miss a useless name

27.

It was still dark, and the floor lamps in the high-end apartment were on.

Yu Yan curled up sideways on the sofa, his upper body was intact, but his lower body was naked.

He is very white and thin, and he can easily leave marks.

A slightly hot towel wiped the mottled cheeks, wiped away the dry tears, and wiped away the blood from the corners of the lips.

Yu Yan's lip was broken, who bit it, leaving a little vermilion on his face, which made his face even more bleak.

The towel fell on the neck, and the fingerprints had turned from red to green, and there was a tendency to turn purple, but the circles of bite marks were fresh.They are arrogantly lying on the beautiful neck, like a trampled star in the water, or a destroyed moon in the sky.

Cheng Shen reheated the towel, and when it touched his body, Yu Yan shrank his legs in pain. He didn't know that this posture was tantamount to exposing himself to Cheng Shen more thoroughly.

There was no expression on Cheng Shen's face, but his hands trembled uncontrollably.Yu Yan seemed to keep repeating the phrase "You are crazy" in his ears, and he also felt that he was crazy. The traces on Yu Yan's body were the proof of his madness. forgive.

He found clean underwear and pajamas, put Yu Yan in his arms and put it on carefully. The man nestled against his chest defenselessly, exposing his endless fragility to the executioner in front of him.

Cheng Shen hugged Yu Yan back to the room, lifted a corner of the quilt and lay down by himself.

He hasn't come back for a few days, the smell on the bed is full of Yu Yan, he sniffs greedily and dare not touch Yu Yan again.

But not even a minute later, Yu Yan frowned and turned sideways, dragging his body covered in bruises, surrendering unintentionally into his embrace.

Cheng Shen hugged him back, resting his chin on the top of Yu Yan's hair, feeling a cool hand gently resting on his waist.

Asshole, Cheng Shen scolded himself like this, his eyes inevitably became hot.

He is a rapist, almost strangled Yu Yan to death.

But when Yu Yan was so helpless, he was also the one he was looking for subconsciously.That is a habit that has long been refined into instinct.

Yu Yan broke up with his family because of him, his parents didn't want him, he no longer has a home.

Cheng Shen hugged the skinny flesh and blood, Yu Yan's origin was broken, and the place where he was was his way back.

How could he feel that Yu Yan didn't need him?That was the person he had sworn to protect with his life, how could he be willing to use force on Yu Yan.

·

The cooperation project has ended, and Cheng Shen had a long-lost weekend.

Yu Yan didn't sleep well that night, he kept having nightmares and broke out in cold sweat.

Cheng Shen was afraid that his wound would become inflamed, so he got up in the middle of the night and applied some ointment on him, and even fed him anti-inflammatory medicine.In order to let him sleep peacefully, she stroked his back patiently and didn't close his eyes almost all night.

He has never been a patient person, but he has given Yu Yan the tenderness of a drowned person.

Yu Yan woke up, and what he felt before the pain was the fiery embrace behind him.

Cheng Shen's arm was tightly wrapped around his waist, and his other hand was across his chest to lock him in his arms.

After such a bloody absurdity, they embraced each other in an intimate posture, like a broken vase that was forcibly pieced together, where there were cracks where the hands touched.

Yu Yan didn't move, his whole body was weak, his lower body hurt, and he felt tired even blinking.

Cheng Shen tightened his arms, and buried his head deeply in Yu Yan's shoulder socket.The cotton pajamas are soft to the touch, but not as soft as the skin on Yu Yan's shoulder and neck.Cheng Shen carefully pressed his upper lip, not daring to use force, and kissed lightly like a feather.

"Yanyan..." He snorted tremblingly, like a big dog begging for mercy, looking very guilty: "I was wrong."

Yu Yan shrank his fingers slightly, and suddenly found that this posture of embracing his arms did not make him feel a single star of warmth.He had no intention of discussing with Cheng Shen who was right and who was wrong. Cheng Shen felt that he was wrong, so he had to punish him so fiercely. Cheng Shen felt that he was wrong, so he had to be careful to please him.

But these have long been meaningless.

Cheng Shen thought that Yu Yan would remain silent for a long time. It had been a long time since they had a fierce dispute. When they were young, they would quarrel and no one would let the other.Later, it became less and the quarrel seemed to be his roar alone, because Yu Yan stopped arguing with him, and he was always silent.For a long time, Cheng Shen was at a loss for what to do about it, like a thunderbolt hitting the ground, only a heavy muffled sound.

But not this time, a few seconds after he apologized, Yu Yan asked gently: "What time is it?"

Yu Yan's voice was still hoarse, and the hoarseness turned into hoarseness, like a worn-out cardboard box leaking air everywhere.

"07:30." Cheng Shen said.

Yu Yan brushed off the quilt a little bit from his body, revealing his frighteningly colored neck."I'm getting up," he said.

Cheng Shen let go of his hand, sat up with him, his arms dropped, and his fingertips rested on Yu Yan's knee: "What are you doing up?"

Yu Yan propped himself up on the bed, lowered his head slightly to relieve the pain, just the act of getting up made him miserable: "I'm going to Nancheng by plane in the afternoon."

Yu Yan's complexion was very bad, it had reached the point of being pale.

Cheng Shen was startled, and with Yu Yan's current physical condition, how could it be possible to complete the signing meeting.

"You..." Cheng Shen was rarely embarrassed: "Don't go, the signing will be postponed, okay?"

Yu Yan got out of bed first, gritted his teeth and stood up: "I'm going to wash up."

"Speak!"

Cheng Shen chased after him, fearing that Yu Yan would not be able to hold on, fearing that he would fall.

The bathroom door closed in front of him, and Cheng Shen was blocked from the outside. He leaned forward hastily for a moment, then retracted, his palm pressed against the glass on the door: "I'm right outside, call me if you have something to do."

Yu Yan stayed in the bathroom for nearly half an hour, he took a shower, and when he came out, he was covered in damp water vapor.

Cheng Shen looked at him anxiously, feeling that Yu Yan was very calm.This superficial calm made him flustered, he would rather Yu Yan jumped up and scolded him, beat him, and gave him back all the grievances he suffered.

But no, Yu Yan just glanced at him indifferently, and then walked around him to the living room and dug out the medicine box.

"What do you want?" Cheng Shen watched him bend over with difficulty, looking for something under the TV cabinet, and quickly walked over to pull him up: "I'll help you find it."

Yu Yan was sweating again during his movements, so he could only nestle peacefully on the sofa.

Cheng Shen opened the medicine box and took out the anti-inflammatory medicine: "Yesterday... I took it once last night."

Yu Yan lowered his eyes, pointed to the tiger skin plaster at the corner, and said in a hoarse voice, "Help me stick it on my neck."

He had just seen it in the bathroom, and the mark on his neck was too big and heavy, and it was just past September, so it was hard to cover it with clothes.

Cheng Shen took out the plaster, and the strong herbal smell smelt his nostrils. He pinched a piece, frowned and said, "It's not good to cover it like this, and it's attached to the waist."

Yu Yan straightened up: "I will post it myself."

"No," Cheng Shen hurriedly tore off the paper on the back, "I'll help you."

Yu Yan tilted his head slightly, his short stubble hadn't been dried yet and was still wet.His neck is really beautiful, white and thin, even the color of the blue veins is light, when stretched unbearably, the Adam's apple will be exposed, and Cheng Shen always loves to bite him at that time.

Cheng Shen's eyes flickered, he imagined the beautiful things while covering up the ugly ones.

"Yanyan," he smoothed out the folds under the adhesive strip, and said to Yu Yan after pasting it up, "I'll blow your hair for you."

Yu Yan didn't refuse, and sat on the sofa with the pillow in his arms and waited.The choke marks and bite marks on the sides of his neck were perfectly hidden by the plaster, and they were also helping to whitewash him.He lowered his eyes and looked at the carpet. Last night, the pain was unbearable. When Cheng Shen changed his position, he wanted to run, but he fell off the sofa and was pressed on the carpet to continue.

There are still some traces left there.

The hair dryer made a "boom" sound above his head, Cheng Shen's fingers were entangled with his hair, the warm wind swept over his cool skin, and the soul knocked down by anger and jealousy went through the storm and died. Bloody scabs all over his body.

"What time is the plane?" Cheng Shen squatted in front of Yu Yan, stroking his dry hair.

"a little."

"I'll take you to the airport."

"No need," Yu Yan said, "an assistant will pick you up."

"Let me see you off." Cheng Shen lowered his head desolately, and rubbed his forehead against Yu Yan's knee: "Yanyan, let me see you off."

·

Cheng Shen didn't want to let Yu Yan go at this time, but all the arrangements for the signing meeting were properly arranged, fans came from all over the country, and more importantly, this was Yu Yan's own wish.He had no choice but to choose to respect.

Yu Yan didn't sleep well last night, and fell asleep leaning against the window as soon as he got in the car.

He was wearing a flaxen casual shirt with a collar that covered half of his neck.The compartment was filled with a strong smell of plaster, and the temperature had dropped in the past two days, Cheng Shen was afraid that Yu Yan would be frozen and did not dare to open the window.

Yu Yan's cuffs are tightly tied, he wears a watch with a wide strap on his left hand, and two beads on his right hand.He usually doesn't like to wear so many things on his hands, but today is an exception, because he still has the red mark from being tied up with a tie last night on his wrist.

Before going out, Cheng Shen packed a lot of medicines in his carry-on bag, anti-inflammatory, pain-relieving, and wound-wiping.Tonight he has a meal that he can't get away with, otherwise he won't let Yu Yan go alone.

At the airport, Cheng Shen softly woke up Yu Yan: "Yanyan."

Yu Yan opened his eyes suddenly, leaned back against the back of the chair in shock, and looked at Cheng Shen vigilantly.

He had a bad dream.

Cheng Shen was stung by the defense in Yu Yan's eyes, but he pretended to ignore him and stroked his hair: "The airport is here."

Yu Yan let out a "huh" and unbuckled the seat belt.

The team going to Nancheng consisted of five people, besides the assistant An Ning, there were also several staff members.They arrived one step earlier, leaving An Ning waiting outside the terminal.

Cheng Shen and Yu Yan got out of the car one after another, Cheng Shen went to the trunk to drag Yu Yan's luggage out, An Ning saw them sharply, and enthusiastically came to help.

"Teacher Yu!"

Cheng Shen pushed the box, carried Yu Yan's bag on his shoulder, and followed Yu Yan's footsteps with his long legs, insisting on sending him in.

An Ning didn't see the process deeply, and just regarded it as Yu Yan's friend, so she took a second look curiously.Smelling a strong smell of plaster along the way, she kindly asked, "Teacher Yu, what's wrong with your neck?"

Cheng Shen's hands tightened suddenly, and he heard Yu Yan say without a moment's pause: "Stiff neck."

"Ah," An Ning exclaimed, "That must be very hard. Go to the hotel for a massage at night?"

Yu Yan refused: "No need."

After completing the formalities, he stopped outside the security check line. Cheng Shen brushed Yu Yan's outstretched hand, handed all the things to An Ning, and said, "Yu Yan is not feeling well, please take care of him for the next two days."

An Ning quickly took all the things to her side, and readily agreed: "Okay, okay."

Facing Yu Yan, Cheng Shen raised his hand to unscrew the small open button on the top of his shirt: "It will rain in Nancheng on weekends, take good care of yourself."

Yu Yan lowered his brows and eyes: "I will."

"Call me if you have anything to do," Cheng Shen said, "Call me as soon as you get off the plane."

"it is good."

The conversation ended here, Yu Yan went in for the security check without stopping.As soon as he turned around, he took the backpack and suitcase from An Ning.

He didn't say whether to blame or not, didn't say whether to forgive him, he remained silent as always, as if skipping the topic from time to time.Cheng Shen watched the figure go away, and stayed there for a while before leaving.

In the waiting hall, Yu Yan greeted the entourage and found a place with few people to sit down.

An Ning, as his assistant, was instructed by Cheng Shen to follow through to the end.She asked attentively: "Teacher Yu, I see that your complexion is really bad. Did you not sleep well last night?"

Yu Yan responded, leaning on his elbows and pinching the bridge of his nose.

An Ning got up to get him a glass of water, and said worriedly, "Teacher Yu, can you still work tomorrow like this..."

"It's okay, I'll go to bed early tonight."

Yu Yan didn't say any more, and quietly closed his eyes to rest his mind, the same after getting on the plane.

He really needs to recuperate. The rape last night almost cost him half his life, and he dare not recall it until now.

A few hours later, the plane landed at Nancheng Airport, and the local docking personnel personally picked them up and sent them to the hotel.

It was nearly six o'clock after check-in, and the staff arranged a meal for them. Yu Yan refused on the grounds that he was unwell, and went back to the room alone to rest.

He took a shower to wash away the dust all over his body, and fell asleep on the bed without even eating, and fell asleep almost as soon as he closed his eyes.

Yu Yan thought he had slept for a long time, but it was only 08:30 when he was woken up by the doorbell.The discomfort in his body seemed to have eased a bit, and he pulled himself together to open the door.

The doorbell sounded faster and faster, like a death call.There were still people talking vaguely in the corridor, it seemed that An Ning was looking for the room card for the room card.

He opened the door suspiciously.

Outside the door, An Ning was holding up his mobile phone in a hurry, and he just took the card from the guest room in his hand, and it seemed that he planned to open his door.

Before Yu Yan could ask "what's the matter", An Ning yelled, "Teacher Yu! What are you doing in the room! You scared me to death!" She put the phone on Yu Yan's face: "Hurry up! Answer! Mr. Cheng's call!"

"What?" Yu Yan was caught off guard and picked up a hot potato, and stuck the phone to his ear in confusion: "Hello?"

Cheng Shen on the phone was even more irritable than last night: "Yu Yan! What the hell are you doing!"

Yu Yan shook his hand and almost dropped the phone.

An Ning was also frightened, and was overwhelmed by that voice from a distance.

"...What's wrong?" Yu Yan turned around and called An Ning into the room.

Cheng Shen was still roaring over there: "Do you know how many times I've called! What the hell time is it! Didn't I tell you to get off the plane and contact me!"

"I..." Yu Yan picked up the phone, then paused.

A swipe on the screen is a series of missed calls, which seems to be endless.He clicked on WeChat, and Cheng Shen started sending him messages at six o'clock. At first, the time interval was very long, and after seven o'clock, it became more and more intensive, and then there were no more messages. They should have been on the phone all the time.

"Sorry," Yu Yan pinched the phone until it became hot, "I... forgot."

Cheng Shen on the other end of the phone was quiet for a full minute, Yu Yan could only hear intermittent panting, which was very violent at first, but then he forced himself to calm down.

"Yu Yan..." Cheng Shen called him, his voice visibly trembling, implying unprecedented frustration: "Don't let me not find you. I..."

Yu Yan's breath stagnates.

Cheng Shen didn't continue, but Yu Yan understood everything.He was probably afraid that he would faint in the room alone, and that he would leave silently after suffering the injury.

"I'm fine," Yu Yan said in a soft tone, but there was no emotion on his face. He seemed to regard this kind of life as normal, and even the perfunctory consolation could be said so sweetly: "Don't be afraid."

Just like fish can’t live without water, birds can’t live without sky, Yu Yan can’t live without Cheng Shen, even if it’s painful, he will sink, because loss is more painful than pain, he will suffocate, be pierced by the icy wind, and even die.

It's a personal choice, Cheng Shen once left Yu Yan with too much light, so that he can't bear the darkness until now.

He won't leave, even after being hurt, even if hugging will make each other bruised, he will not leave until he dies.

After hanging up the phone, Yu Yan took out a piece of paper to wipe off the sweat left on the phone.

An Ning opened her mouth several times, looking at him hesitantly.

Yu Yan returned the phone to her, and said mercifully, "Just say what you want."

"Then I really said it!" An Ning seemed to have found the flood outlet all at once: "Mr. Yu! Why didn't you tell me that today is Mr. Cheng from Shengyan Technology! Do you know that Mr. Cheng can't contact you? I called President Wang at the headquarters, and President Wang personally called the editor-in-chief! The editor-in-chief gave them my phone number again! I was scared to death, and I called two presidents in one night!"

After waking up, Yu Yan had an appetite, and while listening, he clicked on the delivery software, thinking about what to buy.

"Boss Wang is better than Boss Cheng," An Ning wiped off her sweat, and she felt a little guilty when she just learned a big secret: "You don't know that Boss Cheng is in a hurry, thinking you fainted in the room, let me come over Knock on the door, but I can't knock on the door, I'm looking for the room card from the waiter!"

Yu Yan's fingers rested on the baked seafood rice, and he looked at An Ning: "Are you full tonight? I ordered takeaway, do you want to eat?"

"I..." This was the hush money in disguise. An Ning stuck in her throat and choked out a word for a long time: "Yes!"

Yu Yan turned his face away and continued to swipe the screen, asking, "What do you eat? Baked rice? Yellow braised chicken? Spicy fish?"

"Teacher Yu!" An Ning protested, "This is what you earn so much money!"

Yu Yan was speechless, the few restaurants he read were all the restaurants he used to eat when he was studying, and he wanted to taste the old taste when he finally returned to his hometown.

He was about to speak when he received a WeChat message.

"I've ordered two tomato baked rice and two cups of Oreo chocolates for you, and I'll send the food downstairs for An Ning to pick up. PS: Don't eat chili and seafood because the wound will become inflamed." ——Cheng Shen.

If Cheng Shen is careful, he is really considerate and can remember all Yu Yan's preferences and habits.They are obviously inappropriate and out of place everywhere, but they have a special tacit understanding at a certain moment.

Yu Yan put away his phone, and smiled lightly at An Ning: "Protesting is invalid."