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Lin Ying's relationship with relatives at home is not very close, so she was a little surprised when she received a call from her uncle.

"Xiao Ying." The other party's voice was serious with hesitation, and there seemed to be a moderate noise behind it.

"It's me. Uncle, what's the matter?" She answered in a serious voice, but she couldn't imagine why her uncle would call her.

"Book your flight and come back," the other party cleared his throat before continuing, "Your sister—she committed suicide."

Hearing this, she couldn't react for a while: "What?"

"I'll talk about it in detail when you come back." After the main point was said, the other party's speech speed increased. "Your parents can't bear to tell you, so your aunt asked me to call you. Come back as soon as possible."

"Oh, good."

After hanging up the phone, she was still in a daze. She only bought a plane ticket based on instinct, and then asked for leave from her tutor.

It was already the afternoon of the next day when she got off the plane, and her uncle drove to pick her up.

She looked a little tired, but not sad.Uncle looked at her twice more, and asked her cautiously and concernedly: "Are you okay?"

She was startled, and seemed surprised by the other party's question, and answered after two seconds: "It's okay."

After the car drove for a while, she asked the other party: "Uncle, I didn't catch my uncle's phone call yesterday. Who died?"

"Ah?" The other party looked at her through the rearview mirror, then frowned, and answered unbearably, "Your sister."

"Are you sure it's her?"

"This—" Uncle's voice weakened, "Can there be fakes?"

Lin Ying's reaction was different from the average person's. My uncle didn't know how to respond, he was afraid of irritating her.But she acted as if nothing happened, after hearing this answer, she just responded with a low snort, so that people couldn't see what was going on with her.

It was dark when we got home.Before getting out of the car, she asked her uncle, "How did she die?"

"Jump off the building."

"From home?" Her voice raised, "Our home is only on the fourth floor."

The other party sighed, and couldn't bear it even more: "The head hits the ground first."

She trembled, and the hand that was holding the car door lost all strength in an instant.

It has been a day and a half since the incident happened, and the mournful and depressed atmosphere of the Lin family has faded a lot, and the relatives, friends and helpers who come and go in the corridor have also arranged things in an orderly manner.

Seeing her coming back, Father Lin twitched the corners of his mouth, but in the end he couldn't say anything.Mother Lin's eyes were red and swollen, but there was only worry in her eyes.The aunt greeted her instead of them, and came up to take the bag in her hand and put it aside.

After entering the door, Lin Ying only noticed the cold coffin in the center of the living room.

She moved a few steps closer and saw the person in the coffin.Although the make-up artist has undergone meticulous plastic surgery and make-up, Lin Fei's appearance is still a bit bleak, and even because of the impact of the landing, the eyebrows and eyes are only restored by the make-up artist, but they still deviate from the original weirdness.

Stomach tumbling, she pushed away the people beside her and ran straight to the bathroom, retching into the toilet.

After washing her face with cold water and calming down, she returned to stand beside the coffin, her arms hanging down, her palms clenched and then loosened, she clutched the hem of her trousers helplessly, then lowered her head and murmured softly: "Sister."

The person in the coffin had a miserable face, showing coldness.

"Xiaoying." Auntie called her, trying to comfort her but couldn't say anything.

"Little, auntie, did she leave a suicide note?"

"We didn't find it. Would you like to go and see her room?" Seeing her reaction like this, the aunt's voice was extremely gentle.

Before my aunt could finish speaking, she had already gone to Lin Fei's room.

Lin Fei did not say anything.From the bookshelves to the drawers, from the wardrobe to the bottom of the bed, she found nothing.With a little luck, she went to her room, searched inside and out, and finally only saw Lin Fei's words on a photo.

She printed it out last year and kept it, so she almost forgot.On the edge of the only photo of two people holding hands, I don't know when two words were written: it's so good.

Carefully clipping the photo in the pages of the book, she obediently obeyed her aunt's instructions, put on sackcloth, and sat next to Mother Lin in front of the cold coffin to keep watch.Mother reached out and grabbed her hand, holding it tightly.I have already killed my eldest daughter, and I must not let my younger daughter do anything beyond her imagination.She couldn't inform Lin Ying in person because she was afraid and guilty, and she couldn't talk to Lin Ying at all.At this moment, Lin Ying didn't shed a single tear, which made her terrified.

Lin Ying let her hold her hand without making a sound.She was even more flustered, so she guarded Lin Ying for two whole days, even going to the toilet, lest she would go too if she didn't pay attention.

Lin Ying seemed indifferent to everything, only obedient.Kneeling, mourning, offering incense, everything was carried out according to the instructions of the elders, and there was no difference.Lin's mother became more and more sad, and she was even more depressed than her worried daughter.

Lin Ying didn't really shed tears until she saw the corpse for the last time before cremation. After the corpse was pushed away from the funeral hall, she knelt on the ground and cried loudly towards the door.

Seeing her venting, Mother Lin finally felt relieved and breathed a sigh of relief. Together with Father Lin, she helped her to sit on a chair and comfort her shoulders.

After the first seven days, she saw that Lin Ying was eating and drinking normally, she also calmed down her sadness, and returned to school with a relaxed spirit.In any case, life is always passable.

It was late at night, and everything was silent.Lin Ying moved the chair to the balcony and stood on it.

Looking down at the concrete floor more than ten meters away from her, she hesitated for a long time, poked her feet, and finally didn't have the courage to step out.Giving up, she put the chair back in place and went to Lin Fei's room which had been cleaned up and cleaned up much more.Holding the photo, she sat on the edge of the bed in the middle of the night, until the first bright white light came into the room in the morning, she woke up as if she had just woken up, straightened her clothes, went back to her room, took her mobile phone and wallet and went out.

I called a car and went to the Chengdong Cemetery.

It has been raining for several days.The continuous rainy days make the sky always hazy, especially in the morning, when the sight is covered with a layer of tulle, making it difficult for people to see the front clearly.Therefore, although there were very few vehicles on the road, the driver still drove uncomfortably. It took nearly an hour to reach the east of the city, and stopped at the intersection in front of the cemetery at Lin Ying's request.

She didn't bring an umbrella, the driver felt that she came to this place early in the morning, wearing white clothes and showing mourning, he cared about her but was afraid of getting into trouble, so he drove away without saying a word.

A day seems like a lifetime away, Lin Ying couldn't help thinking while looking at the quiet cemetery.

Stepping into the cemetery, he soon arrived at Lin Fei's tomb.It was a bit messy, and the traces of sacrifices on the stone table were washed away by the rain. She looked around, but found no utensils that could be used for cleaning, so she had to give up and looked at the name on the tombstone for a while, and then habitually First she called "Sister", then took a deep breath, sighed, and knelt down:

"sorry.

"It's really meaningless to say this, but I really don't know what to say to you, so I can only apologize first..."

"I used to think that no matter what, you and I are always connected by blood. Even if we are not together, meeting, holding hands, hugging, or kissing beyond the norms on weekdays can relieve longing, fade desire, and even forget There is also the matter of eternal separation between man and heaven...

"I thought about it a few days ago - I was vetoed later, and this ending is inevitable. If you don't leave, I won't have the courage to be with you; if you leave, I regret it. I want to be with you, but It's meaningless. Besides, when you were alive, you never had the courage to be with me. Morality, ethics, and principles are impossible for you and me to ignore. Together or not, neither you nor I will be happy. But I would still imagine that if we were together, wouldn't you die... But, since you won't be happy anyway, it's fine if you die.

"I have never known why incest is wrong, and why sister incest is even more wrong. Many times I wanted to run to you regardless, but I always dared not. Condemnation. My mother knows about you and me. I listened to her and went abroad. In fact, I wanted to escape. I tried my best to escape, and I ran farther and farther. I was afraid of seeing you, afraid of seeing you and Zhao Ming, so I ran away ——It’s just that I didn’t expect that you also escaped, and once you escaped, you escaped the farthest.”

"Okay." She smiled helplessly, "You ran away, and I want to chase after you."

"But, sister... I found that I didn't have the courage to chase, I dare not... I want to ask you, how do you dance, tell me, teach me, okay... I don't want you to go alone, I want to accompany you, but I didn't dare... Seeing that height, I was scared, and the more I stood on the balcony, the more afraid I became..." She lay on the ground, her voice hoarse and incoherent, "I didn't dare... I'm sorry, I didn't dare... sister , I’m sorry, I don’t know what to do, can you come back and teach me...Teach me, let’s see if I go first and then you go...I can’t let you go down alone, but I am like this...I should accompany you I don't want you alone...and I don't want to be alone, sister..."

He repeated these words upside down until he lost his voice.She didn't know how long she stayed there, and finally got up in a daze, and walked away in a daze with blood red eyes.

The sky is already bright, but the rain and fog are thicker, and there are almost no cars on the wide roads in the suburbs.

She allowed herself to be confused and walked across the road like a walking corpse, but when she heard a horn honking and wheels rubbing against the ground, she turned her head subconsciously, and her body had already hit the truck that was coming fast.

very nice.she thinks.

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