Zi Feiyu

Flies buzzed beside the stinking garbage dump.He frowned tightly, pushed away with one hand, and rubbed his eyes with the other, but his eyelids were glued and couldn't be opened no matter what.He staggered to his feet, shaking his head vigorously.Finally woke up and opened his eyes.

where is this?

Head hurts.

He frowned and looked around,—the iron gates of the community that are forbidden to enter and exit, the abandoned guard booths, the nameless trees with thin necks and waists forever, the grass that has been trampled countless times and can still grow vigorously, pet dogs that defecate everywhere, Grandpa and aunt chatting while eating melon seeds.A man and a woman in sanitation suits came over. The man pinched the back of the woman's neck, and the woman laughed: "Don't, don't, itch, itch."

The man smirked, turned his hand over, slid down, and touched the woman's breast.Throwing an extremely obscene wink from school on TV, "Is this itchy?"

The woman pushed the man away and said shyly, "No one is serious."

Pushing the garbage trolley to the garbage dump, the woman said, "My wife bought me a string of pearl necklaces yesterday. It's so beautiful."

The man followed and blew on the woman's neck, "Why don't you wear it for me to see. My woman likes gold and says gold is valuable. Necklaces, bracelets, and rings look like a rich woman. Do you like it?"

He sneezed, couldn't listen anymore, and hurriedly ran away from the scene of the middle-aged and elderly people cheating.

But this is the neighborhood he lives in, he remembered.Once he came home from get off work and stepped on the poop of a black puppy in the community. The little fat boy on the leash despised him, saying that he was so big that he still walked without looking at the road.He suffocated the undigested gas and shit at the supermarket and shipped it home for comfort.

But when I entered the door, no one was there.Call and ask your girlfriend when she will be home.Girlfriend said, at the door.

When he opened the door, besides his girlfriend, there were also his best buddies.

My girlfriend and buddy entered the door with a smile, and the buddy held up a packing box and said, "I'm here again for dinner. Roast goose, there was a long queue to buy it. Let's go, let's cook."

He laughed, but didn't want to laugh.His buddy fell out of love, last month.But life, as usual.He knew his buddy's girlfriend, but he wasn't familiar with him. He was also responsible for their breakup.My buddy often complains about his girlfriend in front of him and his girlfriend, saying that his girlfriend is not like a woman, inconsiderate, lazy, stupid, and doesn't work hard. He is so powerless and can't see the future. This is for the purpose of marriage. The object, but in the object, he can't see any signs of working hard for the future of the two of them. He is suffering and helpless. ——He patted his buddy on the shoulder and said, if it doesn't fit, let's split it.

Later, it was really divided.The buddy couldn't say anything to his girlfriend, so he could only break up on the phone.The girlfriend accepted it calmly, and then called her boyfriend like crazy, saying that she loves him so much, why break up, don't break up, okay, if you want me to work hard, I will work hard, if you think I am not good, I will change, don't break up, I love you, I can't let you go, please.

The buddy decided and yelled at his girlfriend: "What do you look like, crying and making noise, crazy you. I don't want to scold you. Who dares to want you like you. Can't take it, can't let it go. Don't call me again, We're done, we're done."

The girlfriend couldn't stand it, she sat on the ground and yelled, her boyfriend didn't answer her phone, she looked through the address book and found the phone number of her boyfriend's best buddy.She questioned him: "You told him to break up with me, right?"

He faltered: "I, I don't know. You, what's wrong with you."

She was quiet for a long time, then suddenly said: "Be careful with that bitch of yours." Afterwards, she resumed the roaring madness mode.

He couldn't stand the noise and hung up the phone.His girlfriend of seven years was called a slut, and he called crazy on the phone.In fact, he has been a little suspicious of the relationship between his girlfriend and buddies recently.But his buddies grew up with him, wearing crotch pants together, climbing trees together, going down rivers together, fighting together, and going to school together. For so many years, he didn’t believe that buddies would poach his corner.But still uneasy.Especially buddy's ex-girlfriend also knows about it.

——He found the apartment building where he lived.The rusty anti-theft door creaked and was pushed open by a bald man. The man patted the rust, rubbed his pants, cursed a bad word, and left.

He stood downstairs, looking up at the window on the sixth floor.The rent in this neighborhood is fairly cheap, and he and his girlfriend rented here as soon as they graduated.This is the temporary warmth they have worked hard in this city.Although, the place is full of shit.

He walked in, step by step, up to the sixth floor.He touched his pocket, found no keys, raised his hand, and put it down again.He squatted at the door, holding his head. For some reason, his head hurt so badly.

Suddenly, he heard his girlfriend arguing with someone, saying that the family is urging the marriage, and they have been dating for so many years, and there is no further delay.

He covered his ears, not wanting to hear any more.He ran up to the top of the building as if escaping, and squatted behind the rotten wooden door on the top of the building, roaring dryly and tearing his hair.He remembered, he knew who his girlfriend was arguing with, and he didn't want to face it.He was not born well, and his job was not good. There was only this girlfriend, whom he regarded as a treasure and cared for in every possible way.His father is old enough to be his grandfather, has a big temper, and always dislikes one thing and another.The three older sisters on his head got married early one by one and were doing farm work in the valley.His mother has never studied, but she also hopes that the poor child can go out and be promising, and don't go back to suffer in the ravine.His job is not good either. He studied logistics at university and is now doing physical work in a supermarket.His girlfriend works as an accountant in a small company, and neither of them has much money, but he has to take care of his parents at home. He feels sorry for his girlfriend.

The sun slowly shifted to the west, his shoulders in the shadow of the rotten wooden door trembled slightly, he hugged himself, he didn't know why, suddenly thought of the voice of his buddy's ex-girlfriend going crazy on the phone, he really wanted to go crazy now , epilepsy.

The shadow of the rotten wooden door got longer and longer, and he hugged himself, but he didn't cry in the end.He stared at the ground, in a daze, in a daze.Finally got up, went downstairs, raised his hand and knocked on the door, the door opened, and followed his buddies in.He was sitting on the imitation leather sofa with peeling paint, his girlfriend was sitting next to him, and his buddy was standing in front of the coffee table and pressing the remote to turn on the TV.The buddy turned his back to his girlfriend and comforted him: "It's not like you don't know the situation in his house, so wait a little longer."

The girlfriend bowed her head and said nothing.

The buddy said again: "I said, don't think too much."

Girlfriend held her mouth: "He is too ignorant. I can't bear it anymore."

The buddy pressed back and forth, couldn't find the TV to watch, turned it off, put the remote control on the coffee table, turned around, squatted next to his girlfriend, touched his girlfriend's head with one hand, and put the other on her lap, "I can't bear to look for me."

The girlfriend hugged the buddy quickly, rubbed the buddy's neck, and said softly: "He works late today."

The buddy laughed, took off his girlfriend's clothes, stripped them off, and put them on the sofa.The buddy unbuttoned his belt while kissing his girlfriend. ——No one cares about him, he is watching and listening.

Dude pulls down his pants and prepares for an avalanche.But the girlfriend was still a little sensible, and reminded the buddies: "Wear, put on that thing. Otherwise, you won't be able to get pregnant. It's in the drawer of the bedside table in the room. You go and get it, hurry up."

The buddy pecked his girlfriend's mouth: "Okay, okay." Then he took one and put it on with his bare buttocks.

——His chin trembled slightly, and tremblingly cursed bitch, bitch, bastard, bastard.

The dude is pressing on his girlfriend to stir up, and he never tires of it.The girlfriend whispered: "Okay, so comfortable."

——He completely lost control, roaring and cursing like crazy, but the people in front of him felt nothing but deaf ears.

Suddenly, the unlocked door was opened.When he saw a man who looked exactly like him, he swung the umbrella by the door and rushed towards him.The girlfriend was startled, picked up the clothes on the ground to block in front of her, cried and pushed the buddy away and ran into the room, and the buddy was nakedly strangled.The veins on the man's face and hands popped out, his eyes widened with anger, he threw down the umbrella, and punched him hard, causing the buddy to fall sideways on the sofa.Furious, he stepped forward and grabbed his buddy by the neck, cursing, "You fucking did such a thing, you bastard."

The buddies were strangled by him, pushed him, kicked him, but to no avail.The two are about the same height and physique, and usually fight to a draw, but now, one is eager to eat the other alive, skin cramps.

——He watched from the side, grasping with ten fingers, he wanted to strangle him, strangle him.

In the end, the buddy ran out of gas and died.

He cried.

He saw another self crying too.

The corpse was not covered by anything, its eyes were turned white, and it was lying crookedly on the sofa, with its arms and legs wide open, hanging the limp thing. —He was crying and crying, and suddenly laughed.Cursed: "Beast."

The girlfriend had been hiding in the room and was afraid to go out, so he walked to the room with him without knocking on the door.Whispered together: "I have been under a lot of pressure, but I work hard every day, but it is still useless and cannot give you a better life. You follow me and suffer. I am sorry for you. After arguing with you at noon, I regret it. I shouldn't have quarreled with you. You are right. I received a call from my mother when I was at work, and she told me not to send money to my family anymore, and save the money for marriage. You can see my house Yes, it’s full of mud. But my mother is building a house by herself recently. She said that when we go back, there will be a place to live. Isn’t it very pitiful. There is no way. We are all poor. If you think about it, you can go, Although I am reluctant, but I will not blame you. I am too useless.... I came back to apologize to you. You always say that I never discuss things with you, and you are the same, always thinking wildly. Every time I always admit my mistakes in the quarrel. This time I didn’t admit my mistakes and went to work. I’m afraid you will think too much. I was wrong. Please forgive me.”

He didn't say anything about his girlfriend cheating, he couldn't say it.His buddy died, but his anger didn't stop completely, he grabbed his palms, resisting the urge to strangle his girlfriend to death.

After that, there was no sound from inside or outside the door. —his head began to ache again.He frowned and rubbed his temples vigorously with both wrists.Out of the corner of my eye, the other self returned to the living room.

He followed and saw his other self find a cloth to cover the corpse.Then he stood beside the sofa, lowered his head, expressionless.With a headache, he said to him who bowed his head: "He is dead."

With his head down, he looked faintly sad, his mouth was deflated, and his shoulders trembled.

I was about to cry, but I didn't cry.

Turn around and leave.The next floor is the roof, and they are the only ones on this floor.Without hesitation, he chose to go downstairs.The sky downstairs has been stained with ink.The shitting dog and the sunflower seed eater went to bed early, and he was out of his mind.He stumbled towards another iron gate.The uncle at the gate dozed off on the table.He pushed open the small iron gate and went out. There was no one on the street, but there were cars, and they were driving very fast, whirring, thunder and lightning.

He walked towards the motorway step by step, looking at the empty street, the dim lights, powerless and helpless.A car with high beams on was coming from the left, and he stepped forward, turned his head, and smiled at the car.

——He followed him from the sixth floor to the street, he called him, but he couldn't hear him; he stopped him, but he couldn't touch him.He saw him lying on the ground covered in blood, motionless.He knelt down, hugged himself, looked at himself bleeding from the ground, and beat his head, "He's dead. I'm dead."

He fell, into himself.

The crooked "person" couldn't stand up straight, with his hands bowed and his neck crooked.He walked through the street recklessly, and bumped into a tall, thin and somewhat scruffy man."I seem to have lost my way," he said.

Gu Chen looked at him: "Yes."

He asked again, "Where should I go?"

Gu Chen said: "The three souls and seven souls are all gone, how come, how come back."

He looked at himself, at Gu Chen, at the people on the street, suddenly had a headache, pressed his hands on his temples, and said in a low voice: "I remember someone was hit by a car. I and the other person crawled off the ground Come out....No." Suddenly remembered something, "He is me, I am him. He is dead. I am dead."

Gu Chen scratched his hair and nodded.

"How do I go back?" he asked.

Gu Chen's hanging hand conjured a talisman between his fingers, and pressed it on the crooked "human" forehead, "Thinking about yourself, you can find yourself. Let's go."

Talk, the lost "person", disappears.