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Tong Sheng helped Lei Jinyan treat the wound, and ordered some food. After all these things were done, it was almost twelve o'clock in the evening.

"I'm tired today, go to bed first, let's talk about something tomorrow!"

After Tong Sheng finished speaking, he was ready to go out, but Lei Jinyan grabbed his hand.

"Why?" Tong Sheng looked down at him, a little puzzled by his actions.

Lei Jinyan just pursed his lips and looked at him, as if he was struggling, and finally couldn't help but said, "Can you stay, don't worry, I promise I won't do anything, I just want to stay with you .”

Tong Sheng didn't expect that in just a few days, this Lei Jinyan seemed to have been stimulated by something, and even his temper felt a little different.

Of course, it was difficult for Tong Sheng to understand Lei Jinyan's mood. After going through a life-and-death fear, no amount of self-confidence would sometimes collapse.

Originally, Tong Sheng didn't want to agree, but when he saw his fragile eyes, he couldn't bear it anymore. Thinking about everything that happened today, he seemed to understand.

At that time, he was lucky to have escaped, but he didn't feel much afterwards. The most he felt was that his life was still quite big, but Lei Jinyan was different. When he was in the shadow, the despair and fear that spread from the bottom of his heart were even several times that of his.

Even when he saw the report, he knew it. Before he showed up, Lei Jinyan dug up two dead bodies.He didn't know what it would be like to face such a scene, but what is certain is that it must be uncomfortable at that time.

Since three years ago, this man has been saying that he loves himself, but he has never really taken it seriously.

Because of those painful experiences in the past, she couldn't believe everything this man said, but for some reason, looking at the man's fragile eyes at this moment, he believed it a little bit.

People who don't care about you don't care about your life or death, and they don't even take risks for you.

Tong Sheng didn't refuse at the moment, so he agreed.

The two of them experienced such a thrilling day, they were actually really tired, but sometimes people are so strange, even when they are so tired, they don't feel sleepy at all, they just can't fall asleep at all.

The two of them just lay there without talking, but Lei Jinyan has been holding onto Tong Sheng's hand since he went to bed, and Tong Sheng wanted to break free, but felt his hand was slightly cold After seeing the temperature, he hesitated.

It's not deep winter at this time, and a man like Lei Jinyan, who is full of blood, has never lost such warmth in his hand, but now it is so cold that he can't feel the warmth, Tong Sheng understood, the fear in this man's heart It probably hasn't dissipated yet, that's why the fingertips are so cold.

Tong Sheng's heart moved slightly, but he still didn't break free from his hand.

Unable to fall asleep, Tong Sheng really wanted to turn over, but he was worried that if he turned over by himself, it would affect Lei Jinyan next to him.

Today he was tortured terribly, probably physically and mentally exhausted, under such circumstances, he really couldn't bear it.

After a long time, Tong Sheng originally thought that this person should have fallen asleep, but to his surprise, this person suddenly said: "Xiao Sheng, can we make up?"

Lei Jinyan's voice lacked the usual arrogance and overbearing, only imperceptible fragility and cautiousness.

When Tong Sheng heard his words, he was immediately stunned. He never thought that Lei Jinyan would suddenly say this to him, or in such a tone.

Lei Jinyan kept waiting for his answer, but the man didn't respond for a long time, so he couldn't help but turned around to look, and found that the man was not asleep, but his eyes were open and he didn't know what he was thinking.

Not sure if Tong Sheng heard clearly, he couldn't help asking again, "Can you give me another chance?"

This time Tong Sheng finally reacted, he slowly turned to look at him, "If I say no, will you give up if you want it?"

"No, even then, I won't give up, I'm just a little scared, if one day I can't wait for your forgiveness, what should I do?"

In the past, Lei Jinyan couldn't help but think that it doesn't matter, even if Tong Sheng can't forgive him in a short time, he still has a lot of time, but after this experience, he cares more about staying with Tong Sheng. time together.

There are many accidents in life that you can't predict at all. No matter how much money you have, you can't prevent natural disasters, man-made disasters, and diseases.

Many times you feel that you still have a lot of time in your life for you to squander, but you may not survive tomorrow.

What happened this time made Lei Jinyan feel scared, he was very afraid, if they separated without Tong Sheng's forgiveness, what should they do?Then he probably won't be reconciled even if he dies by then!

"I know, I did a lot of things in the past, which made you sad, made you sad, and made you deeply desperate. In fact, many times when I calm down and think about it, I can't help but despise myself. I also know that such a self is not qualified to be forgiven by you. If I can be more rational, I should stay far away from you, and I shouldn’t come here to make you hate and make you feel even worse. But, I don’t want to How to do it?

I never thought that I actually care about you so much. Maybe people are like this. When I am around, I never have special feelings, but once I leave and lose, my heart will be like being crushed by something. Time to scratch hard.

Do you know that feeling?It’s really uncomfortable in your heart, you always want to touch it, you think it will be comfortable if you touch it to comfort you, but you can’t touch it, you can only feel the pain and discomfort he brings to you, But there is no way to relieve it.If you have not been forgiven, this heart will have to endure such pain every day, which is very uncomfortable.

In fact, compared to this kind of discomfort, I am more afraid that I will lose you permanently in the future. I am very afraid that one day, you fall in love with someone else, and your world will no longer have my existence in your eyes. What counts in your eyes?Maybe it's nothing, I'm really afraid, Tong Sheng, I can accept no matter how much suffering, no matter how much pain, but I'm really afraid of losing you.

Maybe you don't believe what I said, or you still think I'm hypocritical, but I still want to tell you that Lei Jinyan, who has completely lost Tong Sheng, probably doesn't even have the courage to live. "

In such a quiet night, hearing Lei Jinyan's slightly heavy words, Tong Sheng's heart couldn't help but ripples.Facing this man whom he has loved so much for many years, even though he was disheartened at the beginning, at this moment he couldn't help but be moved.

Tong Sheng looked at the hand that was pressed against Lei Jinyan's heart, felt the strong beating under his body, and said after a long time, "I will think about it."