if i could love you

The hour hand passed eleven quietly, Li Li turned off the lamp in front of the bed, and said to Jiao Er, "It's getting late, go to bed first. We'll talk about everything tomorrow."

The room suddenly plunged into darkness.Jiaoer adjusted a comfortable posture and lay down in Li Li's arms.After an unknown amount of time, she heard Li Li sigh slightly.

Jiao Er rubbed against Li Li's arms again, and asked in a low voice, "Haven't fallen asleep yet?"

"You didn't fall asleep either?" Li Li rubbed the back of Jiao'er's neck back and forth with his fingers.This kind of familiar intimacy makes Jiao Er feel particularly safe.

"Li Li, read poetry to me! I haven't heard you read poetry to me for a long time." Jiao Er's lips pressed against Li Li's collarbone, and her warm breath sprayed on that fair skin superior.

"Okay." Li Li turned on the small lamp in front of the bed as he spoke.The warm yellow light slowly flows in the corner of the bed, bringing warmth.

"I want to live with you

in a small town

share the endless twilight

and the endless ringing of bells

in the hotel in this small town

The faint sound of an ancient clock

gently dripping like time

sometimes at dusk

From a room on the top floor came the sound of a flute

Piper leaning against the window

And the big tulips in the window

if you don't love me now

i don't care

in the middle of the room

a tiled stove

Each tile is painted with a picture

A heart, a sailboat, a rose

And looking out from our only window

snow, snow, snow

you'll lie in the position i like

lazy, indifferent, indifferent

The screech of a match being lit once or twice

The flame of your cigarette turns from strong to weak

The tip of the smoke trembles, trembles

short gray cigarette butt

You don't even bother to bounce off the ashes

Cigarettes flew into the fire"

Li Li's lines have always been very good, the words are correct and full of emotion.Jiaoer likes to hear her read poems at night the most, her lowered voice is careless and deliberate.Like the moonlight on a cold winter night, it is cold and bright, and it shines into my heart unexpectedly.

This is a poem by a Russian poetess.As soon as Jiaoer closed her eyes, she seemed to see the white snow in the Far East. She and Li Li lived in a small hotel with an Orthodox color.The fire was burning brightly, she and Li Li were sitting on the sofa with thick blankets on their bodies, and they were reading a collection of Chekhov's short stories together.Outside is a foreign world of ice and snow, where no one knows them and no one bothers them.They are like some kind of animals that need to hibernate, living in a warm hotel in a foreign country, waiting for the quiet arrival of spring.

After Li Li finished reading this poem, he closed the collection of poems.She touched Jiao Er's forehead and asked her what she was thinking?

Jiaoer smiled and said, "This poem is really well written! Li Li, why don't we run away too?"

"Where are you going?" Li Li asked.

Jiaoer raised his eyebrows and said, "Russia!"

Li Li nodded and agreed, "Okay! Let's go to Russia. We live in an unknown small hotel and sleep until noon every day. Eat the most authentic local food in the small restaurant downstairs, and then go to the opera house to see Opera. Watch it if you understand it, and sleep in it if you don’t understand it. After the performance is over, it will be dark. Let’s find a tavern to drink and watch a local live performance. When we return to the hotel late at night, the cold wind blows on our faces I'll wrap you up in my overcoat."

"We'll go tomorrow!" Jiao'er's face was full of anticipation, as if he would really fly to Russia at dawn.

Li Li smiled and didn't speak any more, she gently stroked Jiao Er's hair with her hand.Li Li's eyes were still so beautiful, as clear as a lake.Under the warm yellow light, there is a gentle warmth.Jiao Er leaned forward, kissed Li Li's eyes, and then pressed her lips to Li Li's.

It was an irrelevant kiss.The lips of the two were tightly pressed together, and neither of them deepened the kiss, it was just a simple touch of lips.The two seem to have returned to that winter.At that time, they kissed for the first time, recklessly and recklessly.Thinking about it now has countless tastes.

Jiao Er slightly parted her lips, and the tips of their noses were still touching each other intimately.Her mouth opened slightly, "Li Li, are you ready to face the world with me?"

"Jiaojiao, have you really considered it?" Li Li's fingertips caressed Jiaoer's cheek.

Jiaoer nodded solemnly, the vast galaxy lying beneath his eyes.

Li Li searched for Jiao'er's hands under the quilt, and clasped them tightly one after another.

"As long as you don't regret it, I'm not afraid of anything." Li Li kissed Jiao Er's forehead after speaking.

"I have never regretted the five years I was with you. I will not regret it in the future." Jiao Er said.In the multiple-choice questions with you in the options, I choose you; if you are not an option, then I will choose you, even if the world judges me to fail in the end.

When Li Li told her that the two were photographed kissing in the car that night.She immediately called Simon back to ask for details.Simon said that it was a blessing in misfortune to get the news in advance this time, at least he could make public relations preparations in advance.But it is impossible to buy photos from paparazzi.This team has always been difficult to deal with, and their mouths cannot be sealed with money.Simon carefully asked Jiaoer's intention on the other end of the phone.Jiao paused, looked at Li Li beside her, grabbed her hand and held it in his palm, and said word by word, "Then make it public! I never thought of denying this matter."

Although Simon on the other end of the phone had already thought about what Jiao Er would do, he couldn't help but gasped.She smoothed her chest back and forth before saying, "Think about it carefully, and discuss it with Li Li. Let's discuss what to do when you come to the company tomorrow morning."

Simon sighed heavily after hanging up the phone.It would be a lie to say that he has no regrets, but when Simon knows about any issues related to Li Li, Jiao Er will always choose Li Li without hesitation, without any discussion at all.Even if Jiao Er is given ten nights, she will not change her decision.In the past few years, Simon has watched Jiao Er grow up, which is the kind of psychological growth.She is becoming more and more independent and assertive. She will decide on her own what route to take, what role to play, and what kind of movie to make.Simon was rarely needed to make up his mind.Now she is no longer the little girl who has to be by her side in everything.In the past two years, Simon has taken over and started to lead newcomers, but he no longer has the same mood as when he was leading Jiaoer.

When Jiao Er won the best actress for the first time in his life last month, Simon thought it would be a new beginning, but he never expected that this would be the last beautiful curtain of Jiao Er's acting career.

The next morning, when Jiaoer was half asleep and half awake, she habitually searched for that warm embrace, but this time she missed it.She reached out and groped on the bed, Li Li's side was already icy cold.The consciousness that was still chaotic just now woke up immediately. She got up from the bed and ran out of the bedroom without even caring about putting on her shoes.She called Li Li's name, but no one answered her.The living room was empty, and the kitchen and bathroom were empty.

Her legs were suddenly sore, and she didn't even have the strength to stand up.After sitting slumped on the floor for a while, she remembered calling Li Li.She almost crawled into the bedroom, looking for her mobile phone on the bedside.She rummaged through the collection of poems, rubber bands for tying hair, eye drops, and other things that were usually placed by the bedside, but she didn't know where the mobile phone she wanted was hidden.

It's over!Jiao'er became anxious, and his eyes even started to glow with gold stars.She shook her head desperately and kept looking for her phone.Didn't even hear the door open.

"Jiaojiao, what are you doing?"

Jiao Er heard the familiar voice and turned her head suddenly, and saw Li Li standing in front of the bedroom door with a large box of milk in his hand.Then she flew over and hugged Li Li tightly.He clenched his hands into fists and beat Li Li weakly twice, his voice was already crying, "What are you doing? Do you know that you scared me to death!"

Li Li was tightly bound by Jiao Er's arm, unable to move at all.The edges and corners of the milk carton poked on Li Li's soft palm, causing a tingling pain.She couldn't help moving her body and said, "There is no milk at home. I went to the supermarket downstairs to buy a carton of milk. What's wrong with you?"

"I thought... I thought you didn't want me anymore!" Jiao Er still hugged Li Li tightly while talking, refusing to let go.

Li Li used a little bit of strength to push Jiaoer away a little.Looking down at Jiaoer again, her eyes were already red.Li Li couldn't help rubbing Jiao Er's hair, and said distressedly, "Fool, what are you thinking? I just went out to buy a carton of milk!"

"I..." Jiao Er finally realized what she had done, and her face flushed red with embarrassment.

Seeing Jiao Er's appearance, Li Li's heart was already softened beyond belief.She bent down to touch the corner of Jiao Er's lips, but she saw that Jiao Er was still barefoot.She frowned immediately and said, "Go and put on your shoes! What should I do if I catch a cold?"

Only then did Jiaoer feel relieved, and she obediently walked to the bedside to put on her slippers.

"You wash up first, and I'll make breakfast. You go to the company after eating." Li Li closed the door gently after speaking.The moment the door closed, Li Li came back to his senses.A heart seems to have been washed in the spring rain, with a wet warmth.

leave?How could Li Li be willing to leave?She bet her entire career on her own, how could she be willing to let her lose?

After breakfast, Jiao Er was pulled into Li Li's arms before going out.

"Jiaojiao, you really don't regret it?" Li Li whispered in Jiaoer's ear.

Jiaoer turned around, looked into Li Li's eyes and said word by word, "I'll say it again. Listen, Li Li. I haven't regretted it before, nor will I regret it now, nor will I regret it in the future!"

Li Li kissed Jiaoer's forehead, then let go of Jiaoer, and said, "I'll wait for you to come back at home."

After Jiaoer arrived at the company, Wen Xiyang and Simon were already waiting for her in the conference room.Seeing her come in, Wen Xiyang wanted to speak but was interrupted by Jiaoer.

"You don't need to persuade me, my decision is the same as last night, and it will not change." Jiao Er looked ahead with firm eyes.

Wen Xiyang's complexion didn't look so ugly, he crossed his hands on the table, and said slowly, "Jiaoer, things are not as bad as we thought."

Jiao Er frowned, and couldn't help asking, "What does this mean?"

Simon then said, "After learning the news last night, the company contacted the paparazzi as soon as possible. I tried everything, but there was no room for negotiation. But just before you arrived at the company, they They even called to apologize, saying that they had made a mistake. They even sent over the photos they secretly took that day.”

"What?" Jiaoer felt even more baffled.

"I guess someone got involved, probably to protect you. Those who can handle these paparazzi are not ordinary people." Wen Xiyang looked at Jiao Er with inquiring eyes.I didn't know that my niece had such a great ability.

Jiao Er pondered for a moment before saying, "I should know who it is."

When Wen Xiyang and Simon asked who that person was, Jiaoer said that he was just guessing, not sure if it was.After that, the two never asked again.

When Jiao Er returned home, Li Li was sitting on the sofa reading a book.Seeing her come back, he smiled and said, "Are you back? Has everything been resolved?"

Jiaoer nodded, and took advantage of the opportunity to sit beside Li Li.

Li Li put down the book in his hand, and took Jiao Er into his arms, "What do you say, Uncle?"

Jiaoer bit her lower lip, looked up at Li Li and said, "The paparazzi called the company to apologize, and even sent the original photo."

Li Li asked, "Uncle helped you solve it?"

Jiaoer shook his head and said, "No. Uncle negotiated with the paparazzi last night, and it was useless. They called to apologize this morning, and someone should have helped solve it."

"Then that means we Jiaojiao don't need to be unemployed?" Li Li raised his eyebrows, but there was no surprise on his face.

Jiaoer frowned, and asked back, "Aren't you curious about who solved it?"

"Who solved it?" Li Li asked.

"I don't know either." Jiaoer shook his head, watching Li Li's expression while speaking.

Li Li frowned, and said casually, "This is a good thing, don't worry about it so much! Maybe someone wants to be an unsung hero, so don't think so much about it."

"What if it's someone who likes me? Aren't you jealous?" Although Jiaoer asked Li Li like this, she already knew it in her heart.

Li Li muttered in a low voice, "I don't like you, I love you!"

Jiaoer didn't hear clearly, so she couldn't help asking, "What did you say?"

"I said I'm not like you, I'm a jealous person!" Li Li rubbed Jiao Er's hair while talking.

The topic was successfully shifted.

"You're jealous of the jar!" Jiao Er slapped Li Li across the face, but it was useless.

"Don't make trouble," Li Li held Jiaoer's hand and continued, "Iceland visa has been issued."

After hearing this, Jiao Er hugged Li Li's neck joyfully, and said, "Then we can go to Iceland?"

Li Li nodded and kissed the corner of Jiao Er's lips.

Later Jiaoer never mentioned to Li Li who helped them solve the paparazzi issue.After all, there are some secrets that are tacit to everyone.Li Li didn't want to say it, so she naturally didn't ask.

Then, one night at the end of October, Jiao Er was listed as the top trending search item.When I clicked in, I saw her new Weibo. She posted a photo of a green aurora floating in the black night sky, and the text attached was "A love letter from Iceland, please check."The location targeting is Iceland.

Careful fans noticed that there was a blurry back of a girl in this photo. Some said it was Jiao Er, while others said it was not.

Later, a reporter asked Jiaoer face to face who the girl in that photo was, but Jiaoer said mischievously, "Guess".

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