if i could love you

Pingcheng has just entered September, and it has been raining for several days.After the light rain, there is a hint of coolness in the air, and the breath of autumn is getting stronger and stronger.

Jiaoer has received a new script, a new film by literary director Chen Wen, in which she plays a rebellious girl.In order to be more suitable for the role, she cut her hair to the length just past the ears, which neutralized the sweetness of the whole person a lot.

"It's a bit cold today, so I'll wear more when I go to class later." Mama Wen told Jiao Erlin before class.

After hearing this, Jiaoer took out a white shirt from the closet and put it on.

Mother Wen looked at Jiao Er's outfit, a white shirt over a pure white T-shirt, loose straight-leg black jeans, and a pair of black high-top canvas shoes.If you don't look at his face, he is just a young boy.

Jiaoer felt uncomfortable being stared at by Mother Wen, so she couldn't help asking, "What's wrong?"

Mother Wen shook her head with a smile and said, "It's okay. I just think you're dressed like a tomboy today. "

Jiao Er responded with a smile, and left the door without saying a word.

Mother Wen watched Jiao Er walk out of the house, her smile gradually disappeared.She couldn't help sighing, since her daughter came home from the recording of "Passing Passing", she has always been depressed like this.They didn't tell her when they asked her, and they didn't dare to ask, for fear that her daughter would do something stupid in a hurry.But she also knew that if her daughter was allowed to do this again and again, something would happen sooner or later.But she and Papa Wen really have nothing to do.

As soon as Jiaoer opened the car door and saw Simon sitting inside, she couldn't help asking, "Aren't I going to class today? Have a schedule?"

"I don't have anything to do at home. You just started school. I'll see you off." Simon replied.

Jiaoer knew that Simon was worried about her, so she comforted Simon, "What are you giving? I'm going home after class!"

"Don't live in the dormitory anymore?" Simon regretted this sentence as soon as he uttered it. What kind of dormitory should he live in in this situation? !This is which pot is not opened and which pot is lifted!

There was no change on Jiaoer's face, she shook her head and said, "I can't stop. It's very convenient at home."

"By the way, my aunt called me and asked me about your recent affairs. She is very worried about you." Simon said carefully observing Jiaoer's face.

"My mother? Just don't tell her anything. Anyway, I'm going to be filming soon." Jiaoer replied.

"What about coming back from filming? You can't..."

Before Simon finished speaking, Jiaoer interrupted, "Maybe I'll be fine when I come back from filming."

When Jiaoer spoke, there was still a smile on the corner of his mouth, but there was an inexplicable tiredness on the corners of his eyes and eyebrows, as if he was a traveler who had just experienced a long journey.

The two of them arrived at Pingcheng Drama Academy soon after talking, and Jiao Er asked the driver again when she finished class, lest no one would come to pick her up on time.

"Wow! Jiaoer cut her hair short!"

As soon as Jiaoer stepped into the classroom, some classmates immediately noticed her new changes.

Jiaoer stroked her hair embarrassingly, and then said, "New term, new atmosphere!"

She randomly found a place to sit down, and the class started after a while.In the first class of the new semester, Jiao Er forced herself to listen as carefully as possible, even though she could feel a strong gaze on her all the time.After being stared at for a long time, she felt uncomfortable all over.She couldn't help raising her head, and her eyes met Li Li's in the air.

She hadn't seen Li Li's eyes for a long time. It was cold and lonely, like walking on a frozen lake in winter, accidentally stepping on a fragile place and falling into the cold and dark lake.The lake water enters the trachea and lung lobes along the nose and mouth, and the damp and cold also swims along the limbs and bones.It's too bad, she's going to drown in Li Li's eyes.

Jiaoer's heart couldn't help but ache, and she quickly lowered her head again.

This class is not difficult, if you forget the lonely eyes.

After class, Jiaoer lowered his head to pack his things, and suddenly there was a dark shadow in front of his eyes.She raised her head, and Li Li was standing in front of her.She was much more emaciated than before, the blue and white striped shirt seemed to be hanging on her body, and her already fleshless body looked even thinner.

"Why did you cut your hair?" Li Li spoke as if nothing happened.

Jiao Er continued to pack the things with her head down, and replied without raising her head, "To match the new play."

"I……"

"Li Li, I don't think we have a relationship that can talk."

At this time, there were only her and Li Li left in the classroom, and she was planning to leave with her bag.

"So you can't even be friends?" Li Li's mouth curled up with a bit of bitterness.

Jiaoer tried not to look into Li Li's eyes, and refused to answer her questions.

"Why didn't you answer my question?" Li Li took another step closer to her and continued to ask.

Seeing Li Li approaching, she couldn't help taking a step back.At this time, the huge classroom has become extremely cramped, and the surrounding air has become much thinner.Jiao Er felt that it was difficult to breathe, and her heart throbbed again and again.Her only thought at the moment is to escape here as soon as possible.

"I should go. My assistant is still waiting for me outside."

As soon as Jiaoer took a step, he was pulled back unsuspectingly by a force.She bumped into Li Li's arms steadily, and the familiar scent of burning pine branches returned.Li Li's thin clavicle hurt Jiao Er's chin, and she almost burst into tears.

"Jiaojiao, don't go, okay?" Li Li hugged Jiaoer's shoulders tightly, his voice sounded forbearing and suppressed.

"Li Li, we have already broken up." Jiaoer hangs his arms weakly.

"I'm sorry, it's all my fault. Let's not break up, shall we?" Li Li buried his head in Jiao Er's neck, his voice sounded muffled.

Jiao Er bit her lower lip, but still pushed Li Li away.

"It's all over. Stop talking nonsense."

After finishing speaking, Jiao Er didn't even dare to lift her head, so she quickly escaped from the classroom.She didn't dare to look at Li Li's expression, let alone imagine Li Li's expression.She was afraid that if she was soft-hearted, the resolution she had made with great difficulty would be invalidated.

Even after entering the new semester, Jiaoer has become a sophomore.But morning merit still has to come out, this is the rule of Heisei Drama Academy.

Jiaoer, who was sleeping, was awakened by the sound of an alarm, she reached out and fumbled for her phone to turn off the alarm.After the summer, the dawn is late.Jiaoer opened his eyes, but the room was still soaked in ink, so he couldn't see the scene clearly.

She yawned and got into the nanny's car, her eyes were still a touch of blue.

Jiaoer barely managed to get through the morning work, and the next thing was the whole morning class.She went to the bathroom before class and slapped her face with cold water, trying to refresh herself.When I returned to the classroom and sat back in my seat, I found that there was already a cup of coffee on the table.Knowing who bought it without thinking, Jiao Er glanced at Li Li who was sitting in the front row.

Acting theory class was really boring, Jiaoer couldn't help yawning.Glancing at the untouched cup of coffee, she shook her head and focused on the class again.The mellow aroma of coffee slowly flowed in the air, so that a classmate next to him couldn't help but said to Jiaoer, "Your coffee smells so good! Where did you buy it?"

"It's the coffee shop in our school. If you like it, you can drink it. I haven't moved yet." Jiao Er generously handed the cup of coffee to the classmate next to him.

The classmate sitting next to her was flattered, "Isn't that good?"

"It's okay, after I bought it, I don't really want to drink it anymore. You can take it!" Jiaoer smiled with a generous look.

After class, as soon as she got into the nanny car, she received a text message from an unfamiliar number.Jiaoer just glanced at the string of numbers and knew who it was.Even though she deleted her phone number, Jiaoer could easily recite it.What is stored in the mobile phone can be deleted with one click, but how to delete it stored in the brain?

"You don't even drink the coffee I bought?"

Jiaoer glanced at it, then turned off the phone screen.She didn't intend to reply.

But it didn't take long for the second one to follow.

"I'm moving out during this time, you can go back to the dormitory."

"No, I'll be filming next week."

Jiaoer still replied to Li Li's message.

Indeed, Jiao Er did not lie.Jiaoer will join the team next week.In fact, Director Chen Wen gave her ample time to choose.She was eager to join the group so early because she wanted to avoid Li Li.She felt that the two things of time and distance could completely cool down the relationship between two people.

The new movie "" directed by Chen Wen this time tells the story of a rebellious girl. The whole movie tells the story of the heroine He Qi's birthday a few days before, showing that the rebellious girl tried to fight against the world but was defeated. s story.

Jiaoer read the script three times in a row when she got it, and she was deeply obsessed with the story.She thought she understood He Qi.He Qi is a rebellious girl with thorns all over her body, but she never thought of hurting others, she just wanted to use this thorns to protect herself.Jiaoer also had a dream of adventure, but she knew that she was not allowed to be self-willed in this world.Then let He Qi help her realize those dreams that cannot be realized in reality.

At first, Simon was worried that Jiao Er's interpretation of this role would be poor, and Chen Wen was notoriously critical.But later it was proved that these thoughts of Simon were just unfounded worries. Chen Wen admired Jiaoer's performance very much, saying that she was born to eat this bowl of food, and there was a story in her eyes.

After filming several scenes in a row, Jiaoer's face turned pale, and her voice became much weaker.She hasn't had a good meal for a while, and every time she just dips a few grains of rice into her mouth with her chopsticks, she says she's full; when she's not filming, she often sits alone, wondering what she's thinking.Simon worried about her physical and mental condition and dared not leave her for a moment.

Simon regrets accepting such a script for her, although there is no doubt that the film will make Jiao Er's acting career leap forward.But now Jiaoer's mental state makes her feel distressed, and Jiaoer, who has not yet come out of her emotional trauma, has entered another girl's painful growth experience.Simon has been unable to guess whether Jiaoer's current appearance is caused by love, or too deep into the drama, or both.

Jiaoer had a fever in the middle of the night, she managed to pull herself together and found the antipyretic medicine from the suitcase, and then swallowed it with a glass of cool white.She thought she would get better after taking the medicine and sleeping.

How did she know that when Simon went to wake her up in the morning, she had already had a high fever of 40 degrees.She was dazed with fever, and all she could remember was that Simon was on the phone constantly, and there were many noisy voices in her ears.When she woke up again, she was already in the hospital.

"Are you feeling better? Do you want to eat?" Simon asked immediately when she woke up.

"I'm not hungry." Jiao Er opened and closed her bloodless lips, but her voice was very weak.

"The crew, don't worry. I've asked you to take a leave of absence. What's more," Simon paused before saying, "Auntie knows this time, she bought a plane ticket and wants to fly over to see you."

When Jiaoer heard this, she immediately became anxious, "How can you tell my mother?"

Simon held Jiao Er's shoulders that were about to get up, and quickly comforted him, "Don't worry. Listen to my explanation. Before I came to film this time, my aunt told me that you should tell her if you have any problems. I can't help it. "

Jiaoer closed it helplessly, she didn't have much energy to argue with Simon now.

When Jiaoer woke up, the high fever had subsided.She could only lie down for a long time before thinking about going back to the hotel. It is indeed a lot of inconvenience for a public figure to be in such a public place.Simon also agreed to her, packed up his things with his assistant and took her back to the hotel.

When Simon asked Jiaoer for leave, director Chen Wen was very straightforward and gave Jiaoer a three-day vacation, saying it was for her to have a good rest.After returning to the hotel, Jiao Er felt weak in body and dizzy in mind.Not long after she lay in bed, she fell asleep again.

This sleep was not stable, and the fragmented dream cut Jiao Er's complete sleep.At this time, the consciousness controlled during waking is like a runaway horse sneaking into Jiao Er's dream, and everything about Li Li appears in the dream.

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