Tiandi Baiju

Du Jing's kiss on his face brought Zhou Luoyang back to his long memory in an instant.

They also drank a lot that day.In the ears are Fang Zhou, Fang Zhou's little boyfriend, and the crazy booing of the two couples.

"Kiss one, kiss one, kiss one!"

"Kiss one! Kiss one—"

It was clearly the truth, but it was turned into a big adventure.Zhou Luoyang finally put his arms around Du Jing's shoulders, laughed loudly, and kissed him forcibly.

Du Jing looked calm and composed, without any embarrassment or embarrassment.

It was after the Chinese New Year, the winter vacation ended, the spring when school started, winter and spring alternated, and when the weather warmed up, Du Jing's condition seemed very unstable.

Spring is the peak period for patients with mental disorders, and Du Jing has been acting up and down since winter, which made Zhou Luoyang very worried.

Du Jing was almost terribly silent—even if he hadn't stopped the medicine in spring, he didn't go to class, he didn't go to the archery club, he didn't go wandering outside at night, he didn't even go out.Zhou Luoyang's suggestion of going out to play didn't work anymore, Du Jing's answer was "I don't want to go" every time.

Zhou Luoyang had no choice but to "catch his emotions" instead of forcing him.

But he had to pay attention to Du Jing's movements. He was afraid that something would happen to him if he was left alone in the dormitory, so he tried not to go to class if he could. He stayed with him in the dormitory, brought him food back, and observed his movements.

In the end, Zhou Luoyang felt that going on like this was not an option, so he tried to ask Du Jing if he wanted to drive to Taihu Lake with Fang Zhou and a few friends.

After all, Fang Zhou suggested once during the Chinese New Year that he could go out to play when he was free. This kid would always do what he said, and never said polite words.

"Go as you want," Du Jing finally replied, "I'll be your driver."

At that time, Fang Zhou was studying photography at the China Academy of Art in Hangzhou, and changed to a fourth boyfriend. He decided to have a good relationship with this partner, and formally introduced his young boyfriend to his buddy Zhou Luoyang.

So Zhou Luoyang set off with Du Jing with apprehension for a three-day and two-night outing.

But it turns out that Zhou Luoyang was worrying too much. Du Jing was very cautious. In front of Zhou Luoyang's friends, he behaved like a normal person. The male and female couples who studied sculpture and painting in the Academy of Fine Arts chatted normally, and remembered their names, faithfully playing the role of a boy with few words.

Fang Zhou rented a four-bedroom family villa on the edge of Taihu Lake, and Zhou Luoyang and Du Jing slept in a big bed room at night.

But what worried Zhou Luoyang was that after Du Jing returned to his room and fell asleep after socializing during the day, he returned to the state of not saying a word in the dormitory.

"Are you okay?" Zhou Luoyang said.

"A little tired." Du Jing looked at the ceiling in a daze, and stopped answering Zhou Luoyang.

Zhou Luoyang already regretted it. He vaguely felt that he might have made a mistake, but he didn't know what to do. A normal person might not be able to bear this long-term low pressure, and he would be driven crazy sooner.

"Go back if you feel uncomfortable," Zhou Luoyang said, "Or let's play by ourselves?"

Du Jing shook his head, turned over, and fell asleep with his back facing Zhou Luoyang.

Zhou Luoyang restrained his urge to talk to him. When getting along with Du Jing, the biggest obstacle was often not whether the two parties could compromise each other's decisions or proposals, but rather:

He didn't know what Du Jing was thinking.

For ordinary friends, communication is a necessary mode of getting along. It's not that Zhou Luoyang has never quarreled with friends, so it's good to just talk about it.But Du Jing was ill, Zhou Luoyang couldn't use the model of getting along with Fang Zhou to set Du Jing on.

He vaguely sensed that Du Jing didn't like this kind of travel, but he didn't know what the problem was.Rather than playing by himself, Zhou Luoyang hoped that Du Jing would have an opportunity to come out to breathe some fresh air, at least not stay in the dormitory all day long, sitting in a daze.

Sometimes Zhou Luoyang is also very bored, and when his patience always weakens, he also wants to vent and find something outside his body to destroy.

Fortunately, he is an open-minded person by nature. Since he was a child, he has digested negative emotions faster than anyone else. Ten minutes later, Zhou Luoyang returned to normal. He checked the medicine Du Jing brought to make sure that he was indeed taking it every day.

Maybe when the weather gets warmer, it will be fine in summer.Zhou Luoyang thought to himself.

Du Jing had to drive during the day, so he might be a little tired, so Zhou Luoyang decided not to bother him anymore.

On the second day, Zhou Luoyang changed his itinerary a little bit, and acted alone with Du Jing, and did not say whether he would meet Fang Zhou and the others for dinner.

They sat by the lake, Zhou Luoyang played with his mobile phone, Du Jing stared at the lake in a daze, and sat for a whole day.

"Have you changed the stage?" Zhou Luoyang raised his head from the phone.

"I don't know." Du Jing finally replied.

Zhou Luoyang felt that this might be the beginning of communication, at least Du Jing was willing to talk.

"Are you a little uncomfortable recently?" Zhou Luoyang asked again.

"Sorry for ruining your spring outing." Du Jing stared into the distance.

Zhou Luoyang smiled and said, "I actually don't really like playing with so many people, Fang Zhou is too noisy. I just want to ask you out for a walk, that's fine."

Zhou Luoyang picked up a stone, got up and hit the water, the stone bounced, leaving a series of ripples on the lake.

"You're angry." Du Jing said.

Zhou Luoyang said, "I haven't."

Du Jing: "You're angry, I know."

Zhou Luoyang insisted: "I really haven't."

Du Jing said calmly: "You are angry, I feel it."

Zhou Luoyang suddenly felt that there was no need to deny it anymore, so he simply said honestly: "Yes, I do have a little bit. In fact, I should apologize."

Du Jing said: "You go back first, leave me alone for a while, and drive away."

Zhou Luoyang had a bad premonition, afraid that Du Jing would do something irreversible, which was beyond his ability to handle things.He was a little at a loss for a while, according to the logic of their relationship, he should say "yes" at this time, and then do as Du Jing asked.

But what if something happens to Du Jing when he drives away from the lakeside area?

He insisted on staying, but he was afraid that Du Jing's situation would get worse.After getting along with each other for a long time, Zhou Luoyang knew very well that his physical strength was not Du Jing's opponent at all, and he couldn't hold him back once there was a situation.

Call Fang Zhou and ask them to come over?Or call the police?I was afraid that it would further stimulate Du Jing's mental state, so that Fang Zhou and the others would know about Du Jing's illness.

After thinking for a while, Zhou Luoyang replied, "Then I'll go to the other side to have a look? I don't want to disturb you, you can leave any time you want."

He left the lake, went around to the other side of the lake, looked at Du Jing from a distance under a tree, and made sure that Du Jing could not see him.

After four o'clock, Du Jing disappeared.

Zhou Luoyang suddenly became nervous and confirmed that he didn't hear the sound of water just now. Where did he go?He immediately got up and looked around for Du Jing's whereabouts, but he didn't shout in a panic.

After searching for a full 15 minutes, Zhou Luoyang felt flustered, turned around and almost bumped into Du Jing.

Du Jing said, "Go back."

Zhou Luoyang breathed a sigh of relief, without blaming him, he said, "It's okay, you go and sit still, I just want to come back to you suddenly."

Du Jing replied: "Let's go together."

Thankfully, Zhou Luoyang was about to collapse, and these 15 minutes were simply the longest time in his life.If time could be turned back, he would definitely not have made this suggestion three days ago, but fortunately, God has mercy, and this test is over.It might not only be a test for Zhou Luoyang, but also a test for Du Jing.

On the way back, even if Du Jing didn't speak, his expression seemed to improve.

On the night when the trip ended, Fang Zhou opened a bottle of gin, and Du Jing handed over his glass.

Zhou Luoyang said, "Fang Zhou, don't pour it for him."

Du Jing: "Drink a little."

Zhou Luoyang: "I have to drive back tomorrow..."

"Let me drink some!" Du Jing's tone became a little heavier.

Everyone laughed, and Fang Zhou's boyfriend said, "Luoyang is like Du Jing's girlfriend, who even cares about his drinking."

Zhou Luoyang had no choice but to give up, and made a look at Fang Zhou. Fang Zhou felt that the two might have quarreled, so he dropped it a bit.

"Let's play the truth." Fang Zhou's boyfriend suggested, throwing the mahjong dice on the coffee table.

Fang Zhou was naturally very supportive, put one hand on his lover's shoulder, and said, "What topic?"

"'An important person'?" said the boyfriend.

Zhou Luoyang glanced at Du Jing. Du Jing was drinking at the dining table, but after hearing this, he sat over and sat beside Zhou Luoyang.Every time Zhou Luoyang played this, he felt bored. When he returned home during the Chinese New Year, before Du Jing came, he also played with a few classmates.

When Zhou Luoyang arrived, he said every time: "There is no one who is very important to me and who will be engraved in my heart."

This is indeed his sincere words - Zhou Luoyang seems to be able to get along with everyone with ease, but under the influence of his original family, he deliberately does not rely too much on anyone.

The divorce of his parents made him never believe that marriage and love are indestructible vows. The fact that he has not been accompanied by his family for a long time, and the relationship is mostly maintained by blood, also makes him always believe that time passes on the road of life, and everyone comes and goes. Everyone is a passer-by, everyone can only accompany him for a certain distance, and the only one who is really with him for a lifetime is himself.

But that time a year ago, when he said "there is no important person", for some reason, Du Jing came to mind.

"Do you play too?" Zhou Luoyang asked.

"Play." Du Jing asked Fang Zhou to pour the wine again, Fang Zhou smiled and said, "I can't drink it for you, otherwise I will be scolded by Luoyang."

Du Jing took the gin bottle by himself and poured a lot.

"Does Brother Jing have a girlfriend?" A girl laughed.

Du Jing said, "You can ask later."

Zhou Luoyang said: "Are you going to introduce him? I know what type he likes. Let's talk in private when we have time."

Du Jing glanced at Zhou Luoyang, and said, "When did I say that? I'm getting impatient, so you just want to dump me to someone else?"

Zhou Luoyang thought about it, and replied, "I guess."

Everyone laughed, Zhou Luoyang was drunk, and joked, "I know what Du Jing is thinking."

Zhou Luoyang had ulterior motives when he said this. Sometimes he also thought, if Du Jing's illness was cured, what kind of person would he marry and fall in love with?Maybe someone who is smart, kind, generous, and patient?Only such an object can understand Du Jing and discover his shining point.

"I'm sick," Du Jing said suddenly, "the doctor told me not to fall in love and get married for the rest of my life. I have a genetic disease and my face is disfigured, so I don't want to harm others."

As soon as these words came out, everyone was a little embarrassed, even Zhou Luoyang heard Du Jing say that for the first time.

Fang Zhou said: "It's DINK, most of them don't want to have children."

"And you were handsome too." Fang Zhou's boyfriend said.

Everyone laughed, and a boy knew it was time to end the topic and said, "Throw it to whoever it is, I'll throw it first."

The dice rolled back and forth, and many people were hit.Zhou Luoyang doesn't care about other people's thoughts and past, or the most important person in their lives. Those are other people's stories. For the parties concerned, family affection, friendship, and love may be unforgettable, and they are heard in the ears of strangers. These stories are really lackluster.

But Zhou Luoyang discovered a very real thing - in the truth-telling session, when boys mentioned "the most important person in their lives", they were all first loves.

Even Fang Zhou was not immune.

After the two girls were cast, the person mentioned was the incumbent, that is, their boyfriend.

"'Once', 'Once'," Fang Zhou emphasized, "it's about the past."

"5 minutes ago was in the past. 24 hours ago was also in the past, okay?" A girl retorted him, saying, "Why can't it be him?"

Fang Zhou played a clever trick to avoid being turned over by his incumbent. After his boyfriend voted for him, he was also talking about first love.

Zhou Luoyang smiled, feeling that the topic was realistic and sad.

Du Jing: "It's my turn."

The dice stopped, and Du Jing hit Zhou Luoyang.

"Hmm..." Zhou Luoyang thought for a while.

"There's no need to ask," Fang Zhou said, "Luoyang's answer is the same every time, so it's up to you."

The others didn't know Zhou Luoyang's previous answer, so Zhou Luoyang changed his tune and said, "Is it Du Jing?"

Du Jing seemed to have something to say, but he didn't speak.Zhou Luoyang smiled and said, "Don't you believe it?"

"No," Du Jing replied, "I believe everything you say."

"Wow—" everyone booed immediately.

Zhou Luoyang didn't want to say any more, with a little reproach in his eyes, he looked directly at Du Jing, meaning: You have really tormented me these few days.

Du Jing suddenly said: "Because of responsibility, or because of feelings?"

Fang Zhou: "???"

Others couldn't understand, but Zhou Luoyang understood Du Jing's meaning: Do you care so much about me because you feel responsible to me, or do you really think I'm important to you?

This made Zhou Luoyang a little angry, but he didn't have time to think about the meaning behind it. Both of them were a little drunk, and under the influence of alcohol, people would always say something that didn't go through their minds.

Let him vent.Zhou Luoyang thought to himself that it was a good thing that Du Jing's emotions could be released occasionally.

"It's what you want." Zhou Luoyang replied bluntly.

At the end, he added: "Please don't drink."

There was a strange silence in the living room, and no one spoke.Zhou Luoyang threw the dice and spun it a few times. If he hits the same person, the next round will start, and Du Jing, who was not hit in the first round, will be considered to have escaped.

The next round will continue the first topic and go deeper, nothing more than "how far have you developed with this person" and the like.

But when the dice stopped, Zhou Luoyang just hit Du Jing.

"Yo—" Fang Zhou laughed, "No one escaped, it's your turn."

Zhou Luoyang also guessed at the beginning, who would be the most important person to Du Jing.He didn't think it would be him, but he didn't mind.

Saying that he didn't mind, he should still be a little disappointed in his heart. Zhou Luoyang couldn't help but start thinking about a question that he had never thought about before, rethinking his relationship with Du Jing.

Will they part one day?After these four years of college, will each other be like all college roommates, parting ways from now on?If you are in a good relationship, at most, you can call occasionally to care for each other, and when you get married, you will inform Du Jinglai to be his best man, and gradually drift away, like strangers...

"This person is Zhou Luoyang." Du Jing's voice interrupted Zhou Luoyang's trance. He raised his head, turned his head slightly, and glanced at Du Jing who was sitting beside him.

"Zhou Luoyang is the most important person in my life," Du Jing said seriously, "It used to be, it is now, and it will be in the future."

This is no less than a love story of a confession. Zhou Luoyang never thought that Du Jing would retell the topic in a serious manner. Even between the same sex, it is really admirable to talk about such a love story. no.

With a sound of "Wow", everyone's emotions exploded, and they shouted with alcohol.

Fang Zhou immediately lost his composure. He became jealous on the spot and said, "What do you mean! Luoyang is mine!"

Du Jing: "It's mine."

Fang Zhou: "It's mine!"

"It's mine." Du Jing reiterated to Fang Zhou seriously.

Fang Zhou lost his composure: "We've known each other since kindergarten! It's been 14 years!"

Everyone laughed, Fang Zhou's boyfriend immediately said: "Kiss one!"

Zhou Luoyang's face was flushed. Everyone didn't expect that on this spring night, it was actually the friendship between two straight men who played straight balls unscrupulously.

"Kiss one!" Another girl said immediately.

"Kiss one, kiss one, kiss one!"

"Kiss one! Kiss one—"

Zhou Luoyang said the "true words" that night, and for a long time later, he couldn't tell whether they were sincere or not.But what people say unconsciously and without thinking is often the truth rooted in the sea of ​​subconsciousness.

But it is too difficult to truly know and understand oneself, and the process has taken too long.

On that spring night, amidst the "kiss one" booing and laughing, Zhou Luoyang put his arms around Du Jing's shoulders, forcibly pulled him over, and kissed him on the face.

It was like Du Jing kissed Zhou Luoyang on the night of moving many years later.

The bitter smell of gin, and the sweet smell of rum, flowed endlessly through the night of bright lights and into the endless river of time.