Baima Weiyang

Sitting stiffly for a while, I didn't react to the surrounding environment until I felt a slight pain in my back.My mood is like a mess of cotton wool, I have no way to start, so I can only watch helplessly.I understand very well that this feeling cannot be cleared up in a short while.Not intending to struggle any more, I shook my head, took a deep breath and let it out long.

Standing up abruptly, I don't know if it was too violent, and my head was slightly dizzy.I lowered my head and swept away the empty wine glass, and I couldn't help curling the corners of my mouth. No wonder everyone uses alcohol to relieve their sorrows when they are depressed. I dare say that it also has the effect of a catalyst.

"My sister, what's the matter? Are you uncomfortable?" Seeing that I was not feeling well, Wangmo couldn't help walking over quickly to support me.I shook my head and smiled back, "It's okay, I probably got a little anxious just now."

Wangmo nodded, reached out and patted the back of my hand, "Ngawang Rinchen is waiting for you upstairs." He glanced at the stairs as he spoke.I couldn't help laughing, "Okay, I'm going to meet the boss's big client right now."

"Hey - look at what you said, I dare to say that Wangmu is still a money-obsessed master!" She smiled and gave me a look, but pushed me towards the stairs with her hand.He was half pulled and half pulled over, but his legs and feet became more and more stiff. "Okay, okay, I'll go up by myself, so I won't delay your business." I waved my hands, and I took a breath, although I was smiling, my palms were covered with cold sweat.

I turned my head and glanced at Wangmu who continued to greet the guests. I pulled back and stared blankly at the Alderwort stairs under my feet.

Stepping on the last step, I glanced around.There were not many guests upstairs, and that handsome figure came into my eyes almost instantly.Ngawang Rinchen was playing with the wine glass in his hand, looking at the side face in the distance, with a calm expression.I always felt that there was dust on his body, but now it seems more and more obvious.

As if sensing my footsteps, Ngawang Rinchen suddenly turned his head.As soon as my eyes touched, my shoulders trembled almost invisibly.I felt the corners of my mouth curl up, but my heart was slowly covered by a layer of bitterness.It has been several days, but Ngawang Rinchen's face is still pale.The only difference is that the eyes that were dull and dull that day are now dark and shiny.

Inexplicably saddened to see it, and afraid that the emotions in my heart would be leaked, I hurriedly turned my eyes away.I didn't dare to raise my eyes to look at him until I got closer and pulled out the short stool and sat down opposite Ngawang Rinchen.Ngawang Rinchen still looked at me indifferently, the curve of his lips was slightly loose.

Seeing him reaching for the jug, I quickly picked up the wine glass on the table.I stretched out my arms to pick it up, but unexpectedly the wall of the cup hit the spout with a "ding".I stared blankly at the transparent liquid that fell into the bottom of the glass, but Ngawang Rinchen's face overlapped with Sanjay Gyatso's for a moment from the corner of my eye.

My heart tightened, and I became more and more intuitive that some kind of agreement had been reached between them, which was closely related to me, and even involved Tsangyang Gyatso.And today's meeting...

Suddenly I didn't dare to think any deeper, I shook my head, and when I got back to my thoughts, the wine glass in my hand was already overflowing.After taking a sip, I slowly turned my gaze to the person in front of me, "Ngawang Rinchen...how are you these few days?"

Ngawang Rinchen looked at me, and although there was a slight smile on his lips, the expression on his whole face did not change, "Same as usual."

"Oh." I nodded in bewilderment.The atmosphere became a little dull for a while.Although I know that Ngawang Rinchen is not a talkative person, the silence today makes me a little restless.The fingers holding the wine glass tightened, I raised my head suddenly, but Ngawang Rinchen also looked over tacitly.As soon as our eyes met, I immediately coughed in a disguised way, and only then did I speak slowly, "Come to me today, what's the matter?"

Ngawang Rinchen rolled his eyes for a moment, but the eyes intertwined with mine were slightly misaligned, "It's nothing, I just want to see you."

I was stunned for a moment, and my heart was stunned for a while, but after I realized it, my face became hot.If this was in the past, I would have ridiculed him without hesitation, but now, when the words came to my lips, I found that I couldn't say anything.

Seeing that I didn't respond for a long time, Ngawang Rinchen couldn't help chuckling, "Scared you?" He raised his eyes to meet those bright eyes, and there seemed to be something funny in Ning Mi's eyes.I couldn't help but glared at him, "It's a small trick, you still want to scare me!" I couldn't help laughing as I said that.

I raised my glass and tapped the wine glass in Ngawang Rinchen's hand, and I waved my hand, "Come on, it's done!" Seeing Ngawang Rinchen looking up to drink, I stopped the movement in my hand.Staring blankly at his raised jaw, I felt an inexplicable soreness in my heart.A sentence suddenly flashed in my mind: Some truths can only be said when joking... Is this really the case? My vision gradually blurred.Now that things have happened, he can ignore me and even hate me.But, he didn't, he still treats me as before, using his way to ease the heaviness in my heart.

Turning my gaze to scan his cheek, I don't know why, although I am close in front of my eyes, I suddenly feel that he is so far away from me.But wasn't I responsible for all of this? Slowly pulling him closer, but pushing him away in an instant.There was a tingling pain in my eyelids, I stretched out my hands and rubbed them heavily, then raised my head.The wine poured into the throat, but it didn't have the original intensity.

I showed the bottom of the cup to Ngawang Rinchen, and I couldn't help curling my lips, "Don't learn from the Han people, let's just drink from a wooden bowl!" Ngawang Rinchen looked at me silently, and then squeezed Wine Glass smiled.He naturally has a literary temperament in his bones, but I really don't want to be arty.Besides, with my drinking capacity, I can't enjoy myself until I drink this small cup until the year of the monkey.

Turn around and greet Jiayang to change, the people under Wangmu are quick to do things.After a while, two wooden bowls were brought to the table, along with two copper frog-shaped jugs filled with wine.The wooden bowls in Lhasa taverns are basically not expensive, and are mostly made of rhododendron tree roots. The color and texture are not high-quality, but the capacity is large enough.Anyway, I think it is much more pleasing to the eye than the jade wine cup.

"Come on, you're welcome." I grabbed the wine jug and poured a full bowl into Ngawang Rinchen's wooden bowl.He seems to have gotten used to my anti-client attitude.

When I first entered the tavern, although I was joking with Wangmu, I really didn't have a penny on me.Anyway, Ngawang Rinchen is not short of money, so he won't let me be the host anyway.So I basically sprinkled and poured, and there was a smell of wine all around.But Ngawang Rinchen just looked at me with a smile.

After drinking like this for a while, the person opposite suddenly froze.I raised my eyes to look at him consciously, and when I met those bright eyes, I lost any emotion for a moment.

"Dolma." Ngawang Rinchen paused, "You don't have to pay attention to what my father said that day."

When the warm voice came, I resisted the urge to look away, but my eyelids ached from being closed for a long time, "What about you? Will you take it to heart?"

Ngawang Rinchen was taken aback for a moment, then suddenly glanced down.Seeing that he didn't speak, I picked up the jug and poured some into his wooden bowl.Hearing the "gudong chug dong" of the wine pouring into the bottom of the bowl, I regretted what I just said.Now that you have decided to bear it, why should you care whether the guilt is seven points or three points?

I twitched the corners of my mouth in a self-deprecating manner, and I quickly regained my composure.Just about to say something else to change the subject, Ngawang Rinchen raised his head.He stared straight at me, with a calm expression on his face, but complicated eyes, "If you're all right, I'll let you go too."

My heart trembled, and I froze for a moment, but a chill came from my fingers.Looking back, I saw the white wine poured from the spout flowing into the wooden bowl along my fingers.Startled, I quickly erected the jug.

"You didn't pay the bill, so you planned to wash your hands with it?" Seeing that I was still in a state of wandering, Ngawang Rinchen couldn't help but reached out and took the flagon in my hand.The momentary contact, a different kind of temperature came from the fingertips, and I tightened my fingers subconsciously.

"Where, I was just careless." I explained casually, and I glanced at Ngawang Rinchen, "Even if it is, you don't need that little money!" Lifting my eyes, I saw that the wooden bowl in front of him was already full. It overflowed, and before I could think about it, I stretched out my hand instinctively, "Give this to me." As soon as the words fell, I took a sip from the wooden bowl in my hand.There was a coolness on my lips, I looked down at the sparkling wine, but I was taken aback.

I used to feel that my mind was slow and my movements were not fast, but today... the wine in my mouth suddenly tasted bitter.Originally, I was just embarrassed to let him drink the white wine that stained my fingers, but now it's fine, the two wooden bowls are all stained with my saliva.If it was before, I would not compare it.But now... Subconsciously, he wanted to turn around and look for Jia Yang, but his hand lightened.

Looking back with some surprise, I saw that Ngawang Rinchen was bringing the wooden bowl to his lips, taking a sip, and his bright eyes slowly caught me, "Didn't you say that Tibetans don't care about trifles? Do more."

I froze, feeling a little depressed.I have always been afraid that he would not be able to get along with me as usual, but now I realize that the person who really cannot relax is myself.I twitched the corners of my mouth in a self-deprecating manner, and I nodded towards Ngawang Rinchen.

He didn't look at me anymore, he just reached out to pour me wine, his gentle movements made me a little dazed.He took a sip on his back, pouring the spirits down his throat, and his voice seemed to become dull, "You're going back to the White House with Diba, aren't you?"

Ngawang Rinchen paused with the hand holding the jug, lowered his eyes, his eyes were a little dim, "Yes, I'm here to say goodbye to you." He raised his eyes and stared at me, the dark eyes could not be concealed .I grinned, but I didn't dare to ask frankly like last time: Will you come back?It seems that from the time we met to now, I have said goodbye, and he has said goodbye, but never really said goodbye.

But this time...

"Woo--" There was a loud and soft cry from outside the window, followed by the sound of a horse's hooves kicking in place.I was taken aback, and looked downstairs through the window, but met a pair of gloomy eyes.There was no surprise, or even dissatisfaction, even though his words just now made my heart shudder.I quietly looked at Diba, who was holding the rein and controlling the horse below him. He just glanced at me, turned his gaze, and landed on Ngawang Rinchen next to me, "It's time, come down."

Although the tone was cold and hard, there was no lack of a trace of relaxation.Seeing that the boy next to Diba was leading a beautiful horse, I turned my gaze back.Ngawang Rinchen just stared downstairs and did not answer for a long time.

"Have another drink?" I pulled back, picked up the flagon and slowly filled two wooden bowls.I stretched out my hand to Ngawang Rinchen, but he didn't move for a long time. I just felt that the wooden bowl in my hand gradually sank.After staring at the person in front of him for a while, he lightened his hand.I lowered my tingling arm and watched Ngawang Rinchen drank the wine in one gulp.It seems that he is rarely seen drinking like this in his impression. As he thought about it, various figures in his mind overlapped.

I don't know if it's because of drunkenness, but my vision slowly blurred.It wasn't until a dark shadow approached me that my thoughts were awakened.I stared blankly at the slender and beautiful index finger slowly stretching towards me, but suddenly stopped at a short distance from my cheek.

I froze for a moment, turned my head to look at my backed right foot, and felt a chill in my chest.