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After Cheng Youyi and Cheng Youde had a fight, the two brothers broke up completely.

For the reunion dinner on New Year's Eve, no one went to Grandma Cheng's house, and Cheng's second child was caught in the middle in a dilemma.He thought about it, not knowing whether he should go or not, but in the end his wife persuaded him.

Cheng's second daughter-in-law said that his mother had many disasters last year and her legs and feet were not good. She should be allowed to rest more and not cook New Year's Eve dinner this year.

So the three brothers were neat and tidy, each celebrating the New Year at home.

Grandma Cheng was shopping in the vegetable market when she received a call from Cheng Laoer. She cheerfully asked her son what he wanted to eat, but his son told her that he would not come tonight.After hanging up the phone, Grandma Cheng didn't know what to do.She began to pass by various stalls aimlessly, walked into the yelling of every hawker, and walked out of the yelling again, carrying a vegetable basket on her shoulders, and walked home lightly and heavily.

Grandma Cheng glanced back at the bustling vegetable market, but her footsteps were walking away from it. She walked into the narrow alley, knowing that her future life was like the path in front of her house, and she could see the end at a glance.

Most of her life is over, her three sons have already married and established businesses, and her grandchildren have grown up. It seems that her merits and virtues have been completed, and she has no regrets.

The reason why the word old is frightening may not lie in the old itself, but in the fact that there are many children and grandchildren, but they are still old and have nowhere to go.

When Cheng Kuang pushed open the door of Grandma Cheng's room, Grandma Cheng was sitting by the window, facing the grapefruit tree outside the window, squinting her eyes and dozing off.

He didn't want to wake up grandma, but as soon as the "child bride" saw him, she ran over jingling, stood up halfway, and threw her two short front paws on Cheng Kuang's trouser legs, thumping happily.

Grandma Cheng was awakened by the noise made by the puppy. She half-opened her eyes and looked towards the door. She suddenly became happy, patted the stool beside her and said, "Kuang'er, why are you here? Sit down and enjoy the fire." "

The child daughter-in-law jumped around Cheng Kuang's leg. Cheng Kuang kept looking at his foot, careful not to kick it. When he sat down, Grandma Cheng had already grabbed a handful of candy from the drawer and stuffed it to him with a smile.

Cheng Kuang didn't finish eating the handful of candies, and he put the rest in his pocket. On the way back, he met Cheng Youde's youngest son. When the little boy saw him, he called "brother" and "brother", so Cheng Kuang Kuang gave him the candy in his pocket.Later, the candies fell into the hands of Cheng Youde's viper wife, who turned her son's pockets upside down and threw the candies far away.She poked out Cheng Kuang's back with poisonous snake eyes, and taught her son, "You are ignorant, you dare to eat what anyone gives you!"

At that time, Cheng Kuang didn't go far away, these words were blown into the ears verbatim by the cold wind, blowing a little bit of blood and family affection into disgust.

Cheng Kuang put the sugar on his clothes, took out two oranges from his pocket and peeled them for Grandma Cheng to eat.He didn't need to say anything, just sat by the side, and Grandma Cheng regained her energy.She hasn't seen her grandson for half a month, and she always feels that every time she sees her, Kuang'er is thinner than the last time.

Grandma Cheng never worried about how Cheng Kuang was doing in school. She was not afraid that Cheng Kuang could not study well, and it didn't matter if he didn't study well.

The old lady could not help but worry about Qi Chengkuang's study situation.She didn't know a lot of Chinese characters, and she was a real layman. She didn't know how to go round and round, and asked Cheng Kuang directly if he had a lot of homework.

This winter vacation is the last holiday before the college entrance examination. After that, I will face the first, second, and third exams.

But Cheng Kuang said "not much" without changing his face.

Grandma Cheng didn't believe it at first, she confirmed, "Don't lie to me?"

"No lie." Cheng Kuang smiled, gave the peeled orange to Grandma Cheng, looked at the child bride who jumped up, and said to it, "You can't eat it."

Grandma Cheng raised Cheng Kuang single-handedly, but she didn't know that her grandson was very good at lying. Cheng Kuang said that he didn't have much homework, so she was relieved.

She thought to herself: If Kuang'er comes to accompany her when he has too much homework to finish, then she has to drive this naive grandson home.

As soon as she thought about going home, Grandma Cheng glanced at the time - it was almost time for dinner, and her Kuang'er would go home for dinner after staying for a while.

When Grandma Cheng looked at the wall clock, Cheng Kuang also looked up, and when Grandma Cheng turned her head, he had already stood up.

Grandma Cheng looked at him reluctantly and asked, "Just go back?"

The flash of disappointment in the old lady's eyes twitched Cheng Kuang's heart, and he said, "I'm going to cook."

Grandma Cheng didn't understand for a moment, so she stopped him and said, "What kind of rice are you cooking? You don't need to cook it. I'll cook a bowl of noodles myself later."

Cheng Kuang had already started measuring the rice, and he said to Grandma Cheng, "I'm eating here too."

"Oh," Grandma Cheng was overjoyed, suddenly flustered, and said angrily, "Why didn't you say it earlier, I haven't washed the vegetables yet..."

The New Year’s Eve dinner this night was made by Cheng Kuang, and there were only two grandparents and grandchildren at the dinner table, as well as a puppy that was running and jingling.Grandma Cheng thought of Zhang Jin when she saw the puppy, and she asked Cheng Kuang, "Why didn't Junjun come this year?"

When Grandma Cheng asked this question, Zhang Jin was leaving the empty house with the miscellaneous hair. This person and dog were about to face an empty chess and card room and a long night.

When the old lady saw Zhang Jin for the first time, she felt that the child was very pitiful, and he was wandering outside alone on New Year's Eve.She still hoped that Zhang Junjun would bring his dog to see Tong's bride-in-law, but she didn't know that this day would never come.

Cheng Kuang spent New Year's Eve and the first day with Grandma Cheng, and he planned to go back to the rental house to study with his boyfriend on the second day of the second year. He never thought that he would see Zhang Jin on Yanshi Street that morning.

At that time Zhang Jin was at the entrance of the big store, leaning motionless on the seat of the motorcycle, staring at the phone in a daze.

When Cheng Kuang looked at Zhang Jin, Zhang Jin also looked over.

He was chaotic all the way here, and when he saw Cheng Kuang, he was startled for a while, thinking he was dreaming.

Zhang Jin didn't expect that just by looking at each other from a distance, and just for a moment, the suppressed emotions would come back like a stormy sea. He felt his heart beating heavily on his ribs, knocking him back to his original shape , Changed from Pao Geer back to Zhang Junjun who howled in pain.

Zhang Jin scratched his heart and liver before going to bed, his eyes were bloodshot, and Cheng Kuang only found out when he approached.He asked Zhang Jin: "Did you go to be a thief at night?"

The last word was swallowed by Zhang Jin, he hugged Cheng Kuang without saying a word, his arms were tightened so tightly that the down jacket didn't seem to exist, as if the two people's bones were firmly pressed against each other. together.

This collision, the sudden grievance seems to have found a support.

Zhang Jin hugged Cheng Kuang tightly and said nothing.Cheng Kuang neither asked him what was wrong, nor broke away from him. The two of them hugged in silence for an unknown amount of time in the cold wind of the first month. Zhang Jin finally loosened his strength. At that time, he felt that the air in his lungs was being squeezed. Nothing left.

Zhang Jin's chin rested on Cheng Kuang's shoulder, and after his heartbeat gradually calmed down, he closed his eyes and took a deep breath.The pain he had experienced in the past two long nights was finally reduced to three hoarse words.

"The dog is gone."

He only said three words, and then choked up.

Cheng Kuang felt Zhang Jin's shoulders twitching, like a trembling candle in the wind, and the flames rushed to him one after another, hitting the softest part of his heart every time.

Cheng Kuang's eyelids trembled from the impact, and suddenly became sore. He reached out his hand to hold Zhang Jin's twitching shoulder, and stroked the stubble on the back of his head with his other hand.

The flaming firecracker crumbs were filled with a smell of undispelled gunpowder smoke. The two of them stood silently. After a long time, Cheng Kuang didn't speak until the shaking of Zhang Jin's shoulders stopped.

He called out "Brother Pao" and said, "Come with me somewhere?"

Zhang Jin let out a "Huh?" from his nose.

Cheng Kuang led him out of Yanshi Street, the potholed concrete road was replaced by dirt, and there were more and more weeds on the side of the road. When a winding railway appeared in front of Zhang Jin's eyes, Cheng Kuang stopped.

"What are you doing here?" Zhang Jin was stunned for a moment, looking at the track with no end in sight, he wondered blankly, "Is this road open to traffic?"

Rubble was piled under the railroad tracks, and gray-white flagstones were paved a few steps away from the railroad tracks. Cheng Kuang walked along the flagstones for a while, and then squatted down.

He said to Zhang Jin, "Lie down on the rails."

When Cheng Kuang said these two words, there was no emotion in his eyes, as if he was going to ask him next: "Are you going to die with me?"——Zhang Jin didn't know whether he was joking or not for a moment.

"Are you serious?"

Cheng Kuang asked back, "What do you think?"

Zhang Jin's anger rose sharply: "Cheng Kuang, what the hell do you want to die on? You have to run all the way, and you have to wait for the train. Does it need to be so troublesome? I have long wanted to be smoked to death." is you!"

His voice was still hoarse and slightly nasal, but the arrogance remained undiminished.

"It's not me, it's them." Cheng Kuang smiled, and Zhang Jin looked in the direction of his finger - there was a damaged earthen wall opposite Cheng Kuang. The scratches are of different lengths and shades, and the scratches have been blurred for some years.

"They?" Zhang Jin didn't understand.

Cheng Kuang counted down the scratches: "Cheng Yikuang, Cheng Erkuang, Cheng Sankuang... Cheng Twelve Kuang."

Under Zhang Jin's dazed gaze, Cheng Kuang said, "I carved these before."

In Cheng Kuang's childhood when he had no one to rely on, others were cautious, and they were not as capable of handling things as they are now.Grandpa Cheng and Grandma Cheng were not retired at the time, so they often ignored him. The adults and children on Yanshi Street were not friendly to this lonely left-behind child. The dumb who swallowed coptis.

When he felt that he couldn't bear it, he thought about dying several times.

Back then, this frail kid even thought of an unusual and heroic way to die. He heard that his parents who were far away in the sky were going to the "skyline" from the Eastern Suburb Railway Station, so he decided to end it by lying on the rails. own short and unfortunate life.

When Cheng Kuang first came here, the earth wall was there, but there was no stone road on the ground at that time.

Standing by the earthen wall, Cheng Kuang saw the train galloping from the horizon, clanging towards another horizon in the setting sun. Amidst the deafening sound, his thoughts suddenly collapsed, and he couldn't help crying loudly. All the unspeakable suffering of a child vents in the sound of the train whistle.

After weeping, he carved a stroke on the earthen wall. He died with his strokes and came back to life with his strokes.

Cheng Kuang has never mentioned this story of mourning and secondary school to anyone.

After he finished speaking, he heard a long siren sound from afar.

At this moment, Cheng Kuang's eyes flickered, and he looked at Zhang Jin and yelled, "Stupid."

"Hold……"

Zhang Jin's words were trapped between his lips and teeth - Cheng Kuang suddenly pressed the back of his head, leaned forward and kissed him.

When Cheng Kuang was in junior high school, because of Li Chengxiang's incident, the most common sentence he heard at that time was "Dogs that bite people don't bark", and he probably responded to this sentence. Calm, still crazy in his bones - even the comfort he can give is venting.

At this moment, the rails vibrated like an earthquake, and the train was coming from the south, making a deafening bang and bang. Amidst the long and loud noise, Cheng Kuang closed his eyes and deepened the kiss.

The airflow brought by the galloping train hit Zhang Jin fiercely on the back of his neck, his heart beat like a drum, and all the sounds disappeared from his ears.After the fierce kiss, Zhang Jin unzipped Cheng Kuang's jacket, ripped open the collar indiscriminately, and bit his neck with his head turned.

"Bastard..." Zhang Jin bit him and cursed in a hoarse voice, "I only fucking have you!"

Cheng Kuang was tightly strangled by him, his voice was tightened, he paused, and after a while he said softly, "I'm here, Brother Pao."

Before leaving, Zhang Jin looked at the wall as if looking at a tombstone, and said to Cheng Kuang, "Hi, Cheng Shisankuang."

The corner of Cheng Kuang's mouth curled, and he responded, "It will be fine, Zhang Erpaoer."

It will be fine, even if it is a bottomless abyss, if you go down, you will have a bright future.

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The so-called bottomless abyss, if you go down, you will have a long way to go. ——Mu Xin "The Past of Plain Shoes"