Tiandi Baiju

On New Year's Eve, Zhou Luoyang decided to go to Shinsaibashi in Osaka to visit the second-hand shop to see what second-hand goods he could bring back to the shop in Wanshi for sale. After the signing of the Plaza Accord in the 80s, which triggered the Great Depression, many Japanese had to sell some of their family collections in order to make a living, and bought second-hand shops, which are called second-hand shops.

The Shinsaibashi area has the most second-hand stores. Of course, most of the goods in the store are luxury bags and watches.

"You should learn from others," Du Jing glanced at the resplendent and resplendent medieval store, tourists come and go, high-end and luxurious, and Chang'an clocks and antiques seem to be two planes, "This decoration makes people very shopping at first glance. want."

Le Yao said, "Yes, I just want to buy them all."

"It's you who should learn from others," Zhou Luoyang retorted, "Does the boss know how much the shop rents here?"

"I said decoration." Du Jing said.

"Go buy us a drink," Zhou Luoyang said, "Le Yao is thirsty, he wants a matcha milk coffee."

Du Jing said: "He is obviously not thirsty."

"I'm thirsty." Le Yao smiled.

So Du Jing went to line up to buy drinks, Zhou Luoyang pushed a wheelchair, stopped outside a second-hand shop, and looked at the window.

"Do you want to dismiss him?" Le Yao said, "What do you want to do?"

Zhou Luoyang said, "Why are you so smart? Do you want to buy something?"

"I don't need it." Le Yao replied.

Zhou Luoyang looked over one by one, and finally saw a piece of ancient jade from a Japanese collector in a window. Judging by the style, it was obviously from China.

"I want to buy something for both of you," Zhou Luoyang said.

"I really don't want it," Le Yao said, "You've already given me an Atlas watch, and I can't wear any more."

"Do you think this is suitable for Du Jing?" Zhou Luoyang liked that piece of jade very much. He has liked things with a Chinese flavor since he was a child-a gentleman has no reason, and jade does not go away.Du Jing had already taken off the Eye of Versailles. Although he carried it with him when he went out, he no longer wore it on his wrist. Zhou Luoyang felt that it was necessary to give him some other accessories.

He likes that when a boy unbuttons his shirt collar and exposes his chest, the red string tied around his neck is faintly exposed. Looking down along the red string, it is a warm and smooth jade pendant. In Chinese customs, jade has a guardian the power of.

"It's fine if you think it suits you." Le Yao said.

Zhou Luoyang has developed a habit since he was a child. Even if his finances are a little tight, he will always ask the price when he sees something he likes. Du Jing is even more like spending money recklessly.

He pushed Le Yao into the store, and when he came out half an hour later, Du Jing was facing him with anger.

"Where have you been?!" Du Jing said angrily, "In the blink of an eye and turning around, you ran so far?! Why don't you answer the phone!"

"Aren't I here?" Zhou Luoyang didn't know whether to laugh or cry, "Why are you so fierce?"

Le Yao immediately said: "I want to go into the store to have a look..."

Du Jing ignored Le Yao, and said to Zhou Luoyang, "Do you know that I walked this street three times!"

Zhou Luoyang realized that Du Jing might fall ill, and immediately apologized: "I was wrong, I lost track of time when I was shopping."

Fortunately, Du Jing was only angry normally and didn't turn into mania. He just looked around uneasily and said irritably, "Forget it."

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry," Zhou Luoyang said, "Don't be angry, where's the milk tea?"

"Throw it away." Du Jing said indifferently, and wanted to reprimand Zhou Luoyang a few more words, but Zhou Luoyang stood innocently and looked at him.

Du Jing then went back to the milk tea shop to get the drink he had left.

"It's getting late, let's go for New Year's Eve." Du Jing got into the car and said, "What did you buy?"

Zhou Luoyang tidied up the big and small bags, and said, "I bought two clothes for you when I went back to sell."

Du Jing put his hand into his left trouser pocket, Zhou Luoyang said unexpectedly: "You also bought something? Why didn't I see it?"

"It's nothing." Du Jing said casually unnaturally.

They entered Universal Studios for the second time in the evening to participate in this all-night New Year's Eve event.

"Hey," Zhou Luoyang said, "Are you still angry? I just got lost for a while."

"No." Du Jing looked a little strange, and said, "I don't want to talk."

Zhou Luoyang asked: "Are you going to change the stage?"

Du Jing didn't suffer from illness for almost the whole of December, but according to Zhou Luoyang's understanding of him, after Du Jing's depression ended, he would stay in a normal state for a long time, until after a period of time, the mania suddenly broke out, and then soon turned into depression , then manic, then depressed, two rounds pass, and then enter a stable period.

"I don't know," Du Jing said, "Maybe. If I behave abnormally later, please ignore me and don't let me ruin your New Year."

Zhou Luoyang hesitated to speak, the line was long and tiring, it seemed that it was not a good idea to go out for New Year's Eve.

Le Yao glanced at Du Jing and said, "Did you not take your medicine today?"

"I ate it," Du Jing said to Leyao, "I ate it when I went out."

"It may snow at night," Zhou Luoyang said, "I remember that you hardly have it in winter."

Du Jing said: "I like winter, but I am afraid of spring. When spring comes, I will become abnormal, like a lunatic. You can do whatever you want, just pretend that I don't exist."

When they entered Universal Studios, Du Jing said: "I won't play anymore, I'll take the bottom seat, you can play with Le Yao, come over later, and pay attention to your phone."

Zhou Luoyang didn't force Du Jing either, and pushed Le Yao to line up for the project.After walking around all day today, Le Yao was also tired, and said, "I don't think we should abandon him."

"I think so too." Zhou Luoyang suggested, "Let's go find him."

It was getting dark, and in Universal Studios, the bright lights lit up.Du Jing sat down at the seat of the New Year's Eve event, wearing a black windbreaker, staring silently in a daze, looking into the distance.When the two brothers came back, Du Jing glanced at them and said nothing.

It was getting darker and darker, and the three of them watched the stage of the light show together, and tourists came in one after another.

"Is it cold?" Du Jing asked suddenly, "Where's the furnace?"

"It's for Le Yao." Zhou Luoyang asked Le Yao, "Are you cold?"

"Not at all." Le Yao said.

It's still warm today, and the snow hasn't fallen yet.

Le Yao lowered his head, turned on the live broadcast of tonight's Hongbai concert on his mobile phone, and put on his headphones.

Zhou Luoyang and Du Jing each leaned a small angle.

"Du Jing," Zhou Luoyang said suddenly, "What are you thinking?"

Du Jing said, "Think about the past."

It was completely dark, and Du Jing was playing with something in his hand over and over again.

Zhou Luoyang asked, "What are you holding?"

"It's for you," Du Jing said, "When buying milk tea, I bought it with extra money."

Du Jing handed it to Zhou Luoyang and said, "New Year's gift."

It was a small, heart-shaped keychain with liquid and glittery bits of paper in it, and a little snowman standing on the snow and rocking.

"I bought this for you at Shinsaibashi." Zhou Luoyang took out the ancient jade and handed it to Du Jing.

Du Jing took it, and Zhou Luoyang said, "I forgot the time when I was negotiating the price, I'm sorry."

Du Jing didn't speak, holding the ancient jade, hesitant to speak.

"No," Du Jing suddenly became a little restrained, and said, "I was too anxious."

"Du Jing." Zhou Luoyang's heart beat wildly at this moment.

Le Yao raised his head from the phone, glanced at the two of them, and then lowered his head again in the silence.

Du Jing: "What?"

Zhou Luoyang struggled to find the words. Before going out this time, he thought a lot about their relationship and their future. He wanted to find a suitable time to chat with Du Jing, but every time the words came to his lips , but always unable to speak out.

"Have you...thought about our future?" Zhou Luoyang said nervously.

"How soon?" Du Jing said, "One year or ten years? Or farther?"

Le Yao suddenly raised his head and said, "I'll sit over there for a while."

"No," Zhou Luoyang said, "Sit down and don't move your seat."

Le Yao was a little embarrassed, then nodded, and looked down at the phone.

Du Jing looked at Zhou Luoyang from the beginning to the end, without leaving his eyes for half a second.

Zhou Luoyang suddenly laughed and said, "Maybe... I thought too much, I thought you understood."

"I understand." Du Jing said suddenly, moved sideways, sat face to face with Zhou Luoyang, stretched out his hand, his fingers seemed to want to touch Zhou Luoyang's face, but retracted.

The moment Du Jing said "I understand", Zhou Luoyang's heart beat so fast that he could hardly breathe.

"Is...is that so?" Zhou Luoyang thought he heard it wrong, "I think so? Is it?"

"Yes," Du Jing finally admitted, "I felt it a long time ago."

Zhou Luoyang's eyes turned red instantly, he couldn't believe it.

"You have asked me more than once," Du Jing said, "What is the life I want most, but I dare not tell you, because...because..."

Zhou Luoyang said, "Why? I don't understand."

Du Jing said: "Because I am sick, and my illness cannot be cured."

"It doesn't matter," Zhou Luoyang said seriously, "It really doesn't matter."

"It doesn't matter?" Du Jing said.

Zhou Luoyang looked at him intently, and then he leaned over to kiss Du Jing's face.

"No." Du Jing avoided Zhou Luoyang's actions and turned his head away.

"I want to face my emotions seriously," Zhou Luoyang said in a low voice, "I don't want to lie to myself anymore, I don't know when I had this idea, maybe after you came back, maybe after you left Before, anyway..."

"You also feel this way, don't you?" Zhou Luoyang said, "Du Jing, it's like this. I know you've been... You can't tell the difference, or you don't want to cross the line..."

"No," Du Jing avoided Zhou Luoyang's gaze, and said to himself, "No."

Zhou Luoyang was a little sad, and said with a smile: "Oh, it's nothing, just treat me as me..."

"No," Du Jing turned his head, looked at Zhou Luoyang squarely, and said, "I love you, Zhou Luoyang."

In an instant, all the tourists cheered together, and the first wave of fireworks rose into the sky, blooming in the night sky.

Before twelve o'clock, Universal's fireworks were set off in batches ahead of schedule. Amidst the cheers, neither of them turned their heads.The bright night sky illuminated the scars on Du Jing's face.

And Le Yao didn't look up all the time, still brushing his phone with his head down.

"You..." Zhou Luoyang's voice trembled, "Can you say it again?"

"I love you, Luoyang." Du Jing said seriously.

Zhou Luoyang's mood at this moment was like that grand firework, until everything returned to silence.

"But we can't do this." Du Jing said, "I can't control it. As I said, I can't fall in love, which will make my condition worse. I thought about... alienating you, never seeing you again, But I can't help it, I'm in more pain. The reason why I came back is to stay by your side, even if I can't survive, it's better than being alone."

"I know," Zhou Luoyang replied softly, "It's good, you don't have to blame yourself. At first I was also very conflicted, I didn't know what to do... I can only say that no matter what happens, I will be by your side by your side."

As he said that, Zhou Luoyang smiled at Du Jing, just like when they first met, he didn't ask for more, that's enough.

Du Jing said, "But do you know what I was thinking that day?"

"What day?" Zhou Luoyang asked.

"When you realize that your feelings for you are no longer friends," Du Jing said, "you can treat it as any day."

"What are you thinking?" Zhou Luoyang said, "Is this why you left me?"

"Not exactly." Du Jing said, "I think, I don't know why, I have an impulse. I want to go back to my birthday..."

Zhou Luoyang didn't speak, but stared at Du Jing in a daze.

"...Driving that car, you sit in the passenger seat," Du Jing murmured, "I turned on the music, and it was Eminem's "Stan" that played."

"Let's fly off the cliff together, with you by my side, and together, we'll rush into death."

"You asked me what kind of future I want. I just want to be with you, back to that day, you were with me, and we died with great vigor."

Du Jing finally said: "So, I love you, but I can't control it. If I destroy myself, I will also destroy you."

Zhou Luoyang didn't speak for a long while.

"I know you don't want to do this, and I know you can't understand." Du Jing said, "I'm a lunatic. Once we pierce this layer of window paper, the pain in the future will only be greater than the happiness..."

"Yes," Zhou Luoyang interrupted Du Jing, and said, "Yes, Du Jing."

Du Jing: "..."

Du Jing stared at Zhou Luoyang in a daze.

"I am willing," Zhou Luoyang said, "I am absolutely willing. Do you think I will refuse, or use some reason that life is beautiful to enlighten you?"

At this moment, the tourists in Universal Studios cheered again. At 10:30, the second wave of fireworks bloomed, covering the sky and covering the sky, forming a heart-shaped pattern on the height of the castle where the light show was.

"You..." Du Jing's lips trembled.

"I am willing." Zhou Luoyang answered Du Jing repeatedly and seriously, "Listen clearly, Du Jing, I am willing to accompany you to do this. So when do you decide? Let's go together."

After finishing speaking, he looked up at the fleeting fireworks.

"Life is like a white horse passing through the gap between heaven and earth, all of a sudden." Zhou Luoyang said with a smile, "We are just travelers on white horses. How much difference does it make if one step is faster or one step slower? I just want to tell you that I am willing to accept your offer." Everything, and I am willing to be by your side forever, that’s all.”

This was the first time in Zhou Luoyang's life that he saw Du Jing cry.

Du Jing couldn't help trembling, his eyes were red, his lips trembled, tears ran down his handsome cheeks, his scars, and the corners of his mouth.

"Luoyang." Du Jing choked up, put his fist in front of him, and turned his head away.

Le Yao took out a tissue and handed it to Zhou Luoyang. Zhou Luoyang took it but did not give it to Du Jing.

He took Du Jing's hand, but Du Jing didn't avoid it this time. He turned over his palm and held Zhou Luoyang tightly.

"What day?" Zhou Luoyang asked in a low voice in the dark.

"The day you said 'I like you very much' in the cafeteria." Du Jing replied in the dark.

Wave after wave of fireworks roared into the sky.

To catch all his emotions - Zhou Luoyang finally understood this sentence, just want to do this, what they have to face bravely, not only joy, anger, sorrow, joy, but also the vast river of time, rolling Participated in the life and death of countless people.

And they are just two small gravels washed by the tide.

In the grand and long silence, Du Jing finally calmed down, and the crowd poured in, occupying the New Year's Eve fireworks area one after another.Zhou Luoyang said, "It's time to count down."

Du Jing was speechless for a while, Zhou Luoyang felt that he should be quiet for a while at this time, he turned his head and looked at Le Yao.Le Yao watched the whole process, but acted like nothing happened.Zhou Luoyang wanted to free his hands to take out his phone to take pictures, but Du Jing's hand was holding onto him and he wouldn't let go.

Zhou Luoyang had no choice but to take out the phone with the other hand and said, "Would you like to take a picture?"

"Shall I help you take pictures?" Le Yao said.

"Together." Zhou Luoyang said.

Le Yao said: "Is he all right?"

Du Jing didn't move or speak, Zhou Luoyang replied: "It's okay, he will be fine in a while."

Zhou Luoyang sat in the middle, trying his best to raise his hands. At the last moment, Du Jing raised his head and glanced at the camera.

The four weeks began to count down in Japanese, and at the same time, the music of Teresa Teng's "I Only Care About You" sounded throughout Universal Studios.

"...Yong! San! Reverse! Level [-]!"

The countdown sounded overwhelming, and large-scale fireworks rose into the sky at the same time. Zhou Luoyang pressed the shutter with a smile, and the fireworks illuminated their faces. People around waved light sticks together and sang loudly in Japanese, "Let time go by, I only care you".

"Happy New Year! Le Yao!"

"Happy New Year, brother."

"Happy New Year, Du Jing." Zhou Luoyang smiled at Du Jing, "I'll give you everything I have, no conditions, we don't need to trade."

Du Jing let go of Zhou Luoyang's hand, and hugged him forcefully with one hand. Amid the whistling fireworks and overwhelming cheers, he said in a low voice, "Luoyang, I will give you everything I have."