reminded him in a low voice, "Mr. Hu just finished chemotherapy today, so he may not be in a good mood."

"understood."

The nurse sent him to the door and turned around to leave. Su Shen was not in a good mood because of the unexpected meeting with Song Hailin in the morning. He suppressed his worries at the door and pushed the door open.

The ward is not very big, and there is a bed in the middle that is a little bigger than ordinary beds. The person on the bed covered his face with the quilt, and only a short stubble of hair was exposed, probably because the quilt was too stuffy. , covering the position of the nose together and up and down.

Su Shen went over and pulled his face out from the side of the quilt, and smiled, "But classmate, the quilt is full of the smell of mite corpses, right? Does it smell good?"

Hu Yuran raised his head immediately, and tucked the quilt under his neck. He forced a smile, "I'm a patient! It's against the law to scare a patient!"

"Didn't take a nap?" Su Shen was not in the mood to continue to be poor, so he simply changed the subject.

"Enough sleep and boredom." Hu Yuran couldn't help trembling every time he said the word "boring". He is a very timid person, but whenever he said this word, he felt like giving As if I had accumulated a little bit of courage, I piled up bit by bit.Courage, the courage to commit suicide.

Because life is really boring.

"Don't you have any books you want to read? I haven't seen you read the books I brought over before." Su Shen muttered.

"I don't like reading novels."

"That's right... I remember you used to have good grades in science. Are you a math genius? How about I get you some books of that kind?" Su Shen poured him a glass of water, "If you have a hobby, you won't Feeling bored."

"But I haven't had time to have a hobby yet." Hu Yuran seemed to have a wry smile.

Su Shen realized that he had said the wrong thing, so he quickly shut up.

Hu Yuran's complaining tone made people breathless.

Anyone who has suffered such a big change can't help but complain. Originally, the end of the college entrance examination should be the time to welcome a new life happily, but just overnight, the family went bankrupt, both parents jumped off the building, and relatives avoided it. He has been in poor health since he was a child, and his condition has worsened. Now he can only lie in the hospital, unable to move or move, day by day, bored, waiting to die.

Whether Hu Yuran knew the truth of the matter, Su Shen didn't know, but he knew that Hu Yuran knew in his heart that everything had something to do with Qu Shiran.As for why Qu Shiran's monstrous hatred was blocked in front of Hu Yuran, but he was spared and still managed to place him in the hospital for treatment, Su Shen couldn't figure it out.

But maybe you can figure it out but don't want to think about it.

Su Shen asked himself that this matter had nothing to do with him, but he still couldn't help feeling guilty.

Because, even though he did not participate in causing the changes in Hu Yuran's family, in his heart, he actually had a strange feeling of enjoying what he got.Therefore, even though Hu Yuran has shown complete trust in him now when he is lonely and helpless, he still has no way to bear this entrusted trust.

Hu Yuran took a sip of water and was choked. After coughing a few times, he leaned back on the pillow, "Go on and tell me the story of Brother Tiedaner and Da Heizi."

Su Shen smiled, "Don't you like reading novels? Story novels belong to the same family. Why do you still ask me to tell you stories?"

"I'm not interested in stories either," Hu Yuran licked his lips, "but I'm interested in the stories of Brother Tiedaner and Da Heizi."

Su Shen sighed, and couldn't bear to refuse him.

"Where did you talk last time?" Su Shen asked.

Hu Yuran suddenly became excited, went to fish for the glasses on the bedside table, put them on slowly, and said, "Talking about the summer vacation, Brother Tie Daner found a pen at Da Heizi's house."

"Oh pen." Su Shen repeated, organizing his words while saying, "You wear glasses specially for listening to a story, why, your ears are short-sighted at the same time?"

"I can't hear clearly without glasses. We are all short-sighted." Hu Yuran was obviously in a better mood because he was going to listen to the story soon.

"Nonsense, I'm also short-sighted, why don't I have this problem."

"Tell the story quickly," Hu Yuran urged him, "Just pretend that I want to see your handsome face clearly."

"Actually, I was chattering away just to hear what you said." Su Shen raised his glasses with his hand.

In the last book, Brother Tie Daner found a pen at Da Heizi's house. Coincidentally, that pen was rusty, and it was exactly the same as the pen that appeared every year in front of his father's tombstone.

Brother Tie Dan'er was puzzled, but he didn't ask, and he just pretended to be stupid about this matter.

During the summer vacation, the rock man sent him a message to report the progress, saying that he had almost completed the investigation of the people involved in the car accident, and he would tell him the situation when it was confirmed.

He couldn't care less.

Because his grandmother's state was very wrong during this time, even worse than before, he had to look after her all the time, not letting her stay alone, almost exhausted.

The summer vacation is over.

After school started, it was the first semester of the third year of high school. Everyone started to get busy, and Da Heizi also returned to school from home.

Not long after the semester started, Brother Tie Dan'er accidentally saw the paper that the world-weary girl used to take notes.Girls, no matter how high and cold they are, like paper with flowers. This is not surprising at all, but what is strange is that he is very familiar with the paper used by world-weary girls.

It was a page with a sense of age, with plum blossom petals drawn on it, slightly faded.

"Do you still remember what I said before, the red envelopes that grandma gave Brother Tie Dan'er every year?" Su Shen suddenly asked Hu Yuran when he mentioned this.

Hu Yuran thought for a while before answering, "I remembered, that red envelope was wrapped in such paper."

"Then do you still remember what grandma would say every time?" Su Shen continued to ask, naturally with the meaning of guiding students step by step in class.

"Back to Teacher Su's words," Hu Yuran smiled, "Probably something like 'Grandpa will take care of you'?"

"Student Hu's memory can be said to be very good, and I will reward you with a little red flower." Su Shen squinted her eyes and smiled in an exaggerated tone.

"Those who don't know think you teach kindergarten, Mr. Su."

Su Shen played the professionalism of an excellent teacher, stopped the interruption, and got back to the main topic in time, "Then do you still remember what grandma said when something went wrong?"

Hu Yuran thought for a while, but didn't seem to remember.

Su Shen reminded, "When I told you earlier, I specifically mentioned it several times."

"Ms. Su, you make me feel like I'm not listening to a love story, but Detective Conan." Hu Yuran frowned, not knowing whether to laugh or cry.

"It's not a love story in the first place," Su Shen said, "I define this story as a detective."

"Okay," Hu Yuran said with a bitter face, "I seem to remember mentioning grandpa, grandpa disappeared or something?"

Su Shen nodded, "So what did you think of?"

"Fuck me...?" Hu Yuran said.

If you can think of this, Brother Tie Daner can of course also think of it.

The paper used to make red envelopes every year should be left by grandpa. In grandma's perception, it represents grandpa.Perhaps it can also be said that in grandma's cognition, the things left by grandpa that are cherished by her and hidden by her, in her heart, represent grandpa.Therefore, the disappearance of grandpa means that the things left by grandpa are gone.

Brother Tie Dan'er naturally thought of the man who caused the accident mentioned earlier.

Because the man who caused the accident was going to steal evidence.

From the perspective of the man responsible for the accident, the evidence must be locked in a very important place, right?But to grandma, those evidences are not important, what is important is what grandpa left behind.

Therefore, it is very possible that the man who caused the accident stole what grandpa left behind.

Brother Tie Dan'er thought of this, and immediately raised his vigilance.He was afraid that the man who caused the accident would do something that would not benefit his grandma.

However, it's too late.

When he came home that day, grandma had passed away.

Grandma leaned against the corner, holding a small locked box in her arms, which was empty.

When Su Shen said the words of grandma's death, she was very calm, as if she was really just telling a story about someone else.

However, when he saw this scene at that time, he didn't cry or make a fuss, it was deathly silent.It was an overwhelming sense of despair, slowly drying and rotting from the deepest part of the body, spreading out barbed rust, corroding upward inch by inch, from the inside out.Couldn't cry at all.It's because of a loss of emotion.

The sense organs are like being stabbed open by steel thorns.

Even now, when I think about it again, that feeling still feels like I experienced it yesterday, with sudden pain.

He took a look at Hu Yuran's expression, obviously because of this, he also thought of his family, Su Shen immediately put away his emotions, skipped this paragraph, and continued to advance the plot.

In the process of dealing with the funeral, the rock man sent him several messages about those people back then.

Brother Tiedaner didn't look at it or pay attention to it.

You can imagine that brother Tie Dan'er deliberately suppressed his sadness at that time, and what must have been replaced by monstrous hatred.

Especially not long after he learned the truth about the car accident, it was the same gang that killed his parents and returned to kill his grandma lingeringly.

Can you not hate it?

In fact, no matter what you do at this time, Brother Tie Daner, is it normal?Regardless of whether it conforms to the moral values ​​of the public, right?

Su Shen looked at Hu Yuran, seemingly stubbornly waiting for an answer from him.

Hu Yuran shook his head.

Su Shen sighed.

Indeed, Hu Yuran is a good and normal person in the traditional sense.If you throw the same question to Qu Shiran, you will definitely get a nod.He said earlier that Qu Shiran is essentially close to his ideas.

Brother Tie Dan'er felt that this matter had nothing to do with the man who caused the trouble, and the clue to find the man who caused the trouble was in the world-weary woman.

Brother Tie Daner’s deduction should be like this: because grandpa’s relics were well preserved by grandma, the man responsible for the accident stole the small box locked by grandma, and only after he went back did he find out that he had stolen the wrong thing, but he probably realized it Things are very important, so after a period of time, I took an empty box and went to negotiate terms with my grandma.

Then I don't know what happened, because grandma is old and easily excited, so...

So, Brother Tie Daner decided to take revenge.

He remembered the message Rock that sent him...

"But," Hu Yuran interrupted him, "Why didn't Brother Tie Daner call the police?"

Su Shen froze for a moment, looked at Hu Yuran for a while, and then said slowly, "Because the police are all idiots."

"The police are really idiots." Someone pushed the door open while talking.

Hearing this voice, Hu Yuran subconsciously turned over and covered himself in the quilt again, with his back to the door and closed eyes, pretending to be asleep.

Su Shen glanced at the door, and said, "At least you're still wearing a police uniform, so why not scold yourself?"

"It's generally cool." Qu Shiran stared at the hospital bed and answered Su Shen, walking towards the bed while talking.

Su Shen went over to stop him.

Qu Shiran was obviously unhappy, but he still stopped.

"He just finished chemotherapy today and is very tired." Su Shen said with a look of meaning.

Qu Shiran snorted, walked to the edge of the sofa, and sat down with his legs crossed.

He didn't shy away from the fact that there was a person pretending to be asleep in the room, and said directly to Su Shen, "Did the police go to your school?"

"How do I know." Su Shen poured himself a glass of water, as if he didn't want to communicate with Qu Shiran.

Qu Shiran didn't expose him, and continued: "Actually, it doesn't feel good to know the murderer. You know the answer, but you still have to guide a bunch of idiot police from the beginning to investigate from the wrong line. What an idiot."

Su Shen didn't speak.In fact, Qu Shiran was able to know the real culprit thanks to him.

Mr. Su, a cruel passer-by who does not want to be named.

"I just hope that you don't go too far on the clue of Zhou Qian's boyfriend," Su Shen smiled narrowly, "I hope you can find the loophole from Luo Mingming as soon as possible."

Qu Shiran confronted him, "If you are willing to stand up and be a tainted witness, I don't have to lead a group of idiot policemen to be headless chickens."

"But, our goal is not the real murderer." Su Shen looked back at the hospital bed.

Hu Yuran didn't dare to move under the quilt.

"I'm confident that I can expand the situation this time, as long as I lead everyone to follow my clues step by step." Qu Shiran narrowed his eyes, "It turned out that 'they' were too cautious, and they were all orphans and beggars. , no father or mother, no one cares, even if it is found out, it may be suppressed without much effort. This time, this little girl is different. This is the first child whose parents have a certain social status and a certain right to speak. Most people think That's right, the oppression of people with a certain status involving rights will cause widespread public anger. People can see from it that they are dominated and small as a people. They will feel powerless, feel hopeless, and think about even seemingly People with a high social status are powerless to fight against these rights, and they will be filled with righteous indignation when they think of themselves. The public hurts their kind, roughly. So 'they' will definitely suffer."

Hearing Qu Shiran's calm analysis, Su Shen suddenly felt very angry and needed to vent.

Use public psychology to achieve your own goals regardless of innocence.

The masses are not innocent either.

We all struggle together in the quagmire of nausea.

But in fact, he himself thought the same way, and secretly thinking about it in his heart was completely different from listening to others say it in cold blood.

He feels sick.

Qu Shi was disgusted, and he himself was even more disgusted.

But this is just plain disgusting.No guilt.

Even if he did it all over again, he would die.Because only by refusing to save them, they can take advantage of this opportunity to slowly bring down the enemy.

Sometimes when thinking about what he has done these years, Su Shen feels like throwing up, and it is also not because of guilt.

No sense of guilt stems from lack of moral awareness, which is a person's most inherent character flaw.Indifference is rooted in the genes and cannot be changed or erased.

"You're really disgusting." Su Shen smiled politely.

"You too." Qu Shiran responded to him kindly.

The quilt on the hospital bed trembled slightly.

Su Shen kept on holding on, drinking water one cup after another.

Qu Shiran seemed to know what he was thinking, and followed him calmly.

Hu Yuran nestled under the quilt, drowsy but did not dare to sleep.

It wasn't until Qu Shiran's cell phone rang that the phone rang in the ward, and Hu Yuran breathed a sigh of relief.

Qu Shiran answered the phone with a few "hmm" and asked, "Where are you two?"

"could not be reached?"

"I'll be right back."

After talking on the phone, he glared at Su Shen, stood up and walked out hurriedly.

His footsteps walked farther and farther in the corridor, Hu Yuran still shrank under the quilt as if he still had lingering fears, not daring to come out.

Su Shen went over and lifted the quilt.

As if taken aback, he hugged his head and shrank in.

"He's gone." Su Shen sighed.

Hu Yuran seemed to react for a while, slowly raised his head, blinked his eyes, looked at Su Shen for a while before saying, "Thank you."

Su Shen said suddenly without thinking: "Brother Tie Dan'er remembered the message from the rock man. There was a photo in it. It said that the police man who dealt with the car accident back then was the main participant in this incident."

"The following detailed information is: The man who caused the accident was eager to be sent back to steal evidence this time because the police man encountered difficulties in his official career, and he was afraid that someone would turn over his old account in the future."

"Did you know? Brother Tie Dan'er has seen the photo of the police man. It's the photo of his father and Fa Xiaoer. The police man is that Fa Xiaoer."

"Besides, the police man is Da Heizi's father."

Hu Yuran took a deep breath.

"Big Heizi knew about this a long time ago, because Brother Tie Daner showed him the group photo, but he never mentioned that the other person in the group photo is his father. Why? And that pen, why?"

Hu Yuran seemed to be stunned, and then repeated: "Why?"

Su Shen suddenly raised the corners of his mouth and smiled, "If you want to know what will happen next, please listen to the next chapter to break it down!"

Hu Yuran was immersed in the emotions that had been driven just now, and he didn't slow down for a while.

"Su Shen, you were a storyteller in your previous life, right?" It took Hu Yuran a long time to finally come up with such a sentence.

When Su Shen came home, it was the afternoon when the sun was at its strongest.

Because he rushed to the hospital at noon, and then spent time in the ward with Qu Shiran, he didn't have lunch. When he got off the taxi, he felt that his neck couldn't support the weight of his head.

I can only hold on and rush home.

The house he is renting now is in the family courtyard of Zhucheng University. This area is all old buildings and there is no elevator, so he can only rent a small door on the first floor.There are no steps at the entrance of the small gate, and the threshold is just a small piece of wood that protrudes symbolically. It is easy for wheelchairs to enter and exit. He has rented and lived here since he was an undergraduate, and he has lived here until now.

It used to be a small clinic. I don't know where the original owner went, but it was empty since he came here.There is a crooked sign above the door, with the words "clinic" written in red letters on a white background.

He couldn't reach it and never took it off.

These years of wind and rain, the color of the scarlet letter has faded a lot, and it has become a dark pink.

When Su Shen habitually rowed there, he used the small sign that said clinic as a road sign, but today, he saw a person standing under the small sign from a distance.

He didn't wear glasses, so he couldn't see clearly in the distance, like a mosaic, he could only see the general shape.

The man was stuck under the small sign, probably waiting for the clinic to open.

Of course they are the ones waiting for the clinic to open.

Take it for granted.

In the past two years, the number of people using this clinic as a clinic has gradually decreased. In the past few years, such things have always happened, and Su Shen is no stranger to it.

It wasn't until he got closer that he realized what a shortcoming he took for granted was a shortcoming that should be corrected.

That person, Song Hailin, could be recognized even when he turned into ashes.

Song Hailin was just taking a cigarette out of his mouth, watching from afar as his hand that was rowing the wheelchair stopped in place.

He didn't come over.

He calmly waited for Su Shen to move first.

If one ignores his fingers, which are not daring to move now and are pinching the cigarette that is almost bald, it may still make people think that he is calm and not nervous.

Su Shen slowly put his hand on the wheel, and slowly rowed forward.

The closer you get, the more sweaty your palms will be.

He rowed to the door, as if treating a stranger, slowly raised his face in the direction of Song Hailin, and said, "This is not a clinic."

"I know," Song Hailin's voice trembled, and he tried to suppress the trembling, "Brother."

Su Shen got all pissed off by this call.

The suffocated calm was gone.

"Brother!" Song Hailin raised his voice, covered his eyes and shouted again, because he had been smoking and his voice was hoarse.

Su Shen said softly, "Smoking is not good."

Song Hailin had a sore nose, as if he was about to cry, he stood where he was and dared not move.

Su Shen went on to say, "Didn't you tell me not to smoke in the future?"

Song Hailin suddenly felt that the grievances of these years were pouring up in a monstrous force. With his mouth pursed, he walked up to Su Shen in one step, bent down and hugged him.He buried his eyes on Su Shen's shoulder, and wept wetly and hotly.

"Brother." He called in a muffled voice.

Su Shen didn't speak, and patted him on the back lightly twice.

Unexpectedly, he suddenly raised his hand and rubbed the top of Song Hailin's head twice.

Song Hailin's hair is shaved short, which is different from the one who always paid attention to hairstyle when he was a child, and it was itchy in the palm of his hand.

Song Hailin suddenly forgot to breathe.

The moment Su Shen took his hand away from his head, he suddenly raised his head, put his hand on the back of Su Shen's head, and kissed him on the mouth like a storm.

The strong smell of smoke, and the smell of sweat from the sun.covered the whole body.I don't know whose body smells like sweat.intertwined.

What sweeps over is the devastating thoughts of these years.

What is intertwined between the lips and teeth is the yearning that is not reconciled but cannot be passed.

Song Hailin thought, fuck him, no matter what his surname is Su or Song, this is just his brother Tiedaner.

Su Shen thought, fuck him, ignore his grievances, this is just the lover he has been thinking about in his dreams for many years.

They seem to be fighting and fighting, and have a wonderful moment of forgetting with time and the world.

Song Hailin was short of breath, lifted the hem of Su Shen's clothes and pinched Su Shen's waist lightly, it was hot.The hand slipped across the skin, and the wrist could touch the small hard edge of the trousers, which was painful.

"Brother." With a trembling voice, he rubbed his lips against Su Shen's ear, and called softly, as if he was afraid of scaring away the person in front of him, lightly.

"elder brother."

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