i go to utopia

It was completely unexpected for me that Qiushui came to me.

At the beginning of May, I went back to the home I hadn’t been back for a long time, and went to the abandoned bridge that carried many memories of me. I met him. I met him twice in total, and the total time may not exceed an hour. .

The result of the era of rapid communication development is probably the illusion that people can easily and quickly establish a relationship with each other.

I first came into contact with the Internet more than ten years ago. Sitting in the messy environment of an Internet cafe, I concentrated on chatting with my netizen at the time. I made a very serious agreement with him to go online at three o'clock tomorrow. After talking like this for more than half a year, because of a An accident caused the data of my friend to disappear, and this person disappeared into my world without even leaving his name. It's just a "netizen".

Now, more than ten years later, a child who can barely be called a "netizen" who has met twice can directly arrive in my city and call me to ask me to pick him up.

I think it's a bit ridiculous when I think about it. Although I don't want to, I still can't help but want to compare Qiushui's life with my life.

I began to think about Qiushui with a terrible mood, as if I was looking at my own child.

This is of course very bad. It is a trap secretly set by some strange forces for human beings. I will express my opinion based on my 31 years of life experience. When a person becomes curious and interested in the life of another ordinary person, And there is still a desire to find out, then there is a high probability that it is a very bad thing.

But luckily, I've always been pretty sure about bad things.

Experiments have failed many times at work, and a fatal error occurred in the data in the last link. I have experienced many such bad things, and I have always been able to deal with them calmly.

**

After a short phone call with Qiu Shui, I took the car keys and went straight out the door.It takes about half an hour to drive from where I live to the high-speed rail station. Eight o'clock in the morning on the weekend is not a day worth the traffic jam. At the entrance of the small hotel, I got off the handbrake, turned on the car's double flash, and looked around the car window. My eyes have been slightly short-sighted since junior high school, which is not too serious. When I was studying, I usually sat in the In the first few rows, I haven't worn glasses very much. After work, I need to see too much material, so I wear glasses, and I don't usually wear them every day.Sitting in the car now, I searched for the scattered crowd outside the car window for a few times but couldn’t find the child in my memory. When I took out my mobile phone and was about to make a call, I caught a glimpse of a figure standing beside a tree with his head hanging. After turning around, he slowly put down the phone.

This man was tall and thin standing next to a camphor tree by the roadside. I haven't seen him for more than a month. In fact, I don't remember his appearance very deeply. I only remember his bangs covering his eyes and his habitual shyness. With a dodging expression, and a slightly gloomy temperament standing there without talking to anyone.

Thinking about it this way, it is quite recognizable. Qiu Shui is wearing black clothes and black pants, and his hair has probably not been cut. From my perspective, it feels like a small braid can be tied on the back of the head. The bangs covering the eyes are too long. With one side hanging loosely behind his ears, he lowered his head slightly and scratched the irregular lines on the ground with his shoes in boredom. Occasionally when he raised his head, his face was expressionless with a look of indifference.

Because his expression was too indifferent, far from the kid in my memory and in the text message, I put my hands on my steering wheel and observed him for a while.

Someone who came out with luggage from the direction of the high-speed rail station probably asked him the way, and stood beside him and said something. Qiu Shui raised his half-drooped eyes slightly, then pointed to the bag behind him, and then shook his head. Nodding his head, the person who probably asked for directions nodded to him and dragged the suitcase away.

He lowered his head slightly again, and raised his frown again after a long time. The expression on his face was at the critical point of no expression and impatience. He raised his eyes and glanced at the road on both sides, and then he seemed to see my face. Car, he stared at my car and hesitated for a moment, I pressed the window and stretched out half of my arm.

He just walked over with a blank face, stood at the door of the co-pilot of my car, and stretched out his hand to open my car door with a blank expression.

My car door wasn't unlocked, he pulled it but didn't open it.

I pressed down on my car window, looked at him standing outside the car window with no expression on his face, and laughed: "I was wondering when you would find me."

Qiu Shui pursed his lips. I think the Internet should be an illusion. He is not the Qiu Shui who chats with me on his mobile phone about what he ate, who he met, and what class he took. He is still a quiet person. Qiu Shui, after a long while, he reached out and pulled my car door again: "Open the door."

His tone of voice was really rude.

I stared at him seriously for a while, his eyes drooped slightly, and the bangs that were pinned behind his ears had slipped out because of his movements, covering half of his cheeks.

I couldn't hold back my naughty taste of teasing children as an adult, so I reached out and unbuttoned my seat belt, leaned in front of the co-pilot's window and asked him with a smile, "You came to Shangmian City by car for five or six hours to find Me, if you get in this car, do you know what it means?"

He was probably taken aback by my sudden approach, and his steps moved back a few inches. He didn't look at me, his eyes were still fixed on the car door that he couldn't open, and he said in a rough voice with a bit of sarcasm Rebuttal me: "What does that mean?"

"You know that I'm a stranger who only met you twice at most?" I asked slowly with a smile.

He pursed his lips slightly, did not raise his head but was very stubborn: "Open the door."

I stretched out my hand to open the door of my car, and blinked at him: "Welcome to Shangmian Market."

Qiu Shui didn't answer me politely. He opened the door and got in my car. I leaned slightly towards the co-pilot's seat. Seeing him getting into the car, I reached out and tapped the schoolbag on his back: " Put your bag in the back seat."

Qiu Shui lowered his eyes and let out an "um" from his nasal cavity. He reached out and took off the schoolbag he was carrying behind him. I reached out to take his schoolbag, put it on the back seat, and turned around He moved in the direction.

"..." Qiu Shui's slightly lowered eyes slightly opened to meet my gaze, and I felt that he was a little nervous.

His nervousness made me feel funny, and I was wondering how a person could be so contradictory. He came all the way to find me with great courage, but he only said three sentences after seeing me, which added up to about ten words.

I blinked at him, reached out and pulled off his seat belt: "Fasten your seat belt and be safe."

Qiu Shui pursed his lips, and after a while I heard him whisper, "Yes."

I retreated to my body, and sighed with a bit of mischief that teasing children is really enjoyable. I didn't know that I had such a bad habit in the past, and now that I know it, I might try to correct it.

I turned around and fastened my seat belt. After starting the car, I casually chatted with Qiu Shui: "The co-pilot is the most unsafe seat. You can sit in the back next time you drive."

Qiu Shui said "hmm" again.

I glanced at him: "But don't sit in the back of your friend's car, or your colleague's car, especially your boss's car after you work."

Qiu Shui said "hmm" again.

I had some doubts that he didn't hear what I was saying, so I turned my head and glanced at him. His hands were placed on his knees in a neat manner like a primary school student in class, and his sitting posture was much more standard than his standing posture.

I laughed: "Otherwise it will make others feel that I am your driver."

"..." Qiu Shui glanced at me slightly.

After a while, he suddenly asked me: "Then should I sit in the back row or the front row in your car?"

I laughed: "You can sit wherever you like." After finishing speaking, I couldn't hold back my habitual teasing character, "But if you take the co-pilot, I will protect your safety."

I have said such things to countless people in my life, and there is no ambiguity in them. I just say such things very habitually. If my assistant is sitting in the co-pilot at the moment, I will just say it So to say the last sentence, any friend of the opposite sex who knows my sexual orientation will say the same.

I spent most of my cynical first half of my life trying to find a way to adjust my mood to keep myself and those around me from being offended.

But after Qiu Shui heard the words, he turned his head directly out of the window, and it took a long time before he answered me with the word "oh" forcefully.

I forgot that he wasn't one of my friends who already had a lot of life experience, and didn't give me a blind eye when I was done saying that I was only smooth talker.

I think that after such a long time, I suddenly want to get along with a child and start to change my usual pattern of getting along with people. Life is full of new experiences.

In my new experience of life, I once again asked the child sitting next to me: "I have grown a lot of hair, are you going to grow long hair?"

Qiu Shui's head was still looking out of the window, and he answered me in a muffled voice: "No."

I laughed: "Remember what I told you before when you don't give people room to chat?"

Qiu Shui turned his head back, he glanced at me, but didn't speak.

I glanced at him, and dragged my voice to ask him, "Then how should I continue talking with you, Qiu Shui?"

"..." I caught a glimpse of the corner of his mouth twitching, as if he disdained what I said.

Just when I thought he wouldn't reply, he suddenly told me: "That means I don't want to talk."

I dragged my throat and slowly opened my mouth to respond to his hedgehog-like words: "Oh——"

Qiu Shui turned his head out of the window again.

The speed of the car can be increased after getting on the elevated road. The weather in June is hot and dry. I turned on the air conditioner in the car, and the window of Qiushui was kept open. After getting out of the car, the dust and sporadic scorching heat merged with the cold air-conditioning wind in the car, and Qiu Shui's hair was blown around his head and face by the wind.

I kept silent, and turned on the radio in the car by the way. The morning host told the driver a joke in a hearty voice on the weekend morning. Infected by this kind of laughter, the mood becomes very good unconsciously.On mornings like this, I feel that everything in my life is beautiful.

"Hmm..." Qiu Shui suddenly spit out a syllable amidst the exaggerated laughter.

I stretched out my hand and turned down the sound of the radio slightly to make sure that his words could be heard. It took him a long while before he said the next half of the sentence: "I don't want to cut my hair, I just want to wait and then cut it."

I hmmed.

He turned his head and glanced at me, then quickly looked away again, and asked me: "Is there room for this conversation?"

I couldn't help laughing, and held back for a long time before I said, "Didn't you always text me to chat when you were in school? You can tell me the funny things that happened to you just like chatting with text messages."

"..."

"..."

After being silent for a long time, Qiu Shui suddenly said, "I didn't eat in the morning."

I couldn't help laughing, and after the car turned on the turn signal and drove slowly down the viaduct, I said back to him: "Okay, then I'll take you to dinner now."

Qiu Shui turned his head out of the car window, and for a long while I saw him covering his ears with his hands from the corner of my eyes.

**

After I drove the car near the community, I thought that Yan Lan was probably still sleeping at this time, so he would wake up hungry, and my house happened to have nothing to serve as breakfast except for the pile of snacks he bought yesterday. So I went to the nearby 24-hour convenience store to buy him some yogurt and rice balls for breakfast.

When I got out of the car, Qiu Shui followed me. After I entered the convenience store, I felt his steps pause slightly. I looked back at him. After meeting my eyes, he moved away very quickly. I stood After thinking on the spot for a while, I took a half step back in his direction, looked down at him, "Don't worry, I didn't bring you here to eat the bread and rice balls from the convenience store." I glanced towards the street corner, and motioned to him, "Did you see that breakfast pastry over there? Do you like noodles?"

"..." Qiu Shui turned his head to take a look, and then raised his eyes to look at me.

I couldn't help laughing: "It's an old restaurant that has been open for 20 years. Every morning, it is overcrowded. I usually have to wait a long time to eat in the restaurant after work, so on weekends, I will get up earlier and go to their house to eat noodles. .”

Qiu Shui sighed slowly, and then asked me: "Is it delicious?"

I turned around and went into the convenience store: "You will know when I take you to eat later."

I bought something for Yan Lan at the convenience store, and then took Qiushui across a narrow side road where several cars were parked. He followed me all the way, half an arm's length away from me, I could see him by turning my head slightly.

**

There are still a lot of people in the noodle shop after nine o’clock on weekends, and the shop is already full. Qiu Shui and I can only sit on the temporary tables and chairs at the entrance of the shop. After waiting for a while, the shop assistant brought two bowls of beef noodles. When they arrived at our table, they turned around and left very busy after putting them down.

I took out a pair of chopsticks from the table, unwrapped the plastic packaging, and took out a paper towel to wipe the possible barbs on the chopsticks, then handed the chopsticks to Qiu Shui.

Qiu Shui took the chopsticks and hummed softly from his nasal cavity: "Thank you."

I just raised my eyes and looked at him in a daze, probably because Qiushui gave me the feeling that he was too much like a child, a complex symbiosis, and occasionally looked at me with a little bit of a natural baby in his eyes His ignorance made me unconsciously take care of him as an elder.

This is also a strange habit that I didn't have in the past and was suddenly discovered recently. I think this bad habit should also be corrected.

Anyway, my life has been correcting my past mistakes for a long time. In order to make life easier in the future, I feel that I should make a small effort.

I pulled out a pair of chopsticks again and said to Qiu Shui, "You're welcome."

**

Qiu Shui looked very obedient when he was eating. He ate the noodles with his eyes downcast and ate very seriously. He didn't even turn his eyes to the side when he didn't speak. When I finished eating, he got up and went to pay the boss. He felt the pain of me leaving. Then I hurriedly raised my eyes to look at me, bit off the noodles in my mouth immediately and then raised my head, I glanced at him: "Don't worry, eat slowly, I'll go to checkout first, they are busy, I'm afraid they will forget. "

After I finished speaking, he licked his lips, picked up the chopsticks again, and continued to eat the noodles in his bowl.

He eats too politely. After I paid the bill, I stood and chatted for a while with the acquaintances who often meet and eat breakfast together. Then he put down his chopsticks, took out a paper towel and wiped his mouth slowly, and finally put the paper towel and disposable chopsticks After throwing it into the trash can by the table, I got up and walked to me: "It's finished."

The acquaintance I chatted with nodded to signal goodbye, then raised my chin to Qiushui: "Well, follow me."

Qiu Shui nodded his head.

I picked up my steps and walked towards my community, and asked him as I walked, "You don't have any relatives here, do you?"

Qiu Shui looked up at me.

He was still half an arm away from me. When crossing the road, I deliberately slowed down my pace and he was still following me. I was a little helpless: "Qiu Shui, stand by my side so that I can talk to you." I have to turn around to talk to you."

"..." Qiu Shui replied after a long while, "I have no relatives."

I hummed, stretched out my hand and pulled his wrist back, pulled him to the distance beside me, let go and continued to ask: "Then how many days are you going to stay here, are you here to play, right? Do you want to go somewhere to play, have you prepared a strategy?"

Qiu Shui was standing beside me, and he only answered me when I turned to look at him: "No."

I turned my head and glanced at him, and when I passed the gate of the community, I said casually: "Actually, there are quite a lot of guides here on the Internet, and there are also some popular attractions around. If you are interested, you can go shopping."

Qiu Shui responded with a muffled voice: "Oh."

Without turning my head, I walked towards my neighborhood, and asked casually, "So now you don't want to chat anymore?"

Qiu Shui didn't speak, but answered me with silence.

He didn't answer my calls until we walked to the bottom of my unit building with me. I laughed: "You can talk on the phone quite well."

"Oh." He answered me another word stiffly.

When I entered the apartment building, I turned around and glanced at him after entering the elevator. He followed me into the elevator with lowered eyes and a blank expression. I raised my hand and looked at my watch. It was nine thirty-seven in the morning. I got up at seven o'clock and made a phone call with this person and then went to pick him up at my door. As a "netizen" from any point of view, I have already been regarded as one of the "Top Ten Netizens".

I don't deny that Qiushui is very cute. For me, I also have a little desire to explore him, but he is too young, and my reason is telling me not to play house with children. This is not too much fun game.

Although I shouldn't admit it, I really don't want to be a father and a mother at the same time. My job is not easy, and I don't have much free time to play games with children.

I think things can go to the end and there is no need to go over.

There was a "ding" from the elevator door to indicate that I had reached the destination, and I walked out. Qiushui followed me and suddenly asked me, "How many watches do you have?"

I raised my eyebrows when I heard this, and looked back at him looking up at him with a funny face: "Do you want this one too?"

Qiu Shui came out of the elevator, he pursed his lips and said, "I don't want it."

I laughed, raised my steps and walked towards my house, chatting with him while walking: "I have eaten with you twice in total, and you are very good at eating." I turned my head and looked at him for a while. Circle, "Why so thin?"

He curled his lips: "Because the school cafeteria is not good."

I laughed, walked to the door of my house, clicked on the combination lock and began to enter the password, and said in my mouth: "Qiu Shui, you come home with me..."

"..."

I said, "Have you ever wondered what that means?"

Qiu Shui asked me, "What does it mean?"

I laughed: "It means that if I am a pervert, you may never be able to leave my house again."

"..." Qiu Shui stood beside me, and paused for a while.

I stopped typing the password, and glanced at him: "Now you know I'm afraid?" I asked him, "Do you know how old I am, what I'm doing now, and what kind of character I have?"

Half of Qiu Shui leaned against the snow-white wall. The aisles of the residential complex were not very wide, and the person living next door even left a few pairs of shoes casually at the door of his house. The windows at the end of the corridor were open. The wind from the nineteenth floor blows in from there.

Qiu Shui whispered, "I'm not afraid."

I said, "Qiu Shui, you and I are strangers."

"..." Qiu Shui didn't speak.

"And you're coming home with a stranger." I wanted to sigh.

"..."

"Don't go home with strangers, isn't this something taught by elementary school teachers?" I smiled and glanced at him.

Qiu Shui lowered his head, leaned his back against the wall, his shoes moved on the ground, and replied, "That's for children in school, I'm not a child."

I turned around and continued to reach out to press my home password, and said in my mouth: "You don't even know what it means for you to come home with me, aren't you a child?"

Qiu Shui said stubbornly, "I'm due in just over a month."

**

Listen to what a young child can say with more than a month to go.

As soon as he finished speaking, I happened to open the door of my house. I walked in and took out a pair of slippers specially prepared for guests from the shoe cabinet: "Well, come in."

Qiu Shui was still standing against the wall, and a very weak voice came over after a while: "What does it mean?"

His voice was a little low, I didn't hear it, so I asked again: "What?"

Qiu Shui slowly moved from the wall to the door, he lowered his head and asked me: "I asked what it means to go home with you..."

"Where did you go this morning?" I thought Yan Lan, who could sleep until one o'clock, opened the door of the room, and the voice came loudly.

Yan Lan just got up from the bed and looked sloppy, rubbing her head with one hand and stroking her belly under her T-shirt with the other. Seeing this, I was a little disgusted: "Why don't you sleep until ten o'clock at noon?" Wake up at two o'clock and I'll take you to dinner directly?"

Yan Lan was so thick-skinned that he completely ignored my dislike, and yelled, "Didn't you drink too much Coke last night and went to the bathroom, otherwise who would want to get up so early..." Before he finished speaking, it seemed that he suddenly saw the person behind me. Qiu Shui was stunned for a while, then stretched out his hand to touch his belly, and said with a little embarrassment, "Who is it?"

I shrugged my shoulders at him: "I went out to pick up a kid." After I finished speaking, I turned my head to signal Qiu Shui to enter the house, and then my eyes turned to Qiu Shui, and I saw that Qiu Shui's face, which was originally fair, turned pale for no reason. , He originally had one foot on the porch of my house, but after seeing Yan Lan, he probably took a big step back. He stood at the door and looked at me blankly with a blank face.

Seeing this, Yan Lan was stunned for a while, and then she didn't know what to make up in her head, and immediately took a few steps back, and began to stretch out her hands to smooth the messy hair on her head, and stretched out her hands to pull the messy clothes on her body. He was in a hurry. He patted the folds on his T-shirt: "Ah, I'm Li Cuo's cousin. Something happened to his family and he came here to take refuge here for two days."

I glanced at Yan Lan, and I knew very clearly what was going on in this person's mind. I didn't need to explain to him at all, no matter what messed things he was thinking, but the child was still standing there, so I just said Explain to Yan Lan: "A kid, after the college entrance examination, he came to Shangmian Market for a few days."

Yan Lan said ahh twice, and then repeated: "The college entrance examination is over..." He looked at me with very evil eyes.

I gave him a disgusted look, and he held his stomach and said, "No, I can't hold my urine anymore, let's talk later."

Qiu Shui was still standing outside the door, his expression was a bit dazed, with a sense of ignorance and confusion, I changed my indoor slippers: "Qiu Shui?"

His gaze quickly fixed on my face, matching mine.

"Come in?" I asked.

Qiu Shui lowered his head and quickly entered the room and stood at the entrance to change his shoes.

I stood near the shoe cabinet in the gap between his shoes and looked at him with lowered eyes.

"Qiu Shui, you know we are strangers, right?"

"..."

"You don't know my life, I don't know who I am, and I don't know much about you, do I?"

"..." Qiu Shui didn't speak.

I reached out and picked up the schoolbag he was carrying behind his back: "Put the schoolbag down."

Qiu Shui took off his schoolbag slowly, and I carried it to the special storage place at the door: "I put it here." I told him.

Qiu Shui let out a "hmm".

I propped myself up to look at him in the shoe cabinet, and couldn't help laughing: "Did you never think that you are disturbing my life when you come to find me so far away?"

Qiu Shui took off his shoes and changed them. Hearing this, he raised his eyes and looked at me. After a while, he said, "I'll return your watch."