in the month you disappeared

The orphanage has been renovated and the walls painted.

Zheng Xi looked at the clean wall with some regret, pointed to it, and said to Wu Jin, "I wanted you to see the paintings on it, but now they are all gone."

The children of that year have changed again.

Lu Jun donated a lot of money here every year.Zheng Xi only found out about it when he saw the receipt when he was sorting things out.In the past, when Lu Jun was free, they would come back to take a look together, but it has been a long time since they came here, and so many changes have taken place.

A little girl came out timidly.

"Auntie, are you here to see us?"

Zheng Xi said, pointing at herself, "Oh, auntie, um, be good," she dug into her pocket, took out a handful of candy and gave it to the girl.

"give you to eat."

The girl smiled and took one.

"It's all for you, take it."

The girl shook her head, "I only need one, can these be given to other children?"

"Of course, you can take it to them, good boy."

"I didn't tell Yun Yun about the identity of Lu Jun's orphan before, and I didn't know why, but now I think I want to understand."

"Why?" Wu Jin looked at her.

"Because," Zheng Xi pointed to his heart, "I regard myself as her family."

After leaving the orphanage, they went to the house.

I don't know if there are any owners in it——Zheng Xi thought to himself, even if those two disgusting clients still lived there, it would be better than turning into a deserted empty house.

She rang the bell.

Unexpectedly, the owner changed to another man.He is coming out the door.

Zheng Xi asked, "When did you live in this house?"

"Oh, it's been almost two years, who are you looking for?"

Wu Jin saw Zheng Xi wandering in the sky, and squeezed her hand.

"Ah, uh, it's a nice house, lucky you."

The door was closed.

"Who lived here before?" Wu Jin asked.

Zheng Xi hesitated for a moment, then said in a slightly hoarse voice, "Yuan, and her sister."

Wu Jin stared fixedly at the house.Marble walls, black carved iron gates.Blue glass, broken glazed wall.A little old, but still very magnificent.

After a long time, Zheng Xi's hand was pulled, "Let's go."

"Is it true that Yun Xuan is not coming back?" Zheng Xi drank the wine, and the smell of the wine sprayed into Wu Jin's nose.

Wu Jin avoided his face and said flatly, "She won't come back."

"Do you want to see her?"

Zheng Xi's eyes were confused for a while, and suddenly became clear, and he nodded.

Zheng Xi staggered along the river, hiccupped, and shouted, "Yuan, you want to be happy!"

The alley is very quiet, the moonlight is reflected in the river, sparkling like a lover's tears.

Wu Jin felt chills all over his body, his fingers trembling, "You go to her, you can see her by jumping down."

"Clatter—plop—"

The splash of water disturbed the quiet night.

......

"Let you dance, you really dance!"

Wu Jin slapped Zheng Xishui's white face vigorously, and her clothes were wrinkled from the water.The hair was still dripping.Zheng Xi coughed a few times, spit out water from his mouth and nose, as if he had just woken up, and said, "I... I seem to have drank a lot of water."

"Deserved it! You nearly drowned."

Zheng Xi giggled silly.

"Is she doing well?"

Wu Jin looked at her pale face and sparkling eyes; she moved her eyes away and looked at the moon sky. At this time, the night was very gentle, gently brushing over her heart.She sighed softly, "Didn't you already know? She...she is very happy and carefree."

Wu Jin smiled and remembered the dream in the afternoon, which was the first good dream since that incident.It was neither too early nor too late.If possible, Wu Jin would really like to sleep in that afternoon lavender-scented dream from now on.

Zheng Xi smiled gratifiedly.

Let everything that is not good come to an abrupt end at this moment. Grief needs to be left blank and give way to tomorrow.

"Wu Jin, good morning!"

Zheng Xi pushed open the window and waved to Wu Jin who was running downstairs in the morning.

"Has she come back?" Wu Jin raised his head and covered the sun above his head with his hands.

"I'll be home at noon today." Zheng Xi also smiled back at her.

"I want to surprise her!"

This voice sounds like the warmth of the rising sun.

Wu Jin stopped, and she saw a handful of fine powder falling from Zheng Xi's hand.

"what is this?"

Wu Jin seemed to have seen a white ghost floating in the air, and it disappeared under the sunlight. Just like that, it never existed again.

Zheng Xi closed his eyes, clasped his hands together in front of his chest, and lowered his head, as if praying.

Wu Jinneng watched the golden sunlight gliding past her brows.

Zheng Xi opened his eyes, "It's some photos."

"What picture?"

Wu Jin asked.

"The photo I promised to keep for her. But I regret it. It's the best thing to do."

Wu Jin returned to the apartment and took out the brown paper bag, the important file.

She turned on the computer, opened an encrypted file, and was silent for a long time.Finally, the contents inside were deleted, as well as the copied photos in the phone, and the chips that she planned to use to give Lu Jun a fatal blow were also shattered. Like the white ghost, they no longer existed.

"The archive of September 9th, let it disappear completely."

"Take it as my blessing to you."

Wu Jin said silently in his heart.

Falling in love with you is a 9.11 event in my life.

if they can be fulfilled

then let everything

End it on 9.10.

Farewell, the one I love, the one who loves her

The one in my life that is falling lightly,

white butterfly

Two planes are in the sky.

Just like a month ago, they passed by.

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☆, Fanwai (Lu Jun's perspective)

Knowing this news was half a year ago.

A woman named Wu Jin told me that she wanted to make a bet with me.

I think it's ridiculous, I never bet on my relationship with Zheng Xi with the third person.I believed in her, that she loved me, and the fact that she loved me more than anyone else.

But things are unpredictable.

Half a year is enough for a lot of things to happen, including those photos that made me have nightmares and make me feel ashamed, including Zheng Xi's sudden indifference and boredom, including... my sudden sympathy for that woman.

I made a difficult decision to give Zheng Xi a chance to give up on me, and let her live the life she wanted—I used to swear that I could make her happy, but now everything has proved my failure and broken promise.Making her suffer is my worst pain.

One month is the deadline I bet on this.

Every day I live in fear and walking dead.I restrained myself all the time, fearing that I might rush back at any time regardless of the promise, take her away, lock her up, and never give her freedom again.However, as long as I think that she may leave me, I am already terrified.

I don't know when I became a miser, and she is my only treasure.My stingy love for her has reached the point where even my own touch is taboo.We have been separated for half a year.

The dress I gave her had nine thousand nine hundred and ninety-nine pearls. Most of them were in a regular shape with a diameter of nine millimeters. Late night of "overtime".

Her mother gave her a pair of pearl earrings, and her mother left her.I gave her nine thousand nine hundred and ninety-nine pearls, and I wanted to let her know that I would not leave her, either, as a lover, or—a relative.

She captured me with the love of my family, and I am willing to surrender to her with this love of my family.

I gradually adapted to life here.

Even at the beginning, those greasy and shiny faces made me feel sick, those hypocritical and contrived words made me have the urge to slam the door, and those stalking looks made me feel cold.

I was like a snail, breaking away from my thick shell, which had long been a part of my body, and became a defenseless, powerless worm, ready to be killed by those sharp things at any time.

I dyed myself the same protective color as my surroundings, and it miraculously kept me alive.But I don't want to, let Zheng Xi be like me, I would rather she stay in a small office, in her quiet world of words.

I didn't believe in talent for a long time, but it became "capital" in the eyes of others after all.Actually not, the real capital is by plundering.I'm not used to doing that, to cheating and flattering to get what I need.But I will not be foolish enough to think that I can gain recognition, fame, and wealth only by wishful thinking and hard work day and night.

To tame the rules, one must first be tamed by the rules.Taming is tantamount to playing with.Playing is to pinch hard things in the hands, break bones and cramps, pinch them round and flatten them, making them soft, slippery and easy to control.

Why Zheng Xi loves me, I don't know.But I know that when the loveable things in me deteriorate, her love for me will also become thinner.

Love is not about taming and controlling, but rather, I would set her free.

I don't want to say sensationally that all my original intentions are for her.Being famous and chasing fame and fortune are everyone's desire, she is my desire, and the former is also.

It's just that I am willing to choose a faster way to achieve the former for her. I think this will give her a sense of security.

But I don't understand, she loves the scenery of the coast, but doesn't want a villa with a sea view.She wants me to be successful, but she doesn't want me to be successful.

If I am 沄洇.

How should I restore my love with Zheng Xi?

This is a false proposition, but sympathy makes me very emotional.

I don't talk much in front of Zheng Xi, maybe I have told lies for a day, and I have heard lies for a day, I really want to shut up my gradually proficient and worldly mouth, I don't want to blurt out words that will surprise her and make her feel at a loss.I want to hear her voice.Only from here, I hear the true echo of my heart.I became more and more attached to her, but it seemed that I was becoming more and more reticent and less interested.

There is indeed an aura that produces feelings of love more than hormones and dopamine.This aura unfortunately tied the three of them together.

There are few things I pay attention to, and Zheng Xi is one of them.Along with that, I know Yun Ming.

We are very different on the surface.

There is one thing in his bones, all-or-nothing determination, and pride.

She treats Zheng Xi very well.

Gentle and considerate than me, delicate and thoughtful than me.She knitted scarves and gloves for her, soaked brown sugar water for her, and cut her bangs to cover her eyes.In the eyes of others, they are like girlfriends and sisters.

But they are not.

They take a walk in the playground, play badminton, and chase each other.The two held hands and talked outside the corridor.During the picnic, she pushed Yun Min aside, squatted in front of the earth hole to light a fire, and blew black ash all over her face.Maybe in her eyes, Yun Yun is a delicate and fragile doll, hehe, her fierce love was given to me.

She left very suddenly and completely, almost without hearing from her.I'm shocked to hear about her now.

The days are very intriguing, on 9.11, it is still Wu Jin's birthday.

Zheng Xi acted as the plane that hit the building.

I don't want her to know, I know that for her, that heavy guilt can last a lifetime.

In that archive, there are recordings that were not very clear at the time.

"Zheng Xi, don't be afraid, let's travel the sky together."

If Zheng Xi feels guilty, I will atone with her, I don't want her alone.

Love is that I am willing to share everything with you.

I didn't get very far.

In the first half month, I was in Yancheng.

Being too far away from her made me feel cold, dark, suffocated and lost.Yan Cheng will not.

Walk on the familiar road every day.

I was wondering if she would go away again like she disappeared in my life after knowing everything.How would Wu Jin talk to her, about Yun, about me, about our paradoxical fate.

I was thinking, how many days and nights, how many hours, how many unbearable minutes and seconds she has been living for me, how many days and nights, how many hours, how many days and nights, how many hours, how many unbearable minutes and seconds she has been living because of me, how she loves me so much. .In just one month, I'm broken, what about her?Is there only a precarious breath left in that thin body?

Thinking, thinking.

When I boarded the plane again, I looked back at the sky above Yancheng in the distance.I know that no matter what the outcome is, no matter what decision she makes, I will be like Yan Cheng.

Standing quietly behind her like this, she will be her eternal harbor.

Halfway through, I went to another city.

With a bouquet of white lilies.

Walking around there, trying to understand Yun Yun, I just want to restore her state of mind and find Zheng Xi's way out and relief in her state of mind.

There is one thing I want to say to Yun Ming.

No matter what, please rest assured that I will take good care of her.