in the month you disappeared

Fall and winter are coming soon.The weather is getting cooler.

As I fell asleep at night, suddenly a cold foot touched my leg, which made me shiver.When I woke up in the morning, I realized that Lu Jun had already burrowed into my bed, and his head was still occupying my pillow.

My aunt has just arrived, so I can't move around, so I have to be hugged by her obediently every night.I also found that sleeping together is much warmer, so I don't have any complaints anymore.

But I really didn't know that this scene would be seen by Yun Ming who came to visit me that day.

Lu Jun tilted his head and rested his chin on my shoulder. Both of us were covered tightly. She slept soundly. I just woke up. I opened my eyes and looked at her sleeping face. Her usual indifferent expression is much cuter.Our faces were very close, very close.

I heard the sound of the bag falling to the ground, turned my head to look at the door, and stood there, staring blankly at us.

I threw off the quilt and jumped up. The cold air around me suddenly swept over me. I put on my clothes and chased outside.Lu Jun grabbed me and said coolly, how long are you going to lie to yourself?What's the point of going on like this?

I ignored it, but after chasing it out, I didn't know where I was going.It was to catch up with her, explain that it was a misunderstanding, and then reassure her that everything was as it was, if not better.Still, I told her, let's just leave it at that, I'm just kidding, sorry.

I don't know, I didn't make a decision.

You can't see me, you avoid me.

I went to find Yunqin, and the secretary asked me to wait in her office.From two in the afternoon to seven in the evening.The strange woman is still a bit humane, she drove me back to her house and ordered takeaway for me.

As I gobbled it up, I looked around for traces of Yun Ming.

"Don't look, Yun Yan is not here." Yun Qin gloated at my distraught appearance, while pressing the remote control leisurely, the station changed so fast, it made my eyes sore.

"Where did she go?" I swallowed with difficulty, still looking at her door unwillingly, there was no light there.

Yun Qin suddenly turned his head and stared at me, I looked back without showing weakness.After a while, she sighed and said, "I don't know what the two of you are up to. Sometimes you are inseparable, and sometimes you hate each other. She is upstairs, go find her."

I breathed a sigh of relief and looked upstairs.

"Why didn't you go up again? You left after waiting for so long?" Yun Qin looked at me as I said goodbye and left in confusion.

I nodded and walked out the door.

When I walked to the familiar path when I came here, I couldn't help but look back. Under the moonlight, the warm house, balcony, flowers and plants, and—————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————— looking at me.

"Yuan!" I wanted to take a step and run towards her, but my feet seemed to be glued to the ground tightly and I couldn't move.

Yun Ming trotted towards me and stopped in front of me.

"Why did you come to me?" Her tone was still so gentle, so gentle that I felt ashamed.

"I—" I opened my mouth, but found that I still didn't know what to say. Maybe I wanted to come to her today because I was afraid. By the time I made a decision, she had already left.I am fundamentally a selfish and weak person.

"Shhh—" she covered my mouth with her hand, "Listen to me, you always say it every time, this time, this time listen to me. I, I accidentally read your diary, and those paintings , I’m sorry, but I can’t help it. I knew about Lu Jun’s existence very early on. Although, I am very, very jealous of you guys... that past, but I have thought a lot these days, no matter what , that's just... the past. More importantly, it's the future, isn't it? People always have to look forward. Your attachment to her is just a nostalgia for that period of time. What do you like? , or me? Right?"

When I heard this, I couldn't nod my head immediately. I was stunned. Yun Xuan had forgiven me so generously and confessed to me so affectionately, but I was still indifferent.

Maybe even I can't bear to see my cold-bloodedness anymore, my soul is out of my body, and I hold Yun Xing tightly.

And Lu Jun, like a gust of wind, suddenly appeared in my life, and then disappeared in a flash.If it wasn't for the presence of her breath on the bed, I would have thought all of this was my illusion.

I have the report card of her test, eight a's and two b's.

The school's equipment has been upgraded again. It is said that this is the result of the principal sending out the two places allocated by the Ministry of Education.I don't know, but Lu Jun did not get it.

She didn't explain to me and left the school.

The wound on the neck healed unconsciously.

But in an invisible place, the wound remained permanently, and something else penetrated into it.

On the day of the college entrance examination, my grandparents, uncles, aunts and cousins ​​sent me outside the examination room together. These days, my cousin touched the money turtle he recently raised for me several times, saying that it would be blessed; my mother was on the left side of the school gate I put a talisman from the Confucian Temple in my pocket, and my father gave me a school watch on the right side of the school gate, squeezed my shoulders and beat my back, made me chew gum, drink saliva and spit it out, as if I was going to boxing Like an arena, like a Colosseum!

I saw so many tense and trembling faces among the densely packed thousands of candidates, but at the moment I only feel that I am so happy.

But when I knew that Lu Jun had left the city, this feeling of happiness became as thin as the oxygen on the plateau.

After the college entrance examination, I did not expect to be admitted to one.Not bad results, no big waves.Yun Ming is also very happy, but I am crazy.

I told Yun Yun that I wanted to travel to City S, and she agreed.The two of us went there together, and I asked someone to take a photo for us.At that time, believe me, I really saw Lu Jun's figure, that slender and indifferent figure, passing by in the crowd.

I pushed away Yun Xuan's hand, and chased after the shadow that seemed to exist.

I was lost in many scenes of people, I knew I was crazy, I deliberately suppressed my longing for her after several months of ambiguity and nearly a month of separation—at this moment, this emotion suddenly and without warning burst out.

At this time, he stretched out his hands.hold me.

Lu Jun appeared, she really appeared in front of me.

This time, Yun Ming didn't give me a chance.

Both she and Yunqin left.The original house was sold to a middle-aged man with a fat face, and there was a young plump woman living in it. I often visited it for a while, and that man rarely lived in it.

They really are gone.

……

She drew the design draft day and night, and every time she sent it out, she was sent back as it was.

So I began to secretly recommend this manuscript to the magazine, and went out to do interviews together, and got to know more people.I know her talent, but the world is difficult, and fame and wealth are hard to come by!

When Lu Jun passed out on the ground, I was really terrified!

But at that time, our saddest days have all passed.

I thought that it was mutual friendship that supported us; but the facts later told me that those were not worth mentioning at all.

Everything about her now, so to speak, has nothing to do with me.

She worked hard, she worked hard, she was good to me - I keep saying that to myself over and over again.

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When Zheng Xi woke up, it was already early the next morning.

The house is very spacious, and the room she sleeps faces the sun, and she can see the scenery outside the balcony from the floor-to-ceiling windows.

This is a viewing building.

Below is the coast and muddy sand.The blue water was breaking thin white waves on the beach.

She seemed to be able to hear the slight tremor of the glass when the waves shattered, and the slight sound instantly passed through her spinal cord like an electric current, becoming extremely clear.

Lu Jun told her that he wanted to replace the apartment with such a villa with a view.At that time they were still in the cold war, Zheng Xi said that the apartment was empty enough, and there was no need to change it into a villa to torture her.After saying that, within a few days, Lu Jun went on a business trip.

Wu Jin was sitting on the balcony, flipping through a book and drinking fruit juice.Her life seems to be only two words - leisurely.To live, for the leisure class, is nothing but leisure.

Zheng Xi got up from the bed and raked his hair.The lump on my leg has subsided a lot, and there are still several melted ice packs on the floor.

Wu Jin waved to her through the floor-to-ceiling windows.

"Come blow the sea breeze and clear your mind."

Zheng Xi nodded, "Thank you so much, I feel much better now."

Wu Jin smiled, "Really? That's good."

"What do you think of this house?"

"not bad."

"But this is not my place."

"Then we are renting here?" Zheng Xi said.

"Oh, that's not true. Do you want to play on the beach? It's soft there, and you should be fine if you walk slowly."

Wu Jin and Zheng Xi walked on the beach one after the other.

"You still miss...she still?" She said slowly, feeling the stiffness in Zheng Xi's whole body.

Zheng Xi took a deep breath, "You mean Yun Ming?"

Wu Jin looked playfully at the expression of the person in front of him. People don't know how to cherish and are greedy. It's only when he is in it that he has a different experience—possible choice itself is such a cruel thing.

Zheng Xi nodded, "The things you wrote are about... her, right? When I first read it, I thought the blogger was her."

"No wonder you looked disappointed when you saw me. If you were given another chance to choose between Lu Jun and Yun Yun, who would you choose?"

Zheng Xi was silent for a while, then said, "There is no if."

Wu Jin reached out and patted Zheng Xi's shoulder, and said, "I know, it's hard."

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