The boy next door came out

Yanhe, I am Hokuriku

On October 2019, 10, the frosty weather was cloudy

I carry heavy shackles

but dare not approach you

you are my sad silence

Yan He seemed to be a different person since he came back from further training. He always had a cold face at work. The director obviously received a call from the director of another hospital, and he was full of praise and praise for him.

Why did you come back like this?

If he didn't wear a mask every day, those patients would probably beat him up.

Sun Xinlu went to the office to find him and gave him the recent medical records from his group, but he also looked indifferent.

Just a dull, breathless sentence, "Yeah."

How can there be the usual radiant appearance.

At that time, although Yanhe's mouth was a little bit damaged, it was still pleasant to watch.

She had already reached the door, but she turned back and poked him with her finger, but he didn't respond.

"I said what happened to our Xiaoyan doctor?"

Yan He still lowered his head and ignored her.

She asked again tentatively, "Did you get dumped?!"

Yan He's writing pen broke with a "snap", and he slapped the table heavily, glaring at her sadly, "Are you so idle in front of you? Do you care about my affairs!"

Sun Xinlu was so frightened that she ran away, and Yan He was usually angry, but not really angry.

Recently he is not normal.

Those eyes were hollow and lifeless.

After work, Yanhe drove the car and didn't know where to go, so he turned and turned to the gate of Beilu School.

Since that day, Bei Lu didn't even go back to his grandfather's house, and hid alone in the school dormitory.

Yanhe called him several times, but he hung up, and never replied to the messages he sent.

He climbed over the wall in the middle of the night, but the room was still empty.

The sweet-scented osmanthus tree in the yard is blooming vigorously, and the air is full of sweet and greasy smell.

Didn't he say he likes the smell of sweet-scented osmanthus?I don't even want to come back and have a look.

Ms. Zhao has been paying attention to his itinerary on a regular basis recently, and he has also tried his best to maintain the decency she wants.

And the peace that Hokuriku wanted.

But Yanhe's heart hurts, the sentence that Beilu told him repeatedly.

so hard…

Pressing on his chest all the time, that helpless and desperate tone made his heart feel sad.

He really abandoned him because of Ms. Zhao's words.

Don't look back.

When it was time to close the campus, the big iron gate was slowly closed.

In the shadows of many people walking back and forth, there is no such tall and tall figure as Bei Lu.

He started the car and broke into the boundless night again.

Bei Lu was standing under the shade of the trees on the campus at this time, watching the direction in which he disappeared, sighed heavily, and then walked back.

After dinner, he saw Yan He's car parked across the road, his dead heart was about to get agitated, but he still tried his best to hold back the steps he had taken.

The soft and hard heart in his chest was in sharp pain like a dry crack, his clenched fist, the round nails without sharp corners, glowing white, sank into his palm.

The swaying leaves in the darkness rolled up waves of loneliness and scattered in the dust at the feet.

He looked at the empty street at the school gate.

went out.

The scent of sweet-scented osmanthus in the yard permeated everywhere, he held his breath and didn't even dare to smell it, the familiar smell could accidentally invade his internal organs, making his desperately suppressed memories surge up.

The courtyard next door has been covered in black.

Silence.

Every time he took a step, he felt that the lonely long night was telling him "no."

He stood still in front of the window on the second floor without turning on the light, and there was darkness in front of him.

On the table, the building blocks he built some time ago stood there quietly.

forever.

What a beautiful meaning, but before he could say it, he was too vague to claim it.

It is not difficult to build the framework of the inner and outer layers there, but it took him as long as three months to build a long immortality.

Lying in a box on the lawn at the corner of the plinth, is the watch he spent most of his savings on.

Life and life!

Seems to be in tears now.

Unable to wait for its return, I can only spend my life minute by minute in the boundless darkness.

The darkness is not over, but the light is gone.

"Drink less!" Seeing his brother's appearance, Xu Lai felt overwhelmed.

During this period of time, he didn't go back to sleep at night, and always stayed with him to drink.

When he was drunk, he began to yell for Hokuriku, but where would he find him.

He would call Hokuriku at the beginning, but he usually only said "um", and remained silent, unable to hold back a word for a long time.

He called Ms. Zhao, reported his safety, and continued to accompany his buddy.

"I'm so uncomfortable..." Yan He's stomach felt like it was on fire, and the stomach acid began to toss and turn again, and flowed back into his esophagus from time to time, which stimulated him to feel nauseated.

That heart is also throbbing pain.

He could only hug Xu Lai's obese body, looking for some comfort.

"It's uncomfortable, it's all uncomfortable!" Xu Lai didn't know what to do with him. When he was sober during the day, he looked like he was dead, and when he was drunk at night, he looked like life would be worse than death.

Xu Lai would also complain about fate, how could he tease them like this.

When he knew about this at first, he couldn't believe it. As time passed, he felt that it was good for them to do so.

Life is always long, and it’s nice to have someone to accompany you.

Whether he is male or female.

It's better than him coming alone.

Yan He vomited again by grabbing the trash can button. His stomach had never felt better before, and every time he drank a little more wine, he would get a desperate colic.

Xu Lai snatched the wine bottle from his hand, held his unconscious head and said, "Yanhe! I can't drink any more. If I drink any more, my body will collapse!"

Xu Laina's eyes were full of distress, his buddy was like this a few years ago, and it's still the same after all these years.

"Is it important?!" Saying that, he shook off his hand, touched another bottle and poured it with his head raised.

Xu Lai kicked his calf, the wine bottles were scattered aside, and Yan He lay on the sofa.

Suddenly sobbing, "You hit me..."

As if he had suddenly found an outlet for his emotions, he cried softly, Xu Lai couldn't bear it, walked over and hugged his head in his arms, covered his eyes with his hands, and said, "Then I'll call you back. "

Yan He slammed his fist on his generous back, saying, "woc! How dare you hit me..."

As he spoke, the voice became more and more intense, "Baby boy, I didn't even trick him into saying that I liked him, and every time I asked, I only had a perfunctory "um". Am I stupid?"

Beilu never said that he likes him, he is always in his eyes and heart.

Even Xu Lai could see it.

It's not that he didn't say it, but he was afraid that those words would be too heavy, and one day it would set off a violent storm and overturn their small, drifting boat in life.

"Stupid, silly..." Xu Lai let him wave it on the back of Zaijia.

"But I know he is suffering. My mother just said one word, and he was willing to abandon me."

Xu Lai didn't know how to answer this time.

Just holding his head silently.

"Do you think he is human?!"

"Yes Yes…"

"You are not human, he is the best person in the world!"

There was another burst of violent vomiting, and Yanhe fell into a coma.

When he opened his eyes again, the pungent smell of disinfectant filled his surroundings.

He couldn't help frowning.

My stomach was still burning.

He rolled his eyeballs. Ms. Zhao's makeup was no longer exquisite, and her eyes were full of sadness. Even the meticulously combed hair that she usually combed was scattered around her ears.

Seeing him wake up, she also turned her head away, not knowing what to say.

When she received the call last night, her already hanging heart sank completely.

The mother of her own son knows best the virtues of being a mother, and she also understands the character of Bei Lu's child.

But she doesn't know what to do?Every time she saw Yan He's father's busy face, she was so full of thoughts that she dared not speak out.

I can only sigh.

I hope this absurdity can be stopped in time.

Beilu hasn't come back recently, Yanhe is normal during the day, and will report that he is safe at night.

She knew he was just telling her, and she really comforted herself.

She only moaned and sighed as soon as she fell asleep at night, and Yanhe's father asked her a few times, but she hesitated to speak.

Think about it or forget it, maybe after a long time, everything can wither in the dust of the years.

Unexpectedly, his son made himself into the hospital again.

She also remembered that when he just graduated, Bei Lu left without a word, and he also looked like this.

I have no energy all day long, and I am often tired and tired.

The mouthful of blood seemed to have pulled away the hope in his body.

"Come on, drink less water, the doctor said, your stomach bleeding will stop, you can only drink some water first."

Ms. Zhao tremblingly caressed his pale cheeks. It was only a few days since I saw him, and the cheekbones were so thin that they protruded.

The tears in Yan He's eyes flowed down the corners of his eyes and fell on Ms. Zhao's hands.

She cleaned him up carefully, "You are such a big man, what is there to cry about?!"

Even the turmoil of the day could not stop his sorrow, his dry lips were bloodless, and his throat was so dry that he could not even speak.

"Your father asked me, and I just said that you've been tired from work recently, it's nothing. Grandma also kept it a secret. I don't know what to do? Yan Nian was scolded very badly by me. I never could bear to say that to you brothers and sisters Seriously, seeing Yan Nian's miserable appearance, I hugged her and cried for a long time."

Ms. Zhao babbled on and on, her choked voice made Xu Lai who came in feel distressed.

Yan He saw Ms. Zhao who was always smiling in the past, with a sad face.

He closed his lips tightly and stopped looking at her. The door of his heart, which had left a glimmer of hope, slammed, as if it was closed.

He couldn't even turn over, he just tried his best to turn his head to the side, his eyes were covered with mist of tears, and he refused to close his eyes.

Because as soon as he closed it, he could see Hokuriku sitting in that sad face.

Another silence.