Squad leader

Friends are used as tool people.

Just in time for Zhang Lei to come to Beijing to participate in a symposium with his mentor, Zhou Yuwen contacted a few orphans who were not cared for in Beijing to organize a party together.

Zhou Yuwen invited Ding Yang and Jiang Tian at the same time.

"...Squad leader, are you coming?"

Jiang Tian clutched the phone, his teeth were about to bite off, he wanted to meet ten thousand times in his heart, but it was not the time yet.

At that time, I was the one who made things happen and forced Ding Yang to let go, and I was the one who put a knife on his neck and said to break up.

He...has no position at all to see Ding Yang again.

"I have something to do at school... this time, forget it..."

Zhou Yuwen sighed, why do you say these two people.

"Squad leader, Ding Yang is going to serve in the army. If we don't meet this time, it may be two years before we meet again..."

two years...

Jiang Tian's heart began to throb inexplicably.

Ding Yang still acted recklessly like this, and he chose to join the army without any warning.

What is the concept of two years, more than 700 days, the length of two and a half high school seniors, in the final analysis, it is a blink of an eye, but just thinking about it, it feels so long, it seems that we will never see each other now, and we will never have a chance in a lifetime.

After a while, he said, "I'll go."

At least see you one last time.

On the other side of the phone, Zhou Yuwen gestured OK to Zhang Lei. Zhang Lei covered his mouth and dared not laugh out loud until Zhou Yuwen hung up the phone. Squad leader? This tactic is too ruthless, you don’t leave yourself a way out, you said that if this tactic doesn’t work, the army can’t just let people go, Ding Yang is going to die.”

Zhou Yuwen shook his head. Ding Yang is often impulsive and does whatever comes to his mind, but he will never be sloppy when it comes to enlisting in the army.

Zhang Lei sent a message to Ding Yang, saying that things are ok.

Ding Yang just took a shower after training, and came out steaming from the bathroom, staring at his phone in a daze.

This time, there is no way out, even if they are kidnapped, they have to be tied back and asked to understand their attitude!

Jiang Tian changed his clothes and was about to go out when he suddenly saw the ring on his hand.

He hesitated for a moment, took off the ring, removed a commemorative necklace issued by the college from the drawer, put the ring on the necklace with a chain, and hid it securely inside the sweater.

There are no spring and autumn seasons in Beijing at all, so people are forced to wear short sleeves, sweaters, and long johns indiscriminately.

Zhang Lei came to Beijing to participate in the forum. He didn’t bring any clothes. The temperature suddenly dropped at night and he had to wrap up Zhou Yuwen’s jacket. Originally, 1.7 meters [-] is not considered short. Wearing Zhou Yuwen’s clothes abruptly The feeling of a child stealing an adult's clothes.

Zhou Yuwen and Zhao Lei came early to the private restaurant they ordered in advance, a Lu cuisine restaurant, the place was chosen by Ding Yang. Jiang Tian had appendicitis before, so even after surgery, he couldn't eat too much.

From a distance, Zhou Yuwen was seen wearing this very slim light brown windbreaker, and Zhao Lei next to him was wrapped in a dark blue jacket with his hands in the sleeves. The two people's styles were very inconsistent.

Seeing Jiang Tian, ​​Zhao Lei jumped up and waved his hands, "Squad leader, this way!"

Jiang Tian looked around, there were only the two of them, and Ding Yang hadn't come yet.

The three of them entered the box together, and Zhao Lei rubbed his arms back and forth like lice to generate heat, and complained, "Why is it so cold in the imperial capital? The flowers in the motherland are all frozen and wilted."

Jiang Tian glanced at Zhao Lei's attire, apparently Zhou Yuwen's clothes, and joked, "Who told you not to check the weather forecast before coming here?"

Zhao Lei looked aggrieved, "Squad leader, you were not like this before, you used to be very fond of others..."

Zhou Yuwen felt a chill, "It makes you sick to death if you haven't eaten yet."

The three sat down, and the waiter brought up the menu, "May I ask the three of you to order now or later?"

Jiang Tian pursed his lower lip calmly, "Later, there is still one person missing."

Zhou Yuwen and Zhao Lei secretly exchanged glances, and Zhao Lei grabbed the menu, "Order, order now, I don't know if that person will come or not!"

Jiang Tian was taken aback, "He...won't he come?"

Zhou Yuwen frowned, and poured out the bad water in his stomach: "Ding Yang said that there is training, and he will come over as soon as possible after the end. If it is too late, he may not come. He told us to eat first and put it on his account."

Zhang Lei continued to pretend to be crazy and foolish, "Brother Yang! Then I need to be a little bit more. The organizer of the symposium roasts duck every day. At the feet of the emperor, there is nothing else in the imperial city except ducks. I am allergic to Peking duck." !"

Jiang Tian took the menu and began to order. He hoped that Ding Yang would come, but he was afraid that Ding Yang would come.

Looking at the familiar dishes, Jiang Tian skillfully ordered a few dishes that Aunt Zhang always cooked in the past, such as ground three delicacies, ground pot catfish, braised eggplant, and he didn't know if the cooking skills of this restaurant were suitable for Ding Yang's appetite.

Zhou Yuwen and Zhao Lei also ordered a few dishes, and returned the menu to the waiter, "That's all, let's serve it first, and then a half-shot of beer."

While Zhao Lei complained about the minutiae of life, he and Zhou Yuwen exchanged tedious and bald student work.

"If you ask me, this beer is still delicious at home, but the beer here is not good, and the water is different."

Zhang Lei quickly opened two bottles, "Come here, monitor, don't be nervous, Lao Zhou, let's go!"

They hadn't seen each other for a long time, and after two or three sentences, they warmed up. Zhou Yuwen and Zhao Lei clinked glasses, while worrying about his tragic fate as a single dog.

Jiang Tian glanced at his watch, it was already past 08:30 of the appointed time, and Ding Yang hadn't come yet.

Ding Yang was never late for the time agreed with Jiang Tian before.

Jiang Tian picked up the cup, clinked it with Zhao Lei, and drank it down in one gulp.

The door of the private room was suddenly opened, and a gust of cold wind came in, blowing on the back of Jiang Tian's neck, and the moment he turned his head, he met Ding Yang's face.

"Sorry for being late..."

The air froze as if it hadn't been charged, and no one dared to open their mouths to break this strange balance, just like a thin layer of ice that would crumble into foam after a short breath.

Ding Yang put on a dark brown windbreaker directly over his T-shirt, and wore a pair of black overalls on his straight and slender legs, revealing half of his slender and skinny ankles. s eyes.

Looking nervously at the strange atmosphere, Zhang Lei tugged on Zhou Yuwen's sleeve, "Come on, come on, sit down!"

The private room is a square table, sitting on four sides, Zhou Yuwen and Zhao Lei occupy the two sides inside, Ding Yang can only sit near the door, which is next to Jiang Tian.

Ding Yang sat down in the cold air, Jiang Tian didn't dare to look up at him from the beginning to the end.

"It's dark..." Jiang Tian twitched the corner of his mouth bitterly, and said in a low voice.

Ding Yang licked his back molars, resisted the impulse, pretended to be calm and nodded slightly, "It's okay."

silence.

awkward.

Zhang Lei looked anxiously, "It's good to be black, and black is masculine."

Zhou Yuwen winked at Ding Yang, "Come, come, drink and drink. You couldn't drink it when you were in high school, but now you can drink it with confidence."

Ding Yang reached out to pick up the beer that Zhou Yuwen handed over. The ring on his hand was exactly the same as the one Jiang Tian was hiding in his sweater now.

The wine that Zhou Yuwen handed over was cut off by Jiang Tian, ​​"You just finished training, drinking is not good for your heart."

After finishing speaking, he raised his head angrily and dried a small half of the can.

Jiang Tian didn't know what happened to him today. Normally, he could pretend to be indifferent and alienated. Maybe it was because he knew the news that Ding Yang was about to leave.

Seeing Jiang Tian drink half a glass of wine, the flying knife in Ding Yang's eyes almost pierced Zhou Yuwen and Zhang Lei.

Zhang Lei feels aggrieved, brother, you made the squad leader drunk!

The waiter opened the door to serve the dishes, and after a while the small round table was full of local dishes.

Ding Yang looked around the dishes and understood.

Chatting with each other at the dinner table, chatting with each other about the daily life of the university, and complaining about the anti-human group work.

Between Ding Yang and Jiang Tian, ​​there is a layer of frosted glass made of paper, and no one will pierce it.

Zhang Lei winked at Zhou Yuwen and Ding Yang, "Stop talking, drink and drink."

Jiang Tian took the beer, "Happy today, drink!" He drank one cup after another,

Ding Yang clutched the wine glass with an unpredictable expression. He watched Jiang Tian's hand silently pressing down on his stomach.

Ding Yang's face was a little ugly, and he said: "What to drink, don't drink, you should have a headache after a while."

As he spoke, he snatched the wine glass from Jiang Tian's hand.

Jiang Tian stared blankly at Ding Yang, his eyes turned red after a while, and he stared desperately to hold back his tears.

"You give it back to me."

Ding Yang held down his hand that kept pulling up to grab the wine glass, "Squad leader, you can't drink any more."

When he heard the word "squad leader" come out of Ding Yang's mouth, Jiang Tian's breathing was stagnant for half a second. He sucked his nose, stuck his neck and said stubbornly: "Leave me alone, I'll let me drink, I'm drunk I can feel better, I can't sleep without being drunk."

Ding Yang grabbed Jiang Tian's forearm, restrained his restless hand, and whispered in his ear, "I'll take care of you, I'll take care of you, I'll take care of you for the rest of your life..."

Jiang Tian suddenly pushed Ding Yang away like an electric shock, regained his sanity from the alcohol, got up and left, "I still have something to do at school, I'll go back first."

"Hey, this meal is not finished yet!"

Zhou Yuwen wished he could slap Zhang Lei who didn't know his eyes, and nodded at Ding Yang, "Brother can only help you here, the rest is up to you."

Zhang Lei still had half a chicken wing in his mouth, "Why are you all gone?"

Zhou Yuwen laughed at the popularity of Zhang Lei, who had never experienced love before, "Eat, eat, eat, you can eat so hard, no one will grab you now!"

Jiang Tian's footsteps were a little wandering, and he almost left the scene as if fleeing.

"Squad leader!"

Jiang Tian ignored it.

"Jiang Tian, ​​stop for me!"

A sense of vomiting welling up in Jiang Tian's stomach forced him to stop.

Ding Yang rushed up and grabbed him, "Can you stop hiding!"

Jiang Tian finally calmed down for a long time, and said with a wry smile, "Why are you hiding, I... didn't hide."

Ding Yang was annoyed by his stupid attitude, "I'm standing here today, I just want to have a good time, you explain the matter to me, it's clear, I haven't lived a life for more than half a year , I’m about to join the army, so you can fulfill my wish. If you still want me, I’ll take care of all the shit with you. If you think I’m annoying, I’ll just disappear and I won’t cause trouble for you.”

Not knowing whether it was because of the alcohol or the wind, Ding Yang's eyes were so red that no one dared to look directly at him.

"What? Didn't you say it very clearly at the time?"

"You fucking fart! I don't believe what you're saying, not a word of it."

Jiang Tian raised his head stubbornly, "It's fine if you don't believe me, anyway, you never listen to me."

Ding Yang held Jiang Tian's arm in pain, "I won't listen to you? I almost gave you my life back then, Jiang Tian, ​​do you have any conscience?! If you have any conscience, give me a good time, don't put I threw it away by myself, and you want to carry me with you, so you have no confidence in me? Why do you think I will turn around and leave?"

Jiang Tian's mind was in a mess, and his mind was full of bloody images in the ward, "I don't want your life, I don't want it!"

Ding Yang pinched Jiang Tian's chin to force him to look into his eyes, and the two confronted each other fiercely.

In the end, as always, Ding Yang was defeated first.

He put his strength on Jiang Tian's shoulder, "Brother Tian, ​​can you stop lying to me, even just this once, tell me the truth, let me die happily."

Jiang Tian's throat was choked for a moment, and his stomach churned up after drinking. He hurriedly pushed Ding Yang away, staggered backwards, and knelt beside the grass and retched in embarrassment.

Stomach hurts, heart hurts even more.

Ding Yang went to comfort him with distress, Jiang Tian shook off his hand forcefully, almost crying, "Let me go!"

The movement was too big, half of the necklace was thrown out of the sweater, and it looked like a round ornament along the necklace. Ding Yang stretched out his hand to pull the necklace in disbelief, and Jiang Tian suddenly bounced away like an electric shock.

Don't let him see the ring.

Feeling Jiang Tian's avoidance, it doesn't matter what is hanging on the necklace.

Ding Yang was half-kneeling and supporting Jiang Tian's shoulders, he asked persistently, "Brother Tian, ​​please give me a knife, let me die quickly."

Jiang Tian vomited uncomfortably. He didn't eat much at first, but now he retched non-stop, as if he wanted to spit out his stomach.

Jiang Tian managed to slow down for a while, before his breath was smoothed out, he sobbed in his throat: "Ding Yang, please let me go, I'm scared, I don't want anything, I feel uncomfortable seeing you, and I feel even more uncomfortable not seeing you. I can't live anymore, I beg you to let me go, I want to be with you, but I have nothing, I can't let you bear the same crime as me, I can't be so selfish..."

In the past, even if you had someone in your heart and couldn't see with your eyes, thinking about it in your heart would only be uncomfortable for a while.

But now that other people are in front of her eyes, she can't bear the feeling, the pain in her heart and liver, the pain in her chest is so painful that she wants to dig a hole out!

Jiang Tian has always been the pride of heaven, he has good grades, good temper, good looks, kind to others, and reliable in his work.

He is the class monitor, he has good grades, and even the classmates in the class go out to brag. He has the confidence to brag. He worries about Ding Yang, a poor student, every day like a mother.

It was such a person who would be spoiled in front of anyone, but now he knelt in front of him and begged for mercy.

Ding Yang was trembling all over, every word of Jiang Tian was engraved on his heart like a knife, every word had a bloody hole.

"Brother Tian, ​​look at me, look at me..."

"I can't bear it, you want me to let go, it's my life..."

"Brother Tian, ​​I beg you..."

"I know I don't have anything, but I'll have it soon. I don't want the Ding family's stuff, I'll fight for my own stuff! I can carry it with you! I can!"

Jiang Tian was half retching and half crying, his whole strength was exhausted, he let Ding Yang protect his body, the cold wind picked up, and his headache seemed to explode.

"Brother Tian, ​​I beg you, turn around and look! Turn around!"

Ding Yang's voice was hoarse, like Du Juan's last cry of death.

You turn around!

Ding Yang suddenly choked his throat, "I...I'm here, I won't leave..."

On June [-]th, Jiang Tian ordered flowers for Ding Yang, but he disappeared without even returning to school, and Ding Yang waited with the flowers until despair.

During the teacher appreciation banquet, across a small garden, Ding Yang waited for six hours at the corner of the entrance of the community, staring at the direction where Jiang Tian’s back disappeared, watching the children in the same community go to school and leave school.

Today, Ding Yang waited for more than half a year, and thought of countless ways to make Jiang Tian no longer hide from him, before he said a word directly.

Next time, maybe I won't be able to wait.

——Turn back!

——Look back!

--I am here……

Ding Yang wrapped his coat around Jiang Tian, ​​and only wore a T-shirt inside, the pores all over his body were clamoring for cold and embarrassment.

Jiang Tian pushed Ding Yang away again, lying on the roadside bushes, retching and coughing violently.

"Turn back? How? I fucking forced you to break up, I fucking drove you away, if I turn around, if you are still here, how can I be sorry for you!"

"I...I'll turn around, if you're not here...what should I do?..."

"I have nothing, I can't ruin your future..."

Jiang Tian's voice became smaller and smaller, and all the good self-cultivation he had cultivated in the past 20 years was scrapped.

He yelled at him, scolded himself for being cowardly, scolded himself for accomplishing nothing, scolded himself for doing it for himself, scolded himself for being miserable...

Jiang Tian knocked his knee against the edge of the marble, turning red, and regardless of the pain, he murmured in an increasingly weak voice: "I'll turn around... What should I do if you're not here..."

This man finally had a truth to say.

The corner of Ding Yang's mouth was twitching, his face was full of tears, he couldn't tell whether he was crying or laughing.

"No, trust me..."

Jiang Tian completely collapsed. The stimulation of alcohol and the depression of the past year, he rehearsed hundreds of times and prepared all his rationality to feed the dog.

He tensed his body tightly, resisted the pain in his chest and supported his upper body, and shouted heartbreakingly at Ding Yang: "You are going to kill me... Ding Yang..."

Ding Yang stretched out his hand little by little, touching his body tentatively, Jiang Tian finally stopped resisting his hug, Ding Yang hugged him cautiously, wiped away his tears with his thumb, his eyes were also red.

Ding Yang lowered his head and kissed Jiang Tian's eyebrows.

"Brother Tian, ​​it's just the two of us, as long as you don't drive me away, I will die next to you. We don't care about others. We are only 20 years old. We will have everything, we will get better, we will, don't you Give up on me again..."

Jiang Tian looked at Ding Yang's face dimly through his tears. He became darker and thinner, his facial features became more refined, and his hair was messed up when he cried.

The person you are thinking about is right in front of you.

The one who hides in the little compartment of his wallet.

Jiang Tian suddenly wrapped his arms around Ding Yang's neck, raised his head and kissed his lips.

With the smell of alcohol, presumptuous and crazy.

Like a desperate dance before the end of the world.

Regardless of the consequences.

Don't ask about the future.

I have nothing, but with you I have everything, as long as we don't give up.

"I won't let go, I won't let go again, Ding Yang, I admit death, and if I admit it, I won't turn back, please don't let me fall flat."

Ding Yang walked through Jiang Tian's broken hair, and gently wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes, "I won't let him go, even if I die."

The author has something to say: Thanks for reading, I wish you a happy life~