strong romance

Cheng Kuang's cultivation level is very high, he has things hidden in his heart, and he can quietly play the role of a schoolmaster and boyfriend, but Zhang Jin can hardly see any clues from him.

During the day he maintained the illusion that he was carrying a light weight, but at night, the weight on his shoulders doubled down on him, and this weight even entered his dreams.

Cheng Kuang always dreamed of Grandpa Cheng, dreamed of the mole on his back, dreamed of the stack of banknotes that Grandma Cheng saw in Grandpa Cheng's cigarette drawer when she was packing up her belongings.

There were not many banknotes in that stack, so Grandpa Cheng stacked them neatly and covered them under the cigarette case.Cheng Youde didn't know that that small wad of banknotes was the inheritance he was thinking about day and night.

He has always regarded his old father as a passbook that can only be entered and cannot be withdrawn, thinking that Grandpa Cheng can't spend money at an old age—it's as if when he came to Grandpa Cheng to worry about basic necessities of life, everything was discounted and became It doesn't matter.

Later, grandma Cheng took out this stack of banknotes to rent a house for Cheng Kuang, and stuffed the rest into the red envelope, which was quietly put into Cheng Kuang's pocket before he set off.

In the dream, Grandpa Cheng walked into the setting sun and sank into the back of the mountain with the sun at a leisurely pace.Cheng Kuang saw Grandma Cheng stepping after Grandpa Cheng, and then fell in the narrow alley, and no one helped her.

Night fell quickly, and a heavy rain poured down. In Cheng Kuang's dream, he ran out of the house to find Grandma Cheng. The moment he left the house, the house collapsed in the storm.

He ran wildly in the rain, as if going back in time, getting smaller and smaller, and his body returned to the age when he was powerless, and he could no longer support the collapsed roof.

Then Cheng Kuang didn't dare to dream any more, he was forced to be out of breath by the successive dreams.

These dreams are clearer than Cheng Kuang himself about what he is afraid of. The "prosperity" he longs for and the fear of "children want to raise but not to be loved" are intertwined into a huge cocoon. On that rainy night, he carried the sleeping Grandma Cheng on his back. When it was on the back, it covered him tightly.

Cheng Youde’s so-called supporting his mother is no different from raising pigs and dogs. His poisonous snake wife restricts Grandma Cheng’s travel, keeps her in the house all day and night, and delivers two meals a day—the old lady has a bad appetite, and lunch Heat it up and eat it at night.

Grandma Cheng has suffered so much since she was young, and she doesn't complain about anything, but when Cheng Kuang heard this from Fang Youzhen and Cheng Youyi's discussion, he clearly felt that the future he had pursued so hard was collapsing before his eyes.

Suffering is like a train, driving towards him vigorously. Cheng Kuang has grown from childhood to a teenager, and he has not seen the end of the carriage, and it is endless.

Cheng Kuang, a young man, stood in the roar of the train day and night, and finally felt physically and mentally exhausted.

Cracks began to appear in his daytime tightness due to his nervous tension.

Cheng Kuang fell asleep in class for the first time.

It was a Chinese class, and Yang Li was talking about the test papers. The fatigue came without warning, and Cheng Kuang's eyelids gradually sank.His will struggled for a few seconds before closing his eyes.

During these few seconds, Cheng Kuang's thoughts floated lightly like a kite, pulled by a little willpower.The Chinese test paper in front of him suddenly turned into a math problem, and Cheng Kuang was thinking about the solution in a daze.Drowsiness made his thinking slow, before solving this mirage-like question, Cheng Kuang's eyes suddenly went dark.

His sleep was soundless, no one noticed except Zhang Jin.

Zhang Jin discovered it by accident.He was distracted while listening to the class, and turned his pen in boredom.Normally, at times like this, Cheng Kuang would take his pen away and tap the cap on the back of his hand, but this time, until Zhang Jin regained consciousness, Cheng Kuang still didn't respond at all.

Feeling a little surprised that Zhang Jin wasn't caught, he looked sideways at Cheng Kuang.

Cheng Kuang propped his head on one hand and held a red pen in the other. At first glance, he seemed to be thinking about something, but Zhang Jin was very close to him, and he could clearly see that Cheng Kuang's eyes were closed.

He stared at Cheng Kuang for more than ten seconds before he could confirm that Cheng Kuang had fallen asleep during class time.

Studying in the third year of high school was very hard. Some people often dozed off in class. Wei Mingming would put a bag of candy in his pocket every day, and put one in his mouth when he was sleepy, grinning sourly.

Without waking Cheng Kuang up, Zhang Jin quietly took the test paper Cheng Kuang had at hand, and took as many notes as possible on his paper.

Cheng Kuang slept restlessly, and the sounds around him entered the dream and turned into the sound of the train passing by the rails. This vague dream had no content, but carriages passed by his eyes endlessly.

In the end, the get out of class bell brought Cheng Kuang back to the classroom from the railroad tracks. He opened his eyes and stared blankly for a while, looking at the test papers on the table, and belatedly realized that he had fallen asleep.

Zhang Jin could see something wrong with Cheng Kuang, but he didn't think too much about it at the time, thinking that Cheng Kuang was probably tired from studying.After all, Xueba not only has to review for himself, but also helps his boyfriend sprint for the college entrance examination. The academic pressure is more than twice that of others, and it is not normal if he is not tired.

The city's first model exam was quite difficult, and the students in class seven generally did not do well in the exam. Except for Shi Tao and Shi Bowen, who studied process Kuang's grades like he studied stock trends, no one noticed Cheng Kuang's decline in scores.

But this fluctuation was not enough to attract Shi Bowen's attention. After analysis, he blamed Zhang Jin for Cheng Kuang's regress, and said an idiom in front of Zhang Jin several times intentionally or unintentionally: "The one who is close to the ink is black."

Zhang Jin didn't take Shi Bowen's words seriously, and he later discovered that Cheng Kuang still had pressure from outside of study.

Seeing that the college entrance examination is getting closer and closer, the fourth middle school will hold a coming-of-age ceremony for senior high school students in a few days.In order to inspire fighting spirit, Shi Tao set up a photo wall at the back of the classroom, and asked each student to print out their favorite university photos and paste them on the photo wall on the day of the coming-of-age ceremony.

The question that had been tormenting Cheng Kuang was thrown in front of him unexpectedly, reminding Cheng Kuang that there was not much time left for him to hesitate.

Cheng Kuang was absent-minded that afternoon. He came out of the school’s printing shop before evening self-study, and received a call from Grandma Cheng on the way.

The old lady's babbling voice came from the receiver, and he stood by the roof, letting the evening wind cool the sourness in his nose.

In the voice of Grandma Cheng, Cheng Kuang kept persuading himself.

He thought, why does it have to be D University?

Studying well in a university does not necessarily mean having a bright future, and staying here does not necessarily mean that you will be successful.

Just as he was engrossed in his thoughts, Zhang Jin came over at some point, and suddenly said that he wanted to talk to Grandma Cheng.Cheng Kuang didn't pay attention, the phone had already been taken away by Zhang Jin.

Cheng Kuang is a hard-hearted bastard, he is extremely cruel to himself, and the little tenderness is only distributed to a few people.Zhang Jin could vaguely guess that Cheng Kuang's absence was related to Grandma Cheng, and this call let him know that he was right.

Zhang Jin froze after saying "Hi, grandma". He knew that Cheng Kuang's "I'm fine now" at that time was a lie—once this grandson tried to lie, his tone would be a little gentler than usual, It's a real "cheat".

The importance of Grandma Cheng to Cheng Kuang is self-evident. Zhang Jin had a New Year's Eve dinner on Yanshi Street, and after that he often went to Grandma Cheng's house, so he had a general understanding of the situation there.He knew that Grandpa Cheng passed away when Cheng Kuang was just in high school, and that Grandma Cheng had three bad sons, but knowing these was not enough.

In the blink of an eye, Zhang Jin felt that he had vaguely encountered Cheng Kuang's hidden thoughts, the toughest and softest part of Cheng Kuang's heart.He wants to know more, but this "more" cannot be guessed unless Cheng Kuang himself tells him.

But is this bastard willing to show him his heart?

Zhang Jin decided to force him one more time.

The location was chosen at the school playground. Evening self-study was not over yet, the teaching building was brightly lit, and there were only the two of them on the playground.Cheng Kuang could feel that Zhang Jin had something to ask him, but he didn't think about how to say it.

After running around, Zhang Jin suddenly called Cheng Kuang.

Before Cheng Kuang could stop, Zhang Jin grabbed his shoulder and pushed him, and the two of them staggered and fell on the lawn together.

Zhang Jin's words started with a kiss.

There was plenty of rain in spring, and the tips of the grass were covered with moist dew. When Cheng Kuang fell down, the back of his school uniform was wet, and his arms touching the ground were also wet.Zhang Jin put his upper body on top of him, keeping him very close.

Zhang Jin's school uniform was not zipped up, and when he kissed him without hesitation, the parted hem of the clothes was gathered around Cheng Kuang's body, like a thin but wrinkled quilt.

Both of their lips were cold, but when they rubbed together a hot flame burned on the dewy grass.

During the movement, half of the photo in Cheng Kuang's pocket fell out, and the sharp corner scratched Zhang Jin's wrist, which caught his attention.

He pulled out the photo, glanced at it, and suddenly said without beginning or end: "Cheng Kuang, can you tell the truth?"

Zhang Jin still remembered that in the lecture hall, he asked Cheng Kuang about his college entrance examination aspirations, and he was obviously not talking about the school in the photo.

"Don't you want to go to D University? What is this? Are you tired of being a top student?"

The one surnamed Cheng didn’t say anything, it’s a piece of material for doing big things in a muffled voice. Zhang Jin’s heart chilled when he saw this photo, and he stared at him and said, “I’ve wanted to beat you up for a long time. This life will be planted in my hands, and then I will make you a waste that can't live without me! I didn't do anything at that time, and now I regret it!"

Everyone should have some reactions when he said such terrifying words, but Cheng Kuang just looked at him without saying a word.

Zhang Jin wanted to beat him to death: "Monkey King 72 is just a monkey, no matter how you can handle it, you are still a fucking human! You have to force yourself to become a fairy before you are willing to do it, right?"

Zhang Jin said so much sarcastically, but Cheng Kuang held his breath and kept silent.

He plucked a handful of weeds in despair, stood up and said, "...I'm really fucking in a hurry."

At this time Cheng Kuang finally spoke.His voice was as cold as dew: "I don't want to go to D University anymore."

"You... what did you say?"

Zhang Jin paused, and wanted to continue asking, but Cheng Kuang looked at him and said, "Let's fight, Brother Pao."

Zhang Jin's keenness and stubbornness made Cheng Kuang's emotions nowhere to hide, and the depression of the past few days reached its peak at this moment.On this empty and humid night, Cheng Shisankuang cried for the first time.

Zhang Jin forgot how they were fighting, and only remembered that Cheng Kuang buried his face on his back.His clothes were wet, and the eagle's wings on his back were also wet. He didn't know whether it was the dew or the tears of the young Cheng Kuang.Maybe both.

"Is it because of grandma?" Zhang Jin felt the temperature and weight behind him, and his voice calmed down.

After a while, he heard Cheng Kuang's answer: "Yes."

The word fell to the ground with a sound, and Zhang Jin understood everything in an instant.

In some respects, he is very similar to Cheng Kuang.Cheng Kuang wanted to pull out the deep-rooted bitter words under Grandma Cheng's feet, and Zhang Jin wanted to protect Xiang Shulan and help her support the family.Whether it is Grandma Cheng or Xiang Shulan, they are all fetters engraved in their blood.

Now for Zhang Jin, Cheng Kuang is the same.

"Kuang'er," he flattened the crumpled photo and stuffed it into his pocket, and said to Cheng Kuang, "your grandma is my grandma, you go to D University, don't you still have me."

Cheng Kuang once tried to find a balance between the long-term future and Grandma Cheng, but in all fairness, no one knows how long that "long-term future" is, whether Grandma Cheng can wait for it, all his attempts and struggles It is futile in the face of the unpredictable future.

But giving up is a long and tormenting process, just like holding a knife, cutting off the determination and hard work of these years from the bones like scraping the bones to cure poison.The moment he made the decision to abandon D University, it meant that all the "prospects" that Cheng Kuang had dreamed about in the past were all destroyed.

The three armies can win the commander, but the common man cannot win the ambition.

The difficulty is that even if it is burnt to a pile of ashes, it will still be revived when the spring breeze blows.

But Cheng Kuang didn't want his conflicts to fall on Zhang Jin's shoulders and become his burden, and Sha Pao'er's stubbornness made him feel annoyed for a while.

He didn't know what to say, so he couldn't restrain himself from swearing: "Stupid! I said it's fine, so leave it alone."

"You are my boyfriend, everyone is sleeping with me! Why can't I control it?" Zhang Jin didn't give Cheng Kuang a chance to refute, he pushed Cheng Kuang into his arms with brute force, "Cheng Kuang, I was born I don't want to study, and I didn't pass the provincial exam. Taking care of grandma for my boyfriend is a matter of convenience. You want grandma well, and grandma wants you too... Kuanger, don't torment yourself."

"I told you that I'm protecting you. If you feel that you owe me something, you can open my eyes by winning the first prize in the college entrance examination."

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The chapter ends at zero o'clock. ?