Squad leader

Finally squeezed out a holiday amidst the chaotic start of school.

Ding Yang sat in the booth and stared at Zhao Tuo and Li Heng with bored faces, half because he was upset, and the other half because he had a cold and felt unwell.

The air conditioner was turned up and he caught a cold, and no one got up to press the quilt for him in the middle of the night. When he was abusing himself on the basketball court, he saw Jiang Tian's circle of friends and went straight to the square without changing his clothes. Nasal sound like crying.

"I said you two are never finished. You two are here to come up with ideas, to show off your love? Damn, I can't eat this meal, it makes you two so disgustingly full."

Zhao Tuo and Li Heng weren't bothered, but Ding Yang looked aggrieved and an eyesore.

Zhao Tuo didn't seem to care, and asked the waiter to serve another plate of crispy meat, and added another glass of lemonade to Ding Yang.

"Ding Yang, I think you're usually kind. Why can't you think about this matter? At worst, find a sack and wrap it up, grab it and tie it up."

"Fuck you, I won't do that immoral thing."

Li Heng looked at Zhao Tuo and Ding Yang arguing with a smile, "Silly, if it works, Ding Yang will sit here, his little squad leader is typically soft and hard."

Zhao Tuo pursed his lips, "You can call me stupid."

Li Heng smiled and stroked his hair, "Not stupid, not stupid."

"Damn it!" Ding Yang got angry and wanted to leave with his clothes on his hands.

Li Heng came up with a bad idea: "Why don't you be willing to degenerate for a while, and see if he will come back to get you?"

Ding Yang rolled his eyes, "I won't do it, it's not a good idea, he will look down on me, I'm sick of my former self."

Li Heng raised his eyebrows, this silly boy was serious, "If you want him to come back, you have to be clear about what's wrong with you two."

Ding Yang squeezed the knuckles of the coat with a crackling sound. He sat back on the booth again, folded his arms around his chest, and said angrily, "Both of us are fine, and it's all due to Ding Lu's insanity!"

Li Heng half-jokingly said: "If there is no problem, you don't care about A, B, and C. In the end, you are too naive, and you don't even know where the problem is, so you are chasing a fart!"

"You!" Ding Yang gritted his teeth angrily and pointed at Li Heng's nose, but couldn't swear anything else.

Li Heng pinched the wrist guard on his hand, and slipped it off. The scar on Ding Yang's wrist was still there, and he was not as desperate as others who cut him one after another. He was determined not to die. .

"Why don't you give me another knife?"

"No!" Zhao Tuo shouted excitedly, "Brother Heng, stop talking!"

Li Heng rubbed Zhao Tuo's hair helplessly, his child was too emotional.

He threw the wristband to Ding Yang, "If he doesn't break up, the next step when you and your family get angry is to wipe your neck?"

Ding Yang didn't speak, he bit his lips and his eyes were smoldering. He had taken out everything he could, but in the eyes of others, it was not commendable at all.

"The method is wrong, and it is counterproductive."

"Then what do you say! If he can come back, I would be willing to be stabbed!"

Li Heng coughed twice, "Society ruled by law, society ruled by law, let's solve the problem peacefully."

"Do you see me as a problem that can be resolved peacefully?!"

Li Heng was not in a hurry at all, and he emphasized what he said with ease, while Ding Yang had a furious face, but he was not in a hurry to show his cards. Which one is Heng singing?

The dishes were almost ready, so Li Heng picked some cooked meat for Zhao Tuo, and asked calmly, "Why do you two share?"

Zhao Tuo quickly stopped Li Heng. He roughly told Li Heng about this matter. Ding Yang almost died because of the trouble with his family. He didn't want Ding Yang to expose his scars again.

Li Heng raised his hand to stop him, and indicated with his eyes that he knew what he was thinking, "Eat well, and listen to Ding Yang himself."

Ding Yang's eyes dimmed, "His family will not accept it, and neither will my family."

"Nothing else?"

"It should be gone."

"Who mentioned the breakup?"

"he."

"You agree?"

"Ah."

A piece of potato slices in Li Heng's hand fell into the pot, splashing a few drops of oil, and bubbling in the spicy pot, it was scary, no matter how scary it was, it couldn't compare to Ding Yang's face at this time.

Li Heng nodded, "It's a pity."

"I'm not here to tell you a fucking story! I'm asking you to find a way!" Ding Yang angrily poured down half a glass of lemon juice, the taste of lemon was too weak and boring.

Li Heng continued to rub his belly as if nothing had happened, "To be honest, there is no other way but to endure it. The timing is not right for you."

"What do you mean?" Ding Yang suddenly widened his eyes as if he caught some kind of faint light.

Li Heng put the rinsed hairy belly into Zhao Tuo's bowl, and continued: "How old are you this year? I remember you and Xiao Tuo for a year. You are 18, and your squad leader is at most 19 years old. You two are rounded up." twenty."

Ding Yang seemed to sense what he was going to say, and looked down at the gurgling hot soup in the pot.

"Apart from each other, what else do you have?" Li Heng asked the waiter to serve two bottles of white wine, and continued: "Or let me put it another way, if you lose that little bit of affection, what are you left with?"

Zhao Tuo subconsciously poked Li Heng, signaling him not to speak so harshly. If Ding Yang jumped up to fight Li Heng, he really didn't know who to help.

Ding Yang didn't have a seizure, he lowered his head and mumbled, Li Heng pushed the wine over, "Didn't you take cephalosporins? Get drunk to relieve your worries, understand?"

Ding Yang seemed to suddenly understand that Jiang Tian said so many harsh words and forced him to leave, but in the end there was only one thing, which was "the timing was wrong", neither of them had the ability to break with their parents .

Both morally and in life.

Damn, in the end it's just because I'm a coward!

Ding Yang suddenly envied Li Heng and Zhao Tuo a little bit. Li Heng had enlightened parents. Even if Zhao Tuo's father disagreed with life and death to kill Zhao Tuo, Li Heng was capable of shielding him from the wind and rain.

This is different from him and Jiang Tian.

There is no way to compare people.

For a moment, Ding Yang felt that if he had been born a few years earlier, he could have experienced this society earlier, and then he would praise Jiang Tian for all the good ones, and hide all the bad ones from him, so that he could prop up the sky for him. , so that two people can live together independently, freely and happily, instead of forcing themselves to pretend to be a cold-blooded and cruel look because of the various shackles on their bodies, and say those words that kill one thousand and hurt eight hundred.

He said hoarsely, "Then... what should I do?"

Li Heng shrugged his shoulders, "I can't help it, just wait and rely, or you two will forget each other in the rivers and lakes, or you will carry it to the end, there is nothing else to do with these two roads, but no one on this second road If you can't stand it, it's over."

Li Heng looked at Zhao Tuo, gulped his drink and burped, "Are you full? You're going home when you're full!"

After speaking, he took Zhao Tuo's collar and left, but Zhao Tuo hadn't reacted yet, "Hey, let's go back now, Ding Yang?"

Li Heng smiled and squeezed his cheeks, "Leave him alone."

After paying the money, Li Heng saw Ding Yang sitting alone in the booth with a gloomy look. He felt a little distressed. He rubbed Zhao Tuo's hair and twirled it. How lucky is it to meet someone he really likes, and how much effort it takes In order to truly move towards the future of two people.

He is lucky, I don't know if Ding Yang can usher in his own luck.

Hopefully, maybe, in the future who knows.

Li Heng greeted the waiter and put a few bottles of wine on Ding Yang's table, including white beer, and then took Zhao Tuo downstairs to go shopping and look at sneakers. Pictures of several pairs of sneakers.

"Brother Heng, what do you mean, I don't quite understand." Zhao Tuo didn't care about looking at the clothes, and was very worried about Ding Yang.

Li Heng didn't care and continued to pick up the clothes and put them on Zhao Tuo's body for comparison, "If you say you're stupid, you're still stubborn, but those two are more stubborn than the other, what can you do with them, let's see who can beat the other. "

After saying this, Zhao Tuo became even more confused, "I still don't understand."

"You'll find out later."

When the two of them walked around the mall twice to pick out a few sets of clothes and turned back, Ding Yang lay there drunk and the wine bottles on the table were all empty.

The waiter looked embarrassed and didn't know whether to wake him up.

Li Heng unlocked the phone with Ding Yang's fingers, and took out the directory.

The mobile phone number book is sorted according to pinyin, and the notes are all names, only the first number has no notes, and the pinyin is sorted first.

Without even thinking about it, Li Heng tapped the screen and dialed the phone number that had no note.

After hesitating over there for a long time, no one answered, and Zhao Tuo looked anxious.

Li Heng pinched his cheeks, "Don't worry, you can't rush this matter."

Finally, on the second call, the call was connected.

"...Hello?" The voice from over there was very cautious, like a thousand weights placed on a feather, maintaining a weird balance at a magical angle, and the whole thing would collapse if you were not careful.

Li Heng asked with a half-smile, "Excuse me, do you know the owner of the phone?"

The other side of the phone was stunned, and then asked, "Are you?"

Li Heng continued to talk nonsense, "The owner of the phone is drunk, we hope you can pick him up to ensure the safety of the guests."

The other side of the phone finally hid the turbulent emotions and replied with a monosyllable "yes".

Li Heng quickly gave an address, and dragged Zhao Tuo to find a corner to watch the show.

Seeing Jiang Tian's dazed look when he answered the phone, Zhou Yuwen understood, "Ding Yang's phone?"

"He was drunk and the restaurant called me to pick him up."

Seeing his crying expression, Zhou Yuwen finally couldn't hold it back anymore. He didn't mention Ding Yang all night, but Ding Yang, as a high school classmate of the two, lived in the same dormitory, even if they were chatting It is also inevitable to mention that they recalled Zhang Lei's shabby appearance at that time, and they also received a video call from Zhang Mengyao in the middle. It's like hollowing out, and the two understand each other without saying a word.

"Squad leader, what happened to you and Ding Yang?"

"Nothing, really nothing."

Zhou Yuwen glared at him angrily, and turned his phone screen over under his nose, "Then what is this?"

Jiang Tian's flustered and dodging gaze made people feel uncomfortable, Zhou Yuwen wanted to grab him by the collar to make him think about the high-spirited energy he had when he was in middle school, he is really too ugly now.

"You said you broke up, but I can't let go of you? What happened to you? Wasn't it good at that time? If you really treat me as a friend, tell me if you have any problems, don't always Hold back alone."

Jiang Tian bit his lower lip, thought for a long time, and finally raised his head to meet Zhou Yuwen's aggressive gaze, "I have no intention of giving up."

Zhou Yuwen was taken aback for a moment, and he lost his temper when he spoke, "What do you mean by breaking up? Are you two suffering for no reason?!"

He could see Jiang Tian's haggardness and exhaustion. It was a kind of fatigue completely different from the pressure of study in the third year of high school.

Jiang Tian sighed, facing his friend who has been caring about him, he hesitated for a moment and finally decided to let go of the concealment in his heart, and confessed, "Parents and family are my responsibility, but Ding Yang is my own choice, and I will never give up even if I die. choice. I...don't want to give him up."

It's not that Zhou Yuwen doesn't know the reason why Jiang Tian insisted on breaking up with Ding Yang, and he also thought about comforting the words that the society has become enlightened and there won't be too much prejudice, but Jiang Tian always felt that he had no position and attitude to say when he didn't open his mouth. If the needle is not stuck in his body, the comfort he has is that he feels different.

"But for the matter of breaking up, monitor, why do you have to force yourself to have no way out? You can obviously..."

Jiang Tian shook his head dejectedly, but there was a hint of relief between his brows and eyes. He knew what Zhou Yuwen was going to say, they could break up on the surface, and continue to be together quietly behind everyone's back.

A domineering person like Ding Yang hides him in order to avoid the eyes of the society, isn't he a coward?

The matter has reached the point of being forced to be exposed, like pulling a rubber band, Jiang Tian can only force Ding Yang to let go, otherwise he is really afraid that Ding Yang will do something extreme.

He can give up his academic future and even his own life, so what's the next step?What else do they have?

And, how long can you hide?

What Jiang Tian wants is for two people to be happy in an upright manner and hold hands openly.

It's just that now they are too naive and too young, they have too little things, and they can promise too little.

"He is my choice, but I will not force him to choose. In the past, we only saw the small world in the school. It was too small and we didn't meet many people. Now it is different. He will meet more and better ones. Man, he deserves better, I... not necessarily in his future."

Zhou Yuwen understood that people like Jiang Tian can be seen from his attitude of learning, and he will never leave a way out.

When he was in middle school, everyone would weigh his score to increase the number of school major goals, but he was only a P major from the beginning, and he was obsessed with the kind of obsession.

He puts Ding Yang in his future, and he is desperately trying to create the hope of two people, whether it is a part-time job day or night, or a life-threatening study.

He will not give up his parents' morality, which is what he has taught him from the values ​​he grew up in 19 years. Ding Yang will also not let go, it is his fate in exchange for 19 years of luck.

However, he gave Ding Yang more choices. They are still too young, have no concept of homosexuality, and have no specific impression of love. Ding Yang may meet many people in the future. It might be possible... to get back on track.

Jiang Tian cut off all his escape routes, and his future firmly pointed to Ding Yang.

Just one of the biggest problems, that is - time!

How long will it take to create a future where we can openly join hands? By that time, will they still look like the red lips and white teeth who wore school uniforms and smiled when they were in middle school?

By then, will Ding Yang still be there?

Zhou Yuwen looked like he hated iron but steel, gritted his teeth and endured the splash in his eyes, "Squad leader, can you think about yourself in everything?!"

Jiang Tian smiled in relief, "I have nothing, so what can I think about. It is difficult to have the best of both worlds, but it may not be impossible. Didn't Lao An teach us every day to create the impossible?"

Jiang Tian's laugh at this time was really uncomfortable, Zhou Yuwen only felt his heart dripping with sulfuric acid, "But, do you want to discuss it with Ding Yang, in case Ding Yang..." Give up?

When writing a composition, everyone knows that the world is impermanent, and time is the most difficult thing in this world.

Is Jiang Tian really confident that he won time?

Jiang Tian saw his worry, but said with a relaxed face: "I don't regret my own choice even if it ends up being empty, but if I don't persist, I may regret it for the rest of my life. And if you don't try, how will you know? Just don't give up and don't give up?"

Zhou Yuwen gritted his teeth, stopped the nonsense of mother-in-law and mother, and picked up the fruit orange, "Squad leader, I respect you! I wish you success!"

"I accept your good words!" Jiang Tian drank a glass of juice and rushed out with his coat in hand.

Originally, Zhou Yuwen was left alone to guard the barbecue plate at the dinner party of old classmates. He carried the pork belly that had not been cooked to the baking plate, just like throwing a steel coin into the wishing pool.

Dear God, just for these two obsessive idiots, God, let them have a good time, otherwise who the hell still believes in love, love you big-headed ghost!

The author has something to say: Thanks for reading, I wish you a happy life~