Baima Weiyang

"Hmm." A soft cough came from outside the door.I didn't have time to push Tashi Puncuo away, but he turned around one step faster than me.At the stone intersection, a middle-aged man in a sand-brown Tibetan robe looked at us embarrassingly.

"Daddy..." I yelled cowardly. "Yeah." He walked into the courtyard, nodded gently to me, but glanced at my side, "Tashi, remember to take it into the house next time." He said, looking at me again The two debated for a while, "...this is not good."

Tashi Pingcuo did not speak.

My mind was in a mess, and I stood there blankly for a while, and when I came back to my senses, I found that there was no one in the courtyard.Entering the door in a trance, Grandma has already prepared dinner.

But looking at the table full of food, I can't get my appetite.I have never liked to eat Tibetan-style fried liver, fried lung slices and so on. I only drink some fermented bean curd porridge.The people at the dinner table, except for Dunzhu, all have their own concerns.So after a meal, everyone was silent.

Sitting against the low wall, the cool night wind blew across her cheeks, and her broken hair was tickled for a while.Looking up at the distant night sky, the satin curtain is black and the stars are silver.Unknown insects and birds in the distance cooed, like a movement of changing scenes.Trying to enjoy all this, but my heart is still not soft.

As soon as I close my eyes, the serious or gentle faces of my parents will overlap and intersect in my mind, making me unable to breathe normally.How should I explain it to them?Although they knew about me and Tsangyang Gyatso, in their eyes, it was just a dream.However, I can no longer hold others in my heart.

If everything in Drepung Monastery had never happened, I would still give myself a chance to try to accept another person.But now, I don't even have the courage to try.Reluctantly marrying Zhaxi Pingcuo is also a kind of harm to him.I've already carried him once... I turned my head and looked at the half-opened window on the second floor, where the faint butter lamp was flickering.How long has it been since he smiled?One year or two years?It's been too long for me to remember.Although he never liked to laugh, at least he was happy before...

No matter how close we are on the surface, the rift between me and him seems to be there forever.He is my family, and I cannot avoid it like I did with Ngawang Rinchen.When I was far away in Lhasa, I could control myself not to think about him.But now under the same roof, everything about him is like an iron horse on the corner of the eaves.As long as there is wind blowing, there will be ringing sounds in my heart.

The pain was oppressive and intense, and it tormented me day and night.Perhaps in the eyes of my parents, I was cruel.Not only did they fail to repay their kindness in nurturing, but they also hurt their only son emotionally.However, only I know.I was crueler than they imagined, I even looked for the shadow of another person in Zhaxi Puncuo...

There was a bitterness in his mouth.As long as it is about that person, a little joy and joy can be magnified a hundred times and a thousand times, and so is pain.Since I came to this time and space, I seem to always encounter all kinds of troubles that I can't solve.Strange to say, I have never talked about a relationship in modern times.When I came here, God directly smashed a peach blossom tree for me.But looking at the strings of pink on the branches, I can no longer laugh.The wind, the flowers, the snow and the moon must have that fate to bear...

"Ajiala." Suddenly a tender hand was placed on my shoulder. I was startled, and my body suddenly slid down the low wall. The sore buttocks, and Mei Duo's panicked cheeks came into view.She placed a black object on the low wall with her hands, and then hurriedly helped me up, "I'm sorry, Ajiala, I didn't mean to..."

"Ah... It's okay, it's okay, I was too engrossed in my thoughts, and didn't notice you." I sat back on her arm again, and I couldn't help being cruel. Otherwise, one day I would be really sick from fright.Quietly glanced to the side, but still didn't see what it was.

Mei Duo reached out and hugged it back into her arms, bit her lips, and looked at me with some hesitation, "Ajiala, is Elder Tashi at home?"

I froze for a moment, then glanced at the window on the second floor.If this guy doesn't have the habit of jumping out of windows, he should be. "Are you looking for him?" Looking at Mei Duo, she flushed with shame.Before waiting for an answer, she had already half stood up, "I'll call for you right now!" Mei Duo cried out in surprise when she heard it, "Ah, no, no, no!" Looking at the hand held by her, I Can't help laughing, "Tell me, what will I give you Brother Tashi again this time?"

"Oh, Ajiala!" Mei Duo stomped her feet angrily, but didn't dare to look at me.I rubbed my eyelids on purpose, "Huh? Could it be that they came to see me off this time?!" As soon as the words finished, Mei Duo finally raised her head and glared at me angrily.I quickly smiled, "Mei Duo, a girl, it's not good to be too shy."

"...Ajiala is just talking nonsense." Mei Duo looked disapproving, but her tightly clenched fingers relaxed.

"Okay, Guan Gongmei. Let Ajiala see what a good thing it is this time." As I said, I snatched the "black" from her hand, and after a closer look, it turned out to be Shuangguozixiang .

"Ajiala made fun of me again!" Mei Duo was still dissatisfied with the nickname I gave.I shook my head and sighed in amazement. The production process of this kind of Tibetan boots in Guozixiang is very complicated, and the bare soles have to be covered with five or six layers of self-tanned cowhide.Not to mention the pair in hand, the workmanship and inlays are first-class and excellent.

Looking at the beautiful girl in front of me with admiration, I clicked my tongue, "Mei Duo, you are so infatuated..."

"What, Ajiala, you are talking nonsense again." Mei Duo blushed again.Listening to the idioms that came out of my mouth, I continued to tease non-stop, "Oh, I still don't admit it, I already speak the same accent as him..."

"Ah... I won't tell you anymore!" Mei Duo screamed angrily, looked up at the window on the second floor and rushed out the door.

Looking at her back disappearing into the night, he inexplicably felt the fruit in his hand sink.Mei Duo is the second daughter of Uncle Suolang's family in the next village. She has had a crush on Tashi Pingcuo since she was a child.It's just that she was too shy and afraid of being too naive, so Tashi Puncuo hardly paid attention to her.I just discovered it a year ago too.

At that time, Tashi Pingcuo was forced to go for a walk in the back mountain. He was not happy, so he found a piece of grass and lay down to bask in the sun.I could only wander around blindly, but in a daze, I bumped into Mei Duo who was hiding in the grass and peeping.Tashi Pingcuo seems to have known about this for a long time, but the handsome guys are more attractive, pretending to be nothing, and turning a blind eye to Mei Duo.

So I couldn't stand it anymore.After going back and forth, Mei Duo and I became good friends, and often confide in me.Although Mei Duo was shy, she was not shy in her bones.In fact, she has already seen that Tashi Puncuo likes me.But after knowing that my feelings for Tashi Puncuo were just siblings, she became more courageous and often asked me to help deliver things to Tashi Phuntso.

At the beginning, when Mei Duo saw her sweetheart, her legs shook like a sieve.But it made me laugh wildly, but I stopped laughing under the threat of Tashi Pingcuo's eyes.Probably at that time, Tashi Pingcuo's attitude towards Mei Duo changed. He no longer turned a blind eye to Mei Duo, and occasionally said a few words.This made Mei Duo very happy.

Over the past year, I have been training her face. Although she has made some achievements, it is impossible to get away from the iron wall.I also asked Mei Duo in private, wouldn't it be tiring to pay unilaterally like this?I just remember that Mei Duo smiled sweetly and shook her head, and then she told me that she didn't ask for anything, as long as she could see Brother Tashi from time to time.

At that point I sighed.People here are so simple.To like is to like, no matter how much resistance there is, I will still like it.But liking is not disturbing, no matter how much you like, you will not force it.In fact, think about yourself before, why not?It's just that after getting more, I don't want to let go of some things.

Looking up to the second floor, the windows are dimly illuminated by the bright yellow lights... For Tashi Pingcuo, is it considered worthwhile...

"Hey, trouble! I'm thinking about who I'm hurting again..."

When the innocent voice came, my eyes suddenly moved down, and I was facing Dundup's unchanged baby face for thousands of years.He was wrinkling his eyebrows and walking towards me with disdain.

Ignored the bad title, anyway, the first time he saw me, he put the vixen on my head.The so-called first impression is hard to change, and I didn't want to struggle too much, so I warmly greeted him to come and sit.Being entangled in a mess, now he is the only one in the family who can speak unscrupulously.Of course, this unscrupulousness does not include my unscrupulous love.

I think he always says that I am a disaster and loves to seduce men, but I know he is just a venomous mouth.But if one day he knew that I had abducted the highest-ranking person in Tibet, what words would he use to describe me?Just thinking about it makes me shudder.I couldn't help stopping my train of thought.

When I came back to my senses, Dunzhu was already sitting beside me, looking at me carefully with a pair of big black eyes.Although he looked a bit like a green turtle, I found myself still not happy.

Sighing, I asked in a very deep tone, "Little Zhuzi, have you ever liked anyone?"

"Don't scream so disgustingly, I don't know you that well!" Dunzhu, who couldn't grasp the point, moved aside with disgust.He gave him a weak look, "I'm your enemy, isn't that familiar enough?"

After thinking about it, "That's true." He sat back again.

"Alas—" I reached out and hugged Guozixiang in my arms, but my chest felt chilly.Dunzhu broke my wrist, glanced casually at my arms, "Are you jealous of Mei Duo?"

I was taken aback and turned to look at him, "How is that possible."

"That's good." Dun Zhu looked away in relief.I couldn't help but feel strange, I stretched my neck and leaned closer to his face, "Huh? Do you like Mei Duo?"

As a result, he slapped me head and face, and I grinned my teeth in pain, "Damn Zhu! I hit you so hard, believe it or not, I'm going to find Tashi Pingcuo to deal with you right now!"

Dunzhu was amused when he heard this, and quickly stretched out his long fingers, "Go, I'll go with you! See how he beats you so hard that your teeth are all over the place, and then don't ask me to help you."

I was choked up speechless by what he said, and after thinking about it, I couldn't help being a little angry, "You actually eavesdropped on us?"

Dun Zhu flicked his sleeves in disdain, "You're so stupid, you still want to hide it from me!"

"Oh, so even you know..." He sighed a little depressed, probably not born for acting, and put it on his face when he was worried.I don't know how my parents feel when they see me like this?

My body was shaken by the cool wind, and I simply put my feet curled up on the stone tiles to the ground.Ignoring Dhondup on the side, I got up and walked a few steps towards the door.

"Why don't you like him?!" The innocent voice stopped me, the somewhat hoarse ending whispered in the early summer night wind.

I stopped in my tracks and asked indifferently, "Then why don't you like Yang Jin?" Feeling a change in the aura of the people behind me, I turned around gloatingly, and Dunzhu really had a furious expression on his face. "Just pretend I didn't ask!" He waved his wide sleeves angrily, and he blew past me like a gust of wind, and accidentally slapped me back.

Yang Jin is a girl from the next door, and she fell in love with Dundup at first sight.Unlike Mei Duo, Yang Jin has a galloping arrogance in his body, and he stalks Dunzhu whenever he gets the chance.In front of women other than me, Dunzhu has always been a handsome young man, and he couldn't even refuse politely, so he had to hide like a weasel.

Speaking of which, Yang Jin really has two skills, and he can subdue Dunzhu that magic star.Next time, I must let Mei Duo learn from her... Unconsciously tightening her arms, her chest hurts a little from being pressed against by the hard thing.When I lowered my gaze, I felt that the Guozi Lane in my arms had been warmed by me.

Alas, I can't manage my own affairs well, and I still have time to think about other people's affairs.If Tashi Pingcuo can be easily captured by Mei Duo, then I don't have to worry about it here.Although the childhood sweetheart of Zhaxi Pingcuo was the original "Dolma", I still know him quite well.He is not someone who is easy to let go, at least not now...

Turning around and locking the latch, I carried Guozi Lane and walked upstairs.The creaking stairs of Alderwort, like Dundup’s innocent and hoarse voice, repeated the question in my ear step by step...why don’t you like it?I can't explain clearly, but the dependence on Tashi Puncuo cannot be measured by the standard of love.That's not pure family affection, but it can't reach love either.Maybe if we meet in another relationship, the answer will be clear.But in this life, we are destined to be only siblings.

This is fate... It's irresistible... If I didn't travel through time and space, would Dawa Zhuoma and Tashi Pingcuo be together?And Tsangyang Gyatso is still a Living Buddha revered by tens of thousands of people in Tibet. Can he see through the world of mortals from the highest and loneliest position?

This kind of beginning is not what I want, but how will it end...I'm afraid that all of this is closely related to me, and it is completely out of my control...

I paused outside Tashi Puncuo's door curtain, hesitated for a while, and stretched out my hand to push open the door of my room.I lit the butter lamp, and carefully placed Guozixiang on the lacquered wooden table, and I fell headfirst on the bed that was still covered with a thin serge mattress.Turning his head to look out the window, it was already dark, so he might as well bring Guozi Lane to him tomorrow.

Every day at night, the wound in my heart will be aching, accompanied by the deep-rooted memory, cutting my remaining rationality like a revolving lantern scene after scene.Every time at this time, the person I dare not meet the most is Tashi Puncuo.I always feel that the shadow of that person is swaying on his body, and this overlap is becoming more and more similar... Like an invisible rope, holding me tightly, I want to get close for no reason, but I never dare...

I know very well in my heart that no matter how painful it is, I have to hold back.If I really have to go, I won't be the only one hurting... I smiled lowly and covered my tearful eyes with my hands.I accidentally touched the agate bead chain on my wrist, and I looked through the narrow openings of my eyes, and the warm yellow firelight in the room became colder and colder...