he loves daniel

Daniel was lying on a snow-white recliner at the moment.

After that incident, he began psychotherapy, which he had been doing for four years, with a therapist recommended by Isaac.

Daniel didn't come very often. The first time he came was after he was discharged from the hospital, but the second time was a long time later... probably after Alec left.

During those days, I really couldn't bear it, the superficial peace and the inner pain tore myself into two halves.Facing the hidden deep meaning in the eyes of others, Daniel's face is calm, but his heart is still unable to calm down, coupled with the nightmares that have been entangled with him all the time, the adverse reactions of sequelae...

Daniel has been pretending to be indifferent, as if he has no heart at all, but in fact he knows in his heart that he is not as strong as he pretends to be.

In the endless darkness, Alec once gave himself a ray of light, but he left so suddenly, taking away the remaining joy...

Daniel remembers that when he was a child, he saw a group of children who caught a snail and brutally peeled the snail's shell.At that time, I stepped forward to stop it, but they said that the snail without its shell was a slug, and it was fine, so they threw the poor thing that had been shelled there.

I watched the snail without its shell, rolling and wriggling, leaving trails of mucus on the ground, obviously enduring great pain.My childhood self put it on the dewy leaves, hoping it would be like those children said, it doesn't matter if it loses its shell.

Later, after searching online, I realized that a snail is different from a slug. Its intestines, stomach and internal organs are all inside the shell, so it will be so painful after peeling off the shell. Naturally, it will not live long.

I am like a snail whose shell has been peeled off, lingering on, living in the world. Now, I can only hide quietly in the disguised shell, hoping not to be found and not to be hurt again.

"Are you still insisting on not taking medicine recently?"

The therapist's words interrupted Daniel's thoughts, and he had to sit up from his chair.

"Yeah, I don't think I need to use it anymore"

"I remember we talked about this topic. I said that medicine can soothe your emotions, treat sequelae, and have no side effects on the body..."

"Aren't there any side effects..." Daniel couldn't help but whispered.

Of course the therapist knew what Daniel meant, "Daniel, I said that removing the glands does not mean that you lose your libido. As I once suggested, proper sex can help heal your trauma. I know you have experience with this." Some shadows, so I suggest that you don't be afraid of the body's reaction, you can try a little bit, try to accept others, or fall in love..."

The therapist has already understood what happened back then. He is 56 years old and has a clear view of the world, so he can't help but sigh with emotion about Daniel's experience.It is really difficult to heal such a big wound overnight, so I had to take it slowly, hoping to untangle my heart.But Daniel was obedient on the surface, but he was extremely uncooperative in his heart. It has been four years and it still hasn't had much effect...

"Hunter, can a snail without a shell grow a shell again?"

Hunter, the name of the therapist, was caught off guard by the sudden question.Daniel didn't say any more, thanked himself, got up and left.

I didn't tell Dr. Hunter, and I didn't tell anyone, that I tried...

It was the second year after that incident, five months after Alec dropped out.

That morning, I came for a treatment by myself, and I was going to attend Brian's farewell party in the evening.

Brian had finished his studies a year ago, but he stayed in school for an extra year as a teaching assistant for Mr. Mande.

It's not that Daniel didn't know Brian's mind, especially after Alec left, he took more care of himself.

But I couldn't accept it all the time, so I had no choice but to refuse.

The teacher contacted some classmates in the laboratory and personally held a farewell party for his favorite student.Of course, the contacted students also included Daniel, and Brian himself also came to invite him.

Daniel wanted to give up, but the teacher insisted on going by himself, and said that Brian had always liked his junior the most, so Daniel could not refute the teacher's face, so he had to agree.

When Brian saw Daniel, he was very pleasantly surprised, and a little surprised. He really didn't expect Daniel to come. After all, Daniel rejected him very directly these years.

In fact, at the beginning, Brian was just curious about Daniel. Daniel's aura was too cold. Brian was very curious about how a young man could have such a strong aura, as if he wanted to reject people thousands of miles away.

He couldn't help getting closer to Daniel, wanting to know more about him.Until... that happened, Dempsey revealed Daniel's secret, and Brian began to feel sorry for this "Omega" who had been hurt early and closed himself.

Curiosity turned into sympathy, then into pity, heartache, Daniel approached the bottom of his heart step by step, and Brian couldn't let him go.But his refusal was so clear that Brian had no choice but to calm down and not bother him.

Brian chatted with everyone, but couldn't help finding Daniel.

There was no one around Daniel, and he didn't chat with anyone, just stood there alone, like the only red rose standing in the garden in the cold winter.

Seeing Brian walking towards him, Daniel said, "Congratulations, Brian."

"Thanks, I'm glad you're here." Brian smiled.

Daniel didn't speak anymore, and didn't know what to say.

But the scene is not awkward, Brian has always been understanding and talkative.It's just that someone came soon and surrounded the place, after all, Brian is the protagonist here.

Daniel walked away quietly. He was still not used to crowded places. After all, the rumors never stopped where he stayed.

After it was over, Daniel wanted to leave alone, but Brian found himself, and he was a little drunk.

"Daniel, I know you may not accept it, but I want to say..."

Brian wanted to take this opportunity to show his heart. He knew that 99% of the time he would be rejected, but he still wanted to leave the school without regret.

"Now that you know it, you don't need to say more." Daniel just turned his head and wanted to leave quickly.

"Please, I have no other request, I just want to tell you, tell you, is that okay?"

Daniel sighed, "I know."

Brian's eyes were full of disappointment, but he still said that he was a gentleman and wanted to send Daniel back to the dormitory.

In front of the dormitory door, Daniel’s mind suddenly skipped what the therapist said during the day. At that time, he told him about his fear of sex. He comforted himself and said that he could have some initial contact appropriately…

Maybe it was impulsive, or lonely for a long time, but Daniel suddenly wanted a hug.

Daniel turned around and walked up to Brian.

Brian was still a little overwhelmed.

"Take me to your place, okay?"

Daniel's voice was as soft as a feather, and Brian instantly understood that he was too excited to hold back.Daniel accepted himself!He accepts himself!

Brian gently took Daniel's hand, but there was no response or objection from the other party.

Daniel's hand was so cold, Brian squeezed it tightly and put it in his pocket.

The two hands were tightly intertwined in the narrow pocket, and that hand was gradually no longer cold.

Brian lives in a rented house not far from the campus. The house is very tidy and the layout matches Brian's personality.

It's warm inside, and a little cosy.

Brian carefully removed Daniel's coat and made hot cocoa.

Daniel, who was sitting on the sofa, regretted his impulsiveness a bit, but he decided not to care about it.

Brian, who has always been talkative, didn't know what to say for a while, and he sat awkwardly on the chair opposite Daniel.

"Uh, that, is it not hot anymore, you try it?"

Daniel picked up his glass and took a sip, the smooth chocolate taste relaxing him a bit.

Brian was wearing a black sweater. The light made his hair more dazzling, and his emerald green eyes were like flowing springs.

After a while, Brian slowly moved to the side of the sofa, and he gently stretched out his arms to wrap around Daniel's shoulders.

Daniel was a little stiff, turned to look at him, Brian lowered his head slowly, and kissed Daniel's lips.

His movements are so careful, his lips are so soft, Daniel has never kissed anyone like this before.

His experience is limited to the only two affairs with Eureka, and Eureka has never kissed himself like this, and Daniel is a little flustered.

His hand wanted to push Brian away, but it wanted to pull him closer.

This kiss was too tender for Daniel who had been alone for too long, and he couldn't help but fall into it...

Daniel's hand slowly stroked Brian's hair...

Suddenly, Brian was pushed away by Daniel, and his head hit the flower pot on the windowsill, and he couldn't help but groaned.

"Sorry, Brian, that, I think I have to go..."

Daniel quickly picked up his coat, pushed open the door, and ran out.

Brian hurriedly chased him out, but Daniel had disappeared into the night.

After that, Brian made countless phone calls to himself, and rushed back from the place where he was transferred several times.

Daniel knew it was his fault, so he had no choice but to meet him and explain that it was his fault, but he still couldn't accept it.Brian told himself that he could wait.

This word is what Daniel is most afraid of. He knows how painful the waiting is. He told Brian that he is not a normal person, that he cannot fall in love and has no sexual desire. He will never contact Brian again. The two of them Don't miss each other from now on.

Brian was heartbroken by Daniel and left without sending another message.

That night, Daniel didn't want to admit it, but he had to face his own heart. He thought he could get rid of the nightmare and accept others, but when he touched Brian's golden hair, he took Brian for a moment as Yuli. Card.

These years, I have been unwilling to accept Brian because he is so similar to Eureka back then, equally gentle, knowledgeable, charming, and affectionate, but Eureka's tenderness and affection are given to another person.Brian is like Eureka who has never fallen in love with anyone else, like a dream given to him by God.

They are so similar, let yourself be afraid, you have no shell, and you can't stand any harm.

People who have been hurt can't help avoiding, afraid of being seen by others, and continue to laugh at their scars...

The author has something to say

Uh, Eureka was a little green two years ago, after all, there are so many people waiting to green him, Isaac, Brian, Michael...

Brian is so similar to Eureka back then, but now Eureka has become a rough guy, so stupid...

Eureka will be very miserable in the future, have you not noticed my hints outside the episode, hey, this is just the beginning, a very small case, and there will be great disasters in the future...

Do you want to watch Raphael's episode, the kind that cries to death, vote for it (I'm an old devil)