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Inexplicably, it was the eleventh day of the first lunar month.

Su Shen even went to the kitchen and saw grandma making longevity noodles before realizing that today was his birthday.He has always felt that birthdays are meaningless, and there is no need to celebrate this day.At most, it can be regarded as a time node that marks another year of growing up.

At the end of the year, it is one year older.

When it's birthday, it's also one year older.

When these two dates are next to each other, the birthday is even less important, and even the function of the time node is diluted by [-]% by the Chinese New Year.

On Su Shen's birthday, at most, he would eat a bowl of longevity noodles in the morning.

But their family eats noodles for more than half of their mornings every year, so it seems to be no different from usual.

Thinking about it this way, the eleventh day of the first lunar month is really a very ordinary day.

Su Shen picked up the noodles in the bowl and chewed slowly. While chewing, he flipped through a magazine in his hand, which was full of local nostalgic literature of so-called middle-aged people. He smacked for a while, and then flipped through another magazine Lulu's youth pain literature.After comparing for a while, a piece of noodles drooped by the mouth, and I forgot to bite it off.

He bit off the noodles, closed the book of hometown nostalgia, and then carefully read the pain of youth one by one.

In comparison, it is easier to imitate the type of youthful pain.When the manuscript fee is equivalent, it is natural to choose the one that takes less time to write. This is the reason Su Shen wanted to understand from the beginning of writing.

Whether he loves it or not, it has long since ceased to matter to him.

Before noon, Tian Zhe came to Su Shen's house with Goudan in his arms.

Su Shen was still holding the book of Youth Pain, frowning and studying, feeling that the whole room was sore.He stretched out his hand towards Goudaner, "In this time wandering full of tiny sun debris, I have closed my eyes a long time ago, but you came to me, so I had to open my eyes to see the world again The reason is not to sniff the sun, not to catch the frost and snow with eyelashes, but to cry for you one more time—my son of a bitch.”

Tian Zhe hurriedly took a step back with Goudan'er in his arms.

While following the fur on Goudan'er's back, he whispered to scare him, "Dan'er, don't be afraid, your father Su is going crazy."

"You step away from me step by step in his arms, but I still want to get closer to you, even though you are full of other people's breath." Su Shen continued to go crazy without stopping.

Tian Zhe coughed, picked up the magazine with a pink cover on the table, and let out a "wow".

He put a small bag of cooked meat on the table, "Pass on my mother's command."

Su Shen quickly turned around, and bent over Tian Zhe squarely, "I accept the order."

"Fengtian Chengyun Emperor," Tian Zhe paused, and continued, "No, Empress Dowager, Fengtian Chengyun Empress Dowager said: Happy birthday to you."

"Let's enjoy together, let's enjoy together." Su Shen smiled and looked through the bag of meat, "Does it taste like cumin?"

"Can't you, you are your own son."

According to the usual practice, after Tian Zhe sent his blessings, the last link of this birthday was also completed.

Tian Zhe warmed up by the stove for a while with the dog egg in his arms, and said while chewing the fried meat, "I brought the car here, let's go to the county hospital for reexamination today."

"No." Su Shen answered very simply without even thinking about it.

"You," Tian Zhe grimaced, "You can't go, people go for inspections every few months, why don't you want to go after it's been delayed until once a year?"

Su Shen twitched her nose, "It's pathetic enough for me to have no cake or birthday song for my birthday today, and it would be too miserable if I went to the hospital."

Tian Zhe raised his eyelids.

"Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you!" Tian Zhe finished singing quickly with no expression on his face, Goudaner meowed accompaniment, "Okay, no pity, you already .”

"There are eggs..."

Before Su Shen finished speaking, Tian Zhe interrupted, "You don't like sweets, these meats represent your cake."

"Hey Erji," Su Shen curled her lips, "Did I tell you that you are becoming more and more like a bitch now."

"Hospital!" Tian Zhe was stern and impartial.

"Is there any humanity anymore, whose birthday is spent in the hospital!"

Tian Zhe sighed, "I'm not looking for trouble, but the problem is that this year is not the same as before. Master Wu will come back tomorrow, and I have to go to the car factory tomorrow. Isn't there no time?"

"No check this year..."

"No way." He interrupted Tian Zhe before he finished speaking, "Choose any one of those complications and each one can kill you, so you just don't care about it, it hurts so much this summer How dare you not go to the hospital!"

Su Shen sighed, "Azhe, really, let's pass today."

Tian Zhe stared at him for a while, and then said after a while, "Okay, wait for me to take a vacation in a few days."

"Thank you, Tian Zhe."

"Hmph." Tian Zhe ignored him and thanked him solemnly.

It's been so many years, if I really want to thank you, can I justify it?

To be honest, I feel a little distressed.Not bad, Su Shen doesn't want to go to the hospital, because it's not only a costly thing, it's too painful, he sees it every year, and every year he feels that he can't hold it, and he feels unbearable pain even if such a thick needle pierces his bone .

You can't check it.

There is no small matter in the spine, and a little movement in normal times may be fatal.It's okay for ordinary people to catch a cold and cough twice, but Su Shen is different.So it must be checked every year.

sigh.

No one wants to suffer, but some sins have to be suffered.

Su Shen never visited his parents on his birthday.

Because the countryside pays attention to not going to the grave frequently, and I have just been there during the Chinese New Year, so it is not appropriate to go there after the birthday.But on this birthday this year, he suddenly wanted to look at the photos on the stele, talk about his tossing and turning during this period of time, ask them what happened to the car accident, and wonder if they wanted to let him go. Give this matter a result.

Maybe it was because he couldn't suppress the questioning when he brought up the matter of going to the hospital.

Why?Why is it him?

After lunch, he went to the Su family's ancestral grave by himself.

Empty hands, did not take anything, not to pay homage, just to take a look.

The pen under the tombstone was replaced with a new one.

Su Shen stared at it from a distance. It was exactly the same as the usual old pens. The whole body was black. There was a golden metal ring on the cap, and a string of English letters were engraved on the ring.His father used to love to use a pen, and the words and annotations on each book were written with a pen, but he didn't know what kind of pen his father used before.

If it was the one lying in front of the tombstone, then the person who put the pen every year must know his father very well, even better than Su Shen.So why did he put a pen here?Is it just a memory?

Or, was it related to the car accident?

He was caught off guard by the strange man who helped him up on the [-]th day.

But thinking about it carefully, that person's face is a bit blurry, the more familiar it feels in my heart, the more I can't remember it.Human memory is really mysterious.

He rubbed the black-and-white photo with the tip of his finger, "My son's birthday mother's hard day, that's what I said... But I don't remember either of you."

"Will you be sad if I say you are just strangers in a picture to me?"

"What kind of heart does a dead person hurt?"

"Do you want me to chase this matter? Do you want to know who is behind it?"

"What's the use of whether you think about it or not, anyway, I won't listen to you, even if I listen, you can't talk anymore."

"I, to be honest, it's not for you. To be honest, it's for my own sake, and I can't do it for you. If people are gone, why not do it... I just want to know if my leg is good or not. Didn’t I deserve it, did I not deserve to be like this in my life? Although I don’t dare to dare, but to be honest, after all these years, I want to know all the time.”

"It hurts too much."

"mom……"

He yelled out with a trembling voice.

With the wind, the cry was blown away and fled.

Maybe it's because I watched the Poisonous Chicken Soup for Youth Pain all morning.Any small mood will be infinitely magnified and it must run in a hypocritical direction and never return.

No harm.

Su Shen rubbed her eyes, and decided to write about the nostalgia of the middle-aged hometown.

Thinking this way, he was in a daze in the cemetery, until the sky was covered with a layer of pink light, and the sun went down, and then he slowly walked home.

When turning into his own street, he saw a black figure jumping at the door from a distance.It's a cold day.

The figure saw Su Shen coming, and also ran to meet him, Su Shen smiled.

Song Hailin is no different than when he was a child, the older he grows, the more stupid he becomes.

When he got closer, Song Hailin grinned at him with bared teeth, "Where have you been?"

While asking, he naturally went to the back and pushed the wheelchair.

"Wander around." Su Shen said.

"Huh?" As soon as Song Hailin helped the push handle behind him, he felt something hit the back of his hand. When he picked it up, he saw that it was the big-eared dog pendant he gave Su Shen, and it was fastened to the push handle. .He picked it up and pressed it, and a weird voice of "I'm cute, cute kid" sounded from inside. Su Shen turned his head after hearing this voice, and Song Hailin shook the little toy twice, "You still keep it?" With this thing?"

"Can I just throw it away immediately?" Su Shen asked him back, "Do you think this dog looks very much like you?"

"Rabbit." Song Hailin said.

After he finished speaking, Su Shen realized that he didn't stop when he passed the door of his house, and pushed him to continue walking, and there was no tendency to stop.

"Hey, hey, that's too much." Su Shen said quickly.

Song Hailin still didn't stop, saying, "Happy birthday."

"Happy birthday...?" Su Shen repeated without realizing it.

"Take you somewhere to celebrate your birthday." Song Hailin said, "Could it be possible to kidnap you? Kidnap you to do my homework for me?"

"Happy birthday." Su Shen muttered.

Did not respond.

It seems that no one specifically said to celebrate his birthday, and he never took it seriously.But when these words came out of Song Hailin's mouth, he suddenly felt that it's not unreasonable that people like to celebrate birthdays.He didn't take it seriously before, and it wasn't that he really didn't want to think about it, but he never did it, and he didn't know what it should be like.

Indeed, if everyone’s birthday is like his, and after eating noodles in the morning, they have to flip through magazines while thinking about how to make money, whether to eat fried meat or bargain for a day to go to the hospital to suffer, if it’s like this, there probably won’t be many people What is the meaning of this day.

Song Hailin pushed Su Shen to the river next to the wheat field, and the two of them remained silent for the rest of the way.

Song Hailin hadn't been to Su Shen's house since the phone call with Pan Shicheng that day.I've been bored at home these past few days, just playing games and chatting with grandma, and the days disappeared in a flash. It wasn't until Pan Shicheng sent the pen that he got out of the state of brain shutdown.

The outer packaging of the pen is pretty, with a dark blue box and a darker blue ribbon.

Regarding this matter, Pan Shicheng did not express any further views.He really didn't bother to think about it, so he simply threw it aside, and the most important thing was to have a happy birthday first.

He pushed Su Shen with one hand, and fumbled for the packing box in his pocket with the other.

When he reached the river next to the wheat field, he stopped, walked around with a smile on his face, and dragged out the salutes and fireworks hidden in the haystack.

Seeing the pile of things, Su Shen smiled, and said, "If you pull up another banner that says it's opening today, you can hold an opening ceremony."

"Go!" Song Hailin said, "Do you know how difficult it is to get these things?"

He rubbed his hands, "Look at it, I'm going to give you a birthday that is comparable to opening a business."

Su Shen clapped her hands twice to save face.

Song Hailin arranged the things, leaned over and lit the fire.

As soon as the fuze was ignited, he immediately jumped back to Su Shen's side, leaning on the wheelchair with a smug face and waiting for the fireworks to go off.

Actually, Su Shen also had some expectations.

The fuze burst into flames, and burned out in a short while. Song Hailin quickly covered his ears, while Su Shen stared at the shadow of the fireworks in the dark without moving.

five seconds.

ten seconds.

1 minutes.

Nothing happened.

Song Hailin stretched his neck to look forward, mumbling: "What's going on."

Su Shen whispered with a serious face, "Shh—maybe..."

This may have just been said, there was some movement over there, and the fireworks "sneered", and the two of them immediately focused their eyes there.

Song Hailin's eyes widened and he squeezed one out between his teeth, "Fuck..."

Su Shen also stared dumbfounded at the fireworks that went out after a pinch of small sparks half a meter high, and the salute that didn't go off at all, and it took him a long time before he let out a "puchi" laugh.

Then the louder the laughter.

Song Hailin had the expression of eating a dead fly.

This is!what's the situation!

Su Shen was still laughing hard, "It's agreed to open hahaha, the squib hahaha whoever opened the business should close down immediately, the closing ceremony hahahahahaha."

"Stop laughing!" Song Hailin patted him on the shoulder.

"Hahahahaha-"

Song Hailin cursed, and took a few steps forward, intending to see what was going on.

As soon as he took two steps, Su Shen grabbed the corner of his clothes. Su Shen smiled and said, "Don't go there, don't go there, don't blow you up for a while."

"What are you frying, do you look like you can fry!"

Su Shen continued to laugh.

After laughing enough, I asked again: "When did you move them here?"

"Last night."

"You," Su Shen choked, "you are thankful that this fuze is lit, you were stuffed in the grass last night, and now you are soaked through the damp."

"I……"

Song Hailin drooped his eyes and stopped talking.

"Hey, at least," Su Shen stopped, and continued after a while, "No, no, I can't comfort you, it's really embarrassing, hahahahaha."

"You man!"

"It's so embarrassing, if I were I would bury my head in the wheat field."

"Enough is enough."

"Squibs open hahahahahahahaha."

Song Hailin lost his temper when he laughed, and also laughed twice, it was so embarrassing.

"Hey, have you laughed enough? I'll give you a gift if you laugh enough."

"Squib, isn't it?" Su Shen hiccupped with laughter, "Is there a gift?"

"Do you want love!" Song Hailin handed him the pen, "Practice those broken characters!"

Su Shen followed the box and continued to hiccup, stopped laughing, held up the box to look back and forth, and asked, "Can I hiccup, open it?"

Song Hailin said, "Beating, beating."

He belched again.

"Makes you open a present without making you hiccup."

"belch."

"It's not over."

"Then I hiccup, I can't hiccup myself," Su Shen said, "I can control hiccups."

"Fight!"

"Hiccup or..."

"Opening presents!"

"Then you just say hiccups, talk about dismantling, hiccups, don't I just hiccup, and the hiccups are endless." Su Shen opened the gift while belching.

"The pen..." he said as he took it out. He couldn't tell what it looked like. He was about to ask Song Hailin to turn on the flashlight, but suddenly there was another "chuck" on the side of the river.

Song Hailin and Su Shen looked over together, the fireworks sparked, and then sent the whole bunch up to the sky, and a big firework exploded above.

Su Shen looked up at the sky and smiled.

The fireworks came back to light, and only one firework was sprayed into the sky, and the rest were controlled at half a meter high, and sparks were sprayed out in bunches.

Brighten up the surroundings.

When the pen was illuminated by the bright light, Su Shen saw its appearance clearly, and then the smile froze on his lips.He brought the pen close to his eyes and stared carefully at the pattern on the cap, which looked exactly like the pen that appeared under the tombstone every year.

The fireworks in the back shot up a beam of brighter light.

Song Hailin also looked at him and said, "Just an ordinary pen, let me buy it from our house."

Su Shen also followed the light to see clearly, the metal ring on it was silver, different from the pen that appeared every year.

That's right, there are pens of this kind everywhere, and the pattern of a brand is similar.

"Happy birthday." Song Hailin said awkwardly.

Holding the pen, Su Shen looked up and smiled at Song Hailin.

Song Hailin's mind buzzed, and he couldn't control it anymore.

Su Shen's front face was hit by the back side, and the fireworks that were igniting spontaneously reflected the ground brightly, the corners of his mouth were raised, and there were small pits on both sides.

The fireworks on the ground seemed to explode in his head.

The moment he saw Su Shen's smiling face, he suddenly became firm, what Pan Shicheng said was fart!

What kind of psychological hints, what is just a sense of belonging, what is not really like, are all farts!

He just likes Su Shen!

Su Shen, I fucking like you!

Not fake!

I really like you more than the tip of a needle!

There is no reason at all, nothing, just like you!

I just like you!You bite me!

Su Shen raised his face and smiled, and slowly lowered it.

The fireworks that spontaneously ignited behind were also exhausted, and they went out reluctantly.

Only then did Song Hailin come to his senses, God, what was in his heart, he accidentally said it out.

There was no sound around, because it was winter, there was not even the noise of small bugs, the surrounding was empty, and Song Hailin felt that his mind was also a bit empty.

I don't know how long it took, and a few dogs barking came from a distant village.

Song Hailin suddenly felt his arm being pulled.

The next second, Su Shen suddenly came over and gnawed on his arm.